A/N: Hey, sorry I haven't updated in sooo long, but I've been busy working all summer and working on more fics. So, heres chappie 5 !
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Gundam Wing doesn't belong to me. (sob)
Rating: Still PG – 13 ( but rating will go up next chappie!)
Pairings: 1x2, 3x4
Chapter 5: Relief and Regret.
"… and I hope we can still be friends." Heero finished a few minutes later. Relena was crying, her face streaked with tears, making her mascara run.
"God, Heero, there are so many things wrong with that speech, I dunno where to start." Relena said, after he stopped talking.
"First of all, don't finish with a cliché, it's embarresing." She sniffled loudly, before composing herself slightly and looking into his face. " Now, who are you in love with?"
Heero hadn't expected this. He thought he could just say his piece and leave. He hated questions and he knew she wasn't going to make this easy for him. He took a deep breath.
"Duo." He said. " I know I told you I wasn't seeing anyone, but I lied. I've been seeing him for a few months, and I love him."
Heero paused and took another deep breath. He had said it. He looked up at Relena's reaction. She looked like she was gonna cry again.
"So you are gay? Or you just love Duo?"
"I dunno. I never felt attracted to guys before Duo."
"Heero, if things were different, would we have been together?"
"Maybe, but things aren't different, Duo's in my life and as long as he's here…" he trailed off.
Relena nodded.
"Okay Heero, I just want you to be happy."
She walked over to him and kissed him on the cheek.
"Well, I'm gonna go now. Good luck." She said as she walked towards the door.
"Heero? If it doesn't work out, call me."
"It'll work." He replied, smiling.
She nodded again.
"Hilde, Wufei! We're going!" she bellowed and exited the house, the other two right behind her.
"Well, how did it go?"
Trowa asked, watching them leave.
"She took it surprising well." Heero stated.
"Great." Trowa smiled.
" Hey love." Quatre said softly, sliding up behind Trowa and wrapping his arms around the teen's waist.
" Hey, yourself." Trowa murmured, twisting around and catching Quatre's lips with his own.
Quatre responded slightly, then pulled away, looking at Heero.
" What are you doing here? You should be talking to Duo."
Heero nodded and left to find his love.
"Hey, Relena, what were you and Heero talking about in the kitchen?" Hilde asked in the car to Relenas house.
" Oh, nothing really." She replied, looking out the window.
" It must have been something important," Wufei stated, looking at her, " Heero doesn't sit down and have long conversations unless its nessessary."
Relena continued looking out the window of her pink limo, thinking about their earlier conversation. Heero couldn't be in love with Duo. It made no sense. Heero was hers. That braided baka couldn't have him. ' If he touches my Heero, I'll personally chop his hands off!' she thought filling with anger. 'It must be a test,' she thought, " Heero's testing me to see how far I'll go to prove my love for him. Well, he won't be disappointed.'
Wufei and Hilde were whispering behind her and looking at her in with matching expressions of concern. Relena smiled slightly. She could use them to her advantage. If she couldn't get Heero to leave Duo, maybe she could get the baka to give up him.
'Duo's dumb enough to give up Heero. The only person in the world dumb enough mind, but if my plan works… Heero will be mine. After all, he did say we couldn't be together as long as Duo was around… it was an invitation to split them up.' Her smile turned evil and she turned to face her friends.
" Actually, Wufei, you're right. It was very important. Heero has admitted he loves me." She said acting shyly.
"Really?" Wufei asked looking shocked and skepticle.
" Oh, Relena! That's great!" Hilde hugged her.
" I know. But, it was only a matter of time." Relena replied shrugging.
" Well, this is an interesting development." Wufei said.
" Yes it is. But, guys, you know how shy Heero is, and Wufei, you know about the Duo thing…" Wufei nodded. " So, we want to keep us a secret for a while. We're gonna hang out like friends to give Duo time." Relena explained.
" Makes sense." Wufei nodded.
" What has Duo got to do with this?" Hilde asked, puzzled.
" Nothing." Relena and Wufei answered together,
Hilde looked at them pouting. " Fine, don't tell me."
Relena smirked. " Sorry, its private, Hilde. I'm sure Duo will tell you soon." She said, patting Hilde on the head, the gesture making her pout even more.
" Well, Relena, we'll keep your secret, if that's what Heero wants." Wufei promised.
" Thank you both." Relena finished, giving them her best smile before turning back to the window. Her smile turned back into its former evil smirk.
'I'll win you back my love, and I'll crush that bastard for trying to take you away and corrupting your mind.' She silently promised.
"Duo? Duo?" Heero called out as he walked around outside. He was about to go back inside to search the house, when he spotted the end of Duo's braid. He had been sitting behind a large tree in the garden, out of sight from the back door.
Heero approached his lover cautiously, not wanting to startle or anger him any further that day.
"Duo?" he whispered, moving closer.
Duo took a deep breath, slowly and quietly, as to hide the action from Heero's attention. He knew why Heero was out here. Clearly the teen had perfected his speech and now it was Duo's turn to hear it in full. It took all the strength within him to stop the flow of tears threatening to spill over his face. He wouldn't cry, he already felt stupid. He shouldn't have spoken about emotions.
Well, he wouldn't let Heero 'let him down gently' He'd sort out the pathetic excuse of a relationship right now. It had always been doomed, in fact it should never have started, he knew that now.
He had to end it quickly, because despite the whole thing being a mistake, his feelings were very real, even if they weren't rational and he couldn't bear to lie about how he truly felt for very long, after all, as a rule, he never lied. But, this was an exception, he didn't want Heero's sympathy or pity over 'poor Duo's broken heart'. The idea made Duo feel sick.
"Hey." Duo replied, turning around, forcing a slight smile.
Heero smiled back, slightly confused about the change in Duo's mood. He expected hostility from his love after the way he had stomped out of the house earlier.
" Did you want something?" Duo inquired, eyes wide in an expression of false oblivious curiousity.
"Yeah. I wanted to talk about what happened today."
"Oh, that," Duo shrugged it off, "I was stupid. Sorry Heero. I mean, thinking back on how I reacted, I feel so embaressed. Talk about over reacting."
"But…" Heero interrupted.
Duo kept talking.
" Of course, you weren't there this morning. After all, it was my room and it was just sex. Its not like it really mean't anything. And all that crap I said about emotions, comfort and LOVE! What BULLSHIT!" Duo was talking so fast, he was running out of breath. " I have seen too many romantic movies! And Heero, the way I reacted to Relena. I'm really sorry."
Duo took Heero's hand and looked deeply into his cobalt orbs.
"Our relationship, sorry, more like our fling, was for fun, but you love her."
It killed Duo to say it, but he continued quickly, willing it to end faster.
" So, I figure the flings over, you have Relena now, and frankly, I'm just not interested in carrying on with this anymore." Duo finished, in a non-chalant tone, waving his hand as if dismissing the whole thing.
Heero digested the words slowly. He felt his heart break. Duo rejected him.
He came out the self-pitying trance in time to see Duo get up and approach him. He stood still as Duo kissed him gently. There was a feeling of finality to the embrace that made him want to break down right then.
" Goodbye, Heero, talk to ya later."
Duo started to walk away and then added in a cheery, excited tone, as if the previous conversation had never happened.
" Hey, and great news about Trowa and Quatre isn't it? Well, I'm gonna go catch up with Wufei and see if he's doing anything tonight. See ya."
He headed towards the back door, leaving Heero in shock in the back garden, trying to process fully what had happened.
As he did, a single tear fell down his cheek.
Meanwhile, Duo had held his head high and taken confident strides towards his bedroom.
When he entered and locked the door behind him, he fell onto the bed and wept.
A/N: Okay, that's it. I didn't really like this one, but please R+R and tell me what you think! Oh, and thanks to everyone who reviewed the other chappies! And I'll have the next chappies up really soon!