Hey everyone!!!!! Sorry I haven't reviewed in ages but I've loads written up so I'll be posting a lot in the next week or so!!! Well since you have waited so long for this I just get straight to the story.

Disclaimer: yes, I own everything including spike who is sitting on my bed while I'm at the computer writing a story of all you guys. (Joking so don't sue me!!)

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Last time on Buffy the vampire slayer (cue music!):

Did you hear that Buffy?" asked Willow who had unknowing to Buffy been trying to read over her shoulder for the last 5 minutes, "Angel's coming"

And with that Buffy's head snapped up.

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The fang gang had been having a meeting. Each was wondering if anyone had made it out of Sunnydale. Fred had been watching the news when an urgent news flash come on and a news reporter had said that "the town of Sunnydale which is on the lower coast line has sustained a very unusually earthquake. The earthquake seemed to only be around this area. The town was built on unstable ground and collapsed. Search teams can not go down in to the crater as the national geologists have named the site to dangerous to go down into. They suspect that no-one survived."

By the time the reporter had given out the telephone if relatives of people that lived in Sunnydale wanted to phone, Angel was already pacing his office yelling at everyone to start researching and to find them. They just have to be alive he muttered. One hour had passed which slowly slipped into two and was nearing the third hour when Angel called the meeting. They all shook they head's before he even opened his mouth to ask if there was any news. Just before he had time to shout or weep or brood they was a knock on the door and Harmony popped her head around it and told Angel he had a telephone call. Five minutes later, they were in the limo on their way to the hotel. With one thing playing in Angel's mind she's all right!

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Buffy had started to rise when Angel burst through the door, stopped looked around saw her and ran towards her. Whispers were heard among the ex s.i.ts.

"Who's he?" asked Rona

Xander replied with, "the other souled vampire."

By this time Angel had reached Buffy and pulled her into a great hug.

"I so glad your alive," he whispered in her ear, "guess you don't need the second front"

Everyone was watching them and everyone could see that Buffy was straight. She hadn't moved once since he arrived. The only thing they could see moving were her tears falling from her eyes (and she was breathing if you wondering). Finally Angel noticed the non-moving Slayer and pulled back from her. He could see the tears falling from her eyes.

"Buffy, what's wrong?"

She mumbled something, which no one could hear.

"What? Buffy I couldn't hear you, please tell me what's wrong"

Slowly Buffy lifted her head, and looked him straight in the eye and Angel could see a fire burning in them. The burning fire was pain, anger and hatred for him? The scobbies standing close could tell what was going to happen and each moved calmly towards Buffy from behind. The new slayers could also tell what was going to happen they had seen it in small burst before but never in a full blowing gale. The fang gang which stood still on the steps from the entrance was wondering if this was really Angel's surposed soulmate and if she was why could they feel the waves of Anger with a capital A she was feeling towards Angel.

"He's dead," she said and everyone in the whole room could see the pain she was feeling expect Angel.

"Who's dead, Buffy? I don't understand who's dead?" but at last it dawned on him. Spike his grandchilde. The one he hated so much wasn't anywhere in site.

"Spike?" with the sound of his name Buffy took a step back and Angel saw the pain at hearing his name caused. " He's dead? Buffy, why do you care so much about him?"

She ignored his last question and repeated. " He's dead!" this is it thought everyone, "and it's because of you"

With that, in a blink of an eye she sent Angel flying across the room and into a wall. A second passed and everyone jumped. The scobbies all grasped Buffy each one plied on top of her including Andrew who wasn't much weight but was trying anyway. The Fang Gang ran to Angel to see if he was ok and the slayers ran up the stairs and all stood at the top. They all got out of they way as they felt a battle coming on. Fred checked Angel to see if he was ok. He was but had a split lip and his head was bleeding and she could tell that he would have a lot of busies. Buffy could be heard shouting and with a finally growl with remarkably resembled spike's growl she sent the five scobbies flying off her. And she stood up and advanced slowly to where Angel was lying.

"Let me up, Fred" mumbled Angel.

"No way man, she's pissed, she'll eat you alive" was Gunn's reply to it.

But Angel ignored the warning and stood up, leaning against the wall for support. When Buffy saw this she stopped and stood in the middle of the entrance lobby and waited. Angel limped his way towards her and all the Fang gang could do was watch.

"Buffy, I'm sorry but I didn't kill Spike."

"Yes, you did. You gave me that amulet, which killed him. Your fault."

"The amulet?"

"Yes, the amulet," Buffy was slowly circling him, an lioness hunting her prey, "spike saved us all, by wearing that amulet he scarified himself for all of us to live, he wouldn't of died if you hadn't of gave me that… that thing. You know I saw his soul, his soul was so bright it killed all the ubervampires. I was the last one out of that cave. I told him I loved him, yea I love him … still do. You know he was the only one, who stayed by my side. Everyone has left me. You, Parker, Riley, my mum and all my friends including my own sister. He was the only one who stood by my side to the very last minute and when he had to leave it's was for the best, it wasn't because I could take care of myself but it was because he was saving the world. No-one will every love me the way he did, and you took that away."

Everyone who had been listening had tears in their eyes. Here was the most powerful slayer ever, wounded and in pain all over a vampire. Buffy was punching Angel, her strength gone.

"Buffy, please stop. I won't fight back, I won't hurt you!" cried Angel

"SPIKE: You're not going in there.
BUFFY: I have to do this. Just let me go.
SPIKE: I can't. I love you.
BUFFY: (upset) No, you don't.
SPIKE: (harshly) You think I haven't tried not to?

BUFFY: Try harder. 

SPIKE: You are not throwing your life away over this.
BUFFY: It's not your choice.
SPIKE: Why are you doing this to yourself?
BUFFY: (tearful) A girl is dead because of me.
SPIKE: And how many people are alive because of you? How many have you saved? One dead girl doesn't tip the scale.
BUFFY: That's all it is to you, isn't it? Just another body!
SPIKE: (sighing) Buffy-

BUFFY: You can't understand why this is killing me, can you?
SPIKE: Why don't you explain it?

SPIKE: Come on, that's it, put it on me. Put it all on me. (She kicks him) That's my girl.
BUFFY: (yelling) I am not your girl!

BUFFY: You don't ... have a soul! There is nothing good or clean in you. You are dead inside! You can't feel anything real! I could never ... be your girl!

SPIKE: (slurred) You always hurt ... the one you love, pet." 

Oh god, what had she done? She'd done it again. She backed away from Angel.

"Buffy, what's wrong?" Angel reached out for her and grasped her waist.

"ahh," she shouted. Angel let go and looked at his hand. Blood. Buffy's blood on his hand. He was trying so hard not to let his demon surface. The pain was too great for Buffy. Willow hadn't known she was cut so she hadn't healed her. Everything her and Spike had said to each other was running through her mind. A pain so great and with that she went down. She slipped into unconscious but not before she mumbled "I'm sorry."

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Laurina xo