Such is Life
Part 3
My mother disappeared with some guy that Id never seen before. I was left at the arena, no way of getting back to the hotel, and I didn't even care. Id walk, Id bum a lift, that's if I even went back there at all. I wandered around hoping maybe Id bump into one of the other photographers or ring guys that I knew, it was then I realised I still had the card clutched to my chest as I walked, unopened. It was crazy! I stopped and stared at it, the envelope didn't even have my name on it was blank but 'he' had given me this card when my mother hadn't even said happy birthday, my own mother! I stepped into a nearby vacant dressing room and sat on a bench with the envelope in front of me. Taking a deep breath I opened it carefully and pulled out the card. I didn't look at the picture, didn't look at the verse inside I just wanted to see what he had written, what he had written for ME! All it said was "Love Shawn", 'Love' my heart leapt into my throat as I read those 2 words over and over, staring at the stupid card in front of my face and reading, "Love Shawn', maybe he did care!?
"Oh sorry I was....hey!" I jumped and stood up the card still clutched to my chest like it was my life support as the door opened. "Where's your Mom?"
Shawn stepped into the room and my voice got stuck in my throat. I opened my mouth but no words would come as I stared at him. "Has she left you here?"
"I ah...I...."
"Jesus!" Shawn ran a hand through his hair, "Well kid come on I cant leave you sitting here they are about to lock up." He held the door open for me and I stepped into the corridor. 'Kid', great! "Come on lets go." he sighed and looked disappointed but I tried not to see it. Once again I found myself in his car, close to him, almost touching him, yet I couldn't help but feel a sense of panic as we pulled up in the hotel parking lot. Bad memories, maybe Id find her again like I did with Marty. We went up to our floor and I stood outside the door to my room. "Well go on then. I'll see ya." he winked and started to walk away. Something inside of me took over and my mouth started working before my brain had gained control.
"She didn't even remember you know?" I blurted out as my hand was on the door handle. Shawn stopped and turned around.
"Huh?"
"My...my birthday. She didn't remember my birthday!" I hung my head as Shawn started to walk back towards me. "So I ah I just want to say thank you for the card...I appreciate it."
"Look your mom..." Shawn sighed, "I think she maybe has a few problems y'know?"
He was defending her! After what she had done to him he was standing in front of me defending her!
"My mom has a lot of problems Shawn." I said quietly, not daring to even look into his eyes.
He sighed and looked at the door in front of us. "You going in or do you want to celebrate?" Celebrate? He wants me to celebrate! I almost screamed and leapt into his arms! Instead I nodded, "I'm not going in."
"Come on then! But if anyone asks your 21 ok?"
"Ok." I said quietly and followed him down to the hotel bar.
Part 3
My mother disappeared with some guy that Id never seen before. I was left at the arena, no way of getting back to the hotel, and I didn't even care. Id walk, Id bum a lift, that's if I even went back there at all. I wandered around hoping maybe Id bump into one of the other photographers or ring guys that I knew, it was then I realised I still had the card clutched to my chest as I walked, unopened. It was crazy! I stopped and stared at it, the envelope didn't even have my name on it was blank but 'he' had given me this card when my mother hadn't even said happy birthday, my own mother! I stepped into a nearby vacant dressing room and sat on a bench with the envelope in front of me. Taking a deep breath I opened it carefully and pulled out the card. I didn't look at the picture, didn't look at the verse inside I just wanted to see what he had written, what he had written for ME! All it said was "Love Shawn", 'Love' my heart leapt into my throat as I read those 2 words over and over, staring at the stupid card in front of my face and reading, "Love Shawn', maybe he did care!?
"Oh sorry I was....hey!" I jumped and stood up the card still clutched to my chest like it was my life support as the door opened. "Where's your Mom?"
Shawn stepped into the room and my voice got stuck in my throat. I opened my mouth but no words would come as I stared at him. "Has she left you here?"
"I ah...I...."
"Jesus!" Shawn ran a hand through his hair, "Well kid come on I cant leave you sitting here they are about to lock up." He held the door open for me and I stepped into the corridor. 'Kid', great! "Come on lets go." he sighed and looked disappointed but I tried not to see it. Once again I found myself in his car, close to him, almost touching him, yet I couldn't help but feel a sense of panic as we pulled up in the hotel parking lot. Bad memories, maybe Id find her again like I did with Marty. We went up to our floor and I stood outside the door to my room. "Well go on then. I'll see ya." he winked and started to walk away. Something inside of me took over and my mouth started working before my brain had gained control.
"She didn't even remember you know?" I blurted out as my hand was on the door handle. Shawn stopped and turned around.
"Huh?"
"My...my birthday. She didn't remember my birthday!" I hung my head as Shawn started to walk back towards me. "So I ah I just want to say thank you for the card...I appreciate it."
"Look your mom..." Shawn sighed, "I think she maybe has a few problems y'know?"
He was defending her! After what she had done to him he was standing in front of me defending her!
"My mom has a lot of problems Shawn." I said quietly, not daring to even look into his eyes.
He sighed and looked at the door in front of us. "You going in or do you want to celebrate?" Celebrate? He wants me to celebrate! I almost screamed and leapt into his arms! Instead I nodded, "I'm not going in."
"Come on then! But if anyone asks your 21 ok?"
"Ok." I said quietly and followed him down to the hotel bar.