Part 2
The Matrix does NOT belong to me. Sure, I want it and all, but it's not happening. Judging by all the money they're raking in, I don't think the Wachowskis will ever be willing to give it up to a person like me. But heck, you don't have to pay to dream.
Summery: Trinity has a secret, a secret threatening to destroy her. But has she made the right decision to keep it a secret?
Trinity heard three soft knocks on her door and pulled the blanket over her head. She knew who it was; Neo had established his own language with the crew through door knocks. Five long, loud knocks meant to come out quick and/or something was wrong. Four medium knocks was for when he was in a good mood and wanted to be with the person behind the door (this knock was reserved for Trinity) and three soft knocks meant he knew something was wrong and he wanted to talk about it.
There was a moment's pause followed by two more knocks, a little bit louder than the first three. When two louder knocks followed any of the others, it was the equivalent of Neo telling them to open the door; A bit more forceful than before but still calm.
Trinity shut her eyes, which stung from the tears, and made no noise. If she stayed quiet long enough maybe Neo would think she was asleep. The blanket began to irritate her face so she pulled it off and stared at the wall.
"Trinity, if you're awake, please, open the door. I need to talk to you."
Trinity sighed and pulled her knees up to her chest, her head barely touching her pillow. Neo was more observant than she had thought, although he didn't know of his skill, if that's what if could be called. It was more like a memory drilled into his brain from repetition. Already he knew what time Trinity fell asleep and when she would be napping. It was about an hour till lunch; according to him, Trinity would be working. Never napping. She coughed once to let him know that she was awake and he wasn't just talking to her door.
"Please, Trin, I don't know what I did to you, but can't you at least tell me what I did?"
Great, Trinity thought. Now he thinks it's his fault. He was kind, loving, generous, but also innocent and naïve. They were his weaknesses, in the Real World at least. He had no known weaknesses in the Matrix, but he was just a normal human in the Real World. Trinity imagined that to be one of the hardest aspects of being the One that Neo had to cope with – To go from superhuman to normal human wasn't always easy for the mind to handle, But Neo handled it well, and she admired him for that.
Trinity wondered why Neo wasn't with Morpheus. Ever since Neo became the One, - More along the lines of ever since he believed he was the one – Morpheus bombarded him with tests and simulations to see his true power. Neo was the lab rat, but there was nothing he could do. He didn't ask to be the One – It was his destiny.
'But it wasn't your destiny to be thrown into this.' She thought bitterly while her inner conscience stressed that it wasn't her fault. 'It was your choice.' It wasn't her fault that Cypher had fallen in love with her; it was her fault that she had let him fall in love with her. Luckily Neo, of course, didn't know about any of this. He wasn't even aware of Trinity or any aspect of the Real World when things went wrong…
~"So, Trinity, what's going to happen to us, now that Morpheus thinks he found the one again?" Cypher asked about their newest potential, a hacker named Neo. He was holding Trinity very close to his naked body. An involuntary shiver ran down Trinity's spine as Cypher's cold hands ran down her front side from her shoulders. Cypher raised an eyebrow. "What's wrong?"
Trinity shook her head and took Cypher's hands in her own and moved them off her body and down to his sides. "Nothing." She said shortly as she tried to pull away, but Cypher pulled her back to him, probably for body warmth. Being naked in the cold wasn't a very smart decision. She stopped struggling and wrapped her arms around his neck, gently massaging the skin.
"You're watching him too much. I don't like it that you're spending more time with him than you do with me."
Trinity shook her head. "It's my duty. I'm supposed to watch him on my shift just like everyone else does on their own." She took a deep breath. Cypher was a very jealous, lonely, desperate man. Taken away from the life he loved, Cypher had always hated life on the Neb. Trinity felt sorry for him. That was the main reason she didn't leave him. "And I'm not spending time with him at all. I just watch."
"But you like watching him. Don't you love me, Trinity? I love you."
"You mean you love that I'm yours." Trinity corrected him, pushing away the wanting to turn the side of her mouth up into a smirk. She shouldn't have said that, but Cypher never cared. Like an agent, a god damn agent, his love for Trinity could never be hindered. Harsh words would only make him think. He didn't really love her. He just loved the fact that he had a possession. Trinity was his possession and it made her sick, but when you're drowning you need something to hold on to, something to keep you afloat. In the Real World, Cypher was drowning. Trinity felt that she was the only one that could keep him afloat.
The corners of Cypher's mouth turned down and he held onto Trinity a little harder than what would be considered comfortable. "You know that's not true. The moment I saw you I fell in love."
Trinity raised an eyebrow skeptically. "Oh, really? How? Tell me how I know that. You never tell me anything accept that you love me, which doesn't prove shit. I know you've lied before, Cypher. What's there to stop me from thinking you won't lie again?"
"God damnit, Trinity!" Cypher's hands went to his sides in
the form of clenched fists. His exhale sounded almost like a growl. "Why do you
always have to be so difficult?"
"Why do you always have to be such an asshole?"
Cypher chuckled. "You always have an answer, don't you?" Trinity put her hands on her hips, waiting for Cypher to make a move. Her body language seemed to be saying 'Come on. Try me. I dare you.' Cypher knew the look on her face well. It was her 'take no prisoners' face. He knew Trinity was serious – she was always serious, but you never messed with her when she wore that face. No – you never messed with her. Period.
"If I didn't answer, it wouldn't be much of a conversation, would it?" If it weren't for who she was, Trinity would be smirking. Trinity never smirked. Trinity never smiled, even when she was happy. Coincidentally, Cypher always had a grin on his face. No, he was never truly happy. How could he be? The smile was a feeble attempt to convince him that there was still something to live for. Some hope for the future of mankind.
Why did she love him? Did she even really love him? The Oracle's words floated into her mind: 'You've never truly loved someone like you soon will. You will need to love him. The sake of mankind depends on it. But…it still is your choice.' Trinity never told anyone what The Oracle had said.
Trinity didn't exactly know what the Oracle meant, but it scared her. Either she would fall in love with the One or the man she loved would be the One. Cypher wasn't the One. Unfortunately, everyone knew that. The Oracle had also said it was a love so strong it would be almost impossible to resist. She didn't love Cypher like that. But if the fate of mankind depended on her loving Cypher, would she be able to?
Cypher's grin widened as he moved to the door and locked it. Wordlessly, Cypher's hands pulled Trinity down onto the bed…~
"Bastard!" Trinity found herself shouting as she jumped out of her bed as if it had burned her. It had been her bed, the very same bed that she had slept with Cypher all those times. After her shifts spent watching Neo in the Matrix, she would come back to Cypher. She never knew why accept that they were both lonely. Cypher needed somebody; Trinity did not, but she felt sorry for him, and it grew into something that was almost love, but still not true love.
The knocking had stopped. The room was silent, save for Trinity's heavy breathing. Slowly, she listened for Neo's presence but heard nothing. She crept towards the door, unlocked it and wrenched it open. Neo was on his way up the ladder when she saw him.
Had he thought Trinity called him a bastard?
"Neo?" Trinity's voice was hoarse from the time spent crying. Neo either didn't hear or didn't want to. No matter, he made no acknowledgements to the fact that Trinity had spoken. "Neo, I didn't mean you. I meant someone else."
Neo stopped halfway up the ladder, inhaling deeply. "Then who did you mean?"
Trinity winced. She should have known Neo would ask that. "I can't tell you, but please just trust me. It wasn't you. I…I-" I love you. "I would never say that to you." God damnit why can't I just tell him the truth? Because you're still tied to Cypher, her inner voice stated. You'll always be tied to Cypher as long as you have this child growing inside of you, and when the child is born, if it survives it will still tie you to Cypher till the day you die.
"How do I know that?" Neo said blankly, not looking at Trinity but at the cool metal beneath his hands. "All of a sudden I don't think I know you at all."
"Neo, please don't do this. You're acting stupid." Trinity wished she could follow him but her feet were glued to the floor.
"No." Neo turned around, his sad eyes piercing Trinity's like knives. "The only stupid thing I did was to believe you when you said you loved me." He knew that wasn't true; if it was, he wouldn't be alive, but he needed something so say. He couldn't just stand there all day waiting for Trinity to say something affectionate. He could wait his whole life and still never get as much as a smile, let alone a sign to prove her love. As he said this he disappeared up the ladder, leaving Trinity alone in the hallway, save for Siren, who had been hidden in her room until she heard the commotion going on outside and came out to see what was going on.
"Hey, Trinity!" She came out of the door, the usual grin on her face. "Trinity, what happened?" Trinity remained un-moving, her back towards Siren. The girl slowly crept forwards and placed a hand on Trinity's shoulder. Trinity pulled away hastily and walked to her room.
"It's not important. It's nothing."
Trinity lied, desperately wishing with all her heart that if really was nothing. If only wishes were destroyed machines, then the entire universe would be free…