Wow!!! I've been so busy lately. I'm not really motivated with this story
so if you enjoy it plz let me know and I'll update it again. Don't worry,
this is nowhere near the end. You don't think I'd let Oz off that easy
would you??? ::grins evilly::
Chapter 5
Buffy, Willow, Xander, Giles, Faith and Angel all rushed through the hospital doors. They caught sight of Cordelia and rushed over.
"Are you okay?" Buffy asked, concerned.
Cordelia nodded, her mind elsewhere.
"Do they know what's wrong yet? Is he gonna be okay?" Cordelia craned her head to look at Willow, who was crying quietly.
"They don't know what's wrong yet."
She turned her gaze back to the wall. "Oh God" she whispered.
She spoke to them, her eyes never leaving the wall. "I keep remembering the last time. It's like a loop."
Xander sat down beside her. "He'll be fine, Cor." She buried her face in his neck, sobbing softly.
\*Flashback*/
Cordelia stood at the door, nervously. She had bitten her nails down completely and was now biting her lip. She resisted the urge to bolt when the door slowly opened but, to her surprise, it was Daniel's Uncle Ken.
"Well!" he exclaimed. "If it isn't little Cordy Chase." He grinned at her. "How you doin' little lady."
His humour lifted her spirits slightly. He let her in and she saw his Aunt Maureen and father.
"Maureen! You're pregnant!" the woman grinned.
"Did Daniel not tell you?"
She shook her head. "We haven't been getting on too well. We're not friends anymore." She said soberly.
"What happened?"
"Um, well, you see, I made fun of him in front of the whole school. I called him these really horrible things and now he won't talk to me and it's been months and I really miss him and I want to talk to him and is he here?" she blurted out.
Maureen indicated to the stairs. "He came home about a half hour ago."
"He looked kind of strange. He said he wasn't feeling well. Went to bed. He's probably still awake." She added
Cordelia smiled her thanks and headed up the stairs. She paused as she reached the top of the stairs. Daniel's room was to the left, at the end of the hall. She trailed her hand off the floral wallpaper and dragged her feet off the dark blue carpet. The carpet didn't match the colour scheme at all but had been put in all the rooms because of Daniel's and her likeliness to spill something.
She smiled as she remembered bits of their childhood but had to hold back the tears that had threatened to overwhelm her. She had become increasingly worried about Daniel since the 'incident' two months ago in school--where she had called him all those horrible things and nearly made him cry. He had become quiet and his school marks had dropped dramatically. He had quit the school orchestra and only spoke when he was spoken to. The worst part was, she had heard that he was hanging out with Devon's crowd. Now, Cordy loved Devon to bits but he had a habit of getting into trouble and being caught drinking and smoking. The whole school had started to taunt Daniel since Cordelia had made her rise from social outcast to a member of Harmony's gang. She hadn't meant what she had said to him and desperately wanted to tell him that.
She reached the end of the corridor and faced his door. It was slightly ajar and she couldn't help but be nervous as she pushed open the door. She gasped in shock at what she saw.
Daniel Osbourne, her best friend since kindergarten, was lying, unconscious in a pool of blood. His face was white and there gashes on his wrists. There was a razor in his hand. Cordelia did the only thing she could do. She screamed at the top of her lungs.
Daniel's uncle Ken was the first to reach her. he ran up the stairs as fast as he could and his mouth dropped open when he saw his nephew. Maureen was next. She took one look at Daniel and sank into a dead faint. Ken rushed to help her and Cordelia grabbed the phone beside his bed. She called 911 as fast as she could and the rest was just a blur.
She could just about remember letting the paramedics in and riding in the ambulance and sitting in the waiting room for hours on end. She remembered Ken trying to force her to eat something. She remembered the doctor coming out to tell her that he would be okay. But, she did remember walking into the room, seeing him lying there, his eyes boring holes in the wall.
She had collapsed in tears, telling him how sorry she was, how she hadn't meant it, how much she loved him. He had just looked blankly at her. when she had tried to take his hand, he had jerked it away and turned away. She tried so hard to talk to him. Eventually, he had turned to look at her, and said in a monotonous voice:
"I just wanted it all to end. All the pain and hurt. You said it would get better, you promised it would get better, but it didn't. it got harder and I just wanted it all to go away. And, I don't care what you say, Cor, I really don't anymore 'cos as far as I'm concerned, I don't know you. You've changed. You're bitchy and horrible and I hate you!"
She had flinched and pulled back. She remembered leaving the hospital, just walking out, ignoring her parents and Ken and Maureen and everyone. She ran as fast as she could and fell to the ground in the park. She remembered sitting there for hours, crying as hard as she could, until her parents came and found her and brought her home.
*End Flashback*
"Cordelia" said a soft voice. Cordelia looked up quickly. She was still in Xander's arms. There was a doctor in front of her. She lifted her head off Xander's chest and straightened up.
"Is he okay?" she whispered.
The doctor smiled. "He'll be fine."
"What was wrong with him?"
"It was the medication. There was a mix-up and he got the wrong stuff. It caused him to hallucinate and feel sick. It would have killed him."
Cordelia let out a sigh of relief. "Can I see him?"
"Hmm, I guess so. Be quick though. He's asleep. I can only allow two of you to go in."
Cordelia smiled her thanks. She turned to everyone. "Willow, come on."
Willow looked scared. "I d-don't know if he'll want me there."
"It's okay. He's asleep anyway."
Willow followed her and the doctor to his room.
Cordelia had to choke down another wave of tears. Willow didn't even bother to try and prevent them.
Oz was pale white and there were tubes everywhere. His wrists were bandaged up. He was asleep.
Cordelia took one hand and Willow took the other. They sat there for awhile, in silence, quietly wondering what was going to happen when he woke up.
Chapter 5
Buffy, Willow, Xander, Giles, Faith and Angel all rushed through the hospital doors. They caught sight of Cordelia and rushed over.
"Are you okay?" Buffy asked, concerned.
Cordelia nodded, her mind elsewhere.
"Do they know what's wrong yet? Is he gonna be okay?" Cordelia craned her head to look at Willow, who was crying quietly.
"They don't know what's wrong yet."
She turned her gaze back to the wall. "Oh God" she whispered.
She spoke to them, her eyes never leaving the wall. "I keep remembering the last time. It's like a loop."
Xander sat down beside her. "He'll be fine, Cor." She buried her face in his neck, sobbing softly.
\*Flashback*/
Cordelia stood at the door, nervously. She had bitten her nails down completely and was now biting her lip. She resisted the urge to bolt when the door slowly opened but, to her surprise, it was Daniel's Uncle Ken.
"Well!" he exclaimed. "If it isn't little Cordy Chase." He grinned at her. "How you doin' little lady."
His humour lifted her spirits slightly. He let her in and she saw his Aunt Maureen and father.
"Maureen! You're pregnant!" the woman grinned.
"Did Daniel not tell you?"
She shook her head. "We haven't been getting on too well. We're not friends anymore." She said soberly.
"What happened?"
"Um, well, you see, I made fun of him in front of the whole school. I called him these really horrible things and now he won't talk to me and it's been months and I really miss him and I want to talk to him and is he here?" she blurted out.
Maureen indicated to the stairs. "He came home about a half hour ago."
"He looked kind of strange. He said he wasn't feeling well. Went to bed. He's probably still awake." She added
Cordelia smiled her thanks and headed up the stairs. She paused as she reached the top of the stairs. Daniel's room was to the left, at the end of the hall. She trailed her hand off the floral wallpaper and dragged her feet off the dark blue carpet. The carpet didn't match the colour scheme at all but had been put in all the rooms because of Daniel's and her likeliness to spill something.
She smiled as she remembered bits of their childhood but had to hold back the tears that had threatened to overwhelm her. She had become increasingly worried about Daniel since the 'incident' two months ago in school--where she had called him all those horrible things and nearly made him cry. He had become quiet and his school marks had dropped dramatically. He had quit the school orchestra and only spoke when he was spoken to. The worst part was, she had heard that he was hanging out with Devon's crowd. Now, Cordy loved Devon to bits but he had a habit of getting into trouble and being caught drinking and smoking. The whole school had started to taunt Daniel since Cordelia had made her rise from social outcast to a member of Harmony's gang. She hadn't meant what she had said to him and desperately wanted to tell him that.
She reached the end of the corridor and faced his door. It was slightly ajar and she couldn't help but be nervous as she pushed open the door. She gasped in shock at what she saw.
Daniel Osbourne, her best friend since kindergarten, was lying, unconscious in a pool of blood. His face was white and there gashes on his wrists. There was a razor in his hand. Cordelia did the only thing she could do. She screamed at the top of her lungs.
Daniel's uncle Ken was the first to reach her. he ran up the stairs as fast as he could and his mouth dropped open when he saw his nephew. Maureen was next. She took one look at Daniel and sank into a dead faint. Ken rushed to help her and Cordelia grabbed the phone beside his bed. She called 911 as fast as she could and the rest was just a blur.
She could just about remember letting the paramedics in and riding in the ambulance and sitting in the waiting room for hours on end. She remembered Ken trying to force her to eat something. She remembered the doctor coming out to tell her that he would be okay. But, she did remember walking into the room, seeing him lying there, his eyes boring holes in the wall.
She had collapsed in tears, telling him how sorry she was, how she hadn't meant it, how much she loved him. He had just looked blankly at her. when she had tried to take his hand, he had jerked it away and turned away. She tried so hard to talk to him. Eventually, he had turned to look at her, and said in a monotonous voice:
"I just wanted it all to end. All the pain and hurt. You said it would get better, you promised it would get better, but it didn't. it got harder and I just wanted it all to go away. And, I don't care what you say, Cor, I really don't anymore 'cos as far as I'm concerned, I don't know you. You've changed. You're bitchy and horrible and I hate you!"
She had flinched and pulled back. She remembered leaving the hospital, just walking out, ignoring her parents and Ken and Maureen and everyone. She ran as fast as she could and fell to the ground in the park. She remembered sitting there for hours, crying as hard as she could, until her parents came and found her and brought her home.
*End Flashback*
"Cordelia" said a soft voice. Cordelia looked up quickly. She was still in Xander's arms. There was a doctor in front of her. She lifted her head off Xander's chest and straightened up.
"Is he okay?" she whispered.
The doctor smiled. "He'll be fine."
"What was wrong with him?"
"It was the medication. There was a mix-up and he got the wrong stuff. It caused him to hallucinate and feel sick. It would have killed him."
Cordelia let out a sigh of relief. "Can I see him?"
"Hmm, I guess so. Be quick though. He's asleep. I can only allow two of you to go in."
Cordelia smiled her thanks. She turned to everyone. "Willow, come on."
Willow looked scared. "I d-don't know if he'll want me there."
"It's okay. He's asleep anyway."
Willow followed her and the doctor to his room.
Cordelia had to choke down another wave of tears. Willow didn't even bother to try and prevent them.
Oz was pale white and there were tubes everywhere. His wrists were bandaged up. He was asleep.
Cordelia took one hand and Willow took the other. They sat there for awhile, in silence, quietly wondering what was going to happen when he woke up.