I never meant to…
Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me, unfortunately!!!
A/n: This is a story really close to home for me, so I'd be pleased if no one flamed, as its kind of well its based on what's happened to me, I was advised to do this by my psychotherapist and so I've used characters I like.
23rd November 2002
Dear Hermione
I know you said you didn't want me to worry, but I do! Look Hermione, I've known you since our first year, you are one of my best friends, and I'm bound to worry because I can see what you're doing to yourself. You may not have noticed, but I have and others are bound to sooner or later.
I know you don't want me to interfere, but I have to. I've noticed your eating hasn't improved since my last letter to you. Instead of the odd day that your starving yourself, its gone up to two now. You also seem to go to the toilet a lot after dinner. I don't know what your doing in there, an I don't think I want to but, I guess your probably making yourself sick. I may be wrong, and I hope to God I am, but I have a funny feeling I'm not too far from the truth!
If I am right you have to tell me Hermione. You know you can trust me, and if you want to keep it between us, then we will. There is no need to tell Harry if you don't want to, but please just talk to me. I hope you hear my pleas; you'll probably ignore them because you're so stubborn, but please let me help. That's all I want to do, I don't want you to hurt yourself and everyone around you who cares.
You don't even have to admit you have a problem, even though I think you do, just talk about your feelings, and what's happening to you. Just you and me, no Harry, no Ginny, no anybody. Just YOU, and ME. How about it Hermione, do you think you can trust me enough to tell me how you feel and let me into your way of thinking. I hope you feel you can trust me; otherwise I'm not sure what our friendship has been built on.
Just remember my offer Hermione, and please accept it!
All my love
Ron
24th November 2002
Dear Ron
Fine, I'll talk to you about things, but let me tell you one thing Ronald Weasley; I do NOT have a problem. You understand me, no problem, not me I don't suffer from anything!
I take it from your last letter; you've been watching me eat. I do not appreciate that; I dislike my every move being watched. As I've said before, I've been busy with studying, so I have an excuse for not eating, and as for my trips to the toilets after meals, it's definitely NOT what you think. I am not making myself sick, that's such a stupid idea, and I don't know where you've come up with that theory. Let me get one thing straight for you, I am not making myself sick, and I am not, as you like to put it, 'starving myself'' Now we have al that straight, you can stop going on about all this rubbish on eating disorders.
Ok I admit to you that I would like to loose some weight, but there is no way I'd go to those lengths. I mean come on Ron, I'm the smartest witch in our year, and I have a lot to live up to. I'm a muggle born, who is beating many pure bloods by a mile in all our classes. I have a lot to live up to. I have many things to prove to people and I can't let down those who believe in me. I don't know weather you can understand this.
However you think that you have to live up to the expectations set by your brothers, I know you feel as though your in their shadow. I feel that maybe because of this you might be able to understand me. I have to live up to those expectations set to by my parents, the professors and most of all my friends.
Do you think I'd ruin my chance to show everyone what Hermione Granger is made of just because I'd like to be thin. I'm not like that Ron. I'd thought you knew me better than that.
Oh and by the way Ron, don't you ever try to bribe me to tell you things by using that whole trust thing being the base of our friendship. It may have worked this time, but I can promise you it won't next time.
All my love
Hermione.
A/n: Please read and review, please no flamers, I understand it may be bad, but as I said before really close to home. Hopefully Hermione's reply will be better as well I know more about that.