Part 1: Are Memories Suppose to Hurt This Bad?
" Are wu still awake?"
At the sound of Lori's voice, Jess Mariano quickly sat up. "Yeah I'm
up...can I get you somethin?" He was still half asleep obviously.
"I can't sweep" The 5 year old whinned.
"Oh ok...come over here and lay down and tell me what's up..."
She came over and layed down beside him...but as soon as she layed down
she fell fast asleep causing Jess to smile at her. He admired her
features. "She looks so much like..... Stop it Mariano...just stop
it...." But he couldn't help it...a dam of memories broke, flooding into
his mind......he remembered the first time that he met Rory.He couldn't
believe the beauty his eyes had befallen upon. He knew he was in love
with her right then.
* * *
"hey!"
"hey.."
"i'm rory."
"yeah i figured"
"nice to meet you."
"Wow aren't we hooked on phonics."
" yeah I read alot. do you read?"
"not much."
"ya know I could loan ya that. it's really good."
"no thanks."
* * *
"you bought a copy?? I told you I'd lend you mine!"
"It is yours."
"you stole my book...."
"no. borrowed it..."
"ok that's not called a trick that's a feliny."
"I just wanted to put some notes in the margins for ya."
"you've read this before..."
"about 40 times...."
"I thought you said you didn't read much..."
"Well...what is 'much'?
* * *
"Are you still with dean?.....come on Rory Yes or No are you still with
dean!"
"Yes! I'm still with Dean, Yes."
"Glad to hear it."
"Glad to tell ya."
"See ya around."
"Whatever."
* * *
"He was right about......all of it......"
"So....what now...??"
" are you definitely broken up with Dean?"
"Yeah I'm definitely broken up with Dean...."
"Ok...there's something I got to take care of then...."
* * *
Jess couldn't help but think how badly he must have hurt Rory the night
that he just left her. What was he thinking....yeah...she had hurt
him....but...that was no reason to leave her.... They could have worked
it out....." you should have let her give you an explanation!!! You're
such an
idiot!" Jess realized he was talking outloud and Lori was sound asleep
next to him, he decided to go take a walk. He got up, got dressed, and
walked out the door.....and of course...his feet lead him straight to the
bridge,the Stars Hollow bridge where he and Rory used to spend their
afternoons and evenings together. He had overreacted and he knew it....he
wanted to kill himself.....if only this bridge stood a little higher from
the ground....he could just........... jump.......and end his
misery......but....alas he thought of Lori.....he couldn't just leave
her....abandon her..... " Lori mimicks her mother's appearance to a
perfect point!! Was she here just to torment me?!? To be my reminder
every single day of what I had done!!!!????!!!!! A mini Rory!!??!!" Jess
found himself yelling and screaming at the top of his lungs and then he
fell
to his knees pleading with God to let the love of his life come out of
this terrible coma she was put in. Luke, just like most of the town,
heard Jess and went to him telling his wife Lorelai, who could sleep
through a hurricane, where he was going......"Jess?...Jess? Is that you?"
Luke asked into the dark only hearing whimpering...then he saw a dark
figure who's shoulder's were shaking
violently. "Jess...." As soon as he said his name this last time Jess got
up and ran to Luke and just hugged him crying his heart out. Jess didn't
cry much...but this had been building up inside of him for so long....he
just....couldn't keep it in any longer. Luke comforted his nephew. He had
been angry with him for hurting Rory but then he saw how sorry Jess was
and just could't be angry with him anymore. After about 20 minutes of
crying Jess stepped out of Luke's arms and Jess just looked at him.
Jess's face was read and his eyes were puffy, tears were dancing in his
eyes willing themselves to fall. And then Jess spoke with a shaky
voice."Luke...why do memories have to hurt so much?? I loved her
Luke....I LOVE her...." And Jess continued to cry and Luke pulled him
back into a hug and Jess cried into his shoulder once again.
" Are wu still awake?"
At the sound of Lori's voice, Jess Mariano quickly sat up. "Yeah I'm
up...can I get you somethin?" He was still half asleep obviously.
"I can't sweep" The 5 year old whinned.
"Oh ok...come over here and lay down and tell me what's up..."
She came over and layed down beside him...but as soon as she layed down
she fell fast asleep causing Jess to smile at her. He admired her
features. "She looks so much like..... Stop it Mariano...just stop
it...." But he couldn't help it...a dam of memories broke, flooding into
his mind......he remembered the first time that he met Rory.He couldn't
believe the beauty his eyes had befallen upon. He knew he was in love
with her right then.
* * *
"hey!"
"hey.."
"i'm rory."
"yeah i figured"
"nice to meet you."
"Wow aren't we hooked on phonics."
" yeah I read alot. do you read?"
"not much."
"ya know I could loan ya that. it's really good."
"no thanks."
* * *
"you bought a copy?? I told you I'd lend you mine!"
"It is yours."
"you stole my book...."
"no. borrowed it..."
"ok that's not called a trick that's a feliny."
"I just wanted to put some notes in the margins for ya."
"you've read this before..."
"about 40 times...."
"I thought you said you didn't read much..."
"Well...what is 'much'?
* * *
"Are you still with dean?.....come on Rory Yes or No are you still with
dean!"
"Yes! I'm still with Dean, Yes."
"Glad to hear it."
"Glad to tell ya."
"See ya around."
"Whatever."
* * *
"He was right about......all of it......"
"So....what now...??"
" are you definitely broken up with Dean?"
"Yeah I'm definitely broken up with Dean...."
"Ok...there's something I got to take care of then...."
* * *
Jess couldn't help but think how badly he must have hurt Rory the night
that he just left her. What was he thinking....yeah...she had hurt
him....but...that was no reason to leave her.... They could have worked
it out....." you should have let her give you an explanation!!! You're
such an
idiot!" Jess realized he was talking outloud and Lori was sound asleep
next to him, he decided to go take a walk. He got up, got dressed, and
walked out the door.....and of course...his feet lead him straight to the
bridge,the Stars Hollow bridge where he and Rory used to spend their
afternoons and evenings together. He had overreacted and he knew it....he
wanted to kill himself.....if only this bridge stood a little higher from
the ground....he could just........... jump.......and end his
misery......but....alas he thought of Lori.....he couldn't just leave
her....abandon her..... " Lori mimicks her mother's appearance to a
perfect point!! Was she here just to torment me?!? To be my reminder
every single day of what I had done!!!!????!!!!! A mini Rory!!??!!" Jess
found himself yelling and screaming at the top of his lungs and then he
fell
to his knees pleading with God to let the love of his life come out of
this terrible coma she was put in. Luke, just like most of the town,
heard Jess and went to him telling his wife Lorelai, who could sleep
through a hurricane, where he was going......"Jess?...Jess? Is that you?"
Luke asked into the dark only hearing whimpering...then he saw a dark
figure who's shoulder's were shaking
violently. "Jess...." As soon as he said his name this last time Jess got
up and ran to Luke and just hugged him crying his heart out. Jess didn't
cry much...but this had been building up inside of him for so long....he
just....couldn't keep it in any longer. Luke comforted his nephew. He had
been angry with him for hurting Rory but then he saw how sorry Jess was
and just could't be angry with him anymore. After about 20 minutes of
crying Jess stepped out of Luke's arms and Jess just looked at him.
Jess's face was read and his eyes were puffy, tears were dancing in his
eyes willing themselves to fall. And then Jess spoke with a shaky
voice."Luke...why do memories have to hurt so much?? I loved her
Luke....I LOVE her...." And Jess continued to cry and Luke pulled him
back into a hug and Jess cried into his shoulder once again.