Disclaimer: I don't own Pokemon. Not now, not in the past, and probably not in the future. Sure, there are a few critters I'd like to own, but, alas, I'm not permitted. On to the story.
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Second Chances
"You always hurt the ones you love." A trite phrase, I know, but, for me, true in so many ways. I've lost track of how many people I've accidentally hurt. I've pushed my own family away, and I'm almost surprised my friends, who are like family to me now, never pushed me away. Of course they'd never do that now, but they were probably tempted to leave me at first. Looking back, I would probably be tempted to leave me.
But enough about that, back to my point. I've hurt everyone I ever cared about or who cared about me. I don't know why I do it or how to stop. And I doubt my friends could tell me any answers. It's not that I like being like this. I want to change, I really do, but I have no idea how.
Some of the people I can make it up to, but others have been hurt too badly to ever give me a second chance. Strangely, it's the people who might forgive me that I need forgiveness from. Sound odd? Let me explain. The people who never gave me a second chance are the people who didn't know me as well, the people I didn't care as much about in the first place. The people closest to me are the people who give me second chances. Unfortunately, I'm on my fourth or fifth chance with most of them. Sooner or later, they'll stop giving me more chances. I just hope I can change my ways by then.
You might wonder who are the people I need forgiveness from. My parents, my sisters, but most of all my friends. Traveling with boys, I never got a chance to have a "best" friend. I guess I'd consider Sakura my best friend. She's probably one of the few people near my I haven't hurt. Oh, who am I kidding? She's probably the only one, if only because I don't see her very often. Everyone else has been caused pain because of me. Rudy loved me, and I turned him down without an explanation. I still don't know why exactly I did that. I really do care about Ash. He's like a little brother to me. I really meant it when I said I wanted a brother. I probably would have felt the same way Tracey, if only I had given him a chance to get to know me.
And Brock? I've hurt Brock more than I can explain or atone for. When he decided to stay at Valencia Island, I first realized I cared about him. Somewhere between then and when he came back, I became mature enough to realize how jealous I was every time he started to drool over another girl. I wasn't mature enough, however, to be able to explain my feelings to him. So instead, I yank his ear off every time he shows interest in a girl. The only way I can defend my actions is that I don't want him to get hurt. A sore ear will heal, but a heartache might hurt forever. Brock deserves better than the girls who toss him aside. He deserves someone who will love him for eternity. However, after seeing him react to Temacu, I'm not sure I want to expose my feelings. Brock deserves better than me.
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Well, how was that? I'm rather new to the idea of asking the opinions of complete strangers, so let me know your unbiased opinions. I still haven't figured out how to make the title work; anyone able to help me? Time for me to go do more writing.
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Second Chances
"You always hurt the ones you love." A trite phrase, I know, but, for me, true in so many ways. I've lost track of how many people I've accidentally hurt. I've pushed my own family away, and I'm almost surprised my friends, who are like family to me now, never pushed me away. Of course they'd never do that now, but they were probably tempted to leave me at first. Looking back, I would probably be tempted to leave me.
But enough about that, back to my point. I've hurt everyone I ever cared about or who cared about me. I don't know why I do it or how to stop. And I doubt my friends could tell me any answers. It's not that I like being like this. I want to change, I really do, but I have no idea how.
Some of the people I can make it up to, but others have been hurt too badly to ever give me a second chance. Strangely, it's the people who might forgive me that I need forgiveness from. Sound odd? Let me explain. The people who never gave me a second chance are the people who didn't know me as well, the people I didn't care as much about in the first place. The people closest to me are the people who give me second chances. Unfortunately, I'm on my fourth or fifth chance with most of them. Sooner or later, they'll stop giving me more chances. I just hope I can change my ways by then.
You might wonder who are the people I need forgiveness from. My parents, my sisters, but most of all my friends. Traveling with boys, I never got a chance to have a "best" friend. I guess I'd consider Sakura my best friend. She's probably one of the few people near my I haven't hurt. Oh, who am I kidding? She's probably the only one, if only because I don't see her very often. Everyone else has been caused pain because of me. Rudy loved me, and I turned him down without an explanation. I still don't know why exactly I did that. I really do care about Ash. He's like a little brother to me. I really meant it when I said I wanted a brother. I probably would have felt the same way Tracey, if only I had given him a chance to get to know me.
And Brock? I've hurt Brock more than I can explain or atone for. When he decided to stay at Valencia Island, I first realized I cared about him. Somewhere between then and when he came back, I became mature enough to realize how jealous I was every time he started to drool over another girl. I wasn't mature enough, however, to be able to explain my feelings to him. So instead, I yank his ear off every time he shows interest in a girl. The only way I can defend my actions is that I don't want him to get hurt. A sore ear will heal, but a heartache might hurt forever. Brock deserves better than the girls who toss him aside. He deserves someone who will love him for eternity. However, after seeing him react to Temacu, I'm not sure I want to expose my feelings. Brock deserves better than me.
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Well, how was that? I'm rather new to the idea of asking the opinions of complete strangers, so let me know your unbiased opinions. I still haven't figured out how to make the title work; anyone able to help me? Time for me to go do more writing.