A/N: Again, thanks to my reviewers. I was pleased to see my total blow out from 16 reviews at Chapter 3 to 26 at Chapter 4 and I am thrilled to bits that you're enjoying the story and my writing style. I've decided I'll only post the names of anyone who hasn't reviewed before. This time they were Legs, VB, beanz and codered05. Thankyou very much and I look forward to hearing what you think of this chapter.
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The Princess Diaries, It's All Becoming Clear!
Thursday, June 5, The Loft.
Why bother with an intro. This is what happened last night.
MM: Hey, what is it?
Michael climbed through my window.
Me: I need to talk about what happened today.
MM: What do you mean?
Me: In the limo. I've been thinking about our conversation all day.
MM: What about it?
Michael and I were sitting on my bed at this point.
Me: Sex.
MM: ...Okay.
Michael's expression turned from questioning to worried at the mention of sex.
Me: I think it's great that you are willing to wait for me, but I'm just a little insecure about a couple little details.
MM: Like what?
Me: We have never discussed sex before, have we? We've been going out for half a year and we have never discussed it. I think I'd be fooling myself if I said I hadn't thought about it. And you said you have, and yet nothing. And now I know you want to and I know I want to as well one day. But, as you said, I'm way too young and I gotta know one thing.
MM: You want to know if I'm ready?
Damn Michael always seems to know what I'm thinking.
Me: Yes.
Michael looked down to the ground and pondered his answer. Then he looked up and put his hand on my cheek, cupping my face.
MM: Mia, my feelings are miles ahead in our relationship. I love you so much and when we're alone, it is getting harder for me to stop myself from going further with you. I've wanted you ever since you came into my life. For a long time, you were everywhere and all the times I spent with you, my feelings for you just grew. I mean it wasn't just attraction, it was the fact that you could bring about the most bizarre perceptions on life or even just when you included me in something with Lilly. These little things were like ties, showing me what made you special and reminded me of why I wanted you. So when we finally got together, it was like we had already gone past all of these steps. We didn't have to get to know each other, we had already seen so much of each other and we were friends too. The only step we really had to take was finally giving in to what we felt for each other and allowing that to be communicated. Or in terms more commonly understood by people our age, we started making out.
Michael grinned at that point and planted a quick kiss onto my lips.
Me: But what does that have to do with you being ready or not?
MM: It has everything to do with it because we've practically been going out for six months. That and I'm headed off to college. And I'm feeling all the emotions. I feel scared about what next year will mean for us, about what your princess status will grow into and basically all of those things we have against us that don't matter as long as we stick together.
Me: You're ready?
MM: I might be
Michael said this with regret at this point. I think he expected me to be upset with him, but I did have one more question.
Me: How long have you been holding back with me?
MM: Maybe ever since I met you.
Me: But you hold back?
MM: Yeah, always
Me: You won't always hold back Michael.
MM: I won't?
Me: No. Because I'm telling you right now you won't have to wait for long.
At this point I kissed him, an extremely deep kiss that almost made me feel light-headed. I was literally floating in the air, or I was until Michael pulled away.
MM: Yes I will have to wait a while.
Me: What?
Michael got off my bed and kneeled down in front of me. Then he took both of my hands and kissed them.
MM: Mia, I don't want you to ever feel you need to go anywhere you don't want to go because you feel I want you too.
Me: What?
I was confused with what Michael was saying, resulting in my one word answers.
MM: I don't want you to think that just cause I'm going to college next semester that you need to do anything your not ready for. I know how much you love me and how much you want to make me happy. But I also have your best interests at heart and there is one thing I know.
Me: And what's that.
MM: You won't be ready to have sex for a while because even if we feel like we've been together long enough, that we love each other more than life itself, it doesn't change the fact that you're 15 years old. And I won't take advantage of that.
Me: You know you sound like my father right now. Telling me what to do, how I feel, informing me of my age. I know all this. But Michael, I may be ready to go further very soon and that will be despite all of that. It will be because when I'm with you, there isn't one thing in this entire world that can make me feel the way I feel when I'm with you. And no words known to man will be able to communicate it.
MM: That's what I'm scared of.
Me: Scared that I love you so much?
MM: Scared of what will happen next. You could fall pregnant at 15, 16,17,18. That's what I'm scared of cause not only are you a young girl, but you're a princess and heir to the throne of a country. It is so important that something like that doesn't happen to you.
I didn't respond at first and Michael got off the floor and sat next to me again.
Me: I guess things are just a little more complicated for us.
Michael turned my head to him and we kissed again, then we stopped abruptly.
MM: They always are.
Then Michael got up and walked over to the window. Just as he was pushing the window up, I stopped him.
Me: Does your parents know you're gone?
MM: No, I sneaked out.
Me: Cause I want you to stay with me tonight.
I didn't expect myself to say that. I was thinking it, but I didn't think I had the courage to say it.
MM: Mia, we can't.
Me: Not that, I just don't want to be alone and we can go to school together.
MM: Won't your mum freak if she knew I was here.
Me: Yeah, that's why I'll just tell Lars and I won't go out there tonight. I'll call Lilly and explain to her that I'm upset and that I want you to stay. She'll clear it all with your parents and bring you some clothes for tomorrow.
MM: Are you sure about this.
Me: I'd stake my life on it.
MM: Alright, I'll stay. But you do realise you're dealing with Lilly. She's going to think otherwise of what we're doing.
Me: I'll make sure she realises we're not.
Right now, I'm sitting up in my bed and Michael is asleep next to me. He looks so peaceful when he sleeps. I really want to go to sleep and hold onto him now so I gotta leave it here.
But right now I feel very self-actualised. And very tir...
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