-Before You Leave Me-
chapter 3
The next day,we passed the small town,getting our way to the Rivendell.I said nothing to Aragorn,keepping to walk beside Gimly,preventing to be alone with the ranger.Luckly,Gimly seemed to not know the thing happened last night,he sleeped soundly in all night,he always be so.
I sighed,I can feel Aragorn keeping an eye on me,he wanted to talk to me,but I avoided it in every way.Although I kissed him,but it was just for my body's need.Love is a serious thing,I can not play with it,I did not hope to hurt him any more.I must considered clearly whether I really love him or not.
It was strange,I hoped to hug him when he looked at me lovingly,even though he said nothing to me.I also hoped to kiss him,his lips was very soft,it tasted good,I cannot forget that.But I feared.I feared I wanted him just for need of body,If it was ture,I must confined myself to do so.
In the evening,I slipped in my own bedroll beside Gimly.It was cold,though I didn't fear cold and hot before as be an elf,but in those nights,I really felt cold.Not as like be in Aragorn's arms,his warm arms arounding me,it felt so good.I gradually found out that I fell in love with the human.Because,I dreamed him,I dreamed him every night.He lived in all my dreams.In that world,I loved him.I hugged him,kissed him,touched his whole body,I wanted him despairingly.I also very cared him,I would be sorrow just for he was pushed by other human who passed by him,I feared he was hurt.It was ridiculous,he was a warrior,he will never be hurt by those thing,I knew that,but I really cared him,hoped he would be glad every second.
Aye,I really love him.
Gimly sat on a rock,we planned to have a rest.We would get to Rivendell in some hours.
'Aragorn.'I called,sitting beside him under the tree.
He looked at me curiously,it was the first time I spoke to him since that night.
I held his hand in mine gently,luckly me,I can held such a reliable hands.
'What is it,Legolas?'He asked me tenderly.Oh,I loved his sound.
'Aragorn,do you really love me?'I asked.
'I do,'He answered without consider,'legolas,I love you with my heart.'He looked at me lovingly,'do you not trust me?'
'Nay,Aragorn,I trust you with my life.I just feared something.'I whispered,not daring to eye him.
'Fear what?'
'Many thing,'I sighed,'I feared It is wrong that I fall in love with a male one.'I said and tightened my holding,'I feared we would have no result in the end.And although I wanted you,I feared it's the need of my body,not love.But,'I paused,raised my head to contact his eyes.'I dreamed of you,Aragorn.I dreamed of you every night since you kissed me.In my dreams,I cared you,I loved you,I show you all my love.I protected you to be hurt by anything.I can not live the world without you.'
'Legolas...'Aragorn sounded,choked.
'Aye,Aragorn,I love you.That's my heart told me.'I said.
Aragorn held my hand tightly,pulled me close to his side.If Gimly was not here,I would embraced him and kiss him at once.
'Legolas,'he whispered,'how luckly me,you choiced me.You don't know how I am afraid these days.'He sighed,'You dodged me,not gave me any chance to talk to you.I don't know what about you thought of me.Even I was so close to you everyday,but it felt so far away with your heart.'
'I am sorry,Estel.'I murmured,used his elvish name.
He suddenly pulled me in his embrace,hushed me with his lips.I struggled him instantly,but he already prepared,pressed me on his laps,restricted me to be moveless.
'Aragorn,leave him be.'I heard Gimly shouted,'What are you doing to the elf.'
Aragorn raised his head,but not loosed his hands.'I was kissing my Lover,Master Dwarf.'
'What?!'Gimly yelled.
'Estel...'I called my love,but was cut off with another kiss.
'Aragorn!'Gimly warned.
'The thing I told you is true,Gimly.Legolas and I are lover.'Aragorn told him seriously.
'Legolas?'Gimly asked,looked at me.
I flushed,struggled to sit up.'Aye.'I whispered,I did not sure if Gimly get it.'I love him,Gimly.If it sicked you,I felt sorry.'
Gimly widened his eyes,'Oh,Valar,you guys are crazy.'he sighed,'I don't feel sick,Legolas.But as to be your friend,I really worry about you two.'he turned to face Aragorn,'Do you think of the future?Aragorn,you are human,you are mortal,but Legolas is immortal.'
Aragorn eyed me silently,his hands that hugged me slowly loosed.I adruptly held them,'I considered it all,Estel.'I grinned to him as he looked at me mirthlessly.'I don't care that,I will treasure everyday you are here with me,'I said,'I will company you not leaving you until the day you leave me.'I promised him.
'Legolas.'Aragorn hugged me,choked.
I rested on his shoulder,although I knew it will not be good to me,but I also knew,if I must leave him,I would die at once.
I heard Gimly sighed,'Ok,mates,I blessed you two.You will have my axe forever if you need help.'
'Thank you,Master Dwarf.'Aragorn said.
'You are welcome.'Gimly said,strode to the road,'Let's hurry up,I am hungry now.'He hastened,'I hope we can arrive Rivendell quickly.'
'Ok,Master Gwarf.'Aragorn smiled,'I promise you will have a good dinner in Rivendell.'Aragorn told him.
I grinned,I also hope to get to Rivendell instantly.I missed Lady Arwen,the Lord Elrond,and the twins.Rivendell's elf was the most elegant one I have met,I often have some errands to go to Rivendell for adar,they are so kind,and they are all my friends before Aragorn was born.It was so interesting,now,Aragorn become my lover.I didn't sure what they would think of the thing,but I knew,they must have encouraged us,and gave us the best blessing.
'Legolas.'Aragorn called me,took my hand in his,I smiled to him,I needn't fear anything this time,it was so wonderful to free my own emotion to another one I loved.I crossed our fingers together,I liked to touch his skin on the way,it was so warm.Fortunately,I didn't refuse him.Factly,I will refuse him for nothing.He was my friend,my brother,because we were all males,I did not ever think of love before.But I knew I always loved him,I always cared him more than others.I love him,I cannot live in the world without him really.
I saw Arwen waiting by the gate of Rivendell,the patrol elf must told her our return.She ran to us as she saw us,hugging Aragorn with her slender arms around his neck,and gave him a greeting kiss.I smiled inward,I did not feel any upset by Lady Arwen's action..Arwen was Aragorn's foster sister,just sister.But I was binded to him,he's mine,and I was his.The thought warmed my heart,I found out my lips unwares twisted,I knew I will never be lonely.
Arwen turned to me after greeted Gimly,hugged me as well,gave me a kiss on my side face.'Nice to see you,Legolas.'her sounds like the song the birds sang in the high trees.I grinned to her,'I missed you,Arwen,you are always so beautiful.'
Elladan and Elrohir were told that we were back as well,they ran to the gate,hugged us with open arms.'How about the journey,it must be very exciting,I really envy you guys.'Elrohir said.
'You can do that easily,Elrohir.'Aragorn smiled.'I missed you all very much,although I was glad to experience the world outside,but I missed Revendell every night in my dreams.It was always the most beautiful place in the Middle-earth.'
'We missed you too,Estel.'Elladan said,'But not more than someone missed you so.'He and Elrohir laughed and eyed Arwen.
'I have already prepare two spare room for Legolas and Gimly,'Arwen blushed and turned the topic away.
'Wait,Arwen.'Aragorn called her back,'one spare room is enough.'He said,'Legolas will share my room.'
'Why?'Arwen was confused,'Legolas need his own room,Estel.'she told him,'and we have enough spare room to use.'
'I am not mean that,...'Aragorn was instantly cut off by my elbow,'Thank you,Arwen,Two room is well.'I told her.I didn't hope them to know our relation so quickly.
Aragorn looked at me confusedly by my words,like a poor puppy.I smiled to him,'Is it ok?I need my own room,Can I?'
'Of course,Legolas.'Aragorn replied with disappointment.I grinned and eyed him with the corner of eyes,taunted him.
'Ok,Legoas,Gimly,follow us,we will lead you to your rooms.'The twins told us.
I gave a glance to Aragorn as Arwen was busily talking to him,then I followed Elladan to my room.It was always so clean and warm,I can smelt aroma of flowers floated in the air.
'Have some rest Legolas,I will call you when dinner was prepared.'Elladan said,planned to leave.
'Elladan,where is Lord Elrond?Why do I not see him?'I asked casually.
'Adar left Rivendell to visit Mithrandir,He will not come so soon,Legolas.'Elladan told me,'Now,rest,Legolas.I can read weariness in your eyes.'he went out,closed the door for me.
I lied on my bed,looking at the ceiling,although I feel a little weary,but I also hope I can be there with Aragorn.I wanted to hug him,kiss him,cover him on his bed with my ethereal weight.I wanted to tease him,made him forget his name with my ministration.I grinned,it was so funny to see him lost his composure,just for me.
I did not know how long did I sink into my own fantasy,I was awoken suddenly by feeling someone stood beside my opened door.
'Arwen,what is it?'I sat up instantly as I found out she was crying.I embraced her,caressed her black hair with my hand,'My dear Arwen,tell me,what bothered you so?'
She buried his head in my chest,still sobbing.'Legolas,'she whispered.
'What?'I tenderly asked.
'Could you tell me who was the one Estel loved?'she asked with tear shined in her eyes.'I told him I love him a moment age in the garden,but he told me he was binded with another one.'I looked at her with my mouth opened widely,her words almost took my breath.
'Tell me,who is she.'
chapter 3
The next day,we passed the small town,getting our way to the Rivendell.I said nothing to Aragorn,keepping to walk beside Gimly,preventing to be alone with the ranger.Luckly,Gimly seemed to not know the thing happened last night,he sleeped soundly in all night,he always be so.
I sighed,I can feel Aragorn keeping an eye on me,he wanted to talk to me,but I avoided it in every way.Although I kissed him,but it was just for my body's need.Love is a serious thing,I can not play with it,I did not hope to hurt him any more.I must considered clearly whether I really love him or not.
It was strange,I hoped to hug him when he looked at me lovingly,even though he said nothing to me.I also hoped to kiss him,his lips was very soft,it tasted good,I cannot forget that.But I feared.I feared I wanted him just for need of body,If it was ture,I must confined myself to do so.
In the evening,I slipped in my own bedroll beside Gimly.It was cold,though I didn't fear cold and hot before as be an elf,but in those nights,I really felt cold.Not as like be in Aragorn's arms,his warm arms arounding me,it felt so good.I gradually found out that I fell in love with the human.Because,I dreamed him,I dreamed him every night.He lived in all my dreams.In that world,I loved him.I hugged him,kissed him,touched his whole body,I wanted him despairingly.I also very cared him,I would be sorrow just for he was pushed by other human who passed by him,I feared he was hurt.It was ridiculous,he was a warrior,he will never be hurt by those thing,I knew that,but I really cared him,hoped he would be glad every second.
Aye,I really love him.
Gimly sat on a rock,we planned to have a rest.We would get to Rivendell in some hours.
'Aragorn.'I called,sitting beside him under the tree.
He looked at me curiously,it was the first time I spoke to him since that night.
I held his hand in mine gently,luckly me,I can held such a reliable hands.
'What is it,Legolas?'He asked me tenderly.Oh,I loved his sound.
'Aragorn,do you really love me?'I asked.
'I do,'He answered without consider,'legolas,I love you with my heart.'He looked at me lovingly,'do you not trust me?'
'Nay,Aragorn,I trust you with my life.I just feared something.'I whispered,not daring to eye him.
'Fear what?'
'Many thing,'I sighed,'I feared It is wrong that I fall in love with a male one.'I said and tightened my holding,'I feared we would have no result in the end.And although I wanted you,I feared it's the need of my body,not love.But,'I paused,raised my head to contact his eyes.'I dreamed of you,Aragorn.I dreamed of you every night since you kissed me.In my dreams,I cared you,I loved you,I show you all my love.I protected you to be hurt by anything.I can not live the world without you.'
'Legolas...'Aragorn sounded,choked.
'Aye,Aragorn,I love you.That's my heart told me.'I said.
Aragorn held my hand tightly,pulled me close to his side.If Gimly was not here,I would embraced him and kiss him at once.
'Legolas,'he whispered,'how luckly me,you choiced me.You don't know how I am afraid these days.'He sighed,'You dodged me,not gave me any chance to talk to you.I don't know what about you thought of me.Even I was so close to you everyday,but it felt so far away with your heart.'
'I am sorry,Estel.'I murmured,used his elvish name.
He suddenly pulled me in his embrace,hushed me with his lips.I struggled him instantly,but he already prepared,pressed me on his laps,restricted me to be moveless.
'Aragorn,leave him be.'I heard Gimly shouted,'What are you doing to the elf.'
Aragorn raised his head,but not loosed his hands.'I was kissing my Lover,Master Dwarf.'
'What?!'Gimly yelled.
'Estel...'I called my love,but was cut off with another kiss.
'Aragorn!'Gimly warned.
'The thing I told you is true,Gimly.Legolas and I are lover.'Aragorn told him seriously.
'Legolas?'Gimly asked,looked at me.
I flushed,struggled to sit up.'Aye.'I whispered,I did not sure if Gimly get it.'I love him,Gimly.If it sicked you,I felt sorry.'
Gimly widened his eyes,'Oh,Valar,you guys are crazy.'he sighed,'I don't feel sick,Legolas.But as to be your friend,I really worry about you two.'he turned to face Aragorn,'Do you think of the future?Aragorn,you are human,you are mortal,but Legolas is immortal.'
Aragorn eyed me silently,his hands that hugged me slowly loosed.I adruptly held them,'I considered it all,Estel.'I grinned to him as he looked at me mirthlessly.'I don't care that,I will treasure everyday you are here with me,'I said,'I will company you not leaving you until the day you leave me.'I promised him.
'Legolas.'Aragorn hugged me,choked.
I rested on his shoulder,although I knew it will not be good to me,but I also knew,if I must leave him,I would die at once.
I heard Gimly sighed,'Ok,mates,I blessed you two.You will have my axe forever if you need help.'
'Thank you,Master Dwarf.'Aragorn said.
'You are welcome.'Gimly said,strode to the road,'Let's hurry up,I am hungry now.'He hastened,'I hope we can arrive Rivendell quickly.'
'Ok,Master Gwarf.'Aragorn smiled,'I promise you will have a good dinner in Rivendell.'Aragorn told him.
I grinned,I also hope to get to Rivendell instantly.I missed Lady Arwen,the Lord Elrond,and the twins.Rivendell's elf was the most elegant one I have met,I often have some errands to go to Rivendell for adar,they are so kind,and they are all my friends before Aragorn was born.It was so interesting,now,Aragorn become my lover.I didn't sure what they would think of the thing,but I knew,they must have encouraged us,and gave us the best blessing.
'Legolas.'Aragorn called me,took my hand in his,I smiled to him,I needn't fear anything this time,it was so wonderful to free my own emotion to another one I loved.I crossed our fingers together,I liked to touch his skin on the way,it was so warm.Fortunately,I didn't refuse him.Factly,I will refuse him for nothing.He was my friend,my brother,because we were all males,I did not ever think of love before.But I knew I always loved him,I always cared him more than others.I love him,I cannot live in the world without him really.
I saw Arwen waiting by the gate of Rivendell,the patrol elf must told her our return.She ran to us as she saw us,hugging Aragorn with her slender arms around his neck,and gave him a greeting kiss.I smiled inward,I did not feel any upset by Lady Arwen's action..Arwen was Aragorn's foster sister,just sister.But I was binded to him,he's mine,and I was his.The thought warmed my heart,I found out my lips unwares twisted,I knew I will never be lonely.
Arwen turned to me after greeted Gimly,hugged me as well,gave me a kiss on my side face.'Nice to see you,Legolas.'her sounds like the song the birds sang in the high trees.I grinned to her,'I missed you,Arwen,you are always so beautiful.'
Elladan and Elrohir were told that we were back as well,they ran to the gate,hugged us with open arms.'How about the journey,it must be very exciting,I really envy you guys.'Elrohir said.
'You can do that easily,Elrohir.'Aragorn smiled.'I missed you all very much,although I was glad to experience the world outside,but I missed Revendell every night in my dreams.It was always the most beautiful place in the Middle-earth.'
'We missed you too,Estel.'Elladan said,'But not more than someone missed you so.'He and Elrohir laughed and eyed Arwen.
'I have already prepare two spare room for Legolas and Gimly,'Arwen blushed and turned the topic away.
'Wait,Arwen.'Aragorn called her back,'one spare room is enough.'He said,'Legolas will share my room.'
'Why?'Arwen was confused,'Legolas need his own room,Estel.'she told him,'and we have enough spare room to use.'
'I am not mean that,...'Aragorn was instantly cut off by my elbow,'Thank you,Arwen,Two room is well.'I told her.I didn't hope them to know our relation so quickly.
Aragorn looked at me confusedly by my words,like a poor puppy.I smiled to him,'Is it ok?I need my own room,Can I?'
'Of course,Legolas.'Aragorn replied with disappointment.I grinned and eyed him with the corner of eyes,taunted him.
'Ok,Legoas,Gimly,follow us,we will lead you to your rooms.'The twins told us.
I gave a glance to Aragorn as Arwen was busily talking to him,then I followed Elladan to my room.It was always so clean and warm,I can smelt aroma of flowers floated in the air.
'Have some rest Legolas,I will call you when dinner was prepared.'Elladan said,planned to leave.
'Elladan,where is Lord Elrond?Why do I not see him?'I asked casually.
'Adar left Rivendell to visit Mithrandir,He will not come so soon,Legolas.'Elladan told me,'Now,rest,Legolas.I can read weariness in your eyes.'he went out,closed the door for me.
I lied on my bed,looking at the ceiling,although I feel a little weary,but I also hope I can be there with Aragorn.I wanted to hug him,kiss him,cover him on his bed with my ethereal weight.I wanted to tease him,made him forget his name with my ministration.I grinned,it was so funny to see him lost his composure,just for me.
I did not know how long did I sink into my own fantasy,I was awoken suddenly by feeling someone stood beside my opened door.
'Arwen,what is it?'I sat up instantly as I found out she was crying.I embraced her,caressed her black hair with my hand,'My dear Arwen,tell me,what bothered you so?'
She buried his head in my chest,still sobbing.'Legolas,'she whispered.
'What?'I tenderly asked.
'Could you tell me who was the one Estel loved?'she asked with tear shined in her eyes.'I told him I love him a moment age in the garden,but he told me he was binded with another one.'I looked at her with my mouth opened widely,her words almost took my breath.
'Tell me,who is she.'