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Author's Notes: Ahh! Back again with chapter three! Whee! -_-X Uhm, okay. I've got good news today!!! I've finally decided on a suitable name for her! It's nice! ^-^
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Warnings: This chapter's done in Kai's point of view again. Are you aware of the pattern this is taking?
Chapter 3:______________
Bitter VengeanceI stiffened as she successfully wrenched her arm out of my grasp and leave. Boy, was I angry! I slammed my fork and spoon down onto the oak table and pushed back my chair to leave.
I walked briskly to my room and slammed the door shut. Who did she think she was?! If she was just some new servant, she would pay dearly for embarrassing me, with or without an audience!
I sat on my bed to brood a little more when I realized somebody had cleaned. My shirt was no longer scattered on the floor. My desk had papers neatly stacked and the surface was newly polished.
Wait…desk? I never knew I had a desk, actually. Since when did I ever have one? Did my stupid grandfather actually CARE enough to give me one?
I walked over to it and looked it over. It was very old. The cabinet handle was loose and the fine wood badly scraped. The wood was chipped in various places and the carvings on the side very dusty.
I shrugged and took a seat on the chair anyway. Looks like I had it all wrong. My grandfather DID care to put a desk all right. A very old, broken one maybe, but it is something nonetheless.
"My! Whatever is my lord doing here???" Came a soft voice filled with pretended shock, I could tell. I turned and glared at my intruder. It was THAT GIRL again. As if I wasn't pissed off enough with her already. Did she have some kind of death wish for come seeing me in person or what?!
"Get out!" I barked and stood up, crossing my arms in my best way of intimidation. Fear, I decided, was a very good way to get respect at first glance.
She didn't budge.
"I would, my lord. But it would be kind of odd if you were to order me to get out of MY own room." She said, folding her arms across her chest.
I was dumbstruck. What?! How could this possibly be HER room! This must be some kind of fluke she did just to embarrass me more!
"Prove it." I managed to growl.
For the first time this whole morning, she broke into a genuine grin. She quickly covered the distance between us in four long strides and stared into my face as soon as she was mere inches from me.
"As you wish." She said, shrugging. She walked over to MY bathroom and as I followed her inside, she opened one of my drawers.
I was getting ready to laugh my head off as soon as I proved her wrong, but instead I moved back in utter…shame.
There she stood, holding up her UNDERWEAR to my face! I could feel the rush of heat on my face as she walked closed to me, still holding up her…stuff.
"Well? Aren't you going to inspect it? After all, it might be YOUR'S and it's ME who's got the wrong room after all." She stated so obviously as if it were the most natural thing in the world for me to do.
I couldn't take it anymore. I looked away, trying hard to hide my blush. This was so unlike me. I never blush. Never.
I heard her sigh and put the offending garment away. She came up behind me and waited for me to look back at her. I didn't dare. Instead, I marched to the door to leave.
"Wait Kai!" I hear her call. I turned my head back to glance at her, expecting to find her laughing her head of at my stupidity, but when I looked back, I saw neither laughter or mocking triumph in her eyes.
"What?!" I snapped.
"I-I…" She stammered. What was her deal? She just successfully humiliated me again and she seemed like she was GOING TO CRY???
I turned fully this time. Why the hell was she going to cry?!
"Kai, I…" She started again, but couldn't finish.
"I'm leaving." I said finally, closing the door behind me. Maybe I was too harsh the first time and I deserved every bit of humiliation.
I waited outside her door for any sign of that girl bursting into tears, I head none. I half wanted to peer inside to see what she was doing, but I stopped myself. I didn't know why I felt so…close to her.
I shrugged the thought away and continued to my own room. Making sure this time I had the right one. The one without a desk.
As I walked into my room, I caught sight of a note on my bed. I walked up to it and quickly unfolded the white stationary. It was a letter. I started to read it.
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Kai, I hate you. I really do. I don't care that it's unfair. I don't even want to listen to you anymore. It sickens me when I see people look at you. I am even more sickened when I see myself look at you. I'll admit solemnly to one fact though, I loved you from even the first time I saw you.
When I first laid eyes on you was my dreadful mistake. I shouldn't have done it. Because…I'll admit, to this very day, the image of your smile, frowns, scowls, smirks…are all in my head. Up till this very day. No matter how hard I try to forget it, it won't let me. Just as I know YOU wouldn't.
Oh how you wouldn't. Wouldn't free me from this inhumane torture of longing. Longing to see your face every day. I hate it. It just reminds me of how much I hate you…and love you just the same.
What am I saying? Love? You would not know of even what it meant. You always reminded me of the hatred you felt for me, not the love. Never the love. You wouldn't even admit this to yourself.
You are just a selfish bastard. A heartless backstabbing hell of a bastard. I can say as much as that. For all I know, you might be cursing me right now. In that logical head of yours. I'll bet no ones ever dared to say this to your face. I'll bet you made sure they'd never think of hating you. Or maybe you have? It just shows how cold-hearted a devil you are.
I wanted to stop this feeling of love. I hated it. It was like poison. Spreading slowly through out my body until I couldn't stand it anymore. I wanted to stop this torture, so I came to you. I wanted so much to slap the smirk of that handsome face.
Imagine my surprise when I told you just that with one stare. And gods of all gods, you laughed! You mocked this love I felt and walked away. From that time on, I hated you. Hated you from the very bone. From the deepest reaches of my soul.
Let's face it! You earned this! You wanted me to hate you. Even if you knew I'd never be able to do it.
That's when you decide to make your move, wasn't that right. You smoldered me with lots of your pretended affections and toyed with my feelings to your wicked heart's content.
"Let's be together forever." You said to me ever so endearingly one night. I remember that at least, you deceitful little bastard. I had believed it then. I was so naïve. Naïve enough to have fallen for that old trick. You had me then, didn't you? Thought you had me eating at the palm of your hand? Wrong.
Surprised? The great and mighty Kai, wrong? I'm mistaken aren't I? I'm mad you say? Insane to the most? I could have laughed. I wish I could see the look on your perfect face right now.
Oh, and by the way, don't skip the part you ditched me. Please. Flatter yourself with how easily I was caught by you. And also how easily you forgot about me.
You left me, Kai. Left me with your tyrant grandfather whose only purpose in life seemed to be too entirely preoccupied with my personal torture. Still, you didn't care. You left me in his care anyway. Oh how I loathe you…
After your pretended struggle to leave me then, I remember. That's right. I do remember that time. Even if we were only four years old then. You left me for that abbey in Russia, leaving me alone with YOUR grandfather who I had to live with. But I already told you about that part.
Ten years later, here you come into the scene. I tried to talk to you during the tournaments. Tried to ask what had really happened to you. I tried to warn you how much your grandfather had changed. That he no longer deserved your love. What did you do to me then? You ignored me. Told me to leave you be. Even if I did then, I never would have believed you'd forgotten me. Us. How could you? You heartless bastard.
I returned while you were alone in the lockers, getting ready to do battle. I hadn't realized then that you had changed too. Just like Lord Hiwatari had. I tried to ask you why you were treating me as if you didn't know me. You didn't even care to reply. You just stared into my face like I was some kind of spectacle. That took the cake, Kai. That's when I finally realized you HAD forgotten me.
This realization made me numb with pain. You could have slapped me and it would have hurt a whole lot less. That's just a glimpse of what you had done to me. Of how much you destroyed me with your aloofness.
That is why I must now forget you too. No matter how much it hurts me to do so. I will forget you.
Yes, forget you. Forget all the laughs we shared as kids. Forget how we used to bicker over who would get to read the comic book first. Argued endlessly on who would crush the other's blade. Also of how we used to snuggle together in your bed whenever there was a storm and how much you stood up for me when the other kids were making fun of me. I miss you Kai. I don't want to forget. Even if you have.
I don't want to talk about this anymore, for I don't want to drown you in all my sorrows. Just know, Kai, you will forever hold a special place in my empty heart. I love you.
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I don't know why, but at the end of the letter, my eyes burned with unshed tears. Her words struck me hard somewhere. I tore up the letter and dropped the pieces to the floor in disgust.
As I stood up to wash my eyes, one piece in particular caught my eye. I reluctantly picked it up and stared down at the three letters.
"I…love you too…" I whispered, not even paying attention to what I was saying as I held onto it with a clenched fist.
TBC…***
Author's Ending Notes:
Hmm…should this be the end? Yes? No? Actually, that letter was from Heartless Bastard. Pretty sad, no? Yeah…neways, should I continue??? You want a chapter four??? Oh yeah, and the name thing…I decided, if this is the end, I won't mention a name. You name her whatever you want to. So, please review! Ciao!