I never meant to…
Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me, unfortunately!!!
A/n: This is a story really close to home for me, so I'd be pleased if no one flamed, as its kind of well its based on what's happened to me, I was advised to do this by my psychotherapist and so I've used characters I like.
I'd also like to thank all the people who have reviewed and said such encouraging thing. This story is going to go on for quite a while as it's really hard to admit you have a problem, and a very tough process to go through to get back to normal again.
30th November 2002
Dear Hermione
I've been thinking over your last letter for a while now, and I have something to telll you. You're a smart, level-headed witch, but unfortunately for you, and me, I don't believe you. That has to be one of the hardest things I've ever said, or in this case wrote.
I don't believe that your doing this by 'accident'. There's a purpose behind you starving yourself, and your little trips to the toilets. Hermione you are not a girl to do things lightly, or 'by accident'. It is quite easy to believe that you would put work over eating, but not for this long. You have a ulterior motive to this, and I'd bet all my family's money that its because you want to become thinner than you already are!
I know you won't admit that I'm right here, and that your wrong, but I want you to know that I've figured it out. I know what your doing. You can lie to me all you want, but I know the truth Hermione. somewhere deep deep down inside of you, you know I'm right, you just can't bare to admit it.
Do you know why that is? Its because you've become attached to a disease, that you cant bare to let go off. You've become attached to your visits to the toilet, you've become attached to going without food for days. Your addicted to it Hermione, and you need help to get past that addiction.
Why can't you see it Hermione, its controlling your life, and most of all YOU!!!
I know you told me to stop watching what you eat, but I can't. I suppose its become a habit, a bit like what your doing, right Hermione? I saw you today at all three of our meals, not once did I see you put one piece of food in your mouth let alone touch your knife and fork. From my calculations, that's four days in a row. My, my Hermione, you certainly have this under control. I mean your upping your days without eating. It started with one day, then two, then three and now its gone up to four.
When is it going to stop Hermione? When are you going to realise what you doing to yourself? Sooner or later I'm not going to be the only one noticing, and trying to help.
That's all I'm doing Hermione TRYING to help, but you keep pushing me away.
Come on Hermione you have a problem, maybe you can't see it, but I can. Open your eyes wide enough and you will soon see what I mean. Please Hermione admit you have a problem, once you do people can start to help you.
Please Hermione, I beg you, please get some help.
All my love
Ron
A/n: Please read and review, please no flamers, I understand it may be bad, but as I said before really close to home. Hopefully Hermione's reply will be coming soon, but I have lots of revision work to do for my GCSE mocks.