I pulled my jacket closer around me, trying to keep out the morning chill. I have tried writing in the house but it just doesn't work. I can always concentrate better outside. I gazed down at my paper and reread what I had already wrote.

Sometimes I wish I could shut my eyes.
Close my eyes to block out these lies.
I knew that life was gonna be rough.
I just never knew it was going to be this tough.
You look at me and I know what you see.
A punk kid who will never be free.
I'm sick of being treated like trash.
One of these days, I'm gonna make you crash.

I sighed, my mind was slowly going blank. I couldn't write anymore, not right now. I decided I would just phone Armpit again tonight to see if he got anything new. I had been home for about 2 weeks now, I was still amazed at how much everything changed. I had been in contact with Pit through e-mail and phone calls for the last week. We had been working on a couple songs together. Our plan was still to try and get a recording deal. How, we still didn't know.

I got up and brushed the damp grass of my pants. I hopped over the fence and began the walk home. I hummed a beat in my head as I walked, trying to match it up with the lyrics. I opened the gate at the end of my driveway and walked up the drive. I used my key to unlock the door. I called out to see if anyone was home.

"Back so soon Alicia?" Annamarie asked coming around the corner.

I smiled when I saw her. Annamarie had been head of the staff that worked in our house ever since I could remember. She was always so nice to me, kind of like an older sister. I had told her about my songs and Armpit. She told me I had talent and should persue my dreams.

"Yeah, it was too cold to concentrate." I replied. "But I did get a few lines done."

"Thats good, your doing great." She said nodding. "You parents are at meetings until 9 and I think they are going out after that."

"Figures." I said shaking my head.

I had been used to my parents not being home much. They lived for their work, I guess you could say. I mean, I know I am really lucky to live in a nice house like this but sometimes I wish I could see my parents more. I watched TV until supper was ready. Annamarie offered to eat with me so I wouldn't have to be alone. I gratefully accepted. Once I was done eating I headed to my room and booted up my computer. I logged onto MSN hoping that Armpit might be on.

A-R-M-P-I to the T says:
Hey hey hey

{Sing for the moment} says:
cheers your online!

A-R-M-P-I to the T says:
o' course, whatsup gorgeous?

I giggled, I loved how he always treated me like a gem even when I felt like a cold stone. Just talking to him lifted my spirits.

{Sing for the moment} says:
Same old, just hanging out around here, parents are out again.

A-R-M-P-I to the T says:
Again? Ur parents r never home

{Sing for the moment} says:
Ah well, doesn't matter

I was kind of uncomfortable with the subject. I was glad when Armpit changed it.

A-R-M-P-I to the T says:
So did ya think of any more lyrics 2day?

{Sing for the moment} says:
Yep: Sometimes I wish I could shut my eyes.
Close my eyes to block out these lies.
I knew that life was gonna be rough.
I just never knew it was going to be this tough.
You look at me and I know what you see.
A punk kid who will never be free.
I'm sick of being treated like trash.
One of these days, I'm gonna make you crash.

{Sing for the moment} says:
I got stuck after that, I was hoping you could help me out.

A-R-M-P-I to the T says:
I like em ok ummmm gimme a sec

I watched the screen, four minutes passed before I saw that he was typing again.

A-R-M-P-I to the T says:
How bout this:
You can yell all you want, I will listen silently.
You can scream all you want, no words from me.
My face be smiling, but I'm bleeding inside.
I said I was just fine, but now I know I lied.
I have learnt to shut it out, ignore the pain.
Inside I'm so cold, outside I look the same.
Tears aren't enough, you wanna see me bleed.
I don't feel alive anymore, the pain is what I need.

{Sing for the moment}
Omg, thats amazing! You came up with that in like 4 minutes!

A-R-M-P-I to the T
meh i wouldn't have come up with it without yours first

I smiled, Armpit was always so modest. We talked for a little while longer. We got the next few lines done too:

You broke me inside, but you'll never see me break.
I looked you in the eye, and stood straight.
My eyes blazed, as the tears inside fell.
Your making my life a living hell.

We both signed off around midnight. I crawled into bed, feeling much more calm then before. As I shut my eyes and I prayed that I would see Armpit soon, I never knew I could miss someone so much in so little time.