Disclaimer: I'm not going to say it. You know I don't own it. Also, so
no one gets confused, Ross is going to have flashbacks and their going to
be written in dialogue so I'm not copying someone else. If I am, though,
I'm sorry.
Chapter 2: Remembering Rachel
Ross raced into the hospital and found Monica, Phoebe, Chandler, and Joey sitting in the hallway.
"What happened?" asked Ross.
"I came back from my date and found an open empty bottle of sleeping pills and Rachel lying down on the floor," said Joey. "I came back early because my date decided she hated me."
"Then he came to get us," said Monica, her voice wavering. "Then we came down here. The doctor told us she swallowed the whole bottle of sleeping pills. They don't know whether or not she's going to make it."
Ross was stunned. He could barely breathe. He sat down next to Monica.
"We also found this," said Phoebe, handing him a piece of paper and her eyes filled with tears. "She wrote it to all of us." Ross read the note. It said:
Hi Everyone,
By the time you all will be reading this I may not be here. I'm sorry. Phoebe and Monica, I'm sorry I ditched you guys at the wedding shower. Being with Ross is not more important than hanging out with you. You guys are my best friends. I like being with you guys and Ross equally. You guys are like my sister and Joey and Chandler, you guys are like my brothers.
Ross, I don't love Gunther. I love you. I never stopped loving you and never will. Gunther's hands felt disgusting up my shirt. Ross, I will always love you and will always be with you. Everyone, keep me in your prayers and in your hearts. I love you all.
Good-bye, Rachel
Ross's eyes filled up with tears and he folded up the note and put it in his pocket. Memories of Rachel flooded over him.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears.
Rachel: So, what are you going to do over the summer? Ross: Probably stay here and work on my music. Rachel: These sleeves keep falling down am I unhook? Ross: I'm not sure let me check. So what are you going to do- Rachel (squealing): OH, THE GUYS ARE HERE! (runs out) Ross:..This summer..
And if you had to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Ross: So, Rachel has it been weird since I've been away? Rachel: Oh! No, not really.
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
Rachel: I just never had that moment when you had to have someone right there in the middle of a theme park. I mean Barry wouldn't even kiss me on a miniature golf course. I just never had that fiery passion. Ross: Well, eventually, that passion burns out. But, I see passion in your future. Rachel: Thanks, Ross. You're so great.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Ross: You're over me? You're over me? Rach, do you..do you? Rachel: Okay, basically I've been having feelings for you. Ross: You have feelings for me? Rachel: Yeah? What? So? You had feelings for me first. Ross: Whoa! You know? Rachel: Chandler told me. Ross: Chandler? When did he. Rachel: While, you were in China meeting Julie. Ross: And now you're over me? Rachel: Are you over me?
When you'd cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand for all of these years But you still have all of me
Ross: Try the bottom one. (Rachel opens the door and kisses Ross)
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Ross: Rachel, please give me another chance. Rachel: No. Ross: No? Rachel: That's what I said. Imagine knowing the worst things about yourself that you hate and then someone you really care about made a list of those things about you. Ross: No, but I want to be with you in spite of those things. If you made a list of my flaws I would still want to go out with you. Rachel: That's the difference between you and I. I would never make a list.
But now I'm bound by the life
You left behind
Monica: I can't believe you did that. Ross: Yeah, well. (Rachel walks up to Ross and kisses him)
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Ross (yelling): Look, your going to be with a guy who makes plans. I make these plans because I love you. Rachel (yelling): I love you, too. Ross (yelling): That's the first time we've said that. Rachel (yelling): Yes it is. Ross (yelling): I'm going to kiss you now. Rachel (yelling): Well, you'd better. (Ross and Rachel kiss)
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
Ross (crying): I can't live without these arms and this heart and just you. Rachel (crying): I just can't be with you anymore. You're a totally different person to me now. I always thought you would never hurt me, but I was wrong. Ross: This.this can't be it. Rachel: Then how come it is?
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Ross: I can't believe she's on a date with Mark. I knew she liked him. Chandler: Ross, she moved on. It's time you did, too. It's over. Ross: It's just.I miss her so much.
When you'd cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
Ross: Oh, my god. Rachel! What are you doing here? Rachel: I just came to tell you.congratulations. Priest: I, Ross. Ross: I, Ross. Priest: Take thee Emily. Ross: Take thee Rachel.EMILY! Emily. Priest: Shall I go on?
I've tried so hard to tell myself
That you're gone
Rachel: Ross, I'm sorry she just bothered me. Ross: Do you want me to stop dating all together? Rachel: Yes. Not because I want to date you, I just want you to stop dating. I'm carrying our baby, Ross. I need you to be at my beck and call. I know this sounds selfish, but it's what I feel. Ross: Okay. Rachel: Really? Ross: You want me to be here, I'll be here. Rachel: Oh, thank you.
And though your still with me
I've been alone all along
Rachel: I'm a bad mother. This party turned out to be a disaster. Ross: You're not a bad mother. Rachel: I wanted everyone around a bunny-shaped cake and singing. Ross: Look. Rachel: You made it into a bunny! Ross: It's a gift. Rachel: Thanks, Ross.
When you'd cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hands for all of these years But you still have all of me
Ross: You got a tattoo? Rachel: Yes. I'm so sorry. Ross: I like it.
All of me
Ross: Honey, I'm sorry I yelled at you. I want you there I need you there. What can I do to show you how much I need you there? Joey: You can drink the fat. Rachel: He's got a point. I think you should drink the fat. Ross: Okay.
All of me
Rachel: NO DON'T DO IT! I'LL GO! Ross: Really? Rachel: You really going to do that weren't you? Ross: Yeah. Rachel: You were going to drink the fat.
All of me
Ross: I'm sorry. It's just I was in love with Carol and then someone came and took her away from me. If it's possible, I love you more. I'm just nervous that someone is going to take you away from me. Rachel: I love you, too, Ross. No one's going to take me away from you.
All of me
Ross woke up. He was still sitting on the floor of the hospital. He looked at his watch. It was midnight. Everyone else was awake.
"Any word yet?" asked Ross.
"No," said Phoebe.
"Where was the last place she went before Joey found her?" asked Ross.
"She came to our apartment," said Chandler. "Then they got in a fight and then Rachel left."
"Chandler were you listening from the bedroom?" asked Monica.
"You guys were yelling," said Chandler.
"When did she go to your apartment?" asked Ross.
"Three hours before Joey found her," answered Monica.
"Then an hour after that I found Gunther kissing her in Central Perk," said Ross. "Then an hour later, I got the call from Joey-"
Ross paused.
"Ross?" said Phoebe. "Why did you stop?"
"I just had a epiphany," said Ross.
"A what?" asked Chandler.
"The last place she was before she was at home was at my apartment begging me to forgive her," said Ross. "And that's when I told her it was over forever."
"Oh, my god," said Phoebe.
"It's my fault," said Ross. "She did this to herself. It's my fault."
"Ross-" started Monica.
"Don't try to comfort me," said Ross, getting up. "I have to take a walk. I'll be back."
Ross knows the truth. Where will his walk lead? Will Rachel make it? To Be Continued. A/N: Here it is. Chapter 2. I hope it wasn't too boring and I hope I didn't copy anyone. If I did I'm sorry. "My Immortal" (the song in the chapter) is by my favorite group Evanescence. It's about this guy who committed suicide and how his girlfriend is affected by it. I thought it would be appropriate for the story. Anyways, stay tuned for Chapter 3: Confessions. It's coming soon.
Chapter 2: Remembering Rachel
Ross raced into the hospital and found Monica, Phoebe, Chandler, and Joey sitting in the hallway.
"What happened?" asked Ross.
"I came back from my date and found an open empty bottle of sleeping pills and Rachel lying down on the floor," said Joey. "I came back early because my date decided she hated me."
"Then he came to get us," said Monica, her voice wavering. "Then we came down here. The doctor told us she swallowed the whole bottle of sleeping pills. They don't know whether or not she's going to make it."
Ross was stunned. He could barely breathe. He sat down next to Monica.
"We also found this," said Phoebe, handing him a piece of paper and her eyes filled with tears. "She wrote it to all of us." Ross read the note. It said:
Hi Everyone,
By the time you all will be reading this I may not be here. I'm sorry. Phoebe and Monica, I'm sorry I ditched you guys at the wedding shower. Being with Ross is not more important than hanging out with you. You guys are my best friends. I like being with you guys and Ross equally. You guys are like my sister and Joey and Chandler, you guys are like my brothers.
Ross, I don't love Gunther. I love you. I never stopped loving you and never will. Gunther's hands felt disgusting up my shirt. Ross, I will always love you and will always be with you. Everyone, keep me in your prayers and in your hearts. I love you all.
Good-bye, Rachel
Ross's eyes filled up with tears and he folded up the note and put it in his pocket. Memories of Rachel flooded over him.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears.
Rachel: So, what are you going to do over the summer? Ross: Probably stay here and work on my music. Rachel: These sleeves keep falling down am I unhook? Ross: I'm not sure let me check. So what are you going to do- Rachel (squealing): OH, THE GUYS ARE HERE! (runs out) Ross:..This summer..
And if you had to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Ross: So, Rachel has it been weird since I've been away? Rachel: Oh! No, not really.
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
Rachel: I just never had that moment when you had to have someone right there in the middle of a theme park. I mean Barry wouldn't even kiss me on a miniature golf course. I just never had that fiery passion. Ross: Well, eventually, that passion burns out. But, I see passion in your future. Rachel: Thanks, Ross. You're so great.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Ross: You're over me? You're over me? Rach, do you..do you? Rachel: Okay, basically I've been having feelings for you. Ross: You have feelings for me? Rachel: Yeah? What? So? You had feelings for me first. Ross: Whoa! You know? Rachel: Chandler told me. Ross: Chandler? When did he. Rachel: While, you were in China meeting Julie. Ross: And now you're over me? Rachel: Are you over me?
When you'd cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand for all of these years But you still have all of me
Ross: Try the bottom one. (Rachel opens the door and kisses Ross)
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Ross: Rachel, please give me another chance. Rachel: No. Ross: No? Rachel: That's what I said. Imagine knowing the worst things about yourself that you hate and then someone you really care about made a list of those things about you. Ross: No, but I want to be with you in spite of those things. If you made a list of my flaws I would still want to go out with you. Rachel: That's the difference between you and I. I would never make a list.
But now I'm bound by the life
You left behind
Monica: I can't believe you did that. Ross: Yeah, well. (Rachel walks up to Ross and kisses him)
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Ross (yelling): Look, your going to be with a guy who makes plans. I make these plans because I love you. Rachel (yelling): I love you, too. Ross (yelling): That's the first time we've said that. Rachel (yelling): Yes it is. Ross (yelling): I'm going to kiss you now. Rachel (yelling): Well, you'd better. (Ross and Rachel kiss)
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
Ross (crying): I can't live without these arms and this heart and just you. Rachel (crying): I just can't be with you anymore. You're a totally different person to me now. I always thought you would never hurt me, but I was wrong. Ross: This.this can't be it. Rachel: Then how come it is?
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Ross: I can't believe she's on a date with Mark. I knew she liked him. Chandler: Ross, she moved on. It's time you did, too. It's over. Ross: It's just.I miss her so much.
When you'd cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
Ross: Oh, my god. Rachel! What are you doing here? Rachel: I just came to tell you.congratulations. Priest: I, Ross. Ross: I, Ross. Priest: Take thee Emily. Ross: Take thee Rachel.EMILY! Emily. Priest: Shall I go on?
I've tried so hard to tell myself
That you're gone
Rachel: Ross, I'm sorry she just bothered me. Ross: Do you want me to stop dating all together? Rachel: Yes. Not because I want to date you, I just want you to stop dating. I'm carrying our baby, Ross. I need you to be at my beck and call. I know this sounds selfish, but it's what I feel. Ross: Okay. Rachel: Really? Ross: You want me to be here, I'll be here. Rachel: Oh, thank you.
And though your still with me
I've been alone all along
Rachel: I'm a bad mother. This party turned out to be a disaster. Ross: You're not a bad mother. Rachel: I wanted everyone around a bunny-shaped cake and singing. Ross: Look. Rachel: You made it into a bunny! Ross: It's a gift. Rachel: Thanks, Ross.
When you'd cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hands for all of these years But you still have all of me
Ross: You got a tattoo? Rachel: Yes. I'm so sorry. Ross: I like it.
All of me
Ross: Honey, I'm sorry I yelled at you. I want you there I need you there. What can I do to show you how much I need you there? Joey: You can drink the fat. Rachel: He's got a point. I think you should drink the fat. Ross: Okay.
All of me
Rachel: NO DON'T DO IT! I'LL GO! Ross: Really? Rachel: You really going to do that weren't you? Ross: Yeah. Rachel: You were going to drink the fat.
All of me
Ross: I'm sorry. It's just I was in love with Carol and then someone came and took her away from me. If it's possible, I love you more. I'm just nervous that someone is going to take you away from me. Rachel: I love you, too, Ross. No one's going to take me away from you.
All of me
Ross woke up. He was still sitting on the floor of the hospital. He looked at his watch. It was midnight. Everyone else was awake.
"Any word yet?" asked Ross.
"No," said Phoebe.
"Where was the last place she went before Joey found her?" asked Ross.
"She came to our apartment," said Chandler. "Then they got in a fight and then Rachel left."
"Chandler were you listening from the bedroom?" asked Monica.
"You guys were yelling," said Chandler.
"When did she go to your apartment?" asked Ross.
"Three hours before Joey found her," answered Monica.
"Then an hour after that I found Gunther kissing her in Central Perk," said Ross. "Then an hour later, I got the call from Joey-"
Ross paused.
"Ross?" said Phoebe. "Why did you stop?"
"I just had a epiphany," said Ross.
"A what?" asked Chandler.
"The last place she was before she was at home was at my apartment begging me to forgive her," said Ross. "And that's when I told her it was over forever."
"Oh, my god," said Phoebe.
"It's my fault," said Ross. "She did this to herself. It's my fault."
"Ross-" started Monica.
"Don't try to comfort me," said Ross, getting up. "I have to take a walk. I'll be back."
Ross knows the truth. Where will his walk lead? Will Rachel make it? To Be Continued. A/N: Here it is. Chapter 2. I hope it wasn't too boring and I hope I didn't copy anyone. If I did I'm sorry. "My Immortal" (the song in the chapter) is by my favorite group Evanescence. It's about this guy who committed suicide and how his girlfriend is affected by it. I thought it would be appropriate for the story. Anyways, stay tuned for Chapter 3: Confessions. It's coming soon.