Kali: Wha! I'm running out of ideas! Time though for much blood and gore and MORE AGNST! *Cackles evilly*
Kurama and Hiei: ... *Attempt to distroy the comptuer but Kali puts up a barrier for it*
Kali: HA! You can never distory my authoress tools!
Nuria: *Still sleeping. Is talking in her sleeping about robbing candy stores*
Every one else: ^^;
Disclamer: I DON'T OWN IT! Well... I own the plot.. and my original characters... But you get the idea! I don't know Faint Tribute and I don' know who its by. The lyrics might be a tad messed up because I had to listen to the song bit by bit and write what I heard.
Malthanthamoree: Oo Unfortunitly I don't have a spell check and when i went threw and fixed everything and uploaded teh new version after deleting the messed up version it still had mistakes Oo
Sarah: Thanks again! *Cackles at Kuwabara and pokes him*
Tatooshi: ^^; Yeah I woke up witha spider bite that morning on my arm so I got the idea from that, not to mention we watched Spider Man the day before
Pai: *Bites her* NO GLOMPING ME! *Kurama steals Tamal and Ava back from Pai* Give me my children back! *Hiei growls at Pai* *Kali* ^^; Poor Pai.
~ =Thoughts
* =Flashbacks, memory clips
//= Song lyrics
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//I am, a little bit of lonelyness a little bit of disregard
Head full of complaints but I can't help the fact that every one can see these scars
I am, what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But its like no matter what I do I can't convince you to just believe this is real
So I let go, watching you turn you back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be there cause your all that I got
I can't fake, the way I did before
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't take
This image any more
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored//
I felt their hands on me. I couldn't move, frozen with fear. Why me? I'm so little... I'm not that pretty either... Their hands played with my hair... my tail. They were laughing and cracking jokes about me... about mother. They knew her... THey payed her a couple of times... mom was a prostitute, I always knew she hated it but she told me not to worry... that it was the only way to get food.
//I am, alittle but insecure, a little unconfident
But you don't understand I do what I can
Sometimes it don't make sense
I am, What you never wanted to see, but I've never had to doubt
Its like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once to just to hear me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be there cause your all that I got//
I whimpered as I felt my clothes ripped away. I was bitting, kicking, clawing, anything. For every blow I made I got one back twice as hard. My head hurt really bad. Suddenly my eye lids flashed white with firey agony. He was rapping me... I hit harder but the others only laughed and kicked me. They all had their fun, leaving me before I finally passed out, slipping into a sanctuary of darkness.
//I can't fake, the way I did before
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't take
This image any more
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored//
It was cold... very cold... The wind blowing on my bloody body didn't help. I felt torn, physically and spiritually. I hate them, I hate them all. I wish mother was here... She would have stopped them... stopped them from raping me... My body hurts so bad. I just want to curl up and die, but she told me... before she died, not to give up. Not to let them take me and ruin my soul.
//Here me out now
Your gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now
Here me out now
Your gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now//
So I won't... I will lock away my feelings. I will never let some one see my pain again... But why me? I'm only 7... Mother would protect me... but she is gone... why? Is it my fault? I hurt her? I didn't protect her? She got sick... an infection... from several stab wounds in her leg... Did I make them? Why did I? Would I? I don't know...
//I can't fake, the way I did before
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't fake, the way I did before
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't take
This image any more
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored//
It hurts to much to think... mabey I should stop thinking... Mabey I should just lie here and stare at the sky forever... The forever clouded sky of Makai. Cloudy... Like everything in this God forsaken world... Inari... Watch my mother for me... Keep her safe, and happy. Tell her not to worry, I'll do as she told me, I'll stay strong. I won't let them ruin me... I won't let them see me... the real me.
//I can't fake
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't take
Don't turn your back on me
I wan't be ignored//
.:*:.
Hiei frowned down at Kurama. He had woken up a half an hour before, woken by Kurama's mummbles and shaking. Kurama even punched Hiei in his sleep about 9 minutes ago. He sighed, shaking the kitsune trying to wake him. Kurama's eyes flicked open and Hiei blinked in suprise. Kurama's emerald eyes were flecked with gold, and lots of it. His eyes looked much younger and softer then they normally did. Hiei tilted his head silently in silent question. Kurama seemed to stare past him for a moment before finally focusing on the jaganshi.
Kurama frowned, running a had threw his hair, "Only a nightmare..." Hiei frowned, "A altered nightmare?" Kurama shook his head. The dream controller must have thought that dream was tramatizing enough for the kitsune. Hiei frowned, "Go look at your eyes." Kurama blinked in confusion and stood. He padded over to the bathroom looked into the mirror. He paled slightly, his eyes, they were gold! He cursed, that dream was hitting closer to home then he was enjoying.
He wasn't suprised when Hiei was suddenly beside him, both staring at Kurama in the mirror. Neither one saying a thing, just silent in thought. Finally Hiei put his hand on Kurama's shoulder before turning and leaving the bathroom. Kurama apsently rubbed his eyes, as if it would rub away the gold in them. He stepped into the room after Hiei and glanced out the window. The sky was peering over the horizion. Hiei snorted at the two still sleeping boys and kicked Kuwabara in the head. Kuwabara lept up with a yelp.
He swatted at Hiei and got up to pounce on the demon. Kurama smiled as the two growled at each other. Yuusuke groaned and sat up, "Isn't it too early to be fighting?" Kuwabara gave a stupid laugh, "The Great Kuwabara is always prepared for battle!" Yuusuke smirked and hit the boy hard over the head with his pillow, "Is that so?" Kuwabara yelped and turned to pounce on Yuusuke. Hiei was against the wall watching with a bored crimson gaze. Kurama smiled and moved forward to catch their attention. As he spoke his face going serious.
"We need to get started." Kuwabara glanced up and then turned to Yuusuke, "I had another one of those messed up dreams again... And I have this." Kuwabara held out his hand and on it was a bite mark, exactly like Kurama and Hiei's. The two demons studied it for a moment before both deciding it was just like theirs. Yuusuke frowned and tilted his head. "Kurama, your..." Before he could continue Kurama interrupted, "I know." Yuusuke frowned, Kurama looked irritated when Yuusuke mentioned it so the boy decided to drop the subject.
Kuwabara was looking Kurama over not getting what Yuusuke was talking about. He sighed and hung his head giving up. Yuusuke gave a nod to the two demons before standing and leading the group out of the temple. Yuusuke paled as the exited they temple. Blood pooled in the yard. Bodies lay every where. Most of them striped of clothes. Limbs hacked off messily leaving stumps of torn flesh, some of them having blood still gushing from the stumps. Yuusuke stared, pale at the bodies, "How could we have not heard their cries?"
"That." Was all that Kurama said as he pointed to the throat of a demon. All the throats were ripped out leaving bloody holes in their place. Humans and demons littered the yard. They ranged in gender, age, and race. Hiei scanned the pile with narrowed crimson eyes, "Hn." Kuwabara looked pale aswell, the stench horrid. Some of the bodies had already begun to rot. Chunks of flesh layed about from those beings who weren't lucky enough to die in one peice. Dried flesh plasted about the area.
Yukina and Genkai stepped out hearing the boys talking. Yukina gasped and paled, Genkai glared around, "Damn him..." Hiei crouched by a still intact body examining it. Kurama stared over the jaganshi's shoulder with a frown. Each body had a bite mark. Hiei stood and turned back to the others before flitting off. Kuwabara gave a growl, "Must he always do that?" Kurama shrugged, "We better follow." Kuwabara blinked and shouted. "Follow!? I don't even know what direction he went!"
Kurama chuckled and pointed before stepping off. Yuusuke shook his head with a light smirk, "Only those two." He frowned and turned to Genkai. He was about to ask about all the bodies but Genkai held her hand up to stop him. "I'll take care of it." Yuusuke made a face before running off after Kurama, shouting over his shoulder, "Have fun!" Genkai rolled her eyes and glared at Kuwabara, "You going to follow them already?" Kuwabara shook his head out of his daze before nodding eagerly and running off. Genkai shook her head before moving to remove the bodies.
.:*:.
Hiei stepped threw the portal landing in Makai. He leapt into a tree taking the bandana from his jagan. He shut his eyes and scanned the world with his jagan. Kurama stepped through a minute later standing by the tree Hiei was in. He frowned. Soon after Yuusuke stepped through and stood beside Kurama, "So do you guys know where he is?" Hiei grunted and finally placed the bandana back his normal eyes opening again. "In a cave far to the south. Seems he wants to be found." KUrama didn't like the sound of that but Yuusuke sounded eager to go.
Kuwabara stummbled through the portal finally, it closing quickly behind him. He glared at the three, "Must you always take out with out waiting?" Yuusuke grinned and began to tease the boy, Hiei glaring, and Kurama giving a tiny smile shaking his head softly. Hiei muttered something under his breath about Kuwabara being a baka. Kuwa was ready to shout back when Yuusuke growled, "Enough Kuwabaka, we have a demon to catch," Kurama looked slightly relieved, not wanting to break up ANOTHER fight between the two. Hiei just glared and flitted off.
Kuwabara growled, "Why does he always do that?" Neither Yuusuke nor Kurama answered as they ran off after Hiei. Kuwabara yelped and ran after them, not wanting to be left behind again. A explosion shook the ground making Kuwabara stummble. He growled as he ragained his balance, "What the hell was that!?" he ran forward to find a smoke filled clearing. When the smoke moved away there stood Hiei, face to face with that dark skinned demon they were to find. Kurama and Yuusuke weren't to far away from the two.
Yuusuke had his hand out in his spirit gun position and Kurama had his rose whip ready. Near them was a large crator but none of the three or Crevon, the dream shifting demon, were injured. The demon chuckled, he had Hiei's blade caught between his hands. Hiei looked highly pissed as Crevon spoke in a mocking tone, "Your three have such fun dreams to toy with. Kurama most of all, then Hiei. Such fun are they." The two demons glared at the demon before Hiei ripped his blade free. He lept back in a fighting stance, blade ready.
In a black blur the little demon lept, blading slashing. The others watched in silence as the two fought for a minute. When they stopped the demon had a single cut on his cheek and a trickle of blood fell from Hiei's mouth. Yuusuke hissed, "I don't understand! Your ki is so weak yet Hiei can barely hit you!" Crevon smirked, "Its more then dreams that I can shape. I can alter what people see. I have tempered with the mental senses of your friend here, messing up his vision to make him hallucinate and playing with his mental sense."
Kurama growled, "But how? Hiei's jagan should be able to keep you off being your low level." The demon smirked, "What do you think those bites are for? Fashion? I injected poision into you, weakening your mental state." Yuusuke hissed, "Enough of this! I have no bite so you can't play your games with me!" He leapt at Crevon fist lit with his spirit energy as he swung it hard. Crevon blurred as Yuusuke approched, but Yuusuke landed a solid blow. Crevon hissed as he slid back, leaving long trails in the ground where he slid. His silver eyes alit with anger.
Hiei growled, "You can mess with my vision, but not that of my dragon..." With that the wards about his arm burned away in black and purple fire. His jagan glowed, the ground around him rummbling. Soon from about his body writhed in black flame burst his black dragon. It ripped forth with a roar. Crevon chuckled, "I may not be able to tamper with the will of the dragon... but I can tamper with the will of its user." As the Kokuryuhaa opened its mouth approching to devour the shadowy demon, Crevon held out his hand. The Kokuryuhaa moved forward and quickly stopped.
Sparks flew from where the muzzle of the dragon was located. Hiei blinked in suprise and anger as his dragon turned about coming back towards him quickly. The last thing her heard before he blacked out was Kurama crying out his name.
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Kali: *From her hiding spot* You like it? I hope so. Bri gave meh the idea for the dragon being reflected.
Kurama: ... Why did you have me raped as a kid?
Kali: Cause I love tormenting you?
Hiei: I'm going to kill you baka onna...
Kali: ^^; Eh... You'll live?
Hiei: I better...
Kurama: He better....
Kali: Ehehehe... *Steps back* R&R! *Runs for it again*
Kurama and Hiei: ... *Attempt to distroy the comptuer but Kali puts up a barrier for it*
Kali: HA! You can never distory my authoress tools!
Nuria: *Still sleeping. Is talking in her sleeping about robbing candy stores*
Every one else: ^^;
Disclamer: I DON'T OWN IT! Well... I own the plot.. and my original characters... But you get the idea! I don't know Faint Tribute and I don' know who its by. The lyrics might be a tad messed up because I had to listen to the song bit by bit and write what I heard.
Malthanthamoree: Oo Unfortunitly I don't have a spell check and when i went threw and fixed everything and uploaded teh new version after deleting the messed up version it still had mistakes Oo
Sarah: Thanks again! *Cackles at Kuwabara and pokes him*
Tatooshi: ^^; Yeah I woke up witha spider bite that morning on my arm so I got the idea from that, not to mention we watched Spider Man the day before
Pai: *Bites her* NO GLOMPING ME! *Kurama steals Tamal and Ava back from Pai* Give me my children back! *Hiei growls at Pai* *Kali* ^^; Poor Pai.
~ =Thoughts
* =Flashbacks, memory clips
//= Song lyrics
_______________________________________________________________________________
//I am, a little bit of lonelyness a little bit of disregard
Head full of complaints but I can't help the fact that every one can see these scars
I am, what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But its like no matter what I do I can't convince you to just believe this is real
So I let go, watching you turn you back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be there cause your all that I got
I can't fake, the way I did before
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't take
This image any more
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored//
I felt their hands on me. I couldn't move, frozen with fear. Why me? I'm so little... I'm not that pretty either... Their hands played with my hair... my tail. They were laughing and cracking jokes about me... about mother. They knew her... THey payed her a couple of times... mom was a prostitute, I always knew she hated it but she told me not to worry... that it was the only way to get food.
//I am, alittle but insecure, a little unconfident
But you don't understand I do what I can
Sometimes it don't make sense
I am, What you never wanted to see, but I've never had to doubt
Its like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once to just to hear me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be there cause your all that I got//
I whimpered as I felt my clothes ripped away. I was bitting, kicking, clawing, anything. For every blow I made I got one back twice as hard. My head hurt really bad. Suddenly my eye lids flashed white with firey agony. He was rapping me... I hit harder but the others only laughed and kicked me. They all had their fun, leaving me before I finally passed out, slipping into a sanctuary of darkness.
//I can't fake, the way I did before
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't take
This image any more
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored//
It was cold... very cold... The wind blowing on my bloody body didn't help. I felt torn, physically and spiritually. I hate them, I hate them all. I wish mother was here... She would have stopped them... stopped them from raping me... My body hurts so bad. I just want to curl up and die, but she told me... before she died, not to give up. Not to let them take me and ruin my soul.
//Here me out now
Your gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now
Here me out now
Your gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now//
So I won't... I will lock away my feelings. I will never let some one see my pain again... But why me? I'm only 7... Mother would protect me... but she is gone... why? Is it my fault? I hurt her? I didn't protect her? She got sick... an infection... from several stab wounds in her leg... Did I make them? Why did I? Would I? I don't know...
//I can't fake, the way I did before
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't fake, the way I did before
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't take
This image any more
Don't turn you back on me
I won't be ignored//
It hurts to much to think... mabey I should stop thinking... Mabey I should just lie here and stare at the sky forever... The forever clouded sky of Makai. Cloudy... Like everything in this God forsaken world... Inari... Watch my mother for me... Keep her safe, and happy. Tell her not to worry, I'll do as she told me, I'll stay strong. I won't let them ruin me... I won't let them see me... the real me.
//I can't fake
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't take
Don't turn your back on me
I wan't be ignored//
.:*:.
Hiei frowned down at Kurama. He had woken up a half an hour before, woken by Kurama's mummbles and shaking. Kurama even punched Hiei in his sleep about 9 minutes ago. He sighed, shaking the kitsune trying to wake him. Kurama's eyes flicked open and Hiei blinked in suprise. Kurama's emerald eyes were flecked with gold, and lots of it. His eyes looked much younger and softer then they normally did. Hiei tilted his head silently in silent question. Kurama seemed to stare past him for a moment before finally focusing on the jaganshi.
Kurama frowned, running a had threw his hair, "Only a nightmare..." Hiei frowned, "A altered nightmare?" Kurama shook his head. The dream controller must have thought that dream was tramatizing enough for the kitsune. Hiei frowned, "Go look at your eyes." Kurama blinked in confusion and stood. He padded over to the bathroom looked into the mirror. He paled slightly, his eyes, they were gold! He cursed, that dream was hitting closer to home then he was enjoying.
He wasn't suprised when Hiei was suddenly beside him, both staring at Kurama in the mirror. Neither one saying a thing, just silent in thought. Finally Hiei put his hand on Kurama's shoulder before turning and leaving the bathroom. Kurama apsently rubbed his eyes, as if it would rub away the gold in them. He stepped into the room after Hiei and glanced out the window. The sky was peering over the horizion. Hiei snorted at the two still sleeping boys and kicked Kuwabara in the head. Kuwabara lept up with a yelp.
He swatted at Hiei and got up to pounce on the demon. Kurama smiled as the two growled at each other. Yuusuke groaned and sat up, "Isn't it too early to be fighting?" Kuwabara gave a stupid laugh, "The Great Kuwabara is always prepared for battle!" Yuusuke smirked and hit the boy hard over the head with his pillow, "Is that so?" Kuwabara yelped and turned to pounce on Yuusuke. Hiei was against the wall watching with a bored crimson gaze. Kurama smiled and moved forward to catch their attention. As he spoke his face going serious.
"We need to get started." Kuwabara glanced up and then turned to Yuusuke, "I had another one of those messed up dreams again... And I have this." Kuwabara held out his hand and on it was a bite mark, exactly like Kurama and Hiei's. The two demons studied it for a moment before both deciding it was just like theirs. Yuusuke frowned and tilted his head. "Kurama, your..." Before he could continue Kurama interrupted, "I know." Yuusuke frowned, Kurama looked irritated when Yuusuke mentioned it so the boy decided to drop the subject.
Kuwabara was looking Kurama over not getting what Yuusuke was talking about. He sighed and hung his head giving up. Yuusuke gave a nod to the two demons before standing and leading the group out of the temple. Yuusuke paled as the exited they temple. Blood pooled in the yard. Bodies lay every where. Most of them striped of clothes. Limbs hacked off messily leaving stumps of torn flesh, some of them having blood still gushing from the stumps. Yuusuke stared, pale at the bodies, "How could we have not heard their cries?"
"That." Was all that Kurama said as he pointed to the throat of a demon. All the throats were ripped out leaving bloody holes in their place. Humans and demons littered the yard. They ranged in gender, age, and race. Hiei scanned the pile with narrowed crimson eyes, "Hn." Kuwabara looked pale aswell, the stench horrid. Some of the bodies had already begun to rot. Chunks of flesh layed about from those beings who weren't lucky enough to die in one peice. Dried flesh plasted about the area.
Yukina and Genkai stepped out hearing the boys talking. Yukina gasped and paled, Genkai glared around, "Damn him..." Hiei crouched by a still intact body examining it. Kurama stared over the jaganshi's shoulder with a frown. Each body had a bite mark. Hiei stood and turned back to the others before flitting off. Kuwabara gave a growl, "Must he always do that?" Kurama shrugged, "We better follow." Kuwabara blinked and shouted. "Follow!? I don't even know what direction he went!"
Kurama chuckled and pointed before stepping off. Yuusuke shook his head with a light smirk, "Only those two." He frowned and turned to Genkai. He was about to ask about all the bodies but Genkai held her hand up to stop him. "I'll take care of it." Yuusuke made a face before running off after Kurama, shouting over his shoulder, "Have fun!" Genkai rolled her eyes and glared at Kuwabara, "You going to follow them already?" Kuwabara shook his head out of his daze before nodding eagerly and running off. Genkai shook her head before moving to remove the bodies.
.:*:.
Hiei stepped threw the portal landing in Makai. He leapt into a tree taking the bandana from his jagan. He shut his eyes and scanned the world with his jagan. Kurama stepped through a minute later standing by the tree Hiei was in. He frowned. Soon after Yuusuke stepped through and stood beside Kurama, "So do you guys know where he is?" Hiei grunted and finally placed the bandana back his normal eyes opening again. "In a cave far to the south. Seems he wants to be found." KUrama didn't like the sound of that but Yuusuke sounded eager to go.
Kuwabara stummbled through the portal finally, it closing quickly behind him. He glared at the three, "Must you always take out with out waiting?" Yuusuke grinned and began to tease the boy, Hiei glaring, and Kurama giving a tiny smile shaking his head softly. Hiei muttered something under his breath about Kuwabara being a baka. Kuwa was ready to shout back when Yuusuke growled, "Enough Kuwabaka, we have a demon to catch," Kurama looked slightly relieved, not wanting to break up ANOTHER fight between the two. Hiei just glared and flitted off.
Kuwabara growled, "Why does he always do that?" Neither Yuusuke nor Kurama answered as they ran off after Hiei. Kuwabara yelped and ran after them, not wanting to be left behind again. A explosion shook the ground making Kuwabara stummble. He growled as he ragained his balance, "What the hell was that!?" he ran forward to find a smoke filled clearing. When the smoke moved away there stood Hiei, face to face with that dark skinned demon they were to find. Kurama and Yuusuke weren't to far away from the two.
Yuusuke had his hand out in his spirit gun position and Kurama had his rose whip ready. Near them was a large crator but none of the three or Crevon, the dream shifting demon, were injured. The demon chuckled, he had Hiei's blade caught between his hands. Hiei looked highly pissed as Crevon spoke in a mocking tone, "Your three have such fun dreams to toy with. Kurama most of all, then Hiei. Such fun are they." The two demons glared at the demon before Hiei ripped his blade free. He lept back in a fighting stance, blade ready.
In a black blur the little demon lept, blading slashing. The others watched in silence as the two fought for a minute. When they stopped the demon had a single cut on his cheek and a trickle of blood fell from Hiei's mouth. Yuusuke hissed, "I don't understand! Your ki is so weak yet Hiei can barely hit you!" Crevon smirked, "Its more then dreams that I can shape. I can alter what people see. I have tempered with the mental senses of your friend here, messing up his vision to make him hallucinate and playing with his mental sense."
Kurama growled, "But how? Hiei's jagan should be able to keep you off being your low level." The demon smirked, "What do you think those bites are for? Fashion? I injected poision into you, weakening your mental state." Yuusuke hissed, "Enough of this! I have no bite so you can't play your games with me!" He leapt at Crevon fist lit with his spirit energy as he swung it hard. Crevon blurred as Yuusuke approched, but Yuusuke landed a solid blow. Crevon hissed as he slid back, leaving long trails in the ground where he slid. His silver eyes alit with anger.
Hiei growled, "You can mess with my vision, but not that of my dragon..." With that the wards about his arm burned away in black and purple fire. His jagan glowed, the ground around him rummbling. Soon from about his body writhed in black flame burst his black dragon. It ripped forth with a roar. Crevon chuckled, "I may not be able to tamper with the will of the dragon... but I can tamper with the will of its user." As the Kokuryuhaa opened its mouth approching to devour the shadowy demon, Crevon held out his hand. The Kokuryuhaa moved forward and quickly stopped.
Sparks flew from where the muzzle of the dragon was located. Hiei blinked in suprise and anger as his dragon turned about coming back towards him quickly. The last thing her heard before he blacked out was Kurama crying out his name.
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Kali: *From her hiding spot* You like it? I hope so. Bri gave meh the idea for the dragon being reflected.
Kurama: ... Why did you have me raped as a kid?
Kali: Cause I love tormenting you?
Hiei: I'm going to kill you baka onna...
Kali: ^^; Eh... You'll live?
Hiei: I better...
Kurama: He better....
Kali: Ehehehe... *Steps back* R&R! *Runs for it again*