Such is Life
Part 13
We lay in each other's arms watching heaven on a square box, (infact it was MTV but it was close enough after the 6 months we had just been through!) It was warm and cosey and comfortable and I wasn't afraid to put my head onto the clean white pillow, wasn't afraid of being bitten or afraid that I'd be woken up in the middle of the night to another argument or gang bang from the next room. I didn't want to close my eyes though, I wanted to stare at the TV screen all night, savouring it, enjoying every moment of this time we had before it all might come crashing down again. I couldn't though, my eyes were heavy & I snuggled into Chris' chest and he held me as I fell asleep.
I don't even know what time it was when he woke me as he lept off the bed in a panic!
"What the hell...Chris what's wrong?" I sat up trying to shake the sleep from my head, feeling light headed, unsure if I was awake or dreaming.
"My stuff!" He pulled at his hair as he stared at me. "My stuff!"
"What stuff? Chris what's wrong?" I scrambled across the bed and grabbed him around the waist.
"I have nothing to wrestle in tomorrow man!" He said frantically. "What am I gonna do now?"
I Pulled him onto the bed and he sat down with his head in his hands.
"Where's your old stuff?"
"In the bag man I can't wear that! It's not been out of that bag in 6 months! It'll stink!"
"Give me the bag!" I held out my hand.
"What? What good will it do?" He stood up, grabbed the bag and handed it to me. I pulled out some stinking old clothes and threw them onto the floor until I found his old tights. He was right, they were awful and filthy and stank! I wrinkled my nose up as I held them up with my finger tips. "I told you!" he said in dismay. "That's it then! Screwed!"
"Don't panic!" I got off the bed with the tights still held at arms length and went into the bathroom.
"What are you doing?"
"Well I'm going to try and wash them!" I put my head out of the doorway, "Will you stop stressing?" he put his head in his hands. I'd never seen him stress over anything, all we'd been through and not once had I seen him in this state! It showed to me just how much this all meant to him. I had to try and help!
I had to wash them in bubble bath and even after scrubbing them several times they still weren't the best! At least they were in slightly better condition than when I started! I came out of the bathroom, he was pacing the floor in his boxers and I smiled as I held up the tights.
"They are a little better!" I said and held them out to him.
He took them from my hands and studied them under the light bulb. I hoped they would do, I couldn't do anything else for him, he was on his own, at least I could help with this. "Hmmm." he said as he looked them over.
"Give them here!" I smiled as I took them back and went to the wardrobe.
"What are you doing now?"
"Well they are gonna need to be dry before you put them on surely?" I laughed.
"Why are you so smart?" he smiled.
"I dunno I guess it's the company I keep these days!" I kissed his cheek as I put the tights onto a hanger and opened the window.
"What the hell?" he stared at me as I hung the hanger on the curtain rail so they would dry in the breeze. "I would never have thought of that!" He laughed.
"That's because you're not a woman!"
"I should hope not after what we just did!"
I wrinkled my nose up at him and he laughed. "Going from hotel to hotel with my....." I stopped, my mother, Ha that was a laugh, only I wasn't laughing. If she hadn't been the way she was we wouldn't even be in the situation we were in now! I wondered what she was doing? Was she curled up in a safe warm hotel bed every night while her only child wandered the country with no real home, no real safety? Did I ever even cross her mind at all? I didn't think so, she would be way too busy with her life,her drugs, her men, to give me even a second thought! (Made me wonder about Shawn also! What was he doing now? was he still screwing the old hag? I didn't like to think she would be that lucky!)
"Say what?"
"Huh?"
"You were saying something?" Chris touched my arm & I smiled.
"Was I? Well it was nothing important! Come on get back into bed its freezing with that window open!" I dragged him to the bed. "NOW can we go to sleep? PLease?" I whined.
"I guess so! I'm sorry for waking you!" he kissed me.
"That's ok, I'm glad I could do something! It's not like I can get in the ring and do this try out for you, or I would!"
"Maybe that's not a bad idea!"
"Yeah right!" I laughed.
"I'm so nervous,what if I screw it all up!"
"You won't! Trust me once you get back into that ring it will just all come back to you!"
"You think?" he squeezed me tightly to him.
"Yeah I know!" I smiled, "Unless of course you don't let me get to sleep then you might be way too beat up to perform tomorrow!"
"I knew I should have let you in the ring!" he laughed. "Goodnight babe!" he squeezed me again and kissed the top of my head.
"Goodnight superstar!" I laughed.
Part 13
We lay in each other's arms watching heaven on a square box, (infact it was MTV but it was close enough after the 6 months we had just been through!) It was warm and cosey and comfortable and I wasn't afraid to put my head onto the clean white pillow, wasn't afraid of being bitten or afraid that I'd be woken up in the middle of the night to another argument or gang bang from the next room. I didn't want to close my eyes though, I wanted to stare at the TV screen all night, savouring it, enjoying every moment of this time we had before it all might come crashing down again. I couldn't though, my eyes were heavy & I snuggled into Chris' chest and he held me as I fell asleep.
I don't even know what time it was when he woke me as he lept off the bed in a panic!
"What the hell...Chris what's wrong?" I sat up trying to shake the sleep from my head, feeling light headed, unsure if I was awake or dreaming.
"My stuff!" He pulled at his hair as he stared at me. "My stuff!"
"What stuff? Chris what's wrong?" I scrambled across the bed and grabbed him around the waist.
"I have nothing to wrestle in tomorrow man!" He said frantically. "What am I gonna do now?"
I Pulled him onto the bed and he sat down with his head in his hands.
"Where's your old stuff?"
"In the bag man I can't wear that! It's not been out of that bag in 6 months! It'll stink!"
"Give me the bag!" I held out my hand.
"What? What good will it do?" He stood up, grabbed the bag and handed it to me. I pulled out some stinking old clothes and threw them onto the floor until I found his old tights. He was right, they were awful and filthy and stank! I wrinkled my nose up as I held them up with my finger tips. "I told you!" he said in dismay. "That's it then! Screwed!"
"Don't panic!" I got off the bed with the tights still held at arms length and went into the bathroom.
"What are you doing?"
"Well I'm going to try and wash them!" I put my head out of the doorway, "Will you stop stressing?" he put his head in his hands. I'd never seen him stress over anything, all we'd been through and not once had I seen him in this state! It showed to me just how much this all meant to him. I had to try and help!
I had to wash them in bubble bath and even after scrubbing them several times they still weren't the best! At least they were in slightly better condition than when I started! I came out of the bathroom, he was pacing the floor in his boxers and I smiled as I held up the tights.
"They are a little better!" I said and held them out to him.
He took them from my hands and studied them under the light bulb. I hoped they would do, I couldn't do anything else for him, he was on his own, at least I could help with this. "Hmmm." he said as he looked them over.
"Give them here!" I smiled as I took them back and went to the wardrobe.
"What are you doing now?"
"Well they are gonna need to be dry before you put them on surely?" I laughed.
"Why are you so smart?" he smiled.
"I dunno I guess it's the company I keep these days!" I kissed his cheek as I put the tights onto a hanger and opened the window.
"What the hell?" he stared at me as I hung the hanger on the curtain rail so they would dry in the breeze. "I would never have thought of that!" He laughed.
"That's because you're not a woman!"
"I should hope not after what we just did!"
I wrinkled my nose up at him and he laughed. "Going from hotel to hotel with my....." I stopped, my mother, Ha that was a laugh, only I wasn't laughing. If she hadn't been the way she was we wouldn't even be in the situation we were in now! I wondered what she was doing? Was she curled up in a safe warm hotel bed every night while her only child wandered the country with no real home, no real safety? Did I ever even cross her mind at all? I didn't think so, she would be way too busy with her life,her drugs, her men, to give me even a second thought! (Made me wonder about Shawn also! What was he doing now? was he still screwing the old hag? I didn't like to think she would be that lucky!)
"Say what?"
"Huh?"
"You were saying something?" Chris touched my arm & I smiled.
"Was I? Well it was nothing important! Come on get back into bed its freezing with that window open!" I dragged him to the bed. "NOW can we go to sleep? PLease?" I whined.
"I guess so! I'm sorry for waking you!" he kissed me.
"That's ok, I'm glad I could do something! It's not like I can get in the ring and do this try out for you, or I would!"
"Maybe that's not a bad idea!"
"Yeah right!" I laughed.
"I'm so nervous,what if I screw it all up!"
"You won't! Trust me once you get back into that ring it will just all come back to you!"
"You think?" he squeezed me tightly to him.
"Yeah I know!" I smiled, "Unless of course you don't let me get to sleep then you might be way too beat up to perform tomorrow!"
"I knew I should have let you in the ring!" he laughed. "Goodnight babe!" he squeezed me again and kissed the top of my head.
"Goodnight superstar!" I laughed.