A/N- hey I thought I'd repost this chapter so it would be easier to read:)
i'm really sorry about the format. Please forgive me! My computer screws up
every now and then! So please bare with me!
"RORY! WHERE ARE YOU!!!!"
"Dean....I'm just taking a little vacation with my daughter..."
"OUR daughter!! Why did you go without me?"
"Dean I gotta go..sorry." And with that she hung up on Dean Forrester for the first time in her life. She felt good....after that she took her daughter out to breakfast and then they went back to that same book store. When they got there Rory found that book , "I Still Love You the Girl From Mars" and continued reading....she thought the story sounded so fimiliar she thought she must have read it before...but she just kept on reading. Finally after about and hour she finished the book...it was one of the best books she had EVER read....and that was sayin alot.....but she looked for the author's name and all it said was D.J.D. She had never heard of that one before...well she decided to buy the book.
"Hey! Lori!" Rory was searching for her little girl in the many aisles of books. She finally found her, "Hey hun...you ready? Did you pick yourself out a book??" Lori nodded and they went to purchase their books.
They weren't exactly sure where they were going to go next.....but they continued to walk. "How bout the music store?" They both agreed and kept walking....but as they were walking Rory accidentally dropped her bag with the books in it.....someone bumped into her. She looked up to apologize...."I'm-Jess..."
"really my name is Jess too...wait....Rory? What are you doing here?"
"Jess...."
"I'm very aware of my name thanks."
"Wha-why....Jess....hi..."
"Hey....."
"You wanna get some...coffee or something....." (A/N:Lori had run into the music store that was right next to where Rory and Jess were having this encounter.)
"I don't think so." He said it very coldly and Rory remembered....
"Jess! I thought you would have forgiven me by now!!!" She all of a sudden had this outburst and he couldn't really tell where it was comming from....but Rory knew why....it was because he had left her with Dean...even though Jess was mad, she thought he would have protected her....but he didn't....
"What?" He let out a cold laugh "Rory!! Come on!! You broke MY heart when I saw you kiss bag boy!!!!!! You think i'm just gonna forget and act like nothing happened!!!!"
"N-no...but...Jess...I didn't.....I didn't...."
"Look! I've already heard!!! 'I didn't mean to kiss him!' Whatever Rory!! How can you just 'accidentally' kiss someone!!!!" They were now getting a crowd because of the yelling.
"Jess!!! From where YOU were standing i'm sure it looked like I kissed him back!! But if you had just....if you had just looked a little closer you would have seen that I was TRYING TO PUSH HIM AWAY!!!!! But he's a lot stronger than me!!! You know that!!!" By this time she was crying...
"Rory!! I don't even care anymore!! Ok!! It happened!! I'm over IT and I'm wwaaayyyyy over YOU!!!" He said this....but he knew that it wasn't true....he was constantly thinking about her....he couldn't help but love her....but he couldn't let her see....then he looked down and saw her left hand.....it had two rings on it and he could only guess that they were wedding rings..."so...you got married I see!" She looked down..."is it bag boy!!!??!!!" She continued to look down..."come on Rory!! Yes or no!!! Is it Dean!!!"
"YES! It's Dean ok!!! But it's not like I wanted to!!!" The words just slipped right out of her mouth...she was stunned that she had let it slip...to him....of all people...someone she hadn't seen in 5 years!!!! She couldn't believe herself!!!
"What do you mean?"
"Uhh..." She stuttered trying to figure out something that she could say....then Lori came running out of the store.
"Mommy!!! They have Metallica!!!!! Can I get it, can I get it!!!!??!!!!" Rory just looked down realizing that Jess didn't know that she had a daughter....Lori just looked up at Jess with a confused look on her face and she saw the tears that had been streaming down Rory's. She glared up at Jess with that "cute" 5 year old glare..."what did you do! Mommy aweady gets hurt by daddy!!! Why are you hurting her too!!!" Rory just stood there, the tears streaming down her face had come to a complete stop as she looked at her daughter not believing that she just told Jess...Jess Mariano that she was getting beat up by the guy who he hated most in the world.
Jess stood there stunned....he couldn't believe what he just heard either....."Rory...."
Rory snapped out of her trance "Yeah?" She knew what he was going to ask but she wanted to avoid it. All she could do is look at Lori who had no idea what she said wrong.
"Rory....first of all....who is this" he pointed in Lori's direction not taking his eyes off Rory who was not taking her eyes off Lori, ".....and.....and what did she mean by Dean hurting you...."
"Huh?" She asked finally looking back into those beautiful chocolate brown eyes which could have just melted her into a massive puddle right then and there...."oh....uhh...she is my daughter, Lori...Lori this is Je-I mean....Mr. Mariano......" Jess stuck out his hand for her to give him a low five and Lori responded with a weird look on her face...."Hun...Mr. Mariano wasn't being mean to me...ok?"
"Otay...." She smiled up at him and gave him the low five he had been looking for.
"Lor can you go back into the music store for a sec....I'll be in there in a bit..." She skipped back in with not a care in the world.
"Rory tell me what she meant!" He kind of yelled a little louder and harsher than he meant to causing tears to well up in her eyes once again. Jess looked around realizing that people were beginning to gather again, "THIS ISN'T A SHOW!!!!! DON'T YA HAVE ANYTHING BETTER TO DO THAN TO JUST STAND AROUND AND WATCH SOMEBODY CRY!!! GET LOST!!!!"
Rory just looked around at the people that were moving away slowly, Jess's eyes getting bigger and madder the slower they were moving. "Jess....it was nothing....she doesn't know what she's talking about..she's a little over 4 and a half.....she rambles just like me..." Rory was now getting a little choked up and Jess could tell but he wasn't gonna just let her leave without telling him what was going on....
"Ror....I'm sorry I yelled at you earlier...I just......you broke my heart...."
All of a sudden Rory looked up into his eyes...her eyes now ice cold to match her voice, "do you REALLY think that I would kiss Dean? Do you really think that I don't wish I was stronger so that I could handle what he did to me that night?" Her voice was slowly but surely rising making Jess a little uneasy...but he realized something in his uneasiness.....
"WHAT did he do to you WHICH night?" Figuring it was the night he saw her with Dean almost 5 years ago...but...he still didn't understand what she meant.....
Her voice was still hard and cold, "well do you?...." He just looked at her.... "Forget it! Lori!" She called into the music store as Lori ran out to her mother, "we need to go" her eyes just glared at Jess as she remembered how he left her....with....with....him.....they began to walk off not even saying goodbye to Jess.
"Rory wait!!" Jess yelled as he caught up with her he grabbed her wrist to whirl her around, "Rory stop!" She winced and it did not go unnoticed by Jess and he looked down as her sleeve came up slightly....there was a bruise....it looked like someone had grabbed her wrists very tightly....then he snapped his head up knowing what had happened..."RORY! Why do you let him do this to you!!!!!"
"You don't even care!! You just let me in on that 10 minutes ago!! Remember!!!??!!!" Her tone was harsh and cruel just as Jess's had been the night he saw her with Dean. He let go of her arm and she whirled back around and left, dragging her daughter by the arm as Lori looked back at the stunned Jess....
He felt his knees begin to give out beneath him so he sat down at the nearsest bench, which lucky for him was right next to him. He felt horrible...she thought that he hated her...he, at one time tried to convince himself that he did, but now....he realized that he didn't....and that he missed her terribly...but now she had Frankenstein....but then he realized that she wasn't happy with Dean....that the guy hurt her....hurt his precious Rory.....it all hit him at once and his rage came out at full force!
He stood up, his knees now too afraid to shake for fear of what Jess would do. He was in a blind rage! He was walking up and down the streets yelling at himself for letting her go!! He didn't know where she lived or how he could reach her!!! He then remembered that she owned a cell phone so he found a pay phone and dialed a familiar number. But the number had expired and she had gotten a new number....So he began walking in the direction that Rory and Lori went hoping and praying that he could find them.
MEANWHILE....
They walked quickly and they didn't speak. They neared the hotel. (They didn't have much money so they couldn't get a great hotel.....it was in pretty bad part of town.) Finally Lori couldn't take the silence any longer and began to speak. "Mommy??"
"Hmm??" Rory seemed in an angry rage until her daughter spoke...
"I was just wandewing why we are walking so fast and ignowing that man back at the music store...."
"Because....i don't want to talk to him.....and I just....hun....we have history....and...i just don't want to talk about it......" So they kept walking and almost as soon as they got to their hotel a car drove by and and the music was really loud and you could hear the words and almost every other word was a bad word so she covered her daughter's ears and put her on the other side of her away from the car (like that would keep her from evil or something) and all of a sudden the guys in the car pulled out an MP5 and began waving it around while shooting it!! Rory felt a sudden blast of pain in her shoulder and then again in her stomach as she tried to protect Lori.....the drivers finally drove past and Rory slunk to the ground, defeated. Lori looked at her mother who was laying on the ground, limp.
Rory, though not fully in body, had sudden flashbacks of Dean beating her and she inwardly flinched just thinking about it. Then she fainted out of mind and body from the excruciating pain. Lori shook her mother trying to get her to wake up."Mommy! Mommy!! WAKE UP!!" But she didn't move. Lori freaked out even though she didn't know exactly what was going on she knew it couldn't be good. She began to run back the way they came hoping to find someone that could explain what was happening to her mommy. Then as she was running she bumped into someone who had a familiar face.....
Jess looked at this child's tear streaken face."Don't I know you??" And as soon as he saw her, he remembered who it was. It was Lori.
"RORY! WHERE ARE YOU!!!!"
"Dean....I'm just taking a little vacation with my daughter..."
"OUR daughter!! Why did you go without me?"
"Dean I gotta go..sorry." And with that she hung up on Dean Forrester for the first time in her life. She felt good....after that she took her daughter out to breakfast and then they went back to that same book store. When they got there Rory found that book , "I Still Love You the Girl From Mars" and continued reading....she thought the story sounded so fimiliar she thought she must have read it before...but she just kept on reading. Finally after about and hour she finished the book...it was one of the best books she had EVER read....and that was sayin alot.....but she looked for the author's name and all it said was D.J.D. She had never heard of that one before...well she decided to buy the book.
"Hey! Lori!" Rory was searching for her little girl in the many aisles of books. She finally found her, "Hey hun...you ready? Did you pick yourself out a book??" Lori nodded and they went to purchase their books.
They weren't exactly sure where they were going to go next.....but they continued to walk. "How bout the music store?" They both agreed and kept walking....but as they were walking Rory accidentally dropped her bag with the books in it.....someone bumped into her. She looked up to apologize...."I'm-Jess..."
"really my name is Jess too...wait....Rory? What are you doing here?"
"Jess...."
"I'm very aware of my name thanks."
"Wha-why....Jess....hi..."
"Hey....."
"You wanna get some...coffee or something....." (A/N:Lori had run into the music store that was right next to where Rory and Jess were having this encounter.)
"I don't think so." He said it very coldly and Rory remembered....
"Jess! I thought you would have forgiven me by now!!!" She all of a sudden had this outburst and he couldn't really tell where it was comming from....but Rory knew why....it was because he had left her with Dean...even though Jess was mad, she thought he would have protected her....but he didn't....
"What?" He let out a cold laugh "Rory!! Come on!! You broke MY heart when I saw you kiss bag boy!!!!!! You think i'm just gonna forget and act like nothing happened!!!!"
"N-no...but...Jess...I didn't.....I didn't...."
"Look! I've already heard!!! 'I didn't mean to kiss him!' Whatever Rory!! How can you just 'accidentally' kiss someone!!!!" They were now getting a crowd because of the yelling.
"Jess!!! From where YOU were standing i'm sure it looked like I kissed him back!! But if you had just....if you had just looked a little closer you would have seen that I was TRYING TO PUSH HIM AWAY!!!!! But he's a lot stronger than me!!! You know that!!!" By this time she was crying...
"Rory!! I don't even care anymore!! Ok!! It happened!! I'm over IT and I'm wwaaayyyyy over YOU!!!" He said this....but he knew that it wasn't true....he was constantly thinking about her....he couldn't help but love her....but he couldn't let her see....then he looked down and saw her left hand.....it had two rings on it and he could only guess that they were wedding rings..."so...you got married I see!" She looked down..."is it bag boy!!!??!!!" She continued to look down..."come on Rory!! Yes or no!!! Is it Dean!!!"
"YES! It's Dean ok!!! But it's not like I wanted to!!!" The words just slipped right out of her mouth...she was stunned that she had let it slip...to him....of all people...someone she hadn't seen in 5 years!!!! She couldn't believe herself!!!
"What do you mean?"
"Uhh..." She stuttered trying to figure out something that she could say....then Lori came running out of the store.
"Mommy!!! They have Metallica!!!!! Can I get it, can I get it!!!!??!!!!" Rory just looked down realizing that Jess didn't know that she had a daughter....Lori just looked up at Jess with a confused look on her face and she saw the tears that had been streaming down Rory's. She glared up at Jess with that "cute" 5 year old glare..."what did you do! Mommy aweady gets hurt by daddy!!! Why are you hurting her too!!!" Rory just stood there, the tears streaming down her face had come to a complete stop as she looked at her daughter not believing that she just told Jess...Jess Mariano that she was getting beat up by the guy who he hated most in the world.
Jess stood there stunned....he couldn't believe what he just heard either....."Rory...."
Rory snapped out of her trance "Yeah?" She knew what he was going to ask but she wanted to avoid it. All she could do is look at Lori who had no idea what she said wrong.
"Rory....first of all....who is this" he pointed in Lori's direction not taking his eyes off Rory who was not taking her eyes off Lori, ".....and.....and what did she mean by Dean hurting you...."
"Huh?" She asked finally looking back into those beautiful chocolate brown eyes which could have just melted her into a massive puddle right then and there...."oh....uhh...she is my daughter, Lori...Lori this is Je-I mean....Mr. Mariano......" Jess stuck out his hand for her to give him a low five and Lori responded with a weird look on her face...."Hun...Mr. Mariano wasn't being mean to me...ok?"
"Otay...." She smiled up at him and gave him the low five he had been looking for.
"Lor can you go back into the music store for a sec....I'll be in there in a bit..." She skipped back in with not a care in the world.
"Rory tell me what she meant!" He kind of yelled a little louder and harsher than he meant to causing tears to well up in her eyes once again. Jess looked around realizing that people were beginning to gather again, "THIS ISN'T A SHOW!!!!! DON'T YA HAVE ANYTHING BETTER TO DO THAN TO JUST STAND AROUND AND WATCH SOMEBODY CRY!!! GET LOST!!!!"
Rory just looked around at the people that were moving away slowly, Jess's eyes getting bigger and madder the slower they were moving. "Jess....it was nothing....she doesn't know what she's talking about..she's a little over 4 and a half.....she rambles just like me..." Rory was now getting a little choked up and Jess could tell but he wasn't gonna just let her leave without telling him what was going on....
"Ror....I'm sorry I yelled at you earlier...I just......you broke my heart...."
All of a sudden Rory looked up into his eyes...her eyes now ice cold to match her voice, "do you REALLY think that I would kiss Dean? Do you really think that I don't wish I was stronger so that I could handle what he did to me that night?" Her voice was slowly but surely rising making Jess a little uneasy...but he realized something in his uneasiness.....
"WHAT did he do to you WHICH night?" Figuring it was the night he saw her with Dean almost 5 years ago...but...he still didn't understand what she meant.....
Her voice was still hard and cold, "well do you?...." He just looked at her.... "Forget it! Lori!" She called into the music store as Lori ran out to her mother, "we need to go" her eyes just glared at Jess as she remembered how he left her....with....with....him.....they began to walk off not even saying goodbye to Jess.
"Rory wait!!" Jess yelled as he caught up with her he grabbed her wrist to whirl her around, "Rory stop!" She winced and it did not go unnoticed by Jess and he looked down as her sleeve came up slightly....there was a bruise....it looked like someone had grabbed her wrists very tightly....then he snapped his head up knowing what had happened..."RORY! Why do you let him do this to you!!!!!"
"You don't even care!! You just let me in on that 10 minutes ago!! Remember!!!??!!!" Her tone was harsh and cruel just as Jess's had been the night he saw her with Dean. He let go of her arm and she whirled back around and left, dragging her daughter by the arm as Lori looked back at the stunned Jess....
He felt his knees begin to give out beneath him so he sat down at the nearsest bench, which lucky for him was right next to him. He felt horrible...she thought that he hated her...he, at one time tried to convince himself that he did, but now....he realized that he didn't....and that he missed her terribly...but now she had Frankenstein....but then he realized that she wasn't happy with Dean....that the guy hurt her....hurt his precious Rory.....it all hit him at once and his rage came out at full force!
He stood up, his knees now too afraid to shake for fear of what Jess would do. He was in a blind rage! He was walking up and down the streets yelling at himself for letting her go!! He didn't know where she lived or how he could reach her!!! He then remembered that she owned a cell phone so he found a pay phone and dialed a familiar number. But the number had expired and she had gotten a new number....So he began walking in the direction that Rory and Lori went hoping and praying that he could find them.
MEANWHILE....
They walked quickly and they didn't speak. They neared the hotel. (They didn't have much money so they couldn't get a great hotel.....it was in pretty bad part of town.) Finally Lori couldn't take the silence any longer and began to speak. "Mommy??"
"Hmm??" Rory seemed in an angry rage until her daughter spoke...
"I was just wandewing why we are walking so fast and ignowing that man back at the music store...."
"Because....i don't want to talk to him.....and I just....hun....we have history....and...i just don't want to talk about it......" So they kept walking and almost as soon as they got to their hotel a car drove by and and the music was really loud and you could hear the words and almost every other word was a bad word so she covered her daughter's ears and put her on the other side of her away from the car (like that would keep her from evil or something) and all of a sudden the guys in the car pulled out an MP5 and began waving it around while shooting it!! Rory felt a sudden blast of pain in her shoulder and then again in her stomach as she tried to protect Lori.....the drivers finally drove past and Rory slunk to the ground, defeated. Lori looked at her mother who was laying on the ground, limp.
Rory, though not fully in body, had sudden flashbacks of Dean beating her and she inwardly flinched just thinking about it. Then she fainted out of mind and body from the excruciating pain. Lori shook her mother trying to get her to wake up."Mommy! Mommy!! WAKE UP!!" But she didn't move. Lori freaked out even though she didn't know exactly what was going on she knew it couldn't be good. She began to run back the way they came hoping to find someone that could explain what was happening to her mommy. Then as she was running she bumped into someone who had a familiar face.....
Jess looked at this child's tear streaken face."Don't I know you??" And as soon as he saw her, he remembered who it was. It was Lori.