Such Is Life
Part 24
It was late when Shawn went back to his own room,or should that be early? Anyway I found myself alone again, it was still so hard to get used to getting into bed and turning out the light knowing you were going to wake up the same way in the morning, on your own! I didn't think I'd ever get used to it as long as I lived. I climbed into bed and turned the lamp off, feeling slightly light headed from all the alcohol but it hadn't numbed me enough to stop me crying again.
The next morning I felt like shit. I threw my stuff into my bag and ran a comb through my hair. I didnt bother to put make up on, I didn't have the energy after the previous night. I just grabbed a jacket and my bag and left. As I walked along the corridor towards the elevator I wondered which of those doors he was behind. Was he still asleep? Was he alone? I shook my head and pressed the button for the elevator, I had to get over this somehow, it was just eating me up inside every damn minute of the day! I started to wish I had never taken that job in the first place! I Should have known I would have to bump into him one day.
I was shaken from my thoughts when the elevator door started to open. I reached down to grab my bag off the floor where I'd dumped it when I was waiting. A few guys barged out of the elevator, laughing and clowning around and knocked me on my ass as I was picking it up. I winced and muttered something under my breath.
"I'm sorry I didn't.." I froze at the sound of the voice, his voice. The guys laughter subsided and they started to walk away leaving Chris with me in the hall. "Oh, hi."
I scrambled to my feet still not having the courage to look into his eyes, my heart pounded, I didn't want him to see how scared I was.
"Hi." I cleared my throat.
"How are you?" He said quietly.
"I'm erm..ok ya know." I shrugged.
"That's good."
I eventualy l looked up and saw he was looking at his feet instead of directly at me.
"I better go." I started for the elevator and the doors closed before I got to them. "Bastard!" I whispered and bit my lip not even sure if he was still behind me.
"That always happens." He said and I turned slowly to see him smiling at me. My stomach lurched.
"Yeah, typical huh." I shuffled my feet,
"I ah.....I Guess I'll see you around then."
"Yeah." I forced a smile and waited for him to turn and walk away, but he stood there, looking into my eyes, only 2 feet away from me. I just wanted him to hold me, I wanted to feel his lips on mine again, but at the same time I felt like running as fast as I could away from there! The doors opened again behind me as we faced each other and I couldn't tear my eyes away from his at first. I felt frozen to the spot. "Well..."I cleared my throat again, "I ah..." I gestured to the doors.
"Sure." He nodded and smiled slightly, "Good to see ya again."
"You too." He turned and starterd to walk away.
"Chris!" I Shouted and he stopped and turned around, "I ah....well.....take care yeah?"
"You too." He smiled and walked away as I stepped into the elevator trying to hold it together enough to at least make it to the parking lot away from everyone. But I couldn't. By the time I reached the ground floor my tears were flooding out. The doors opened and I quickly tried to wipe my face and look natural as I hurried through the lobby and out into the parking lot. I ran straight into someone and hit out.
"Hey hey!"
"Get off me you fucking idiot!" I screamed as my tears fell and I struggled to get out of this guys grip.
"Hey calm down ok lady! Jesus!"
I took a deep breath and stopped fighting.
"You were the one ran into me ok?"
"I'm....I'm sorry I..I..." I couldn't speak as my tears fell again.
"HEY!" A voice shouted and both me and the guy spun around, "WHAT THE FUCK YOU DOIN CENA?"
"Woah! Hang on a minute dude I was doing nothing!" The guy held his arms up and started to walk away from me.
"Get your fucking hands off her man!" Chris pushed the guy backwards.
"I didn't fucking touch her man! What the fuck has gotten into everyone today? Its like the fucking twilight zone round here!"
"Chris he didn't I mean I ran into him that's all!" I wiped my face and sniffed and Chris looked from me to this 'Cena' guy.
"Sure?"
"Yes honestly, it was all my fault! I wasn' t looking where I was going!"
Cena screwed his face up, shook his head and walked away muttering to himself. Chris hung his head.
"I'm sorry I ah....well I ran down the stairs!" He smiled. "I just..." He sighed and put his hamds on his hips "I know it's crazy but have you got time for a coffee or something?"
I couldn't believe what I was hearing, "Oh erm... ' My mouth opened and closed like some sort of a idiot!
"I mean you don't have to I just thought maybe..."
"No I mean yes I....." I took a deep breath, "I would like to go and get a coffee with you!"I forced a smile although it felt like my stomach was about to leap up out of my throat. What the hell was going on here? Cena was right, maybe it was the Twilight Zone?
Part 24
It was late when Shawn went back to his own room,or should that be early? Anyway I found myself alone again, it was still so hard to get used to getting into bed and turning out the light knowing you were going to wake up the same way in the morning, on your own! I didn't think I'd ever get used to it as long as I lived. I climbed into bed and turned the lamp off, feeling slightly light headed from all the alcohol but it hadn't numbed me enough to stop me crying again.
The next morning I felt like shit. I threw my stuff into my bag and ran a comb through my hair. I didnt bother to put make up on, I didn't have the energy after the previous night. I just grabbed a jacket and my bag and left. As I walked along the corridor towards the elevator I wondered which of those doors he was behind. Was he still asleep? Was he alone? I shook my head and pressed the button for the elevator, I had to get over this somehow, it was just eating me up inside every damn minute of the day! I started to wish I had never taken that job in the first place! I Should have known I would have to bump into him one day.
I was shaken from my thoughts when the elevator door started to open. I reached down to grab my bag off the floor where I'd dumped it when I was waiting. A few guys barged out of the elevator, laughing and clowning around and knocked me on my ass as I was picking it up. I winced and muttered something under my breath.
"I'm sorry I didn't.." I froze at the sound of the voice, his voice. The guys laughter subsided and they started to walk away leaving Chris with me in the hall. "Oh, hi."
I scrambled to my feet still not having the courage to look into his eyes, my heart pounded, I didn't want him to see how scared I was.
"Hi." I cleared my throat.
"How are you?" He said quietly.
"I'm erm..ok ya know." I shrugged.
"That's good."
I eventualy l looked up and saw he was looking at his feet instead of directly at me.
"I better go." I started for the elevator and the doors closed before I got to them. "Bastard!" I whispered and bit my lip not even sure if he was still behind me.
"That always happens." He said and I turned slowly to see him smiling at me. My stomach lurched.
"Yeah, typical huh." I shuffled my feet,
"I ah.....I Guess I'll see you around then."
"Yeah." I forced a smile and waited for him to turn and walk away, but he stood there, looking into my eyes, only 2 feet away from me. I just wanted him to hold me, I wanted to feel his lips on mine again, but at the same time I felt like running as fast as I could away from there! The doors opened again behind me as we faced each other and I couldn't tear my eyes away from his at first. I felt frozen to the spot. "Well..."I cleared my throat again, "I ah..." I gestured to the doors.
"Sure." He nodded and smiled slightly, "Good to see ya again."
"You too." He turned and starterd to walk away.
"Chris!" I Shouted and he stopped and turned around, "I ah....well.....take care yeah?"
"You too." He smiled and walked away as I stepped into the elevator trying to hold it together enough to at least make it to the parking lot away from everyone. But I couldn't. By the time I reached the ground floor my tears were flooding out. The doors opened and I quickly tried to wipe my face and look natural as I hurried through the lobby and out into the parking lot. I ran straight into someone and hit out.
"Hey hey!"
"Get off me you fucking idiot!" I screamed as my tears fell and I struggled to get out of this guys grip.
"Hey calm down ok lady! Jesus!"
I took a deep breath and stopped fighting.
"You were the one ran into me ok?"
"I'm....I'm sorry I..I..." I couldn't speak as my tears fell again.
"HEY!" A voice shouted and both me and the guy spun around, "WHAT THE FUCK YOU DOIN CENA?"
"Woah! Hang on a minute dude I was doing nothing!" The guy held his arms up and started to walk away from me.
"Get your fucking hands off her man!" Chris pushed the guy backwards.
"I didn't fucking touch her man! What the fuck has gotten into everyone today? Its like the fucking twilight zone round here!"
"Chris he didn't I mean I ran into him that's all!" I wiped my face and sniffed and Chris looked from me to this 'Cena' guy.
"Sure?"
"Yes honestly, it was all my fault! I wasn' t looking where I was going!"
Cena screwed his face up, shook his head and walked away muttering to himself. Chris hung his head.
"I'm sorry I ah....well I ran down the stairs!" He smiled. "I just..." He sighed and put his hamds on his hips "I know it's crazy but have you got time for a coffee or something?"
I couldn't believe what I was hearing, "Oh erm... ' My mouth opened and closed like some sort of a idiot!
"I mean you don't have to I just thought maybe..."
"No I mean yes I....." I took a deep breath, "I would like to go and get a coffee with you!"I forced a smile although it felt like my stomach was about to leap up out of my throat. What the hell was going on here? Cena was right, maybe it was the Twilight Zone?