Well this is an angst fic... well it's gunna be a TyTa in the end but it starts with a one-sided TyKa (sorry TyKa fan's I wanna write a TyTa) I might also write a TyRa later, but right now we need a lot more TyTa's so here goes...
Tala: ^_^
Kai: _
Tyson: ?
KhaosOne: uhm...PIE!
Disclaimer: I don't own beyblade okay?!?!?!?
Warnings: Suicidal tendencies, Yaoi [Mainly TyTa, a tiny bit of one-sided TyKa]
( blah ) = Song
"blah" = talking
'blah' = thinking when not in first-person
Special Thanks to my new beta-reader: Fallen1
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With this Knife
Created By KhaosOne
Song Used – Smile Empty Soul – With this Knife
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~* Tyson's P.O.V. *~
( I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down )
The tears are coming down harder now, as I'm running into the cold snow. But I don't give a fuck.
I've been living a lie, my pace is slowing as my breathing gets less and less frequent.
( I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down )
I was running in no general direction, I just ran...as far a way as possible. I hate my life I never should have given into the ecstasy (A/N: NO, he doesn't take drugs ecstasy is also an overwhelming feeling) of it all.
( no matter how I try I don't know
why
you push so far away )
I evidently slowed my pace when I knew I was all alone in the bridge I was standing over now, I was happy for that, I didn't feel like being bothered right now.
My tears fall further and harder then before. I should have never tried to talk to him, to treat him as a friend, to even ask him. Now they will probably exclude me.
( you wrapped your hands tight around my heart
and squeezed it full of pain )
There is nothing worse then having your heart crushed before your eyes. I slump down against the wall still letting the tears fall, now sitting down.
Looking up at the sky, I watch the snow slowly fall down onto my face, melting once it actually touches.
( with this knife I'll cut out the
part of me
the part that cares for you )
"I was really hoping I wouldn't half to do this" I said to no one pulling out what I had kept in my pocket. I wasn't expecting to, even if I was rejected just normally, but what he did to, just drove me to it.
I look up at the sky one last time, the deep shade of gray, it match's my mood perfectly.
( with this knife I'll cut out the heart of me
the heart that cares for you )
I let my hair drop down in front of my face, in an attempt to hide my tears from the world, even if I am the only one sitting here on the snow.
My breathing is starting to get more rapid, I feel like I am a million shards of glass, scattered on the floor.
( I can't believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain )
I was blind I couldn't see it that deep down he truly did hate me. Felt I was a scourge to humanity.
I was starting to laugh hysterically now, get a hold of yourself! I shouted, trying to keep myself together.
( coming in a million broken miles
like poison in my veins )
I got up slowly, and headed towards the edge of the bridge knife still in hand, I slowly walk over to the edge, letting the cool breeze hit my face blowing my hair in the wind.
If anyone saw me right now they would think im a psychopath, I have a dark smile on my face with my eyes staring into nothing.
( with this knife I'll cut out the
part of me
the part that cares for you )
I'm feeling as am I ready, ready to embrace death. If I can't stop thinking of you I'll just have to get you out of my system the hard way.
The smile grew wider, I think I lost my sanity, I begin to lift the knife in my hand, slowly drawing blood from the palm to take in the adrenaline.
( with this knife I'll cut out the heart of me
the heart that cares for you )
Eventually getting to the wrist, slowly drawing a little blood, I can feel the coppery taste in my mouth(1).
And right now, I'd have to say it's the best sensation possible.
( the hate and the fear )
And finally with one swift slice it was all over, spilling out I took it on the other wrist with all the power I had left. I closed my eyes, I was ready for it all.
~*~*~ (2)
"Mrs.Kinomiya it's a boy" The doctor said
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"What's a Beyblade?" I asked questionably
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"Hey I'm Max!" He said~*~*~
"The bladebreakers have just won the world championships!"
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I opened my eyes slowly, was I dead? I didn't feel dead, I sure felt in exceeding pain, I shouldn't be feeling this much physical pain.
I shifted a little when I heard a door open a little. Where was I? It looked like a hospital but the walls were made of stone, that you could see, not some white shit.
( the
nightmares that wake me up
in the tears )
My wrists they were bandaged up. After three minutes of looking into nothing I recognized that someone had actually entered the room.
I looked over to my right to see...
"Tala? What are you doing here, where are we?" I began asked him
"You had cut yourself, I found you on the bridge and brought you back here." He responded, I understand when he said here I was at the Bolkov(3) abby.
( the nightmares and (the hate)... )
I was beginning to wonder why he had brought me here. I was about to ask when he did the unexpected... he had kissed me. I didn't respond I couldn't, I thought I loved Kai but this felt so much better inside.
I didn't understand it, he pulled away when I made no response, he then looked at the ground.
I was silent, still unable to move, when I came to my senses I held his chin up and this time I started to passionately kiss him back.
After breaking for air he finally said
"Aishiteru" he said slowly
"I love you to" I said with the last of my breath before I blacked out from the bleeding I had been doing
I guess that knife had carved him out of my system, for now I feel truly happy.
~* Owari *~
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Well didja' like it? I might add a sequel to it if people like it, sure it was mainly Tyson angst but heh, at least I ended it happy.
(1)- When blood usally comes out from anyplace it will also come out of your mouth
(2)- In any way of death you see flashbacks of your life
(3)- Is that how you spell it? I have no fucking clue
Anyways read and review! Please?