Such Is Life
Part7
We walked along the streets in the dark that night when my heart was broken. I don't know where we went, just walked, talked, I avoided any mention of Shawn and the way I felt about him, but Chris didn't seem to be that much of a bad guy when all said and done. We eventually headed back to the hotel, I wouldn't have gotten anywhere near back there if it wasn't for him, for which I was grateful. We went inside and the bar was almost empty, only a few people mulling around, 2 old guys asleep in one corner, leaning on each other, yet again another classy hotel.
"Want me to walk you up to your room?"
"Oh no, no thank you!" I forced a smile, I was freezing. Happy birthday to me!
"How about a drink to warm you up then? Unless you're in a hurry to..."
"I'm never in a hurry to go and see which drop out my mother has in her bed. Another drink would be great, thank you!" I smiled, unforced this time.
By the time we headed up to the rooms it was 2am. I was almost asleep from the events of the night and the alcohol that I wasn't used to drinking. As we stood outside the door to my room he stopped and turned me around, "I'll see you around sometime then yeah?"
"Was it a statement or a question? "I hope so!" I smiled.
His lips pressed against mine, I'd never kissed a boy before, it was strange, unexpected. Gently he parted my mouth with his tongue and took me in his arms, it took my breath away as I tried to kiss him back best I could, movies and practice on my pillow or the back of my hand had not prepared me for such an experience as the real thing. He pulled back, I stood there, my eyes still closed, my head still up and he touched my cheek.
"That's never happened to me before." I whispered barely able to get my breath. He laughed quietly and did it again. When he stopped he held me and whispered in my ear,
"See? Now it has happened!" He pulled back to look at me and I stared into his eyes. "I hope that was ok for a first time!" he smiled warmly and I started to blush, "Although I fail to believe how such a pretty girl has never been kissed before!" He said quietly as he stared at me. I was at a loss for words. Literally stunned and excited all at the same time. I could feel my heart beating fast, like the way it did when Shawn was in the room, only this time Shawn was no where to be seen, just me and Chris. He held me again then said he had to go.
"Can I See you tomorrow?" Now that was a question. I slowly nodded my head and he started to walk away as my eyes followed him, never leaving him. He stopped and turned around, "I never did get your name?!" He laughed.
I had to smile, "Chris."
"What?"
"No that's my name! Christina." I smiled.
He grinned & pointed his finger, "Perfect!" he winked and walked away. I leaned my back on the door once her was out of sight. I could still smell him, taste him, it was an unbelievable experience, maybe that's why my mother did it so often to so many different men! Maybe now I could begin to understand how wanted, how needed, how attractive someone felt when a member of the opposite sex paid this sort of attention to them.
That night was the beginning of a beautiful relationship! Friendship and understanding came hand and hand with Chris and there wasn't very many days or nights I spent without him over the next 6 months. Most thoughts about Shawn started to diminish until he became just another guy that my mother used to toy with. I gave Chris my virginity, and after that night 2 months after we shared the kiss in the hall, I truly did understand why my mother was somewhere to the way she was. I didn't fully understand why she couldn't just be with one guy, like my one guy, my perfect one guy. Life started looking up, at last.
Part7
We walked along the streets in the dark that night when my heart was broken. I don't know where we went, just walked, talked, I avoided any mention of Shawn and the way I felt about him, but Chris didn't seem to be that much of a bad guy when all said and done. We eventually headed back to the hotel, I wouldn't have gotten anywhere near back there if it wasn't for him, for which I was grateful. We went inside and the bar was almost empty, only a few people mulling around, 2 old guys asleep in one corner, leaning on each other, yet again another classy hotel.
"Want me to walk you up to your room?"
"Oh no, no thank you!" I forced a smile, I was freezing. Happy birthday to me!
"How about a drink to warm you up then? Unless you're in a hurry to..."
"I'm never in a hurry to go and see which drop out my mother has in her bed. Another drink would be great, thank you!" I smiled, unforced this time.
By the time we headed up to the rooms it was 2am. I was almost asleep from the events of the night and the alcohol that I wasn't used to drinking. As we stood outside the door to my room he stopped and turned me around, "I'll see you around sometime then yeah?"
"Was it a statement or a question? "I hope so!" I smiled.
His lips pressed against mine, I'd never kissed a boy before, it was strange, unexpected. Gently he parted my mouth with his tongue and took me in his arms, it took my breath away as I tried to kiss him back best I could, movies and practice on my pillow or the back of my hand had not prepared me for such an experience as the real thing. He pulled back, I stood there, my eyes still closed, my head still up and he touched my cheek.
"That's never happened to me before." I whispered barely able to get my breath. He laughed quietly and did it again. When he stopped he held me and whispered in my ear,
"See? Now it has happened!" He pulled back to look at me and I stared into his eyes. "I hope that was ok for a first time!" he smiled warmly and I started to blush, "Although I fail to believe how such a pretty girl has never been kissed before!" He said quietly as he stared at me. I was at a loss for words. Literally stunned and excited all at the same time. I could feel my heart beating fast, like the way it did when Shawn was in the room, only this time Shawn was no where to be seen, just me and Chris. He held me again then said he had to go.
"Can I See you tomorrow?" Now that was a question. I slowly nodded my head and he started to walk away as my eyes followed him, never leaving him. He stopped and turned around, "I never did get your name?!" He laughed.
I had to smile, "Chris."
"What?"
"No that's my name! Christina." I smiled.
He grinned & pointed his finger, "Perfect!" he winked and walked away. I leaned my back on the door once her was out of sight. I could still smell him, taste him, it was an unbelievable experience, maybe that's why my mother did it so often to so many different men! Maybe now I could begin to understand how wanted, how needed, how attractive someone felt when a member of the opposite sex paid this sort of attention to them.
That night was the beginning of a beautiful relationship! Friendship and understanding came hand and hand with Chris and there wasn't very many days or nights I spent without him over the next 6 months. Most thoughts about Shawn started to diminish until he became just another guy that my mother used to toy with. I gave Chris my virginity, and after that night 2 months after we shared the kiss in the hall, I truly did understand why my mother was somewhere to the way she was. I didn't fully understand why she couldn't just be with one guy, like my one guy, my perfect one guy. Life started looking up, at last.