I never meant to…
Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me, unfortunately!!!
A/n: This is a story really close to home for me, so I'd be pleased if no one flamed, as its kind of well its based on what's happened to me, I was advised to do this by my psychotherapist and so I've used characters I like.
I'd also like to thank all the people who have reviewed and said such encouraging thing. This story is going to go on for quite a while as it's really hard to admit you have a problem, and a very tough process to go through to get back to normal again.
Now I have to thank Herbie and everyone else for there kind reviews.
24th December 2002
Dear Hermione
Sorry its took so long for me to write back, but I've been involved in a few to many snowball fights, I wish you were here with us, you would have had so much fun, but I' sure your having a great time at home with all your family.
I'm so sorry about the whole 'take a look in the mirror' I should never have said it. I feel so guilty, was that what made you go for the five days, if so I am unbelievably sorry. I never meant it like that, not literally. I was trying to get you to see what I could, but it obviously didn't work. I don't think I could possibly express how sorry I am.
Just listen to me Hermione, what you saw in that mirror, was not you, it was a distorted image. This is what arises when you develop a problem that gets out of hand. What you saw Hermione, is not why I do. I see a thin and pale girl, and since when have you been short, ok your not as tall as me, but then not many are, but your not fat. I don't know how many times I'm going to have to say that to you, until you realise that its true. It just won't register in your head that maybe your not what you think you are!
Now before you go into the whole 'I'm not going to admit I have a problem, when I don't have one' rant, you tend to go into during these letters, I would just like to state that throughout this letter I haven't tried to persuade you to admit to anything. Sorry, I just had to get that in before you had a little go at me like before.
Oh by the way Hermione, you know the whole 5lbs weight loss. That is not healthy, no way is that healthy. You're only supposed to lose 2 or 3lbs a week, not 1lb a day. You do realise that once you begin to eat again, all that weight will go straight back on. It's not a healthy way to lose weight at all. Losing 5lbs in 5 day is just stupid. When are you going to realise that? Oh I know when it's too late to do anything to help you!
The whole running around the school grounds is a good idea though. At least I still know that your brains are still working. Count me in, I could do with some exercise myself, but promise me you won't go overboard with it. I had hoped that you would say you'd stop all this nonsense instead of coming up with an alternative to carry on with it. Though if I am with you I can keep an eye on you.
I have to go in a minute the twins are preparing a snowball fight, those two versus Harry and me. They've been hoping to get Snape with a snowball, but it seems he won't leave the castle, unfortunately.
Happy Christmas for tomorrow, in the enclosed parcel you will find your present, Harry's sending his separately, because I doubt Pig could carry them both he has enough trouble with mine. I'm not sure when this will get to you, as I've said before I'm entrusting Pig with this, so have a great Christmas, and write soon.
All my love
Ron
P.S. Harry says hi, wish us good luck in the snowball fight.
A/n: Please read and review, please no flamers, I understand it may be bad, but as I said before really close to home. A teacher will get involved soon, but there are still quite a few chapters to come before that.