A/N: BEWARE!! This chapter is depressing!! But read it anyways! thanks!
10 YEARS LATER
da da da da da
I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head
'Coz I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Coz I know you're worth it...you're worth it...yeah
"Hey sweetie."
"Hey daddy..."
"You look beautiful...."
"Thank you daddy..."
"Just call me when you're ready ok?"
"Ok." He walked out of her dressing room.
"Hey Jess..."
"Luke, Lorelai..."
"Lukey i'm goin to get me somethin to drink, you want anything?"
"Nah I'm good." She walked off.
"So..."
"So..."
"Are you gonna be able to do this, Jess?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean...after loosing Rory....are you gonna be able to give the other
most important thing in your life away?" Jess had tears in his eyes.
"I don't know Luke...but....who am I to judge the man that my baby girl
marries? He may not be exactly what Rory would have wanted...but I think
she would have understood why she picked him..." It was obvious that Lori
had the same choice in guys as her mother. This man, Josh, was just like
Jess was at their age...he was one of them bad boys that nobody
likes....that is except Rory and Lori....
"Daddy?"
"Yeah baby, I'm right here." He walked back into her dressing room.
"Tell me about my mom....just one more time...." He smiled at her and
began one of the stories of their 'chidhood' and finished: "She was an
amazing woman....just like yourself...." And he told her a story about
the day they first told each other that they loved each other
"Thank you daddy, I love you." She hugged him and he squeezed her as
tight yet as gentle as possible. He backed away and just looked at her.
****
"Hey daddy?"
"Yeah hunny."
"Am I pretty?"
"Oh hunny of course you are..."
"Then why can't I get a boyfriend?"
"Hey come here." She sat down on his bed. "Your mother didn't have a
boyfried until she was 16...so don't you worry about that ok?"
"Ok...hey dad?"
"Yeah?"
"I miss her..." She ran back to her father and squeezed his neck and they
both began crying.
"I know sweetie I know..."
****
"Daddy?" The sound of her voice made him snap out of whatever spell he
had been put under.
"I love you too."
"I'm ready to go..."
"oh...ok then...let's go...." He took her by the arm and led her out the
door. The bridesmaids went down the aisle after the flowergirl and Jess
took Lori to the doorway.
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee...
Marry me today!
Guess I'm wishing my life away...
With these things I'll never say
He led her down the aisle and the pastor approached them.
"Mr. Mariano, who gives this woman to this man." Jess took a deep breath
trying to keep himself from crying.
What's wrong?
With my song?
These words keep slippin' away...
I stutter...I stumble
Like I've got nothin' to sa-ay...
'Coz I'm feelin' nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Coz I know you're worth it...you're worth it...yeah
Da da da da da da da da da...
Da da da da da da da da da...
"Her MOTHER and I."
LATER THAT DAY AT JESS'S HOUSE AFTER THE WEDDING
Jess walks in the front door and stares at his now competely empty house.
I'm so tired of being here.
Supressed by all my childish fears.
If you have to leave I wish that you would just leave.
Cuz your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone.
These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time can not erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have, all of me.
Jess now realized that he had no one else in the world. Everyone had left
him. He was alone. He fell to his knees beating his head on the floor,
while crying.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it holds, my once plans and dreams.
Your voice it chased all the sanity in me.
These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time can not erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
You still have, all of me.
He leaned back on his heels and looked up. "WHY DID YOU LEAVE
ME!!!!!?!!!! WHY?!!!" He kept crying as he put his head back down on the
floor.
I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me.
I've been alone, all along.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have, all of me.
As Jess lay in his floor thinking of how lonely he was, he heard someone
aproaching him. *that's weird...why is there someone in my house?* then
the person began to speak.
"Hey sweetie! I'm so glad your home! How was your day at the office?"
A/N: CLIFFHANGERS!!! HAHAHAHAHAA!!! Gotta love em!!! Don't fret the next
chapter will be up soon enough! Please review!!
Songs: These things I'll Never say by Avril Lavigne and My Immortal by
Evanescence
10 YEARS LATER
da da da da da
I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head
'Coz I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Coz I know you're worth it...you're worth it...yeah
"Hey sweetie."
"Hey daddy..."
"You look beautiful...."
"Thank you daddy..."
"Just call me when you're ready ok?"
"Ok." He walked out of her dressing room.
"Hey Jess..."
"Luke, Lorelai..."
"Lukey i'm goin to get me somethin to drink, you want anything?"
"Nah I'm good." She walked off.
"So..."
"So..."
"Are you gonna be able to do this, Jess?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean...after loosing Rory....are you gonna be able to give the other
most important thing in your life away?" Jess had tears in his eyes.
"I don't know Luke...but....who am I to judge the man that my baby girl
marries? He may not be exactly what Rory would have wanted...but I think
she would have understood why she picked him..." It was obvious that Lori
had the same choice in guys as her mother. This man, Josh, was just like
Jess was at their age...he was one of them bad boys that nobody
likes....that is except Rory and Lori....
"Daddy?"
"Yeah baby, I'm right here." He walked back into her dressing room.
"Tell me about my mom....just one more time...." He smiled at her and
began one of the stories of their 'chidhood' and finished: "She was an
amazing woman....just like yourself...." And he told her a story about
the day they first told each other that they loved each other
"Thank you daddy, I love you." She hugged him and he squeezed her as
tight yet as gentle as possible. He backed away and just looked at her.
****
"Hey daddy?"
"Yeah hunny."
"Am I pretty?"
"Oh hunny of course you are..."
"Then why can't I get a boyfriend?"
"Hey come here." She sat down on his bed. "Your mother didn't have a
boyfried until she was 16...so don't you worry about that ok?"
"Ok...hey dad?"
"Yeah?"
"I miss her..." She ran back to her father and squeezed his neck and they
both began crying.
"I know sweetie I know..."
****
"Daddy?" The sound of her voice made him snap out of whatever spell he
had been put under.
"I love you too."
"I'm ready to go..."
"oh...ok then...let's go...." He took her by the arm and led her out the
door. The bridesmaids went down the aisle after the flowergirl and Jess
took Lori to the doorway.
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee...
Marry me today!
Guess I'm wishing my life away...
With these things I'll never say
He led her down the aisle and the pastor approached them.
"Mr. Mariano, who gives this woman to this man." Jess took a deep breath
trying to keep himself from crying.
What's wrong?
With my song?
These words keep slippin' away...
I stutter...I stumble
Like I've got nothin' to sa-ay...
'Coz I'm feelin' nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Coz I know you're worth it...you're worth it...yeah
Da da da da da da da da da...
Da da da da da da da da da...
"Her MOTHER and I."
LATER THAT DAY AT JESS'S HOUSE AFTER THE WEDDING
Jess walks in the front door and stares at his now competely empty house.
I'm so tired of being here.
Supressed by all my childish fears.
If you have to leave I wish that you would just leave.
Cuz your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone.
These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time can not erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have, all of me.
Jess now realized that he had no one else in the world. Everyone had left
him. He was alone. He fell to his knees beating his head on the floor,
while crying.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it holds, my once plans and dreams.
Your voice it chased all the sanity in me.
These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time can not erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
You still have, all of me.
He leaned back on his heels and looked up. "WHY DID YOU LEAVE
ME!!!!!?!!!! WHY?!!!" He kept crying as he put his head back down on the
floor.
I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me.
I've been alone, all along.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have, all of me.
As Jess lay in his floor thinking of how lonely he was, he heard someone
aproaching him. *that's weird...why is there someone in my house?* then
the person began to speak.
"Hey sweetie! I'm so glad your home! How was your day at the office?"
A/N: CLIFFHANGERS!!! HAHAHAHAHAA!!! Gotta love em!!! Don't fret the next
chapter will be up soon enough! Please review!!
Songs: These things I'll Never say by Avril Lavigne and My Immortal by
Evanescence