Diclaimer- I don't own Yuyu Hakusho!! WAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Hiei: smacks authoress Don't be a baby

hn. Fine. Meanie.

Ah, oh yea!! I'm actually on my 6th chapter! whoo-pee! Now I can die in bliss......sighs happily

Hiei: If you really want to die, I'll.....raises sword over authoress's head

Kurama: Now now Hiei. Don't kill the crazy authoress while she is still happy.....

Hiei: Hn. puts down sword

WHEEEEE!! NOW FOR THE SHOW!! Wait....I mean......story........i think that's what it is.....^^

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It's been a month now and nothing major happened. Hiei, Kurama, and Kuroko got tired of having such a routine life.

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" I have a question Kuroko." Kurama was the curious one of them.

" Eh?"

Kuroko looked up from washing the dishes. She was sufficient at it, but she always had suds and water all over her when she was done.

" What are your errands?" Kurama liked poking at things......except road kill. Only 5 year olds like to poke road kill, with a stick of course.

Kuroko then froze where she was and shadows were drawn up on her face.

Her back was at Kurama, so he couldn't examine her face, which is his best way of finding the real answer when needed. But he then noticed her shoulders tense up.

" I guess.......stuff......" She replied quietly. She fell the tension build suddenly in the room.

" Meeting people and discussing business or something?" Kurama just went poking at the poor squirrel wondering if it is still alive a/n: a metaphor of course! I don't think Kurama would poke a squirrel.....but I can picture it!! ^^

" Yea......You can say that......" She wasn't lying. She would beat information out of someone for the government, but she rarely did those, only when she gets a higher rank on the assassin list. She didn't get paid, just a better rank.

She dried off the dishes since there was a long uncomfortable silence. She felt a little tired so she gripped the sink, shoulders slumped (whatever that mean! ^^)

Kurama wanted to poke more, but couldn't think of anything else to say....He wanted the tension to disappear.

" Did you like anyone before?"

" ........................HUH?"

"Did you like anyone? Or love even?"

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I knew he wasn't hitting on me and I'm a little irritated he's prying into my personal life. I know I couldn't have him. He is going out with a pretty girl. That's why he's never home. He's always out. Hiei's always out too.

I admit they were cute and I had a crush when I first met them, but things were different now.

Even without the time spent together, I knew and learn about them everyday.

In other words....they were like my long lost brothers. I know Hiei has a sister, Yukina......but I never met her. She was pretty in the picture and going out with a guy named Kuwabara. His best friend, Yusuke, has a girlfriend Keiko who always yelled at him. And then there was Botan. The grim reaper in simple terms. there were perks to being an angel.

Heaven, is the place where the good spirits rest. I was there, with all the angels to take care of it.

And there was Botan, the cheerful grim reaper who shows her emotions plainly on her face.

Well, Botan was in spirit world, and heaven was in spirit world, just not in the area she worked in.

But every time I see her, in heaven when she'd lead someone there, or at Koenma's palace running over to send papers.....

She'd frown at me.

I hated it.

She hated me for no reason!

Or maybe she thought I was evil. After all, the wings I grew were black. They say the wings angels grow turn lighter or darker, depending on how good or bad they are.

I was bad. Bad to the bone, 99.9% dark......At least I'm not in denial......

' I'm telling you she's bad! She shouldn't be here! She should be on earth, or even better, in Hell!'

I was running papers to the Prince again. I loved getting out of heaven once in a while. It's boring.

But I felt myself stop in front of the door. I knew who they were talking about.

Oh no.

' Yes, she might be bad, but as you see, she hasn't done anything to jeopardize Spirit World.'

' But that doesn't mean she isn't! Its showing! Her wings are black. She's not happy in heaven, what more do you need to know?'

I felt my head against the door. I wanted to know more. I knew all this and acknowledged it, but I wanted to know what the Prince thought.

' Do you know why she her wings are black?'

' Because she is evil!!'

' Do you why she is evil?'

Oh gosh. He thought I was evil.

' Because she is only human.'

' So? Why did you let her-'

' Botan, it is human nature to be evil. But what makes someone good is what they do and what they try to change. They try to change themselves for the better. You are not making it better.'

' Oh....I....I didn't know.....I thought.....then why aren't all the other angel's wings black?'

' I..........really don't know.........'

'.....................'

A pause. I don't like long pauses. They make me nervous.

' Are we keeping her......?' Botan still didn't like me. Her voice didn't sound hopeful. It sounded dull....and almost......spiteful???

I couldn't hear his answer. Either he didn't say it or I didn't hear it. I panicked. I kick the doors open and held out the paper, head bowing. It was a habit. No matter how much I tried, I never got used to casually handing him the stupid papers. It's probably because of royalty.

'Oh. Thank you Kuroko.....' He jumped off the desk and took the papers as if the conversation never happened.

' At least someone respects my royalty.....' He flips through the papers and runs to his desk, stamping them.

I knew I wasn't needed, so I managed to walk straight and still kept my head low. I didn't feel like looking at Botan, with her disapproving frown and bitter eyes. I didn't feel like rubbing in her face that I was, in fact, a high ranked angel by lightly smacking her with my wing as I passed by. I just thought of oblivion.

" Kuroko? Why aren't you answering?..........................

..................If you don't want, you don't have to answer me......." Kurama seem disappointed.

I realized I was in reality now and shook my head.

" No. I'm sorry. What was the question again?"

" Have you been in love? Or liked anyone?"

I would tell them I had a crush on them before, but held that information in for another time.

" ...............................................Sensei."

I can feel the tears burning. They really hurt when you hold them back. But I have to, for sensei.

Kurama must have heard me choke out a sob because he put his hand on my shoulder and whispered, " It's all right to cry."

I cried right there. I held nothing back. Hiei was sitting at the table, reading a book.

I don't care. Hiei knew I was weak. I knew I was weak. Even Kurama acknowledged it, but they didn't care. I was like their sister.

I cry so hard. The last time I cried was when I was 15, when they took me away from my sensei. That's all I know about his name. I always called him sensei..

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" I've never seen her this emotional" I'm sitting slumped on the chair, but I don't care. I probably looked tired. I haven't slept in a couple of days. My girlfriend takes me everywhere, my work, and keeping the house payment keeps me up.

"She's very emotional." Hiei turns the page. I quirk an eyebrow at him, only to have a "hn." as a response.

Typical.

" Let's have a get-together. Like old times. I'm guessing Keiko has a child with Yusuke. And Yukina and Kuwabara are married too..." I watch Hiei flinch at this statement, but I want to keep talking knowing I have his attention. " And Botan! She'd want to go too, and Koenma probably wouldn't be able to, but I'll ask anyways. He always finds a way out." I chuckled at this thought.

" Oh! Do you think my girlfriend could come? She might feel a little out of place at first, but I'm sure Botan will make her feel welcome..." I knew I was talking endlessly about my girlfriend without knowing it, but I can't help it.

" Whatever. Just don't go on about it." With that, he walked out of the room (kitchen) and headed towards his room. I sighed. Another audience disappearing because of my love for my girlfriend. I walk over to get a drink. I'll go to bed soon.....mmmm.......beeedddd.......so compfy.............

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The get-together came. It was held at Kurama's house and everyone came. Even Koenma. Everyone was laughing of good times and even Hiei was enjoying himself.

Kuroko didn't want to see Botan so before everyone came, she left to do more errands.

Kruoko suddenly came back late and everyone was still there. She tried to sneak into her room, but everyone came rushing over when they saw she was bloody, cut, and wet from the rain.

" What happened?"

" Did you get jumped?"

" You should lay down."

"please......" Kuroko could barely hear herself. " Hiei.....your sword......."

She pulled the sword out for her long and nearly ripped to shreds trench coat and threw it towards Hiei, in the back. Hiei caught his sword and glared.

" There's blood on it." Hiei wasn't mad that Kuroko used his sword, he was just upset she used the sword to senseless blood shed. He didn't like the smell of old blood on his sword.

Everyone look at Hiei, then Kuroko, and then at Hiei again. Indeed they started to smell the sickening stench of blood enter the room.

" It's not your blood, is it?" Hiei want to know. Hiei in a way knew already.

".................."

" Kuroko, you should lay down." Kurama took her arm and tried to lead her to her room, but she refuse even with the lack of energy she had.

" No! Leave me alone! " She pulled out of Kurama's grip and ran to her room.

Kuroko slam the door gently and lock it. Her back was against the door as she slid down onto the floor slowly. All she wanted to do now was cry. All she wanted was her Sensei.

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Damn it all. This chapter just didn't turn out like how I planned it to. er. Oh well. Maybe this is for the better. I'm too lazy to change it anyways. But if you don't like this chapter I understand. I'll fix it until it gets better. ^^ yay

Kuroko nearly is getting to the breaking point of her sanity so maybe I'll put the rating up a notch. Kuroko is going to loose her mind!

Wait, didn't she already loose it?......................................nah! I'll just torture 'em more.

Hiei: who??

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Read and review anyways. Thanks!!