Chp 5: Sinners, Sweethearts, and Sanctums
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disclaimer: I don't own KH or "Forgotten" by Linkin Park (the best band in the world) or "Imaginary" by Evanescence
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~*Mya's POV*~
Just think...almost three days ago I thought Riku was making my dreams come true by asking me to join him in his exploration of the other worlds I had yet to know existed. But then I was given a cold reality check and figured out that he wasn't doing this for me at all....he was doing it for himself and his own selfish needs while I am left to be carted around like a mere burden as these people carry out their wrongful deeds. They are ripping other people out from their lives and bribing them with the promise of riches and their dreams coming true just as Riku did to me..They're all liars and those willing to believe them are but lost sweethearts in the world now obsessed with the cheap thrills in life of being the so-called "best", having bragging rights, and useless trophy holding moments..I mourn for those sweethearts and pray they return to their pure days..I am not a lost sweetheart...I am but an innocent, betrayed by the sweetheart whom I loved above all, not a random being offering me a cheap ticket as Malificent offered to Riku. And he accepted that ticket without any thought of me at all. I thought he was so much better than that...And by the by in the midst of all the lost sweethearts, I'm left all alone with nobody but the Heartless for company as the sweethearts ponder upon the useless opportunities of power and pride in life of which they became slaves to. I wonder what the is even the purpose of my presence here..Riku still hasn't told me, but then again why would he if he turned me into this "Princess of Heartless" character that I'm supposed to be. Why won't he understand that it's cold when you're lonely? I have my own feelings too. I am not an object to be carted around. I bet Riku has come up with some dip-shit theory in the back of his selfish mind that rearranges all of this to where he's not the bad guy. But whatever he thinks it won't be true...all he has is his thoughts. How sad it must be that the only thing he has in life are is false thoughts, and yet how relieving it must be for him to find thoughts that can't betray you and can't shout back at you and tell you you're wrong. His thoughts are his only friend. In the land of the killer's a sinners mind is his sanctum. If he didn't have his mind with his thoughts, all he'd have is guilt and he would slowly drive himself mad. But what do I have? Do I have thoughts? Is my mind my sanctum? I don't have the luxury of any of those things..All I have is my cold, hard, true slaps of reality....not fantasies, but reality. I have no false thoughts to comfort me..I don't even have someone to go to. Sometimes I close my eyes and try to imagine myself in a world by myself away from this evil chaos that I am forced to accept as reality. I close my eyes as I take in all the tranquility of the painted world around me and escape into the peace of the candy clouds above my head. And what's so perfect about this world is that I'm all alone so no one can hurt me or betray me. This imaginary world isn't a fantasy. It is an escape that I long for so badly. But even my imaginary world can't save me when I open my eyes into the cold world around me and realize that I have nothing and nobody. I pray for the sweethearts to let me stay in my world and I'll never have to open my eyes, because without my world there is no point to living. My imaginary world is my sanctum.
//I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos...your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how long I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light//
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~*Flashback*~
Sora and little Mya sat on the pier of Destiny Island fishing with their hand made fishing poles they had just made together. They stared out into the beautiful painted sunset before them as they enjoyed their peaceful moment together. At this age Sora and Mya, were just as inseparable then Riku and Mya. It was just the three of them and they did everything together. They were each other's best friends and they vowed that nothing and no one would come between them.
"Hey, I caught one!" Sora said happily as he reeled in a small fish.
"Wow! He's so cute!" Mya replied. Sora smiled and then took the fish off the hook and threw it back.
"Why did you do that?" Mya asked puzzled.
"Because I think everything deserves to be let free and not contained in someplace they don't want to be." Mya smiled.
"Yah..you're right. You're so smart Sora," Mya said enviously. Sora laughed.
"Thanks."
"Hey Sora.."
"Yes Mya?"
"Promise me we'll be friends forever..no matter what..." Sora smiled at her and then hugged her as he put his arm around her.
"I promise Mya."
"Goodie!" Mya said as she smiled uncontrollably, "Oh Sora guess what? I heard that there's this new girl coming here...."
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~*End Flashback..Destiny Islands*~
"In the memory you'll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up..."
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" Tidus said as he, Selphie, and Wakka crowded around the note Kairi was reading.
"Whatever it is...it doesn't sound good..." Selphie said in a worried tone.
"Where is she anyway? I haven't seen neither her or Riku all day."
"We never see them anyway Kairi," Tidus said in an angry tone.
"Well we're not hearing them anyplace," Wakka pointed out.
"That's true..."
"Well maybe they're in their house.."
"Yah, let's check.."
The four friends raced over to Riku and Mya's house. When they opened the door a horrible stench filled their noses.
"UGH! What is that?" Kairi shouted as she quickly clamped her nose.
"It smells like road kill!" Tidus said in equal disgust.
A piercing scream rang throughout the air.
"Selphie, what's wrong?" Wakka said in shock. Tidus, Kairi, and Wakka ran over to Selphie, who was standing ten feet away from the three of them, and looking into a room that they could not see from where they were standing. She was as white a ghost and her eyes were wide and glassy. She was shaking in fear.
"Selphie what's wrong?" Kairi repeated, slightly freaked out at what was going on. Then Selphie's eyes rolled to the back of her head and she fainted onto the ground.
"SELPHIE!" Tidus and Wakka shouted together as they rushed over to her. Kairi ran ahead of them to see what was in that room that made Selphie faint as she did. Kairi was a few strides away from the room when she almost fell down from something slippery on the floor. She caught her balance on the wall and looked down at what had made her slip. Her face grew pale and her grew wide as she stared down at what she had slipped on. It was blood. Kairi closed her eyes and took a few deep breaths. She stepped into the room that the blood was coming from slowly. When she looked in the room, she understood why Selphie fainted perfectly.
"OH MY GOD!" Kairi screamed at the top of her lungs. Riku and Mya's father was lying dead on the floor in a sea of blood that had spilled out from them. That haunting image immediately stabbed into Kairi's memory as she continued to scream and covered her eyes in a panicked mixture of shock and terror. She stumbled through the house as her head spun around violently and her blood raced at uncountable speed in the midst of the horror she had been subjected to. She then bent over and threw up on Riku's floor as she began to cry. It was all too much for her. No one at any age could see a sight like she had just seen and not reacted just as she did. And that image would never escape her either. It would be burned into her mind as clear as the red blood that flooded the floor. Kairi wiped her tears and vomit from her face and stumbled back over to Tidus and Wakka.
"Is Selphie ok?" she managed to choke out.
"She's breathing....she'll be fine," Tidus said as he held her head up while Wakka fanned her.
"This is awful...Riku and Mya may have been kidnapped," Kairi said in a worried tone.
"That makes sense...," Wakka said, "And their father fought the kidnapper off and that is why he is dead, no?" Kairi was silent for a while.
"As much as it pains me to say this....Their father didn't give a damn about them....if anyone was attacking them, he would've just let them die." There was an awkward silence for a few seconds.
"Well..," Kairi said, breaking the silence. "I'm gonna find Sora...this is serious.." She began to dart out the door.
"Wait.." she said as she darted back, "What do we do with the body..We can't just leave him there."
"Don't worry about it," Tidus said, "we'll take care of it." Kairi smiled at him and ran back out.
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"SORA!" Kairi called out. Sora was sitting on a rock by the shore staring out into the sunset. He didn't turn his head when she called out his name. Kairi ran up beside him. She bent down and took several deep breaths from running so fast.
"Oh Sora I don't where to start...Riku and Mya..It was awful..You should've seen it...It was the worst thing I've ever..,"
"I know..," Sora said blandly, cutting her off.
"You know? You mean you that is Riku and Mya's father is.."
"Dead...yes I know..I've known for a while."
"WHAT? You mean you knew their father's dead, disgusting, very frightening, blood-covered body was just lying in the middle of their house and you didn't tell anybody?!" Kairi shouted. Sora didn't respond.
"SORA!" Kairi groaned as she leaned up against a palm tree and covered her face with her hands in disgust.
"Well sorry..." Kairi took a few deep breaths and calmed down.
"Ok..well what about Riku and Mya? Something horrible could've happened to them! We have to find them."
"No...." Sora said firmly.
"NO?!" Kairi shouted as she pushed herself off her leaning position against the tree and stood up decisively.
"That's right.." he replied with no hint of shame in his voice.
"Well what the hell makes you say that?"
"There's a very good reason of why I'm saying that...Because Riku abandoned us and Mya didn't give a shit about us...why should we save them."
"SORA! How could you be so selfish? You're making this all about you! And besides..they both loved you once."
"Yah..once..."
"So what the hell happened?"
"You don't wanna know..."
"Yes I do...Both of them used to be your best friends."
"Well best friends can become strangers like that..."
"Well what happened?" Sora turned his head and stared directly into her eyes.
"You happened Kairi.."
"What?"
"Kairi think about it....Mya started to hate me after you came for reasons that I can't even understand..and Riku hated me after Kingdom Hearts because I stole you from him..." Kairi was silent. There wasn't much she could say because she knew that was all true, but it pained her to know how much she screwed up everyone's life. She wiped a tear that had fallen down her cheek.
"Well Sora, the reasons why you won't save them aren't your fault..those are all my fault...and I have to make all this right, and the only way I can do that is by bringing us all together again." Sora didn't say anything.
"Sora they could end up just like their father...cold and alone, lifeless on the hard floor with their blood covering the earth on which they lie on...is that what you want?" Sora took a deep breath.
"No..."
~*Hallow Bastion..Mya's POV*~
The sinners are worse than the sweethearts, for the sinners never used to be pure like the sweethearts...the sinners were evil from the start for no apparent reason. Malificent is a sinner. Riku is a sweetheart. What is there to do in the midst of all these sinners? What can I do but sit in my room and cower in fear and self-hatred? Do I go up to these sinners and ask them politely how their day has been? This is absurd. I mean nothing to these people and they mean nothing to me.
Malificent and Riku have been greedily collecting sinners and sweethearts like a child collects rocks...something I used to do before Riku stripped me of that care-free lifestyle. So far they have collected one's named Clay, The Queen of Hearts, Hades, and Jafar. These people are just another rock in their collection. They don't care about what they may be tearing them from.
I can't believe this is happening to me...Where in life did I go wrong to end up in the middle of this? Satan is laughing with delight at all of this wrongdoing as he smiles at me for bringing all of this together. But how? How could I be linked to any of these people in any kind of way? It's all Riku's fault...he took away my life without question or consent.
As I sat on my bed thinking these thoughts, I saw a Heartless peep his head through my door. I lifted up my head and looked at him, but when I did he jumped and ran away. This is great...I've never felt so alone...If someone isn't stripping away all my freedom and then tossing me aside then they're too scared to talk to me.
"What is wrong with you?" I called out to him, "Why are you so afraid of me?" At first nothing happened, but after a while the Heartless came back slowly. He looked at me through the doorway for a while and then hesitantly came inside.
"Why are you so afraid of me?" I asked again more softly. After I said that I could hear a shrill voice whisper softly in my mind.
"I am not worthy to speak to you princess." That voice was the most sad, desperate voice I had ever heard in my entire life.
"Why are you talking to me? How come no one else can hear you?" I asked back. I was exploding with questions but that was just the first one that came out.
"You created us so only you can hear us my princess." His mouth wasn't moving but I could hear him in my mind.
"What do you mean I created you?"
"You're the Princess of Heartless..all evil in the world comes from you. You could destroy me right now if you wanted to...you could destroy all the Heartless in the whole world right now if you wanted to."
I sat and thought about what he said...So this is my power...but what good does it do me? These people haven't used my power in any way so far. And why is this power forced on me. It was then I realized that Satan wasn't laughing in delight at me...he was standing beside me, cheering me on for I had the power to destroy anyone I wanted to just as he does...I am God to these Heartless...I decide who stays and who goes....This realization of my power gave me a huge adrenalin that I desperately needed.
At that moment I could hear people rushing down the hall. Riku, Malificent and several Heartless rushed in.
"What are you doing?" Malificent shouted at the Heartless, "Get away from her!"
As she said that several Heartless that were much bigger than the one that was talking to me rushed toward him. At first I was afraid for the little Heartless but then I remembered..I made these creatures and I can destroy them just as well...All I had to do was look at the two demon Heartless and they died instantly in their tracks. I smiled in satisfaction as I saw the Heartless lie dead on the ground. Riku and Malificent were very quiet. I could tell from their faces that they were very panicked that I had discovered my new power.
"What's wrong? Scared that I'll come after you next?" I said with an evil smile. Malificent fumed at that.
"GET HER OUT OF THERE!" She boomed at Riku. "GET HER AWAY FROM ANY HUMAN CONTACT!"
Riku walked cautiously over to me as I bore my eyes into his as all his guilt was sinking in. His sanctum was breaking. He has reality to face now. And that's exactly what that little bitch deserves. He deserves the real, cold, hard-core life. He doesn't deserve imaginary fantasies that he can hide away in to keep him from going insane. He deserves to be flung out into the bitter-cold air of reality. He deserves to rot in the lowest form of hell! I hate him! I hate him!
"I HATE YOU!" I screamed at him as he was carrying me away. I started to kick and scream madly as he strained to keep me in his grasp. But he couldn't do that now. I was a wild bull that couldn't be tamed.
"I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" I continued to scream at the top of my lungs, "I HATE YOU GOD DAMNIT! I HOPE YOU DIE! I HOPE YOU DROP DEAD AND YOU NEVER GET TO SEE KAIRI OR SORA EVER AGAIN!"
"SHUT UP MYA!" he screamed back. Our screams pierced the air throughout the entire ship. Everyone could hear exactly what we were saying.
"GO TO HELL RIKU!" I screamed in response.
"WELL I'LL SEE YOU THERE!"
"FUCK YOU!"
"WELL FUCK YOU TO SIS! GOD! MOM WOULD TURN OVER IN HER GRAVE IF SHE COULD YOU LIKE THIS!"
After he said that I got quiet. Everything inside of me shut down completely. I stopped kicking and screaming. I stopped moving whatsoever.
"Yah, that's what I thought!" Riku spat out at me. When we reached the room he was taking me to, he kicked open a door and threw me in. He didn't say a word to me afterwards..he just slammed the door and left me in the room and the cold, hard floor. The room was very small, not at all like my room. It was like a closet. There was no light at all and the only thing in the room was a mirror. I gazed into the mirror back at my foreign reflection. I didn't know that girl staring back at me in the black dress. I had no idea who that girl was who kills people for pleasure and speaks those awful words to her own brother...What is wrong with me? I don't even know who I am anymore.
I turned away from that girl staring back at me. I didn't wish to see her. I didn't want to have any contact with her. I didn't know what was happening to me...Why am I acting like this? What happened to that carefree girl I used to know?
I threw myself onto the hard ground and cried all my emotions out. I was in the most broken state I had ever been in my entire life. My whole world and everything I've known is crashing down on me. I hate this..I hate myself..I wish I was never born...
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Well I hope that was a vast improvement from my last chapter..that one kinda sucked. Anyway, I'm sorry for the lag between posts..I've just been really busy with football season (I'm on colorguard) and school and stuff. And it's only the beginning of the season =P. Just wait till we start having COMPETITIONS! Well that's all for now...Plez R/R ^_^
Peace Out,
Kia Saphia
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disclaimer: I don't own KH or "Forgotten" by Linkin Park (the best band in the world) or "Imaginary" by Evanescence
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~*Mya's POV*~
Just think...almost three days ago I thought Riku was making my dreams come true by asking me to join him in his exploration of the other worlds I had yet to know existed. But then I was given a cold reality check and figured out that he wasn't doing this for me at all....he was doing it for himself and his own selfish needs while I am left to be carted around like a mere burden as these people carry out their wrongful deeds. They are ripping other people out from their lives and bribing them with the promise of riches and their dreams coming true just as Riku did to me..They're all liars and those willing to believe them are but lost sweethearts in the world now obsessed with the cheap thrills in life of being the so-called "best", having bragging rights, and useless trophy holding moments..I mourn for those sweethearts and pray they return to their pure days..I am not a lost sweetheart...I am but an innocent, betrayed by the sweetheart whom I loved above all, not a random being offering me a cheap ticket as Malificent offered to Riku. And he accepted that ticket without any thought of me at all. I thought he was so much better than that...And by the by in the midst of all the lost sweethearts, I'm left all alone with nobody but the Heartless for company as the sweethearts ponder upon the useless opportunities of power and pride in life of which they became slaves to. I wonder what the is even the purpose of my presence here..Riku still hasn't told me, but then again why would he if he turned me into this "Princess of Heartless" character that I'm supposed to be. Why won't he understand that it's cold when you're lonely? I have my own feelings too. I am not an object to be carted around. I bet Riku has come up with some dip-shit theory in the back of his selfish mind that rearranges all of this to where he's not the bad guy. But whatever he thinks it won't be true...all he has is his thoughts. How sad it must be that the only thing he has in life are is false thoughts, and yet how relieving it must be for him to find thoughts that can't betray you and can't shout back at you and tell you you're wrong. His thoughts are his only friend. In the land of the killer's a sinners mind is his sanctum. If he didn't have his mind with his thoughts, all he'd have is guilt and he would slowly drive himself mad. But what do I have? Do I have thoughts? Is my mind my sanctum? I don't have the luxury of any of those things..All I have is my cold, hard, true slaps of reality....not fantasies, but reality. I have no false thoughts to comfort me..I don't even have someone to go to. Sometimes I close my eyes and try to imagine myself in a world by myself away from this evil chaos that I am forced to accept as reality. I close my eyes as I take in all the tranquility of the painted world around me and escape into the peace of the candy clouds above my head. And what's so perfect about this world is that I'm all alone so no one can hurt me or betray me. This imaginary world isn't a fantasy. It is an escape that I long for so badly. But even my imaginary world can't save me when I open my eyes into the cold world around me and realize that I have nothing and nobody. I pray for the sweethearts to let me stay in my world and I'll never have to open my eyes, because without my world there is no point to living. My imaginary world is my sanctum.
//I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos...your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how long I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light//
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~*Flashback*~
Sora and little Mya sat on the pier of Destiny Island fishing with their hand made fishing poles they had just made together. They stared out into the beautiful painted sunset before them as they enjoyed their peaceful moment together. At this age Sora and Mya, were just as inseparable then Riku and Mya. It was just the three of them and they did everything together. They were each other's best friends and they vowed that nothing and no one would come between them.
"Hey, I caught one!" Sora said happily as he reeled in a small fish.
"Wow! He's so cute!" Mya replied. Sora smiled and then took the fish off the hook and threw it back.
"Why did you do that?" Mya asked puzzled.
"Because I think everything deserves to be let free and not contained in someplace they don't want to be." Mya smiled.
"Yah..you're right. You're so smart Sora," Mya said enviously. Sora laughed.
"Thanks."
"Hey Sora.."
"Yes Mya?"
"Promise me we'll be friends forever..no matter what..." Sora smiled at her and then hugged her as he put his arm around her.
"I promise Mya."
"Goodie!" Mya said as she smiled uncontrollably, "Oh Sora guess what? I heard that there's this new girl coming here...."
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~*End Flashback..Destiny Islands*~
"In the memory you'll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up..."
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" Tidus said as he, Selphie, and Wakka crowded around the note Kairi was reading.
"Whatever it is...it doesn't sound good..." Selphie said in a worried tone.
"Where is she anyway? I haven't seen neither her or Riku all day."
"We never see them anyway Kairi," Tidus said in an angry tone.
"Well we're not hearing them anyplace," Wakka pointed out.
"That's true..."
"Well maybe they're in their house.."
"Yah, let's check.."
The four friends raced over to Riku and Mya's house. When they opened the door a horrible stench filled their noses.
"UGH! What is that?" Kairi shouted as she quickly clamped her nose.
"It smells like road kill!" Tidus said in equal disgust.
A piercing scream rang throughout the air.
"Selphie, what's wrong?" Wakka said in shock. Tidus, Kairi, and Wakka ran over to Selphie, who was standing ten feet away from the three of them, and looking into a room that they could not see from where they were standing. She was as white a ghost and her eyes were wide and glassy. She was shaking in fear.
"Selphie what's wrong?" Kairi repeated, slightly freaked out at what was going on. Then Selphie's eyes rolled to the back of her head and she fainted onto the ground.
"SELPHIE!" Tidus and Wakka shouted together as they rushed over to her. Kairi ran ahead of them to see what was in that room that made Selphie faint as she did. Kairi was a few strides away from the room when she almost fell down from something slippery on the floor. She caught her balance on the wall and looked down at what had made her slip. Her face grew pale and her grew wide as she stared down at what she had slipped on. It was blood. Kairi closed her eyes and took a few deep breaths. She stepped into the room that the blood was coming from slowly. When she looked in the room, she understood why Selphie fainted perfectly.
"OH MY GOD!" Kairi screamed at the top of her lungs. Riku and Mya's father was lying dead on the floor in a sea of blood that had spilled out from them. That haunting image immediately stabbed into Kairi's memory as she continued to scream and covered her eyes in a panicked mixture of shock and terror. She stumbled through the house as her head spun around violently and her blood raced at uncountable speed in the midst of the horror she had been subjected to. She then bent over and threw up on Riku's floor as she began to cry. It was all too much for her. No one at any age could see a sight like she had just seen and not reacted just as she did. And that image would never escape her either. It would be burned into her mind as clear as the red blood that flooded the floor. Kairi wiped her tears and vomit from her face and stumbled back over to Tidus and Wakka.
"Is Selphie ok?" she managed to choke out.
"She's breathing....she'll be fine," Tidus said as he held her head up while Wakka fanned her.
"This is awful...Riku and Mya may have been kidnapped," Kairi said in a worried tone.
"That makes sense...," Wakka said, "And their father fought the kidnapper off and that is why he is dead, no?" Kairi was silent for a while.
"As much as it pains me to say this....Their father didn't give a damn about them....if anyone was attacking them, he would've just let them die." There was an awkward silence for a few seconds.
"Well..," Kairi said, breaking the silence. "I'm gonna find Sora...this is serious.." She began to dart out the door.
"Wait.." she said as she darted back, "What do we do with the body..We can't just leave him there."
"Don't worry about it," Tidus said, "we'll take care of it." Kairi smiled at him and ran back out.
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"SORA!" Kairi called out. Sora was sitting on a rock by the shore staring out into the sunset. He didn't turn his head when she called out his name. Kairi ran up beside him. She bent down and took several deep breaths from running so fast.
"Oh Sora I don't where to start...Riku and Mya..It was awful..You should've seen it...It was the worst thing I've ever..,"
"I know..," Sora said blandly, cutting her off.
"You know? You mean you that is Riku and Mya's father is.."
"Dead...yes I know..I've known for a while."
"WHAT? You mean you knew their father's dead, disgusting, very frightening, blood-covered body was just lying in the middle of their house and you didn't tell anybody?!" Kairi shouted. Sora didn't respond.
"SORA!" Kairi groaned as she leaned up against a palm tree and covered her face with her hands in disgust.
"Well sorry..." Kairi took a few deep breaths and calmed down.
"Ok..well what about Riku and Mya? Something horrible could've happened to them! We have to find them."
"No...." Sora said firmly.
"NO?!" Kairi shouted as she pushed herself off her leaning position against the tree and stood up decisively.
"That's right.." he replied with no hint of shame in his voice.
"Well what the hell makes you say that?"
"There's a very good reason of why I'm saying that...Because Riku abandoned us and Mya didn't give a shit about us...why should we save them."
"SORA! How could you be so selfish? You're making this all about you! And besides..they both loved you once."
"Yah..once..."
"So what the hell happened?"
"You don't wanna know..."
"Yes I do...Both of them used to be your best friends."
"Well best friends can become strangers like that..."
"Well what happened?" Sora turned his head and stared directly into her eyes.
"You happened Kairi.."
"What?"
"Kairi think about it....Mya started to hate me after you came for reasons that I can't even understand..and Riku hated me after Kingdom Hearts because I stole you from him..." Kairi was silent. There wasn't much she could say because she knew that was all true, but it pained her to know how much she screwed up everyone's life. She wiped a tear that had fallen down her cheek.
"Well Sora, the reasons why you won't save them aren't your fault..those are all my fault...and I have to make all this right, and the only way I can do that is by bringing us all together again." Sora didn't say anything.
"Sora they could end up just like their father...cold and alone, lifeless on the hard floor with their blood covering the earth on which they lie on...is that what you want?" Sora took a deep breath.
"No..."
~*Hallow Bastion..Mya's POV*~
The sinners are worse than the sweethearts, for the sinners never used to be pure like the sweethearts...the sinners were evil from the start for no apparent reason. Malificent is a sinner. Riku is a sweetheart. What is there to do in the midst of all these sinners? What can I do but sit in my room and cower in fear and self-hatred? Do I go up to these sinners and ask them politely how their day has been? This is absurd. I mean nothing to these people and they mean nothing to me.
Malificent and Riku have been greedily collecting sinners and sweethearts like a child collects rocks...something I used to do before Riku stripped me of that care-free lifestyle. So far they have collected one's named Clay, The Queen of Hearts, Hades, and Jafar. These people are just another rock in their collection. They don't care about what they may be tearing them from.
I can't believe this is happening to me...Where in life did I go wrong to end up in the middle of this? Satan is laughing with delight at all of this wrongdoing as he smiles at me for bringing all of this together. But how? How could I be linked to any of these people in any kind of way? It's all Riku's fault...he took away my life without question or consent.
As I sat on my bed thinking these thoughts, I saw a Heartless peep his head through my door. I lifted up my head and looked at him, but when I did he jumped and ran away. This is great...I've never felt so alone...If someone isn't stripping away all my freedom and then tossing me aside then they're too scared to talk to me.
"What is wrong with you?" I called out to him, "Why are you so afraid of me?" At first nothing happened, but after a while the Heartless came back slowly. He looked at me through the doorway for a while and then hesitantly came inside.
"Why are you so afraid of me?" I asked again more softly. After I said that I could hear a shrill voice whisper softly in my mind.
"I am not worthy to speak to you princess." That voice was the most sad, desperate voice I had ever heard in my entire life.
"Why are you talking to me? How come no one else can hear you?" I asked back. I was exploding with questions but that was just the first one that came out.
"You created us so only you can hear us my princess." His mouth wasn't moving but I could hear him in my mind.
"What do you mean I created you?"
"You're the Princess of Heartless..all evil in the world comes from you. You could destroy me right now if you wanted to...you could destroy all the Heartless in the whole world right now if you wanted to."
I sat and thought about what he said...So this is my power...but what good does it do me? These people haven't used my power in any way so far. And why is this power forced on me. It was then I realized that Satan wasn't laughing in delight at me...he was standing beside me, cheering me on for I had the power to destroy anyone I wanted to just as he does...I am God to these Heartless...I decide who stays and who goes....This realization of my power gave me a huge adrenalin that I desperately needed.
At that moment I could hear people rushing down the hall. Riku, Malificent and several Heartless rushed in.
"What are you doing?" Malificent shouted at the Heartless, "Get away from her!"
As she said that several Heartless that were much bigger than the one that was talking to me rushed toward him. At first I was afraid for the little Heartless but then I remembered..I made these creatures and I can destroy them just as well...All I had to do was look at the two demon Heartless and they died instantly in their tracks. I smiled in satisfaction as I saw the Heartless lie dead on the ground. Riku and Malificent were very quiet. I could tell from their faces that they were very panicked that I had discovered my new power.
"What's wrong? Scared that I'll come after you next?" I said with an evil smile. Malificent fumed at that.
"GET HER OUT OF THERE!" She boomed at Riku. "GET HER AWAY FROM ANY HUMAN CONTACT!"
Riku walked cautiously over to me as I bore my eyes into his as all his guilt was sinking in. His sanctum was breaking. He has reality to face now. And that's exactly what that little bitch deserves. He deserves the real, cold, hard-core life. He doesn't deserve imaginary fantasies that he can hide away in to keep him from going insane. He deserves to be flung out into the bitter-cold air of reality. He deserves to rot in the lowest form of hell! I hate him! I hate him!
"I HATE YOU!" I screamed at him as he was carrying me away. I started to kick and scream madly as he strained to keep me in his grasp. But he couldn't do that now. I was a wild bull that couldn't be tamed.
"I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" I continued to scream at the top of my lungs, "I HATE YOU GOD DAMNIT! I HOPE YOU DIE! I HOPE YOU DROP DEAD AND YOU NEVER GET TO SEE KAIRI OR SORA EVER AGAIN!"
"SHUT UP MYA!" he screamed back. Our screams pierced the air throughout the entire ship. Everyone could hear exactly what we were saying.
"GO TO HELL RIKU!" I screamed in response.
"WELL I'LL SEE YOU THERE!"
"FUCK YOU!"
"WELL FUCK YOU TO SIS! GOD! MOM WOULD TURN OVER IN HER GRAVE IF SHE COULD YOU LIKE THIS!"
After he said that I got quiet. Everything inside of me shut down completely. I stopped kicking and screaming. I stopped moving whatsoever.
"Yah, that's what I thought!" Riku spat out at me. When we reached the room he was taking me to, he kicked open a door and threw me in. He didn't say a word to me afterwards..he just slammed the door and left me in the room and the cold, hard floor. The room was very small, not at all like my room. It was like a closet. There was no light at all and the only thing in the room was a mirror. I gazed into the mirror back at my foreign reflection. I didn't know that girl staring back at me in the black dress. I had no idea who that girl was who kills people for pleasure and speaks those awful words to her own brother...What is wrong with me? I don't even know who I am anymore.
I turned away from that girl staring back at me. I didn't wish to see her. I didn't want to have any contact with her. I didn't know what was happening to me...Why am I acting like this? What happened to that carefree girl I used to know?
I threw myself onto the hard ground and cried all my emotions out. I was in the most broken state I had ever been in my entire life. My whole world and everything I've known is crashing down on me. I hate this..I hate myself..I wish I was never born...
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Well I hope that was a vast improvement from my last chapter..that one kinda sucked. Anyway, I'm sorry for the lag between posts..I've just been really busy with football season (I'm on colorguard) and school and stuff. And it's only the beginning of the season =P. Just wait till we start having COMPETITIONS! Well that's all for now...Plez R/R ^_^
Peace Out,
Kia Saphia