I never meant to…

Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me, unfortunately!!!

A/n: This is a story really close to home for me, so I'd be pleased if no one flamed, as its kind of well its based on what's happened to me, I was advised to do this by my psychotherapist and so I've used characters I like.

I'd also like to thank all the people who have reviewed and said such encouraging thing. This story is going to go on for quite a while as it's really hard to admit you have a problem, and a very tough process to go through to get back to normal again.

Now I have to thank Herbie and Maleandria for their kind reviews, and also everyone else who has been so kind about this story.

I'm sorry this chapter took so long to upload, I've been completely stressed out with my mock G.C.S.Es, which started on Monday, and there have also been some complications. I'll try and post the next chapter as soon as possible.

19th December 2002

Dear Ron

You have to be one of the best friends I know, your last letter made me cry, but that maybe just because I'm very emotional with the whole not eating thing.

I've already told you I'm not going to admit to a problem that I don't have! I don't want to ruin my good mood by talking about this, but I do have something really good to tell you. I lost 5lbs in 5 days, and you wonder why I don't eat when I can lose a pound a day. I know you wont be happy about that, but I am, so don't rain on my parade.

I took your advice, you know the whole 'take a good long look in the mirror', I did that and you want to know what I saw. I saw me, you say I don't need to lose weight, but when I saw the reflection of myself, I knew you were lying to me. I know your lying to me Ron, your just trying to make me feel better about myself, but it doesn't. I'm not stupid Ron, your hoping that if you say I'm not fat then I might start to believe you, but that's not going to happen. I took a long look in the mirror and I saw myself for what I really am! I'm short and fat, and need to lose a good 2 stone.

I won't be here for Christmas, mom and dad have told me I need to go home. We're holding the annual Granger Christmas meal this year at house so that will be fun. At least being away means you can't watch my every move anymore.

You know how you said that if I was going to do this then I had to look after my body, well I agree and that's why I'm thinking of taking up running. I mean it won't be hard, I could take a good long run around the grounds every day, and it would keep me fit after all. What do you think? You could even come with me and keep me company. Anyway think about it, I'll wait for your answer during the holidays.

I have to finish this letter now, I have to go now, the carriages will be arriving in a few minutes to take us to Hogsmeade Station, I hope you find this note, I couldn't think of anywhere else to put apart from under your pillow

Before I go though I just want to say thank you to you, you shouldn't have thanked me in your last letter, there was no need for it, but I have to thank you.

I have to thank you for being one of the best friends I could ever hope for, like I said before. You really are one in a million, and I don't know what I'd do without you, actually yes I do, I'd probably be able to get on with this, without you interfering. All joking aside though, you really are one of the best, and if I ever do try to push you away, its good to know that you'll keep coming back.

All my love

Hermione

 A/n: Please read and review, please no flamers, I understand it may be bad, but as I said before really close to home. A teacher will get involved soon, but there are still quite a few chapters to come before that.