Such Is Life
Part 25
Walking to the cafe felt like the longest walk of my life. I just didn't know what to expect, why was he doing this anyway? Maybe he was going to do the 'Let's just be friends' speach, or tell me that he had someone else, maybe he wanted a divorce even? My mind was spinning and I was terrified. We got to the cafe and Chris told me to get a seat while he got the coffee's, more torture, more waiting, I felt like my heart was going to stop, either that or I was going to puke on my shoes! eventually he came back with 2 cups and sat opposite me, I looked everywhere to avoid his gaze & I didn't even want the damn coffee anyway!
"So, how have you been?" He asked after a minute or two sitting in silence.
"Oh yeah fine, thanks! Um....you?"
"Yeah pretty good!"
"That's good." I looked down at my hands, what the hell was happening? Was he doing this just to make me suffer even more?
"You keeping up with Raw?"
"Not really." I smiled nervously and took a sip from my cup, it was hot, too hot, I bit on my lip.
"I ah......" He paused and I held my breath, this was it one way or another. He cleared his throat, 'I mean have you....well...are you seeing anyone?"
I almost laughed out loud! I looked up at him for the first time, he was looking at his cup. "Erm no I'm not." I took a deep breath, "Why? Are you?"
He shook his head and lifted his cup to his mouth, "Son of a bitch!" he wiped his lip, obviously finding out like I did that the coffee was too hot! I bit my lip to stop smiling as he mumbled to himself. Again we sat there in silence for a few minutes watching everyone comming and going, all with lives to live, I felt like mine was on hold right then. "So you liking your job?"
"Yeah it's ok." I said quietly. Damn why did it have to be this hard? This was the guy I shared my life with for so long yet we were finding it hard to put a sentance together, it hurt.
"I never really thought I'd see you again ya know?" He smiled.
"Yeah I guess you don't need to go to court to get a divorce these days huh?" I hadn't meant to sound so harsh but my head was spinning, I wished he would just tell me what it was that was on his mind before I screamed! He bit his lip and looked down into his cup.
"That's what you want? A divorce?"
"Do you?"
"I asked you first!"
"Is this a game to you Chris?" I raised my voice slightly.
"What? You're the one sitting here spouting off about getting a divorce!"
"Spouting off huh? Great!" I sat back in my chair and sighed.
"So do you want a divorce?"
"Well what's the point of us being married anymore? Seriously I mean we're not together, we barely speak.." I stopped, what the hell was comming out of my mouth? The last thing I wanted was a divorce yet I couldn't seem to stop myself!
"Ok, keep your fucking hair on! If you want a divorce we'll get a divorce!" He said through gritted teeth and ran a hand through his hair.
"I didn't say I wanted a divorce! Jesus we can't even have a civil cup of coffee!"
"We could if you weren't such a heartless bitch!"
"Classy! Real smart!" I smiled sarcastically, it was happening all over again and we'd barely been in the same room for more than 15 minutes! I stood up and grabbed my purse, "I'll see you around Chris! Have a nice life!" I left with tears stinging my eyes. I still had those stupid little girl ideals that everything would work out like the movies some how, only if this was a movie it would have bombed!
Part 25
Walking to the cafe felt like the longest walk of my life. I just didn't know what to expect, why was he doing this anyway? Maybe he was going to do the 'Let's just be friends' speach, or tell me that he had someone else, maybe he wanted a divorce even? My mind was spinning and I was terrified. We got to the cafe and Chris told me to get a seat while he got the coffee's, more torture, more waiting, I felt like my heart was going to stop, either that or I was going to puke on my shoes! eventually he came back with 2 cups and sat opposite me, I looked everywhere to avoid his gaze & I didn't even want the damn coffee anyway!
"So, how have you been?" He asked after a minute or two sitting in silence.
"Oh yeah fine, thanks! Um....you?"
"Yeah pretty good!"
"That's good." I looked down at my hands, what the hell was happening? Was he doing this just to make me suffer even more?
"You keeping up with Raw?"
"Not really." I smiled nervously and took a sip from my cup, it was hot, too hot, I bit on my lip.
"I ah......" He paused and I held my breath, this was it one way or another. He cleared his throat, 'I mean have you....well...are you seeing anyone?"
I almost laughed out loud! I looked up at him for the first time, he was looking at his cup. "Erm no I'm not." I took a deep breath, "Why? Are you?"
He shook his head and lifted his cup to his mouth, "Son of a bitch!" he wiped his lip, obviously finding out like I did that the coffee was too hot! I bit my lip to stop smiling as he mumbled to himself. Again we sat there in silence for a few minutes watching everyone comming and going, all with lives to live, I felt like mine was on hold right then. "So you liking your job?"
"Yeah it's ok." I said quietly. Damn why did it have to be this hard? This was the guy I shared my life with for so long yet we were finding it hard to put a sentance together, it hurt.
"I never really thought I'd see you again ya know?" He smiled.
"Yeah I guess you don't need to go to court to get a divorce these days huh?" I hadn't meant to sound so harsh but my head was spinning, I wished he would just tell me what it was that was on his mind before I screamed! He bit his lip and looked down into his cup.
"That's what you want? A divorce?"
"Do you?"
"I asked you first!"
"Is this a game to you Chris?" I raised my voice slightly.
"What? You're the one sitting here spouting off about getting a divorce!"
"Spouting off huh? Great!" I sat back in my chair and sighed.
"So do you want a divorce?"
"Well what's the point of us being married anymore? Seriously I mean we're not together, we barely speak.." I stopped, what the hell was comming out of my mouth? The last thing I wanted was a divorce yet I couldn't seem to stop myself!
"Ok, keep your fucking hair on! If you want a divorce we'll get a divorce!" He said through gritted teeth and ran a hand through his hair.
"I didn't say I wanted a divorce! Jesus we can't even have a civil cup of coffee!"
"We could if you weren't such a heartless bitch!"
"Classy! Real smart!" I smiled sarcastically, it was happening all over again and we'd barely been in the same room for more than 15 minutes! I stood up and grabbed my purse, "I'll see you around Chris! Have a nice life!" I left with tears stinging my eyes. I still had those stupid little girl ideals that everything would work out like the movies some how, only if this was a movie it would have bombed!