SESSION #5 APOLGIA FOR GRIEF
Beast Boy brought his hand to his cheek and touched it where Raven had slapped him. There was a red glowing hand mark on it. Beast Boy could feel a unbearable heat flush through it. He stared at the ground then at Raven. The feeling of embarrassment was too much for him to bear. The heat had spread from his face to his whole body. He was starting to feel a unbearable chill so he wrapped himself in his arm's.. His eyes began to water so he walked towards the flight of stair's that lead to the roof. He was trying to get away from the people, and from Raven. He didn't want to feel anymore embarrassment. He stopped at the entrance and turned around. He was looking at Raven as if she had dealt him a physical blow to the chest. Raven looked into his eyes and saw hurt. Those olive green eyes of his now looked like a doll's eyes. The kind of eyes that stare at you like they're peering into your soul. You try to do the same, but you only see emptiness. This is what Raven saw, emptiness. Beast Boy took one last glance and wiped his nose. He placed his hand over his chest where his heart would be and turned around slowly, steadily making his way to the roof. Raven couldn't believe what she had done. She lowered her hand and stared at it. "Did I.., did I do that she asked herself. "Robin, Beast Boy need's help she say's as she motion's toward the roof. "No don't said Robin as he grab's Starfire's wrist. "I think they have to work this out by themselves. "But, Robin.., Raven and Beast Boy need comfort.."No, Star, right now what they need is some time to talk it over. 'Oh, s**t...,.This is SO not good. Cyborg thought to himself. He needed to break up this silence. He didn't want anyone in the crowd talking about this. "Poor little dude he said to himself as he shakes head. "Might as well try to ease the situation. Yo! Everybody, let's get back to dancing he shouted through his microphone. Cyborg laid down " Gotta knock a little harder" (A Cowboy Bebop song, trust me on this one, it is very good. )and everyone slowly began to dance again till it got normal. It was sort of a slow song so everyone who could get a partner danced.
Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference
Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference
"This all I can do to ease the moment Raven, I hope you and BB could patch this up. He took another look at Raven and shook his head. People already got over the scene where Raven had slapped Beast Boy, but Raven stood still on the same spot. She sighed and rubbed the side of her arm. That was a horrible thing to do she said to herself. She looks up at the door that lead to the roof. "I.., have to apologize to him..., she slowly picked up her courage and made her way to the roof.
Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in
Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in .
"I hope they're alright said Robin as he danced with Starfire. "I am as well concerned Starfire replied as she hugged his neck. "We all are, Star, we all are. Raven climbed the flight of stairs and looked for Beast Boy. She was gliding across the roof when she stopped and hid behind a air conditioner. She saw Beast Boy sitting on the edge of the roof. He was looking at the moon and was talking to himself.
Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condidtion
Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession .
"I can't believe she did that. He touches his cheek again. She actually slapped me he said to himself. Beast Boy wipes a tear of his face. I just wanted to have some fun with her. "She looks just look's so lonely.., I just wanted to have a good time with her. Beast Boy sniffs his nose and wipes it on his sleeve. I guess it was actually my fault. I was a total jerk back there, embarrassing her like that. I deserved it. Beast Boy slump's his shoulder's and fall's backwards on the floor. Putting his arm's behind his head, he looked at the moon. Beast Boy imagined Ravens face on the moon, and that she was staring back at him. The moon is so calm, so serene, and.., he might as well say it, no one was around or at least that's what he thought, so beautiful, just like Raven. Raven gasped. "Hmm... what was that? Most of been a bird or something he say's as he turn's around and find's nothing there. Raven cupped her hands around her mouth. Beast Boy shrug's his shoulder's and goes back to thinking. "He think's I'm beautiful? This cannot be happening, he has a crush on me. She sighed, It'll be hard to tell him that I don't feel the same. "So you don't like him?, asked her conscience. "No, I do like him, but he's not really my type. "So what is your type it asked. "Someone who's optimistic, brave, strong and isn't afraid to share their feeling's with me.
I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission
The burning ghost without a name
Was calling all the same
But I wouldn't listen .
There was a moment of silence between the two. "But isn't that everything Beast Boy is? "What?! No, no, no! He's not even close. He is too childish. "But he is the only one who best fit's your description. As you can tell now, he isn't afraid to cry. Raven pouted, she knew that her conscience was right. Several bolts from the ground then began to rise into the air. "Can you tell what that word is? "What word her conscience asked. The word that resembles "like" but stronger. "You mean love?" "Yeah, that, can you tell if I love him? I've been having this pain in my stomach whenever he passes me by. It hurts and my powers lose control. He makes my head spin, but only for a few second's, but those few seconds feel like minutes when I try to keep in control. I've never been able to feel love before, is this it?" "You tell me" " I asked you first" "I think you already know the answer whispered her conscience as it trailed off. Raven stood there for a couple and seconds and made up her mind. "I know the answer...she said to herself" Several bolts then dropped on her head and made loud clanking noises as it hit the floor. Raven rubbed it and snickered "I do.."
The longer I'd stall
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
The harder I'd fall I was crawlin' into the fire
The more that I saw
The further I'd fall The further I'd fall
The lower I'd crawl I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire Into the fire
"Hey whose there shouted Beast Boy as he turned around. To his surprise, Raven popped out from behind the air conditioner. "Whoa! Don't do that Beast Boy said. "Oh, it's you.., Beast Boy looks into Ravens eyes. 'They're so sad she said to herself' Beast Boy shook off this moment of silence and took in a deep breath. He was readying himself for what he was about to say, he then let exhaled all of the air and began. Okay first of all I'm really sorry Raven. I didn't mean to, he began to say through frantic sentences. Raven wasn't listening to a word he was saying. She knew that he was already sorry. "So can you please forgive he said as he fell on his knees begging for forgiveness. "Beast Boy get up she said in her monotone voice. "I've come here to apologize to you." "Really he asked arching a eyebrow. "Really, she replied. I was hiding behind here and I heard everything you said about me. "You mean what I heard weren't birds?"
Suddenly it occurred to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existnce
Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse that this
But could I go the distance
Raven shook her head.. Beast Boy's face began to turn to a bright scarlet. He covered his face in embarrassment. "Man, I knew that it wasn't birds" "No, there was only one.", she walks over to Beast Boy and pulls his hand from his face. "And she's really sorry" "Yeah, but I can't believe you slapped me" "I can't believe you twirled me she retorted. "Oh, sorry about that he said pouting. "It was fun though.." "Really said Beast Boy as he face lightened up. "Really she replied, but next time warn me before you do anything like that or else, She hold's up a fist to Beast Boy nose. "Ok Raven, I'll ask first as he backed away. "Good, she smiled. "Hey, did you just smile? Asked Beast Boy. "No, she replied quickly. The air conditioner behind them shook and exploded. "You did, didn't you? Grinned Beast Boy. "If you tell anyone, I'll knock your sock's off. Beast Boy looked at her for a couple of second's till a chuckle reached his lips. He placed a hand over his mouth but he couldn't resist.
I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken
But no matter how I tried
The other side was licked so tight
That door it wouldn't open
He took them off his mouth and began laughing while grabbing his sides. Beast Boy could hear a faint giggle, and he looked up. Raven was laughing to! Beast Boy couldn't believe it! This has to be real he said as he felt the wind kick up from behind him. Leaves began to break away from there branches and they swirled around them. The two laughed some more, and light bulb's on street lamps began to burst and shatter. "Okay, Raven, I think we've done enough damage said Beast Boy through breath's of air. Laughing so hard left a person so exhausted. Raven slowly calmed down and by using telekinesis, put their hat's back on each other's head. "Let's go back to the party she said as she grabbed his hand. Beast Boy jerked it back. "Wait Raven." "What is it?" she asked "Well I was thinking that maybe we could just stay up on the roof for a moment longer, and you know finish the song. Raven stared at him and gulped. Another street lamp shatters in the distance. "Sure, but this is a slow song, do you think that- "Yeah he said cutting her off. Beast Boy slowly took Raven's hand and put it around his neck. Raven grabbed his palm's and put it on her waist. "We'll take it slow, okay Beast Boy?" "Sure he replied.
Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get
through the door
The two began to move from side to side. Beast Boy sometimes stepped on her foot, but Raven didn't mind. She felt the strange pain again in her stomach. She felt warmth shot throughout her whole body. She sighed and placed her chin on Beast Boy's shoulder, she had a idea. Beast Boy ears began to twitch as he felt her breath caress his neck. "Hold on, she whispered. "Okay he said as he wrapped his arm's around her waist. Beast Boy could feel all his cares float away, like he was being swept off his feet. In fact, his feet weren't even touching the ground! "Whoa what the- "Shhh.. I need concentration. She hugged his neck tighter and two were floating in mid air, inches off the ground. "Now this is cool, he said as he looked at the ground. "It is isn't it?" The two looked at each other. Beast Boy having his silly grin on his face while Raven gave him a full smile. The two held each other in their arms and swayed back and forth to the music.
And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
The harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door
They didn't even notice the pair of emerald eyes smiling at the two. "Starfire, I thought I said- "Shh..be quiet Robin Starfire said as she clapped his mouth shut. "Look she sais as she pointed at the two. "Hey, they worked it out after all said Robin with a grin. "We'll just leave them alone, okay Star?" "Do, we have to Robin, they look so happy. "It's curiousty that killed the cat, Star." "Where is the cat whom you speak off Robin?" Starfire look's left then right, I do not see him. Robin anime sweatdrop's. "Let's just go and leave them alone he said as he pryed her away from the scene. Back down at the party Cyborg was waiting for them at the turntable's. "So are they alright? He asked. "Yeah they're fine Robin said. "Whew, I thought was going down between the two when I heard gusts of wind and exploding metal." "Yes everything is fine now said Starfire. "So when are they coming down asked Cyborg. "Maybe when the song is done said Robin. "Oh, let me go check say's Starfire with a mysterious grin on her face as she left to the roof again. "Star wait! Robin called out to her but to no avail. "She's a romantic isn't she said Cyborg. "Yup he replied as he rubbed his forehead.
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break down the door......
AWWW..THEY MADE UP! ISN'T THAT NICE. BUT YOUR PROBABLY ASKING YOUSELF RIGHT NOW. "Where's the action?" WELL IT'S COMING UP IN MY NEXT CHAPTER, PLEASE REVIEW. *bow's down*
I do not own Teen Titan's, so there.
Beast Boy brought his hand to his cheek and touched it where Raven had slapped him. There was a red glowing hand mark on it. Beast Boy could feel a unbearable heat flush through it. He stared at the ground then at Raven. The feeling of embarrassment was too much for him to bear. The heat had spread from his face to his whole body. He was starting to feel a unbearable chill so he wrapped himself in his arm's.. His eyes began to water so he walked towards the flight of stair's that lead to the roof. He was trying to get away from the people, and from Raven. He didn't want to feel anymore embarrassment. He stopped at the entrance and turned around. He was looking at Raven as if she had dealt him a physical blow to the chest. Raven looked into his eyes and saw hurt. Those olive green eyes of his now looked like a doll's eyes. The kind of eyes that stare at you like they're peering into your soul. You try to do the same, but you only see emptiness. This is what Raven saw, emptiness. Beast Boy took one last glance and wiped his nose. He placed his hand over his chest where his heart would be and turned around slowly, steadily making his way to the roof. Raven couldn't believe what she had done. She lowered her hand and stared at it. "Did I.., did I do that she asked herself. "Robin, Beast Boy need's help she say's as she motion's toward the roof. "No don't said Robin as he grab's Starfire's wrist. "I think they have to work this out by themselves. "But, Robin.., Raven and Beast Boy need comfort.."No, Star, right now what they need is some time to talk it over. 'Oh, s**t...,.This is SO not good. Cyborg thought to himself. He needed to break up this silence. He didn't want anyone in the crowd talking about this. "Poor little dude he said to himself as he shakes head. "Might as well try to ease the situation. Yo! Everybody, let's get back to dancing he shouted through his microphone. Cyborg laid down " Gotta knock a little harder" (A Cowboy Bebop song, trust me on this one, it is very good. )and everyone slowly began to dance again till it got normal. It was sort of a slow song so everyone who could get a partner danced.
Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference
Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference
"This all I can do to ease the moment Raven, I hope you and BB could patch this up. He took another look at Raven and shook his head. People already got over the scene where Raven had slapped Beast Boy, but Raven stood still on the same spot. She sighed and rubbed the side of her arm. That was a horrible thing to do she said to herself. She looks up at the door that lead to the roof. "I.., have to apologize to him..., she slowly picked up her courage and made her way to the roof.
Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in
Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in .
"I hope they're alright said Robin as he danced with Starfire. "I am as well concerned Starfire replied as she hugged his neck. "We all are, Star, we all are. Raven climbed the flight of stairs and looked for Beast Boy. She was gliding across the roof when she stopped and hid behind a air conditioner. She saw Beast Boy sitting on the edge of the roof. He was looking at the moon and was talking to himself.
Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condidtion
Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession .
"I can't believe she did that. He touches his cheek again. She actually slapped me he said to himself. Beast Boy wipes a tear of his face. I just wanted to have some fun with her. "She looks just look's so lonely.., I just wanted to have a good time with her. Beast Boy sniffs his nose and wipes it on his sleeve. I guess it was actually my fault. I was a total jerk back there, embarrassing her like that. I deserved it. Beast Boy slump's his shoulder's and fall's backwards on the floor. Putting his arm's behind his head, he looked at the moon. Beast Boy imagined Ravens face on the moon, and that she was staring back at him. The moon is so calm, so serene, and.., he might as well say it, no one was around or at least that's what he thought, so beautiful, just like Raven. Raven gasped. "Hmm... what was that? Most of been a bird or something he say's as he turn's around and find's nothing there. Raven cupped her hands around her mouth. Beast Boy shrug's his shoulder's and goes back to thinking. "He think's I'm beautiful? This cannot be happening, he has a crush on me. She sighed, It'll be hard to tell him that I don't feel the same. "So you don't like him?, asked her conscience. "No, I do like him, but he's not really my type. "So what is your type it asked. "Someone who's optimistic, brave, strong and isn't afraid to share their feeling's with me.
I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission
The burning ghost without a name
Was calling all the same
But I wouldn't listen .
There was a moment of silence between the two. "But isn't that everything Beast Boy is? "What?! No, no, no! He's not even close. He is too childish. "But he is the only one who best fit's your description. As you can tell now, he isn't afraid to cry. Raven pouted, she knew that her conscience was right. Several bolts from the ground then began to rise into the air. "Can you tell what that word is? "What word her conscience asked. The word that resembles "like" but stronger. "You mean love?" "Yeah, that, can you tell if I love him? I've been having this pain in my stomach whenever he passes me by. It hurts and my powers lose control. He makes my head spin, but only for a few second's, but those few seconds feel like minutes when I try to keep in control. I've never been able to feel love before, is this it?" "You tell me" " I asked you first" "I think you already know the answer whispered her conscience as it trailed off. Raven stood there for a couple and seconds and made up her mind. "I know the answer...she said to herself" Several bolts then dropped on her head and made loud clanking noises as it hit the floor. Raven rubbed it and snickered "I do.."
The longer I'd stall
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
The harder I'd fall I was crawlin' into the fire
The more that I saw
The further I'd fall The further I'd fall
The lower I'd crawl I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire Into the fire
"Hey whose there shouted Beast Boy as he turned around. To his surprise, Raven popped out from behind the air conditioner. "Whoa! Don't do that Beast Boy said. "Oh, it's you.., Beast Boy looks into Ravens eyes. 'They're so sad she said to herself' Beast Boy shook off this moment of silence and took in a deep breath. He was readying himself for what he was about to say, he then let exhaled all of the air and began. Okay first of all I'm really sorry Raven. I didn't mean to, he began to say through frantic sentences. Raven wasn't listening to a word he was saying. She knew that he was already sorry. "So can you please forgive he said as he fell on his knees begging for forgiveness. "Beast Boy get up she said in her monotone voice. "I've come here to apologize to you." "Really he asked arching a eyebrow. "Really, she replied. I was hiding behind here and I heard everything you said about me. "You mean what I heard weren't birds?"
Suddenly it occurred to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existnce
Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse that this
But could I go the distance
Raven shook her head.. Beast Boy's face began to turn to a bright scarlet. He covered his face in embarrassment. "Man, I knew that it wasn't birds" "No, there was only one.", she walks over to Beast Boy and pulls his hand from his face. "And she's really sorry" "Yeah, but I can't believe you slapped me" "I can't believe you twirled me she retorted. "Oh, sorry about that he said pouting. "It was fun though.." "Really said Beast Boy as he face lightened up. "Really she replied, but next time warn me before you do anything like that or else, She hold's up a fist to Beast Boy nose. "Ok Raven, I'll ask first as he backed away. "Good, she smiled. "Hey, did you just smile? Asked Beast Boy. "No, she replied quickly. The air conditioner behind them shook and exploded. "You did, didn't you? Grinned Beast Boy. "If you tell anyone, I'll knock your sock's off. Beast Boy looked at her for a couple of second's till a chuckle reached his lips. He placed a hand over his mouth but he couldn't resist.
I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken
But no matter how I tried
The other side was licked so tight
That door it wouldn't open
He took them off his mouth and began laughing while grabbing his sides. Beast Boy could hear a faint giggle, and he looked up. Raven was laughing to! Beast Boy couldn't believe it! This has to be real he said as he felt the wind kick up from behind him. Leaves began to break away from there branches and they swirled around them. The two laughed some more, and light bulb's on street lamps began to burst and shatter. "Okay, Raven, I think we've done enough damage said Beast Boy through breath's of air. Laughing so hard left a person so exhausted. Raven slowly calmed down and by using telekinesis, put their hat's back on each other's head. "Let's go back to the party she said as she grabbed his hand. Beast Boy jerked it back. "Wait Raven." "What is it?" she asked "Well I was thinking that maybe we could just stay up on the roof for a moment longer, and you know finish the song. Raven stared at him and gulped. Another street lamp shatters in the distance. "Sure, but this is a slow song, do you think that- "Yeah he said cutting her off. Beast Boy slowly took Raven's hand and put it around his neck. Raven grabbed his palm's and put it on her waist. "We'll take it slow, okay Beast Boy?" "Sure he replied.
Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get
through the door
The two began to move from side to side. Beast Boy sometimes stepped on her foot, but Raven didn't mind. She felt the strange pain again in her stomach. She felt warmth shot throughout her whole body. She sighed and placed her chin on Beast Boy's shoulder, she had a idea. Beast Boy ears began to twitch as he felt her breath caress his neck. "Hold on, she whispered. "Okay he said as he wrapped his arm's around her waist. Beast Boy could feel all his cares float away, like he was being swept off his feet. In fact, his feet weren't even touching the ground! "Whoa what the- "Shhh.. I need concentration. She hugged his neck tighter and two were floating in mid air, inches off the ground. "Now this is cool, he said as he looked at the ground. "It is isn't it?" The two looked at each other. Beast Boy having his silly grin on his face while Raven gave him a full smile. The two held each other in their arms and swayed back and forth to the music.
And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
The harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door
They didn't even notice the pair of emerald eyes smiling at the two. "Starfire, I thought I said- "Shh..be quiet Robin Starfire said as she clapped his mouth shut. "Look she sais as she pointed at the two. "Hey, they worked it out after all said Robin with a grin. "We'll just leave them alone, okay Star?" "Do, we have to Robin, they look so happy. "It's curiousty that killed the cat, Star." "Where is the cat whom you speak off Robin?" Starfire look's left then right, I do not see him. Robin anime sweatdrop's. "Let's just go and leave them alone he said as he pryed her away from the scene. Back down at the party Cyborg was waiting for them at the turntable's. "So are they alright? He asked. "Yeah they're fine Robin said. "Whew, I thought was going down between the two when I heard gusts of wind and exploding metal." "Yes everything is fine now said Starfire. "So when are they coming down asked Cyborg. "Maybe when the song is done said Robin. "Oh, let me go check say's Starfire with a mysterious grin on her face as she left to the roof again. "Star wait! Robin called out to her but to no avail. "She's a romantic isn't she said Cyborg. "Yup he replied as he rubbed his forehead.
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break down the door......
AWWW..THEY MADE UP! ISN'T THAT NICE. BUT YOUR PROBABLY ASKING YOUSELF RIGHT NOW. "Where's the action?" WELL IT'S COMING UP IN MY NEXT CHAPTER, PLEASE REVIEW. *bow's down*
I do not own Teen Titan's, so there.