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*-------* = flashbacks

It had been 3 months since the hellmouth was closed. Three whole months. Ninety-one days since Sunnydale disappeared. Since the first evil was defeated, since the s.i.t.s had become real slayers, since they had lost some of them like Amanda, since Anya had died. Since Spike had died.

And Buffy could still remember those words

*"I love you"

"No, you don't but thanks for saying it"*

Why did he have to say that? She thought. Didn't he believe her? She did love him and now she would never be able to tell him that she did. Only in her dreams did he hear her and believe her.

It had been 3 months and she could still remember the way he said her name.

"Buffy"

"Buffy?"

"BUFFY?"

"What? Oh hey Will, whats up?"

"What's up? I've been trying to get through your thick skull for the last 5 minutes. They say blondes are dumb but that is ridiculous!!"

"Hey! Sorry but I was deep in thought."

"It's ok! I was just saying that a new bunch of slayers are arriving at L.A Airport tonight and if you wanted to go meet them?"

" I'll have to pass tonight 'kay, Will?"

" That's ok c ya later." And with that Willow left Buffy's room. After the destruction of Sunnydale, Buffy had come to Los Angles and as angel wasn't using the hotel he gave it to Buffy as a present for defeating another evil but said she could only keep it if the fang gang could come and go if they pleased. Of coarse, she agreed.

(Flashback)* " What are we doing to do now, Buffy?"

After a few moments Buffy spoke, her tongue heavy and unused as exhaustion hit her in waves

"L.a, I need to go to Angel tell him he's not needed for the 2nd front."

"Ok you heard the lady on the bus everybody. We will try to get there by sun down" replied Xander. It hadn't clicked that Anya was really gone.

Everyone slowly climbed on the bus. Buffy sat at the back not paying attention, just staring out the window. With every passing moment things just seemed to be dawning on her. Spike was died. He had died for her. Giving up his life to give her the thing he thought she most wanted, to be normal, but it wasn't the thing she most wanted was him. And when she tried to tell him that he didn't believe her and now… now he was gone forever. And at this thought she broke down and cried. It was the first time she had cried since her mother had died. The great, powerful slayer, a great lioness bowed her head and wept for what she had lost.

Two seats in front were Xander and Dawn. They could hear the crying but both decided in their own thoughts that neither would know what to say or how to comfort Buffy. Xander blinded by his own dislike for Spike surprisingly slid way to a great respect for the now really dead Vampire. When his thoughts had slide way too dead people, he suddenly remembered Anya. Of coarse he could never truly forget Anya he just didn't want to believe that she was really gone. I should of married her he thought and he to join in with Buffy in crying for what they had lost. Dawn didn't know what to do what whisper in his ear that it would be all right but really she thought it never was.

Willow and Kennedy were going around and checking if everyone was ok. Willow was slowly healing some of the new slayers and could hear both Xander and Buffy sounding their despair but she didn't consoling them either because she didn't feel her place to say she had known them both greatly and when… Tara had died she just wanted to be alone. Well after the killing and the blackness. Kennedy. Would you be proud, of me Tara? I think I love her but I feel if I love her I don't love you but I do I will always.

As Robin seemed to be very badly injured to drive the Bus, Giles had taken over. William the bloody had saved the world kept repeating itself in his head one for the books! But all his books were at the bottom of the crater now and off Giles went thinking lots of smart and big words to big for this writer to write!

As the sun set, they arrived at the hotel, by now all slayers and Robin were now healed and cautious they walked into the hotel. No one seems to be here thought Willow.

"I wonder we're everyone is?" said Giles

Keeping to the back of the group was Andrew still in shock from living. What that? He thought. Pushing through the group to the far side of the hotel's dusty work top was a phone and beside the phone was a note saying: for help ring Angel on 345-666 (oh 666 the number to hell! Get it evil law firm!!!he he!! Never mind)

"Look what I found!" he said excitedly as if he had just found burrowed treasure!

"Yes, well done Andrew" said Giles while cleaning his glasses, "might as well phone and see if it's for real."

While this was happening, Buffy had sat down in the corner staring into space. Gently, she was tracing her hand were it was burnt.

Got to move lamb think schools out for bloody summer

" Buffy? Hi umm Spike told me to give you this just in case he um d… perished." Willow said as she pulled her from her trance.

She handed her a letter, which was a bit crumpled but she could still make out his fancy Victorian writing. "Thanks will," she said softly and carefully opened it. Just as she had begun reading it all sounds faded away. No Giles speaking on the phone, no slayers talking excitably among themselves just her and the letter from William.

Dear Buffy,

If you are reading this it means I am dead.

Ok, pet, get over, and move on. I died saving your arse (hopefully or I am a disappointment to you) and don't think that I can't see you in hell cause I can because everywhere I go I will always see you and you will always be with me because your in my heart. Hopefully some part of me is with you, watching over you. I know you (might) love me, always have known just never wanted to believe myself just in case I got you hurt again. I've been having this dream that I'm dying and you say you love me and I say no you don't but thanks for saying it. I know you do just didn't see the reason for you to die with me. The one thing I know about you is your loyal and stick with the people you love.

Live Buffy.

If not for yourself, then for me to know I died for something.

Don't be afraid of anything. Be strong. And take care of the nibblet for me. And tell her I love her even if she didn't love me back.

Have a good life, Buffy. Make lots of babies and please stay away from the name Angel, if naming the baby after its father. Go for a cool name like William or Spike.

Always keep smiling. Even if the going gets tough I'm always there for you. Tell every I said goodbye and tell Angel to take care of you cause if he harms you in anyway I see him in hell!

Goodbye Buffy and always know I love you

Forever yours,

William.

The tears slowly caress down Buffy's cheek and tripped on to the letter.

"Hello? People? Angel is on his way with supplies," shouted Giles as he put down the phone. It only seemed like a whisper to Buffy.

"Did you hear that Buffy?" asked Willow who had unknowing to Buffy been trying to read over her shoulder for the last 5 minutes, "Angel's coming"

And with that Buffy's head snapped up.

(Flashback over)*

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Sorry it took so long to update just couldn't think of anything to write!!

Why did Buffy suddenly appear awake? Is she happy to see Angel or Angry??

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