Kali: Sorry it took so long. I didn't feel like writting. Oo Even though this is the chapter that I've wanted to write the most... *Ish covered in bandages and had crutches* Not to mention SAM *Growls* Mangled me in the review so I had to go to the hospital. *Sulks* Oh well. Any way I hope you have enjoyed the story so far and that my slow updates haven't discouraged you! I WILL finish this story. ^^; no matter how long it takes.
Kurama and Hiei: *Snap fingers and sulk*
Kali: ^^;
Disclaimer: Come on... if I owned YYH this would be a episode... not a story. I only own the plot and ALL original characters. Take them and suffer. I don't own the song It's Over. That belongs to the Goo Goo Dolls, a very good band ^_~
// = Lyrics
~ = Thoughts
* = Flashbacks/sound effects
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//And I didn't think about
All the ways that I hurt you and myself
And I wouldn't say a thing to you
I keep it to myself in my mind//
Kurama bolted through the woods, his feet pounding the ground. He was in his youko form now, he had returned to it shortly after Shori had hit him and began to yell at him. He had made her cry... He had lied to her and disappointed her. He had let her down after all these years, just because he kept his identity from her... If he had told her before, this wouldn't of happened. He shook his head harshly. This was all stupid. Hadn't he promised himself years ago that he wouldn't do this? After his first mother had died... 1420 years ago. His thoughts were broken as he stummbled, falling forward, cutting his hands on teh sharp brush he handed on, scraping his knees on a rock.
//And I can't stand withouth you
And I won't find the answers when you're gone
And its over to you
But you can't find the answers where you are//
.:*:.
Hiei sat silently on the bed, looking between the others in the room. Most of them look uncomfortable, some sympathetic. They had all heard what happened. Hiei had woken up a minute or so before. Yuusuke and Kuwabara were sitting on Yuusukes bed. The spirit detective was staring out the window, Kuwabara staring at his hands. Shizuru was leaning on the wall by the door, staring at her shoes. Keiko was fidgeting with her sleeves, staring at her hands, while Botan was fummbling with a ring on her finger, her gaze caught up in teh shiney object. Yukina was looking at him, but looked like she was looking past him. Hiei wanted to hit them all and shout. They should be going after Kurama, not sitting here... Not letting him run off in his youko form. They hadn't seen it, but they had felt the change in his ki, and heard Shori's yelp shortly before a slamming door. Lord knows what Kurama might do in his youko form, or what attention he might attract. If humans saw him, it would mean alot of trouble for Reikai.
*Flash Back (Hiei's POV)*
Hiei slowly opened his eyes, letting out a small groan and sitting up. He could hear faint voices. One feminen, the other male. It had to have been Kurama and Shori. He flet a soft pair of hands on his back, making his eyes flick open. He was greeted with the faces of Yuusuke and Yukina. Both had smiles on, but they were strained and fake. Hie glanced aorund the room and sure enough Kurama and Shori weren't present. Hiei frowned, opening his mouth to ask, but Yuusuke beat him too it. "When we brought you and Kurama in... He was still half way into his demon form, and his mother is staying here so..." Hiei whinced slightly, knowing full and well that Shori finding out was a VERY big deal to the kitsune, not to mention he was in a tone of pain. His side kept sending jolts of agony up his spine. With a the gentle aiding of Yukina, plus a ever present unpleasent feeling at being so close to his twin, he sat upright on Yuusuke's bed and quietly sat with the rest listening. He could hear Shori's voice raising.
Kurama's voice though stayed the some level the entire time, if not getting quieter. SUddenly though, a sound rang loud and clear through the appartment. *CRACK* If it was possible to do sequinized whincing, then they did it. Hiei glared darkly at the door, trying to will himself to see through it. Shori was screaming now, though for some reason he found it nearly impossible to under stand what she was saying. Every now and agian a familar word would pop up. Eventually he gave up, when every one's head, except Keiko's jerked up. Kurama's ki exploded, and changed. Every one that was spiritually aware tensed, Kurama changed to his demon form. Silently Hiei prayed that Kurama could keep his youko temper in check. There was silentence before a series of quick footsteps and the slamming of the front door. Every one in the room was either now glancing around, or had their eyes focused on the door.
*End Flash Back*
Hiei could swear he heard Shori crying now, but he didn't seem to care. He glanced at the other two detective, breaking the silence. "We should go after him..." Yuusuke sighed, scratching the top of his head, "Wouldn't it be best though to--" Hiei cut him off though, his eyes flashing red, "To do what Yuusuke? TO sit here while he runs around nenginkai in his demon form taking his frusteration out on this world?" Botan frowned, "Hiei is right... We can't let him run around like that here. It would cause serious complications for Reikai, and even some for Kurama himself. Shizuru, Keiko, Yukina, and I can stay here and talk things out with Shori... You three would do best looking for Kurama." The two boys nodded, Hiei already standing by the door. Pulling it open he stepped out, and made his way to the front door. SHori was sitting on the floor infront of the couch whispering something that sounded like, "What have I done?" Hiei was more then happy to answer her. "Something stupid."
She quietly glanced up at him, reconizing him as one of Suiichi's friends, aswell as the other injured boy they had brought in. She moved to stay something, but Hiei had already pulled open the door and was gone in a black blur. Yuusuke poked his head out just in time to see Hiei leave. He sulked slightly, "I wish he wouldn't do that..." With that he ran out the door, Kuwabara close behind, leaving the 4 girls to talk to Shori.
.:*:.
*Flash Back (Kurama's POV)*
*CRACK* For a moment time seemed to stop. Both Kurama and Shori sat in silence. After a moment Shori pulled her hand back, staring at it as if it had gorwned another finger. Slowly she looked back at Kurama, he had his head down. Quietly she spoke, her voice rising as she went. "Why? Why! Why couldn't you have been normal!? Why did you pick me!? ANSWER ME!" Kurama just sat there as she screamed at him, asking more and more questions, tears in her eyes, trailing down her face. He looked up at her, her eye speaking volumes. Betrayal, sadness, confusion, doubt, guilt, anger. He let her yell until she had nothing left to say. Then after a minute or so she said something, something spoken quietly, yet it seemed so very loud. "I hate you..." Kurama's eyes opened wide for a moment, and then slid shut. He had seen this coming, and yet, he didn't think that it would acutally happen. He stood silently, his back to her, and answering in the same soft tone he spoke, "I love you too." With that he changed.
He could feel his body and hair grow longer, his clothes shift. His ears moved up the side of his face to perch upon the top of his head. A long silken tail poked out of the hole in the back of his tunic, his skin growing paler. Shori watched in stunned silence as suddenly he bolted out the door in a silver blur, leaving two darkened spots on the carpet... Tears.
*End Flash Back*
//And you know I need you now
And this ain't easy to admit
But no one needs to know
What does on behind the door in my room//
He was weak and a fool. He honesty believe he could keep this all a secret from a human woman with all the missions he had to go on? All the nights that he came home late covered in blood, all the missing medical supplies and ruined sheets? He was weak for having to depend on her any way. He hadn't needed any one since he was 7, and he shouldn't ever have to depend on the feelings of any one again. He let out a growl, his teeth clenched, fists pressed into the ground, his claws digging into his palms, making tiny beads of blood appear. His golden eyes blinked rapidly, his eyes stung. He was crying? He hadn't cried in a very long time... Atleast in his demon life that is. Not even when Korunue died had he cried... He had come very close to it... but he never did. He had thought he lost the ability to cry a while back. He tilted his head up towards the now night sky, his silken silver hair falling back. When was the last time Youko Kurama had cried out of saddness, not pain?
//I'm kicking through the walls in my mind
And I can't stand without you
And I won't find the answers when you're gone
But it's over to you//
When he was 14... yes, he remembered. shortly after the last of the orphans him and Korunue had been raising died, Korunue disappeared. Kurama thought that the Chimera had disappeared, had left him, and he cried out of anguish, hate, guilt, longing. When Korunue disappeared he had been left alone again, for the second time in his life, but deffinitly not the last. He sighed, his eyes now half lidded. He hadn't really thought back on his life often, he didn't want too, it wasn't something he liked seeing. The first 400 years of his life were full of pain, sorrow, fury, and anguish. After that he became cold and crule, killing and stealing with out second though. Life had beaten him down, and so he was ready to beat back, to show every one else, innocent or not, what it was like to be used and mistreated. He shook his head, not wanting to deal with the thoughts. He stood, finally unclenching his fists, letting little drops of blood trickle off the tips of his fingers from the creasent shaped wounds in his palm.
//I can't find the answer when you're gone
And it's over to you
You can't find the answer where you are
I won't tear you down//
He glanced around, finally noting his surroundings. After he ran from Yuusuke's apartment he hadn't paid much mind to where he was going. He appeared as only a silver blur, but only to those who were some what spiritually aware, which was most people. He now noted he was in teh park, luckily away from most of the well used paths. Silently, with grace and stealth, he made his way to the largest tree within site. Leaping up onto the lowest branch he climb the rest of the way, setting into a large nest of branch's that sagged gently under his weight, craddling him. He sat like this for maybe 5 or so minutes when a dark ki entered his sense's. ~Hiei...~ He wasn't sure if he wanted to see the koorime now, still troubled from the events that happened no more then 10 or 12 minutes before. Before he could decide on weather or not to let the koorime see him, Hiei appeared in a black blur before him. Red eyes gazing forward from the shadowed face to meet his own gold ones. Kurama gave a half hearted smile in greeting.
//I won't tear you down
To get into the world you wanted
I'm kicking through the walls
But no one can believe//
Hiei saw through the smile though. First of Youko Kurama wasn't one to smile often and when he did he was either extremly happy, or muddled up inside. Hiei picked the latter of the two. If Kurama was happy now, then something came loose up in his head, either that or his love for Shori had been fake all this time, and Hiei doubted that. Kurama's silence and unblinking stare was starting to annoy Hiei. He moved forward, grabbing Kurama's left arma dn pulling him forward. Kruama blinked as when he was half way forward Hiei disappeared. Slowly Kurama began to fall back when suddenly he was met with something warm and soft. Hiei had moved behind him, letting the large youko lean against him. Softly Kurama sighed, snuggling back into the fire demon, his facce growing weary and tired. Hiei placed his arms around the youko, his two hands clasping together on Kurama's chest. They sat like that for a minute or so when Hiei felt something warm land on his hand.
//In things that never change
But it's over to you
I can't find the answers when you're gone
And it's over to you//
Blinking Hiei pulled his hand into veiw, his eyes widening ever so slightly in suprise. A tiny drop of warm water rested on his hand. ~Tears? Kurama is crying?~ Hiei frowned, turning the youko to him, finding sad gold eyes gazing at him. The youko's eyes shimmered slightly with unshead tears, and sighing Hiei pulled Kurama too him, letting the demon nuzzle his face into Hiei's chest. Silently Hiei rested his head ontop of Kurama's and the two drifted off into a restless sleep.
//You can't find the answers where you are
And it's over to you
I can't find the answers when you're gone
And it's over to you
You can't find teh answers where you are//
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Kali: Oo Done... that only took me like a hour... I'm suprised. ^^; Sorry if Kurama seems weak to you, but I have a theory that Youko Kurama acts cold because life was a real bitch to him when he was little so years of abuse, physical, sexual, verbal, and mental, shaped him into the cold hearted theif Youko Kurama. *Noddes to herself*
Kurama: ...
Hiei: Oo Youko Kurama crying? Why can't I see that?
Kurama: *Sulks* Whats that supposed to mean?
Hiei: -_- I didn't mean it like that. Baka no kitsune.
Kurama: *sulks and hugs Hiei*
Nuria: *Takes notes for future boyfriends* *Cackles*
Kali: *Reads Nuria's notes* Oo Your one creepy 4 year old... R&R! *Ish thinking of starting chapter 10 now* Oh yesh, the story will be done in about another 3-4 chapters. THE FINAL FIGHT IS COMING UP! ^^; And Shori and Kurama need to work out their issues. *Ish beamed with a flower pot* X.x
Kurama and Hiei: *Snap fingers and sulk*
Kali: ^^;
Disclaimer: Come on... if I owned YYH this would be a episode... not a story. I only own the plot and ALL original characters. Take them and suffer. I don't own the song It's Over. That belongs to the Goo Goo Dolls, a very good band ^_~
// = Lyrics
~ = Thoughts
* = Flashbacks/sound effects
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//And I didn't think about
All the ways that I hurt you and myself
And I wouldn't say a thing to you
I keep it to myself in my mind//
Kurama bolted through the woods, his feet pounding the ground. He was in his youko form now, he had returned to it shortly after Shori had hit him and began to yell at him. He had made her cry... He had lied to her and disappointed her. He had let her down after all these years, just because he kept his identity from her... If he had told her before, this wouldn't of happened. He shook his head harshly. This was all stupid. Hadn't he promised himself years ago that he wouldn't do this? After his first mother had died... 1420 years ago. His thoughts were broken as he stummbled, falling forward, cutting his hands on teh sharp brush he handed on, scraping his knees on a rock.
//And I can't stand withouth you
And I won't find the answers when you're gone
And its over to you
But you can't find the answers where you are//
.:*:.
Hiei sat silently on the bed, looking between the others in the room. Most of them look uncomfortable, some sympathetic. They had all heard what happened. Hiei had woken up a minute or so before. Yuusuke and Kuwabara were sitting on Yuusukes bed. The spirit detective was staring out the window, Kuwabara staring at his hands. Shizuru was leaning on the wall by the door, staring at her shoes. Keiko was fidgeting with her sleeves, staring at her hands, while Botan was fummbling with a ring on her finger, her gaze caught up in teh shiney object. Yukina was looking at him, but looked like she was looking past him. Hiei wanted to hit them all and shout. They should be going after Kurama, not sitting here... Not letting him run off in his youko form. They hadn't seen it, but they had felt the change in his ki, and heard Shori's yelp shortly before a slamming door. Lord knows what Kurama might do in his youko form, or what attention he might attract. If humans saw him, it would mean alot of trouble for Reikai.
*Flash Back (Hiei's POV)*
Hiei slowly opened his eyes, letting out a small groan and sitting up. He could hear faint voices. One feminen, the other male. It had to have been Kurama and Shori. He flet a soft pair of hands on his back, making his eyes flick open. He was greeted with the faces of Yuusuke and Yukina. Both had smiles on, but they were strained and fake. Hie glanced aorund the room and sure enough Kurama and Shori weren't present. Hiei frowned, opening his mouth to ask, but Yuusuke beat him too it. "When we brought you and Kurama in... He was still half way into his demon form, and his mother is staying here so..." Hiei whinced slightly, knowing full and well that Shori finding out was a VERY big deal to the kitsune, not to mention he was in a tone of pain. His side kept sending jolts of agony up his spine. With a the gentle aiding of Yukina, plus a ever present unpleasent feeling at being so close to his twin, he sat upright on Yuusuke's bed and quietly sat with the rest listening. He could hear Shori's voice raising.
Kurama's voice though stayed the some level the entire time, if not getting quieter. SUddenly though, a sound rang loud and clear through the appartment. *CRACK* If it was possible to do sequinized whincing, then they did it. Hiei glared darkly at the door, trying to will himself to see through it. Shori was screaming now, though for some reason he found it nearly impossible to under stand what she was saying. Every now and agian a familar word would pop up. Eventually he gave up, when every one's head, except Keiko's jerked up. Kurama's ki exploded, and changed. Every one that was spiritually aware tensed, Kurama changed to his demon form. Silently Hiei prayed that Kurama could keep his youko temper in check. There was silentence before a series of quick footsteps and the slamming of the front door. Every one in the room was either now glancing around, or had their eyes focused on the door.
*End Flash Back*
Hiei could swear he heard Shori crying now, but he didn't seem to care. He glanced at the other two detective, breaking the silence. "We should go after him..." Yuusuke sighed, scratching the top of his head, "Wouldn't it be best though to--" Hiei cut him off though, his eyes flashing red, "To do what Yuusuke? TO sit here while he runs around nenginkai in his demon form taking his frusteration out on this world?" Botan frowned, "Hiei is right... We can't let him run around like that here. It would cause serious complications for Reikai, and even some for Kurama himself. Shizuru, Keiko, Yukina, and I can stay here and talk things out with Shori... You three would do best looking for Kurama." The two boys nodded, Hiei already standing by the door. Pulling it open he stepped out, and made his way to the front door. SHori was sitting on the floor infront of the couch whispering something that sounded like, "What have I done?" Hiei was more then happy to answer her. "Something stupid."
She quietly glanced up at him, reconizing him as one of Suiichi's friends, aswell as the other injured boy they had brought in. She moved to stay something, but Hiei had already pulled open the door and was gone in a black blur. Yuusuke poked his head out just in time to see Hiei leave. He sulked slightly, "I wish he wouldn't do that..." With that he ran out the door, Kuwabara close behind, leaving the 4 girls to talk to Shori.
.:*:.
*Flash Back (Kurama's POV)*
*CRACK* For a moment time seemed to stop. Both Kurama and Shori sat in silence. After a moment Shori pulled her hand back, staring at it as if it had gorwned another finger. Slowly she looked back at Kurama, he had his head down. Quietly she spoke, her voice rising as she went. "Why? Why! Why couldn't you have been normal!? Why did you pick me!? ANSWER ME!" Kurama just sat there as she screamed at him, asking more and more questions, tears in her eyes, trailing down her face. He looked up at her, her eye speaking volumes. Betrayal, sadness, confusion, doubt, guilt, anger. He let her yell until she had nothing left to say. Then after a minute or so she said something, something spoken quietly, yet it seemed so very loud. "I hate you..." Kurama's eyes opened wide for a moment, and then slid shut. He had seen this coming, and yet, he didn't think that it would acutally happen. He stood silently, his back to her, and answering in the same soft tone he spoke, "I love you too." With that he changed.
He could feel his body and hair grow longer, his clothes shift. His ears moved up the side of his face to perch upon the top of his head. A long silken tail poked out of the hole in the back of his tunic, his skin growing paler. Shori watched in stunned silence as suddenly he bolted out the door in a silver blur, leaving two darkened spots on the carpet... Tears.
*End Flash Back*
//And you know I need you now
And this ain't easy to admit
But no one needs to know
What does on behind the door in my room//
He was weak and a fool. He honesty believe he could keep this all a secret from a human woman with all the missions he had to go on? All the nights that he came home late covered in blood, all the missing medical supplies and ruined sheets? He was weak for having to depend on her any way. He hadn't needed any one since he was 7, and he shouldn't ever have to depend on the feelings of any one again. He let out a growl, his teeth clenched, fists pressed into the ground, his claws digging into his palms, making tiny beads of blood appear. His golden eyes blinked rapidly, his eyes stung. He was crying? He hadn't cried in a very long time... Atleast in his demon life that is. Not even when Korunue died had he cried... He had come very close to it... but he never did. He had thought he lost the ability to cry a while back. He tilted his head up towards the now night sky, his silken silver hair falling back. When was the last time Youko Kurama had cried out of saddness, not pain?
//I'm kicking through the walls in my mind
And I can't stand without you
And I won't find the answers when you're gone
But it's over to you//
When he was 14... yes, he remembered. shortly after the last of the orphans him and Korunue had been raising died, Korunue disappeared. Kurama thought that the Chimera had disappeared, had left him, and he cried out of anguish, hate, guilt, longing. When Korunue disappeared he had been left alone again, for the second time in his life, but deffinitly not the last. He sighed, his eyes now half lidded. He hadn't really thought back on his life often, he didn't want too, it wasn't something he liked seeing. The first 400 years of his life were full of pain, sorrow, fury, and anguish. After that he became cold and crule, killing and stealing with out second though. Life had beaten him down, and so he was ready to beat back, to show every one else, innocent or not, what it was like to be used and mistreated. He shook his head, not wanting to deal with the thoughts. He stood, finally unclenching his fists, letting little drops of blood trickle off the tips of his fingers from the creasent shaped wounds in his palm.
//I can't find the answer when you're gone
And it's over to you
You can't find the answer where you are
I won't tear you down//
He glanced around, finally noting his surroundings. After he ran from Yuusuke's apartment he hadn't paid much mind to where he was going. He appeared as only a silver blur, but only to those who were some what spiritually aware, which was most people. He now noted he was in teh park, luckily away from most of the well used paths. Silently, with grace and stealth, he made his way to the largest tree within site. Leaping up onto the lowest branch he climb the rest of the way, setting into a large nest of branch's that sagged gently under his weight, craddling him. He sat like this for maybe 5 or so minutes when a dark ki entered his sense's. ~Hiei...~ He wasn't sure if he wanted to see the koorime now, still troubled from the events that happened no more then 10 or 12 minutes before. Before he could decide on weather or not to let the koorime see him, Hiei appeared in a black blur before him. Red eyes gazing forward from the shadowed face to meet his own gold ones. Kurama gave a half hearted smile in greeting.
//I won't tear you down
To get into the world you wanted
I'm kicking through the walls
But no one can believe//
Hiei saw through the smile though. First of Youko Kurama wasn't one to smile often and when he did he was either extremly happy, or muddled up inside. Hiei picked the latter of the two. If Kurama was happy now, then something came loose up in his head, either that or his love for Shori had been fake all this time, and Hiei doubted that. Kurama's silence and unblinking stare was starting to annoy Hiei. He moved forward, grabbing Kurama's left arma dn pulling him forward. Kruama blinked as when he was half way forward Hiei disappeared. Slowly Kurama began to fall back when suddenly he was met with something warm and soft. Hiei had moved behind him, letting the large youko lean against him. Softly Kurama sighed, snuggling back into the fire demon, his facce growing weary and tired. Hiei placed his arms around the youko, his two hands clasping together on Kurama's chest. They sat like that for a minute or so when Hiei felt something warm land on his hand.
//In things that never change
But it's over to you
I can't find the answers when you're gone
And it's over to you//
Blinking Hiei pulled his hand into veiw, his eyes widening ever so slightly in suprise. A tiny drop of warm water rested on his hand. ~Tears? Kurama is crying?~ Hiei frowned, turning the youko to him, finding sad gold eyes gazing at him. The youko's eyes shimmered slightly with unshead tears, and sighing Hiei pulled Kurama too him, letting the demon nuzzle his face into Hiei's chest. Silently Hiei rested his head ontop of Kurama's and the two drifted off into a restless sleep.
//You can't find the answers where you are
And it's over to you
I can't find the answers when you're gone
And it's over to you
You can't find teh answers where you are//
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Kali: Oo Done... that only took me like a hour... I'm suprised. ^^; Sorry if Kurama seems weak to you, but I have a theory that Youko Kurama acts cold because life was a real bitch to him when he was little so years of abuse, physical, sexual, verbal, and mental, shaped him into the cold hearted theif Youko Kurama. *Noddes to herself*
Kurama: ...
Hiei: Oo Youko Kurama crying? Why can't I see that?
Kurama: *Sulks* Whats that supposed to mean?
Hiei: -_- I didn't mean it like that. Baka no kitsune.
Kurama: *sulks and hugs Hiei*
Nuria: *Takes notes for future boyfriends* *Cackles*
Kali: *Reads Nuria's notes* Oo Your one creepy 4 year old... R&R! *Ish thinking of starting chapter 10 now* Oh yesh, the story will be done in about another 3-4 chapters. THE FINAL FIGHT IS COMING UP! ^^; And Shori and Kurama need to work out their issues. *Ish beamed with a flower pot* X.x