I never meant to…
Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me, unfortunately!!!
A/n: This is a story really close to home for me, so I'd be pleased if no one flamed, as its kind of well its based on what's happened to me, I was advised to do this by my psychotherapist and so I've used characters I like.
I'd also like to thank all the people who have reviewed and said such encouraging thing. This story is going to go on for quite a while as it's really hard to admit you have a problem, and a very tough process to go through to get back to normal again.
1st December 2002
Dear Ron
You've been hassling me for ages about my eating, as you like to call them 'problems', so I've decided to let you into a little secret of mine. I mean whom can I trust if not one of my best friends.
Now this little of secret of mine, I have to confess, that you have already worked it out. I am trying to lose weight, and hence why I am not eating and make little visits to the toilet!
I don't supposed your shocked at, this. You've been telling me all about it giving me lectures on for such a long time now. Now I've told you my secret there is one condition!
You can't tell anyone about my confession. Nobody, not Harry, not Ginny, no teachers, nobody! You understand me Ron Weasley! If I found out you've breathed one word of this to anyone, I will hunt you down and kill you!
You can't tell anyone. It's mine and your little secret!
I am so sorry I've been lying to you Ron, but I knew that if I told you, you would try and stop me. You cant anymore though, because if you do I wont talk to you.
I don't mean to get nasty but, now that you know, please don't interfere in things that are none of your concern I know you mean well and everything, but please, well please don't get too involved. I don't want to hurt you or anybody else more than I have to.
Do you understand how hard this letter is to write to you? I haven't decided weather I'm going to send this, but if you do receive it, then you'll know that I managed to pluck up the courage and give it to you.
Now, I don't want you to get mad at me for having lied to you for a long time, and I also don't want any pity. Remember I'm doing this for my own good, I don't want to hurt you, or break our friendship, but if you come between me and this I will not talk to you.
Before you jump to any conclusions that I am admitting to a problem that I do NOT have, then you are mistaken. I am just explaining to you my answers to those many questions you have asked before.
Oh and remember Ron I'm trusting you with this secret, after the many times you've pestered me and promised to keep it safe if I told you, well I have, and hope you'll stick to your promise
I hope I can trust you Ron, 'otherwise I'm not sure what our friendship has been built on.'
All my love
Hermione
P.S. I trust you Ron!
A/n: Please read and review, please no flamers, I understand it may be bad, but as I said before really close to home. Hopefully Hermione's reply will be better as well I know more about that.