~*Princess of Heartless*~
Chp 1: Something to Live For
Disclaimer: I don't own KH
WARNING/HEADS UP: Riku thinks REALLY evil thoughts in this story and some parts will get kinda harsh so brace yourself if you're sensitive. And there are a lot of flashbacks in this story too. And I know Riku is OOC in some parts but he's like boiling with anger then so of course he's gonna act really mean.
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~*Riku's POV*~
It had just happened. I had just taken my first steps on the soil of Destiny Island. It had finally happened, Sora and I had gotten out of Kingdom Hearts. I looked around at my familiar surroundings as I waited for Sora. He was saying good-bye to Donald and Goofy. I was still mad at him. After all of that I still felt abandoned by him. I felt a lot of things I hadn't felt before now. I shook it off as I began to walk around the cave that I had once spent my childhood days in, admiring the many pictures I had carved into the wall as a child. Now that I think about it, I haven't been in here since I was a child.
I remember how it felt to be a child...to feel the ocean water rub up against your sun burnt legs...to be completely free and unaware of any of the earth's problems. I remember what it felt like before Kairi came into my life...before I got into the never-ending fight for Kairi's affection, before the Heartless, or Malificent, or Ansem....before I surrendered my heart to darkness for the girl that I lost to Sora.
I continued to walk around the cave sadly with my haunting thoughts as I gazed at the pictures. Then something felt strange...I stopped in my tracks..something was different. I walked around the cave examining all the pictures closely. Then I found what was different, but it something I wish I hadn't found. I walked slowly back to the picture Sora and Kairi drew of themselves beside each other. I knew about this picture ever since I was seven, and was already disturbed enough about it. But the alteration that had been made to this picture made my nails dig into my fists so hard they started to bleed. Kairi and Sora were feeding each other poupu fruits in this picture. I wanted dig my nails into the stone wall and rip the damned picture right off the wall. I knew things were going to be different between me and Kairi when I got back....I knew I was going to get cast aside for Sora...and this picture was the first cold stab of my new life of rejection for Sora that I got. I couldn't handle it. It was too painful. I was being driven mad by jealousy. I leaned up against the cave wall with hot tears of rage forming in my eyes.
"What did I do wrong? Did she want me to die as well?" I bitterly told himself as thoughts of loneliness haunted my mind.
"I love her damn it! Was what I did not enough for her to see that?"
Then Sora walked through the door in the cave. He looked around at his surrounding and saw me leaning up against the wall.
"I see you've finally arrived," I said coldly. I stared at the wall in front of me...I didn't look at Sora. I didn't want to talk to him now. I didn't even want to look at him. If I did I wouldn't be able to fight the urge to strangle him.
"Uh, sorry man. I was saying good-bye to..."
"Your friends?" I interrupted, "Yah I know." Sora made a face at me.
"Hey man, what's your problem?"
"SORA!" a voice called out. I knew was Kairi. I took a deep breath and prepared myself for the painful ordeal that was going to occur. Kairi ran in the cave and immediately leaped into Sora's arms and cried her eyes out.
"Oh Sora I've missed you so much! You have no idea how lonely I was without you.." Kairi went on, gushing to Sora about how much she missed him. This was infuriating me in ways unimaginable. White-hot blood ran up and down my veins at unstoppable speed.
"I should just die...right here and now," I said softly to myself. I started breathing as if I had been running for miles I was so angry. And Kairi still continued to fawn all over Sora as I became angrier and angrier. Finally, I had gone far past his boiling point. This whole ordeal was making me sick. I wanted to kill both of them right now. I cleared my throat loudly, finally making Kairi notice me and broke away from their little moment. I was smiling with satisfaction on the inside for ripping them out of the moment they were having but on the outside I kept up appearances and had a dark expression on my face. Kairi wiped her eyes as she saw me leaning up against the wall.
"Oh Riku.I didn't see you there. Did you just get here?"
"Close..I got here likes five minutes before HE did." I said coldly. Kairi widened her eyes.
"Oh..." There was an awkward silence in the air that seemed like it would last forever. Kairi stared at the ground shamefully. I smiled on the inside once again, enjoying the eeriness I had created. Sora, dying to find something to break the awkwardness surrounding them, finally came up with something to say.
"Say, why don't we go outside? We haven't enjoyed the fresh air of the beach in a while have we Riku?" I sighed.
"Yah I guess," I said as I got off the wall I was leaning against. "Come on, let's go." Sora darted over to the exit and got out of this eerie hell that I had created as fast as he could. I didn't blame him. People who haven't been damaged like I have can't handle that kind of thing. Kairi remained still, her head still bent down. I bet she was searching for something to say..I bet she was finding some way to tell me what I already knew. But I wasn't going to allow her to say it. I walked over to the exit. Kari approached me.
"Riku I.." I smirked at her look. It was a mixture of panic and sadness. This all felt new to me. Yes I had been on the dark side in Kingdom Hearts but looking into Kairi's eyes right now made me feel more evil than I've ever felt in my entire life.
"What?" I said coldly.
"I...I.." she stuttered. I knew she was trying to find some nice way to tell me that I'd lost..She was trying to find some dip-shit way sugarcoat this situation. It was at that point when I realized that I didn't give a shit about her feelings anymore, and that I could really care less about damaging her feelings so bad that she couldn't see because her tears blinded the nose in front of her Princess face. And why should I give a damn about hurting her feelings? Not after what SHE did to ME..She continued to stutter on trying to find the right words to make everything better for her as I stared at her in disgust
"I...I..I...uh," I stuttered back to her in a false high-pitched imitation of her voice, "Uh, I'm sorry Riku but since Sora saved me I don't give a shit about you and I could really care less that you gave your heart to darkness for me!" I smirked with satisfaction as I saw the horrified look on her face. I felt so evil right now I could've made her kill herself with just my words if I wanted to. I could completely bend her to my will. She was my play-dough to mold and mutilate in any way I wanted to and I wasn't going to let an opportunity like this slip by...not after what she did to me.
"What?" I said bitterly, "Why are you staring at me like that Kairi? Scared that I read what was on your mind in the NOT watered down version?"
"Riku..I wasn't going to say anything like that at all."
"Liar! That was exactly what you were going to say...you were just trying to find a nicer way to say it, which would've hurt more than what truly needed to be said." There was silence..an awful eerie silence. I was loving every minute of this. To speak in harsh, bitter words. To stare into Kairi's shocked eyes. To ask questions that people couldn't afford to answer. To create uneasiness and to make people cringe with my words. This is what I lived for now that I no longer had Kairi. She still wasn't saying anything, but then again what could she say? I had carefully broken her down to where she couldn't say anything in her defense. But waiting for her to respond was starting to tire me.
"Aren't you going to say anything?" I said loudly as I was anxiously awaiting what foolish thing she'd try to say in order to shed some light on this dark situation. But she couldn't no matter how hard she tried. She opened her mouth to say something. But whatever it was I decided that I didn't want to hear it.
"Listen, forget it....what needed to be said was said, so now we both can live without feeling awkward. I know you chose Sora over me and that's fine."
I didn't mean it of course. In real life I wanted to rip Sora's head off and hurl it at Kairi's heart so she could then see how much she hurt me. Kairi still didn't say anything. I figured that if she still couldn't come up with anything to say to me then I could use the opportunity to make her feel even lower. Right now, hurting her didn't faze me at all.
"Well Kairi if you'll excuse me I have to step out into my now cold world of rejection and watch you and Sora's happy little lives fold out magically while I have to find something else to live for since I no longer have you." I started to walk out of the cave then Kairi grabbed my arm to stop me. She had tears in her eyes..this was all too priceless.
"You still have me Riku! You'll always have me, no matter how me and Sora feel about each other."
" 'No matter how me and Sora feel about each other!'?" I shouted. Now I didn't care about hurting her. Now I just wanted to let her now what I felt. This was personal.
"What about how I felt about you?" I continued. "Did you ever take that into consideration? Did you ever stop to realize that I was going to the deepest darkest lengths for you? Did you even think about how much I suffered physically and emotionally for you? And at the time I didn't even give a damn about all that because I knew I was getting your heart back and that's all that mattered. Then after I went through all that shit did you even consider all I did for you? Did you even acknowledge my existence? NO! It was all Sora, Sora, Sora. Did you want me to die along the way as well? Would you remember me then? I didn't even get a half-ass thank you! What the hell is up with that Kairi? Don't you know how much you damaged me?" She was crying a river now. I didn't care. I let her know my feelings I wouldn't care if she just stood there and blinked or if she fell to my knees and started begging for mercy. I didn't owe her a thing now. I had cut myself free from her. I don't need her anymore. I don't need to see her smile to make my day complete. I don't need to hear her voice to feel at ease. And I sure as hell don't need her sympathy right now. I left. I just left her crying there on the floor. But why should I care? She did the same to me.
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I just taken my first step out into the Destiny Island breeze. The sun shined down on me and the wind blew through my hair. It would've been the perfect moment if Kairi weren't ruining it with her hysterical sobbing. Right now I had a no mercy policy for her. Whatever I did to her she had it coming. Sora heard Kairi's sobbing and ran up to the cave.
"What did you do to her man?" he shouted at me.
"What do you mean?" I said with an evil smirk on my face. "I didn't do a thing."
"Riku, when I came out she was fine but then I leave her for a few minutes alone with you and she's crying hysterically." I laughed.
"Yah I like that." I did like it. You go into a room with me in it happy and you come out broken. That's another thing I lived for. I no longer lived for Kairi. I don't give a damn about what happens to her anymore, but I still feel like I'm lacking something.
Sora had run in the cave to try and comfort Kairi. A meaningless effort. I had broken her down too well. Sora could do nothing to help her. She had to help herself. Now she would see what it feels like to have nobody to cradle you but yourself. I walked down along to the shore of the beach. I stood there in all of the tranquility around me. The seagulls cried out. The waves crashed rhythmically along the shore. I was remembering what it felt like to be free. To be careless. To be young and hopeless. And I liked this feeling. It was the best feeling I had felt in a long time. I began to think about what all I had to live for now. Living for Kairi had now been replaced with making people's lives awkward and miserable. I kind of liked to have that power, but it isn't enough. I can't hold on to just that for the rest of my life. What do I truly have to live for?
"RIKU!" A female voice called out to me, breaking my thoughts. I didn't turn around for a few seconds because I was puzzled about who she could be. It defiantly wasn't Kairi or Selphie's voice. This girl was younger. I turned around. And there I saw her, standing on the sands of the beach with her flowing baby blue dress. Her soft blonde hair shined brightly in the sun's light and her blue eyes sparkled like sapphires. She was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. She was my own flesh and blood. She was sister, Mya.
~*Flashback*~
"Riku, Riku, wake up! There's a storm outside!" A six-year-old Mya asked as she shook her brother as he slept in his bed.
"Wake up Riku, I'm scared!" she cried again. Riku slowly opened his eyes and shook his head.
"Huh?" he said groggily.
"Riku there's a storm outside!"
"What?" He pulled back his covers frantically and started to dart out the door.
"No Riku! Don't leave me! I'm scared! Riku!" Mya's cries stopped him dead in his tracks. He walked back to his sister and bent down on his knees and took her hands in his.
"Mya I'll be right back, I promise. I just have to see what's going on out there." He kissed her on the cheek and then darted out the door.
"No Riku! Don't leave me! Don't leave me!" But he was already gone and the little girl broke down on the floor and cried her eyes out. After a few minutes she ran over to the window. She could see him at his spot.
"RIKU!" she screamed as she banged on the window.
"I'm not afraid of the darkness!" she heard him call out. Then her whole world surrounded in black.
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I couldn't believe it. I had been so obsessed over finding that no good bitch's heart that I had completely forgot about Mya, my own sister. I had promised her I'd be back for her and I left her hanging for two years! She was eight now, and I left her when she was a little child of six! What kind of sick bastard am I?
We were about ten feet apart, neither one of us had moved. Hell, I couldn't move even if I tried, I was too ashamed of myself. I just couldn't believe I left her hanging like that. I looked into her blue eyes, they were full of tears. They could've been tears of anger though. If I were her I'd never talk to me again. Finally, I got up the courage to walk. I walked slowly towards her. When I was in front of her we just stared into each other's eyes. Then my own eyes started to fill with tears and I collapsed onto my knees in all my shame. I put my hands on her cheeks and wiped away a tear that had fallen from her sparkling eyes with my thumb. She smiled meekly.
"Mya...." I began to say, but I didn't know what to say next. What could I say to a girl I left stranded all by herself with my ass hole father while she wondered all those years 'where could my brother be? He promised he'd be back for me'? Then I realized that Mya had put me in the exact same position I had put Kairi in. She put me in a position where I had nothing to say under all my shame. But I was going to fight it unlike Kairi.
"Mya..I'm so sorry..Can you ever forgive me?" I pleaded. And that's all I could do. I could do nothing more than plead to her, and I wouldn't stop either. Then Mya smiled at me, thawing out my frozen heart and making me feel again, for I had been so numb all those years. Then she wrapped her arms around me. We embraced as we cried softly, renewing ourselves by finding each other once again. Then I realized that all I had needed all those years was her. Man, think of all those years I wasted trying to make myself whole again. But the years that I've wasted is nothing compared to the tears that I've tasted. But that doesn't matter now, because I've got my Mya again....my sister...the only lady that I'd ever adore. I decided then and there that I would spend the rest of my life making what I did up to her. Mya is what I live for now.
//Sometimes it feels like the worlds on my shoulders
Everyone's leaning on me
And sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
But then she comes back to me//
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Hey y'all! I got bored with Why Georgia so I'm making this story now! I hope y'all like it cuz I worked REALLY hard on it. I want this to be the kind of story where all the words are piercing and harsh so tell me how I'm doing...oh and it gets WAY more harsh later on in the story! Pleaz R/R! ^_^
Peace Out,
Kia Saphia
Chp 1: Something to Live For
Disclaimer: I don't own KH
WARNING/HEADS UP: Riku thinks REALLY evil thoughts in this story and some parts will get kinda harsh so brace yourself if you're sensitive. And there are a lot of flashbacks in this story too. And I know Riku is OOC in some parts but he's like boiling with anger then so of course he's gonna act really mean.
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~*Riku's POV*~
It had just happened. I had just taken my first steps on the soil of Destiny Island. It had finally happened, Sora and I had gotten out of Kingdom Hearts. I looked around at my familiar surroundings as I waited for Sora. He was saying good-bye to Donald and Goofy. I was still mad at him. After all of that I still felt abandoned by him. I felt a lot of things I hadn't felt before now. I shook it off as I began to walk around the cave that I had once spent my childhood days in, admiring the many pictures I had carved into the wall as a child. Now that I think about it, I haven't been in here since I was a child.
I remember how it felt to be a child...to feel the ocean water rub up against your sun burnt legs...to be completely free and unaware of any of the earth's problems. I remember what it felt like before Kairi came into my life...before I got into the never-ending fight for Kairi's affection, before the Heartless, or Malificent, or Ansem....before I surrendered my heart to darkness for the girl that I lost to Sora.
I continued to walk around the cave sadly with my haunting thoughts as I gazed at the pictures. Then something felt strange...I stopped in my tracks..something was different. I walked around the cave examining all the pictures closely. Then I found what was different, but it something I wish I hadn't found. I walked slowly back to the picture Sora and Kairi drew of themselves beside each other. I knew about this picture ever since I was seven, and was already disturbed enough about it. But the alteration that had been made to this picture made my nails dig into my fists so hard they started to bleed. Kairi and Sora were feeding each other poupu fruits in this picture. I wanted dig my nails into the stone wall and rip the damned picture right off the wall. I knew things were going to be different between me and Kairi when I got back....I knew I was going to get cast aside for Sora...and this picture was the first cold stab of my new life of rejection for Sora that I got. I couldn't handle it. It was too painful. I was being driven mad by jealousy. I leaned up against the cave wall with hot tears of rage forming in my eyes.
"What did I do wrong? Did she want me to die as well?" I bitterly told himself as thoughts of loneliness haunted my mind.
"I love her damn it! Was what I did not enough for her to see that?"
Then Sora walked through the door in the cave. He looked around at his surrounding and saw me leaning up against the wall.
"I see you've finally arrived," I said coldly. I stared at the wall in front of me...I didn't look at Sora. I didn't want to talk to him now. I didn't even want to look at him. If I did I wouldn't be able to fight the urge to strangle him.
"Uh, sorry man. I was saying good-bye to..."
"Your friends?" I interrupted, "Yah I know." Sora made a face at me.
"Hey man, what's your problem?"
"SORA!" a voice called out. I knew was Kairi. I took a deep breath and prepared myself for the painful ordeal that was going to occur. Kairi ran in the cave and immediately leaped into Sora's arms and cried her eyes out.
"Oh Sora I've missed you so much! You have no idea how lonely I was without you.." Kairi went on, gushing to Sora about how much she missed him. This was infuriating me in ways unimaginable. White-hot blood ran up and down my veins at unstoppable speed.
"I should just die...right here and now," I said softly to myself. I started breathing as if I had been running for miles I was so angry. And Kairi still continued to fawn all over Sora as I became angrier and angrier. Finally, I had gone far past his boiling point. This whole ordeal was making me sick. I wanted to kill both of them right now. I cleared my throat loudly, finally making Kairi notice me and broke away from their little moment. I was smiling with satisfaction on the inside for ripping them out of the moment they were having but on the outside I kept up appearances and had a dark expression on my face. Kairi wiped her eyes as she saw me leaning up against the wall.
"Oh Riku.I didn't see you there. Did you just get here?"
"Close..I got here likes five minutes before HE did." I said coldly. Kairi widened her eyes.
"Oh..." There was an awkward silence in the air that seemed like it would last forever. Kairi stared at the ground shamefully. I smiled on the inside once again, enjoying the eeriness I had created. Sora, dying to find something to break the awkwardness surrounding them, finally came up with something to say.
"Say, why don't we go outside? We haven't enjoyed the fresh air of the beach in a while have we Riku?" I sighed.
"Yah I guess," I said as I got off the wall I was leaning against. "Come on, let's go." Sora darted over to the exit and got out of this eerie hell that I had created as fast as he could. I didn't blame him. People who haven't been damaged like I have can't handle that kind of thing. Kairi remained still, her head still bent down. I bet she was searching for something to say..I bet she was finding some way to tell me what I already knew. But I wasn't going to allow her to say it. I walked over to the exit. Kari approached me.
"Riku I.." I smirked at her look. It was a mixture of panic and sadness. This all felt new to me. Yes I had been on the dark side in Kingdom Hearts but looking into Kairi's eyes right now made me feel more evil than I've ever felt in my entire life.
"What?" I said coldly.
"I...I.." she stuttered. I knew she was trying to find some nice way to tell me that I'd lost..She was trying to find some dip-shit way sugarcoat this situation. It was at that point when I realized that I didn't give a shit about her feelings anymore, and that I could really care less about damaging her feelings so bad that she couldn't see because her tears blinded the nose in front of her Princess face. And why should I give a damn about hurting her feelings? Not after what SHE did to ME..She continued to stutter on trying to find the right words to make everything better for her as I stared at her in disgust
"I...I..I...uh," I stuttered back to her in a false high-pitched imitation of her voice, "Uh, I'm sorry Riku but since Sora saved me I don't give a shit about you and I could really care less that you gave your heart to darkness for me!" I smirked with satisfaction as I saw the horrified look on her face. I felt so evil right now I could've made her kill herself with just my words if I wanted to. I could completely bend her to my will. She was my play-dough to mold and mutilate in any way I wanted to and I wasn't going to let an opportunity like this slip by...not after what she did to me.
"What?" I said bitterly, "Why are you staring at me like that Kairi? Scared that I read what was on your mind in the NOT watered down version?"
"Riku..I wasn't going to say anything like that at all."
"Liar! That was exactly what you were going to say...you were just trying to find a nicer way to say it, which would've hurt more than what truly needed to be said." There was silence..an awful eerie silence. I was loving every minute of this. To speak in harsh, bitter words. To stare into Kairi's shocked eyes. To ask questions that people couldn't afford to answer. To create uneasiness and to make people cringe with my words. This is what I lived for now that I no longer had Kairi. She still wasn't saying anything, but then again what could she say? I had carefully broken her down to where she couldn't say anything in her defense. But waiting for her to respond was starting to tire me.
"Aren't you going to say anything?" I said loudly as I was anxiously awaiting what foolish thing she'd try to say in order to shed some light on this dark situation. But she couldn't no matter how hard she tried. She opened her mouth to say something. But whatever it was I decided that I didn't want to hear it.
"Listen, forget it....what needed to be said was said, so now we both can live without feeling awkward. I know you chose Sora over me and that's fine."
I didn't mean it of course. In real life I wanted to rip Sora's head off and hurl it at Kairi's heart so she could then see how much she hurt me. Kairi still didn't say anything. I figured that if she still couldn't come up with anything to say to me then I could use the opportunity to make her feel even lower. Right now, hurting her didn't faze me at all.
"Well Kairi if you'll excuse me I have to step out into my now cold world of rejection and watch you and Sora's happy little lives fold out magically while I have to find something else to live for since I no longer have you." I started to walk out of the cave then Kairi grabbed my arm to stop me. She had tears in her eyes..this was all too priceless.
"You still have me Riku! You'll always have me, no matter how me and Sora feel about each other."
" 'No matter how me and Sora feel about each other!'?" I shouted. Now I didn't care about hurting her. Now I just wanted to let her now what I felt. This was personal.
"What about how I felt about you?" I continued. "Did you ever take that into consideration? Did you ever stop to realize that I was going to the deepest darkest lengths for you? Did you even think about how much I suffered physically and emotionally for you? And at the time I didn't even give a damn about all that because I knew I was getting your heart back and that's all that mattered. Then after I went through all that shit did you even consider all I did for you? Did you even acknowledge my existence? NO! It was all Sora, Sora, Sora. Did you want me to die along the way as well? Would you remember me then? I didn't even get a half-ass thank you! What the hell is up with that Kairi? Don't you know how much you damaged me?" She was crying a river now. I didn't care. I let her know my feelings I wouldn't care if she just stood there and blinked or if she fell to my knees and started begging for mercy. I didn't owe her a thing now. I had cut myself free from her. I don't need her anymore. I don't need to see her smile to make my day complete. I don't need to hear her voice to feel at ease. And I sure as hell don't need her sympathy right now. I left. I just left her crying there on the floor. But why should I care? She did the same to me.
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I just taken my first step out into the Destiny Island breeze. The sun shined down on me and the wind blew through my hair. It would've been the perfect moment if Kairi weren't ruining it with her hysterical sobbing. Right now I had a no mercy policy for her. Whatever I did to her she had it coming. Sora heard Kairi's sobbing and ran up to the cave.
"What did you do to her man?" he shouted at me.
"What do you mean?" I said with an evil smirk on my face. "I didn't do a thing."
"Riku, when I came out she was fine but then I leave her for a few minutes alone with you and she's crying hysterically." I laughed.
"Yah I like that." I did like it. You go into a room with me in it happy and you come out broken. That's another thing I lived for. I no longer lived for Kairi. I don't give a damn about what happens to her anymore, but I still feel like I'm lacking something.
Sora had run in the cave to try and comfort Kairi. A meaningless effort. I had broken her down too well. Sora could do nothing to help her. She had to help herself. Now she would see what it feels like to have nobody to cradle you but yourself. I walked down along to the shore of the beach. I stood there in all of the tranquility around me. The seagulls cried out. The waves crashed rhythmically along the shore. I was remembering what it felt like to be free. To be careless. To be young and hopeless. And I liked this feeling. It was the best feeling I had felt in a long time. I began to think about what all I had to live for now. Living for Kairi had now been replaced with making people's lives awkward and miserable. I kind of liked to have that power, but it isn't enough. I can't hold on to just that for the rest of my life. What do I truly have to live for?
"RIKU!" A female voice called out to me, breaking my thoughts. I didn't turn around for a few seconds because I was puzzled about who she could be. It defiantly wasn't Kairi or Selphie's voice. This girl was younger. I turned around. And there I saw her, standing on the sands of the beach with her flowing baby blue dress. Her soft blonde hair shined brightly in the sun's light and her blue eyes sparkled like sapphires. She was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. She was my own flesh and blood. She was sister, Mya.
~*Flashback*~
"Riku, Riku, wake up! There's a storm outside!" A six-year-old Mya asked as she shook her brother as he slept in his bed.
"Wake up Riku, I'm scared!" she cried again. Riku slowly opened his eyes and shook his head.
"Huh?" he said groggily.
"Riku there's a storm outside!"
"What?" He pulled back his covers frantically and started to dart out the door.
"No Riku! Don't leave me! I'm scared! Riku!" Mya's cries stopped him dead in his tracks. He walked back to his sister and bent down on his knees and took her hands in his.
"Mya I'll be right back, I promise. I just have to see what's going on out there." He kissed her on the cheek and then darted out the door.
"No Riku! Don't leave me! Don't leave me!" But he was already gone and the little girl broke down on the floor and cried her eyes out. After a few minutes she ran over to the window. She could see him at his spot.
"RIKU!" she screamed as she banged on the window.
"I'm not afraid of the darkness!" she heard him call out. Then her whole world surrounded in black.
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I couldn't believe it. I had been so obsessed over finding that no good bitch's heart that I had completely forgot about Mya, my own sister. I had promised her I'd be back for her and I left her hanging for two years! She was eight now, and I left her when she was a little child of six! What kind of sick bastard am I?
We were about ten feet apart, neither one of us had moved. Hell, I couldn't move even if I tried, I was too ashamed of myself. I just couldn't believe I left her hanging like that. I looked into her blue eyes, they were full of tears. They could've been tears of anger though. If I were her I'd never talk to me again. Finally, I got up the courage to walk. I walked slowly towards her. When I was in front of her we just stared into each other's eyes. Then my own eyes started to fill with tears and I collapsed onto my knees in all my shame. I put my hands on her cheeks and wiped away a tear that had fallen from her sparkling eyes with my thumb. She smiled meekly.
"Mya...." I began to say, but I didn't know what to say next. What could I say to a girl I left stranded all by herself with my ass hole father while she wondered all those years 'where could my brother be? He promised he'd be back for me'? Then I realized that Mya had put me in the exact same position I had put Kairi in. She put me in a position where I had nothing to say under all my shame. But I was going to fight it unlike Kairi.
"Mya..I'm so sorry..Can you ever forgive me?" I pleaded. And that's all I could do. I could do nothing more than plead to her, and I wouldn't stop either. Then Mya smiled at me, thawing out my frozen heart and making me feel again, for I had been so numb all those years. Then she wrapped her arms around me. We embraced as we cried softly, renewing ourselves by finding each other once again. Then I realized that all I had needed all those years was her. Man, think of all those years I wasted trying to make myself whole again. But the years that I've wasted is nothing compared to the tears that I've tasted. But that doesn't matter now, because I've got my Mya again....my sister...the only lady that I'd ever adore. I decided then and there that I would spend the rest of my life making what I did up to her. Mya is what I live for now.
//Sometimes it feels like the worlds on my shoulders
Everyone's leaning on me
And sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
But then she comes back to me//
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Hey y'all! I got bored with Why Georgia so I'm making this story now! I hope y'all like it cuz I worked REALLY hard on it. I want this to be the kind of story where all the words are piercing and harsh so tell me how I'm doing...oh and it gets WAY more harsh later on in the story! Pleaz R/R! ^_^
Peace Out,
Kia Saphia