-Before You Leave Me-

Chapter 8

'Nay!'I struggled insanely when they dropped me down a bit,my arms was still tied and raised restrictedly in the air by the ropes.They pressed me,making me on my knees.

'Nay,don't do that to me,Arwen.I cannot survive from this.'I shouted desperately.

'Then,I asked you the last time,do you promise to leave Estel now?'Arwen evenly asked.

I closed my eyes,shook my head helplessly,'Nay,I cannot.'

'So,you choice it,Legolas,Don't hate me.'She chillily said.'strip him,'She ordered,'Pay no mind to him,just make fun with his body.'she said.

'Nay.'I exclaimed,Although I knew it would be futile when one elf began to undress his leggings before me.I closed my eyes,I knew what would happened quickly,I cannot think about that,I didn't deserve this for I really do nothing wrong to everyone.Why they must hurt me in such way?

I froze when one elf suddenly holding my chin rudely,and another elf who was standing behind me undressed my leggings without wasting any second.

I would die this time,I thought.I must have died.

I gave up struggle when they thrusted into me far from gentle,my tears continued slipped down from my eyes,I didn't know clear that I was crying for my body's hurt or my spirit broken.I just knew I would not survive this time,it must break me.

I was sorry,my love.I sobbed inward.You didn't know how I love you,I always keep eyes on you secretly when you do everything beside me.You didn't know how many times I walked to pass you deliberately for I hope you can see me everytime I hope you to do.I must be silly in your eyes.I always remind me I must be elegant and clever before you,for I always think that you would see me casually,I hope you would worship me.Although I had not thought about love with you,and I didn't dare to image that,for I knew inward that you are male,you must leave me in the later.You must be.

How luckily me,you told me that you love me.You didn't know the day you kiss me was the most important day in my life.I thought I was the most happy being in the Middle-earth after we became lover.But,I overrated my ability,for I cannot control everything or everyone that would prevent us.Not everyone would bless me for I love a male.Now I paid for that,I must leave you,my love.Although I was so despairingly to leave you,but I must do.

I collapsed on my knees,the ropes tied my wrists support my whole weight lest I fell down on the floor.It was so hurt when they thrusted into my mouth and hip in the same time.I didn't want to survive after that.

I must die.

Legolas...

I heard who call me in my mind,I was too weary to recognize it.

Legolas....

Again.Who?Who call me?I asked myself inward.

Don't leave me,Legolas.

Aragorn?Nay,no one beside me,I was in the dark of my own world alone.

Don't leave me,Legolas,please.

Aragorn?...I choked as I thought about my love.Valar,how brutal I was to decide leave my love alone in the world.

Hold on,Legolas.I am here with you.

Aye,my love,I cannot leave you for I promised you.I would keep my words for you.No matter what had happen I would not do anything that would hurt you.I cannot die,just for you,I love you,Aragorn.

I will not leave you before you leave me.

I didn't knew clearly when did then finished torture to me.I opened my eyes weakly as Arwen tipped my chin with her fingers.

'Did it break your heart,Legolas?'She asked,'Do you also think the love of males was the most filthy thing in the world?'

I exhaled sharp to control my breath,I was too weak to speak to her.

'Legolas,' Elrohir crouched before me,'Now,Would you promise to leave Estel willingly after that?'

I hoped to raise my head,but I found I had not any strengh to do so.'Ahh,...'I opened my bruise mouth,my sound was hoarsely.

'Answer me,Legolas.Let me end your suffering.'Elrohir said,'Would you promise me to leave Estel willingly?'

'Nay.'I heard meself answered,I didn't knew if it scared them,'I will leave him...for...nothing.'I weakly told them.

'Then,you must hope to taste that again?'Arwen evily said.

'Nay...'I instantly raised my head with all my strengh,'Please don't,Arwen.I...beg you,I cannot survive after that again...'I begged her,'I cannot die...,Arwen.I promised Aragorn... I will not leave him... before he leave me...'I told her despairingly.

'I cannot die... before him.'I whimpered.

She looked at me,I felt her hands shivered hard as they hold my chin tightly.

'I think you hadn't learn from your lessons,Legolas.'She angrily said,her sounds trembled.

'Nay,'Elrohir suddenly shouted,'Arwen,you must stop.He really love Estel.'

'Why do you say that,he is a liar,Elrohir,you couldn't trust what he said.'Arwen madly said.

'You are insane,Arwen.I was regret what I did to Legoas for I believe the thing that you tell me.'Elrohir angrily said,'but I know now,Legolas love Estel,he love Estel with his life.'

'He don't deserve this,'Elrohir said.'lay him down,take care of his wounds.'He ordered.

It ended eventually,I thought inward when I lay on my chest on the floor lest hurt my beaten back.Although it hurt me too much,fortunately,I was still alive.

'Nay,'Arwen abruptly scratch my hair,lifting my head to leave the floor.

'You liar,legolas,your lies can cheat everyone,but me.'She exclaimed madly.

'Stop,Arwen,You go so far.'Elrohir shouted.

Arwen paid no mind to him,'How beautiful your face is,'she murmured,'Did you use it to seduce Estel to leave me?'

'Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

I exclaimed desperately when I felt a dagger abruptly thrust into my right eye.

Valar,I cannot die!