I never meant to…
Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me, unfortunately!!!
A/n: This is a story really close to home for me, so I'd be pleased if no one flamed, as its kind of well its based on what's happened to me, I was advised to do this by my psychotherapist and so I've used characters I like.
I'd also like to thank all the people who have reviewed and said such encouraging thing. This story is going to go on for quite a while as it's really hard to admit you have a problem, and a very tough process to go through to get back to normal again.
Now I have to thank Herbie and Maleandria for there kind reviews, and also everyone else who has been so kind about this story.
14th December 2002
Dear Hermione
I am so proud of you! I can't believe that you have actually come out and said the proper reason you are doing this to yourself, instead of lying to me. At least now that you have admitted this, you might be on your way to conquering this illness, and getting back to your normal self!
The next thing you need to do, is admit you have a problem. Don't worry, I promise I won't pressure you into admitting you have a problem, even though I think, no lets change that, I know you do. Lets not get into that at the moment though. Anyway, I promise I will at least TRY not to pressure you into admitting something you don't want to. Can I just remind you that I said try, if I happen to do it by accident please don't go mad at mean, I mean well I really do! Just do me a favour, remember that once you admit this problem, you can start to recover from this!
Now I've promised to try and not pressure on you into admitting you have a problem, but I didn't promise not to lecture you, at least give me that! All I'm going to say is that 5 days without something to eat is not healthy! You really aren't doing any good to your body, look at yourself, take a good long look in a mirror and see what you've done to yourself!
By Friday, you were pale and looking gaunt, you looked so ill, and I wasn't the only one to notice it. Didn't you hear Harry and Ginny repeatedly ask if you were ok? Even McGonagall looked worried when she saw you walk through the classroom door. If your not careful Hermione you're going to collapse, or end up being sent to the hospital wing. Either way, some day soon you're going to end up answering Madame Pomfrey, or worst, McGonagall! I mean to me both of those choices would be just hell!
All I'm saying Hermione, if you want to continue starving yourself, an I hope to God you don't, but if you insist on doing it then you need to look after yourself, or I won't be the only one lecturing you on your habits.
I also have to say thank you Hermione!
Before you ask why I'm thanking you, its because you let me in. You've shown me, that you trust me, and that is the best thing I could ever have asked for! You have to remember one thing, now that you've let me in, I won't let you push me out again easily.
You've got me forever now, because I'm not going anywhere, I promise you that!
I promise Hermione, I'm not going anywhere, and I'm not going to let you go through this alone!
All my love
Ron
A/n: Please read and review, please no flamers, I understand it may be bad, but as I said before really close to home. A teacher will get involved soon, but there's still quite a few chapters to come before that.