Heylo everybody. Um I hope this is okay. But oh well I dunno...
To noone. Um.well what Sejiko did remains a mystery 4 now, hehe. And. Um.at
da beginnin in was Sejiko la! And that somebody reminding him that this was
not da real him,.that was Seishirou!(I hope u get what I mean) But thx 4
reviewin.
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'the mother bear will nurse' dzzhh 'we will be expecting some rain tomorrow if' dzzhh 'hello! We have a special guest for you today! Please welcome GACKT!! Hello its such a pleasure to see you here again. How many years has it been? And how is the moon-child production proceeding?.....................'
Seishirou who was sitting on his couch placed in front of the television stopped changing channels for he knew from the very start that he was not interested in watching the television now. Letting out a sigh, he lowered his hand which held the mobile remote controller and rested it on the arm rest of this one sitter sofa. He had his legs crossed and was now leaned back, trying to get comfortable obviously without success. He looked around the room hoping that it would magically tell him all the answers to his problems and questions or at least give him a hint to it. His eyes moved slowly at all the recognizable objects in the room ranging from the old dusty blue lava lamp light which was given to him by a women which he killed several days later, to the dried up leaves that has been silently scraping his floors for some time since the window was left open for air earlier today. All these object and movements didn't help him at all. They didn't give him the answers which he so desperately seeks. 'What was he feeling? Why does he feel uncomfortable? These emotions and feelings were accumulating faster and faster. He had to admit that this was once of the major reasons for leaving the small kid after killing his twin sister. He was afraid that he wouldn't be able to control and understand the emotions and he was right. He was losing control. To make matters worst, there were also the words which he gave Subaru before he passed out. Before even realizing, the talking of the television blurred to the background. There, holding his mug of strong black coffee, taking numerous sips from time to time, Seishirou looked at his moving reflection in the liquid in the mug. 'You are such a coward' came the words from his mouth to the man in the reflection. All he did after that was smile pathetically at the person in the mug. Leaning forward with the mug held close to his lips, Seishirou though about what had just happened and what will or might happen next. Seishirou said those words seconds before Subaru passed out was because he would then not need to face Subaru's immediate reaction. It gave him time to think, time to vanish, run away from it all.
Still thinking, Seshirou placed his mug down on the side desk and pushed his body to a standing position, stretched comfortably then made his way to the opposite room where Subaru slept. Walking to the room, he was surrounded by the noiseless atmosphere which seemed to amplify the sounds of his footsteps. In reaching the bed side, Seishirou looked down at the sleeping man which resembled to him what an angel might have looked like. Unconsciously, his eyes scanned the sleeping man in front of him acknowledging the slender neck and collar bones, the slim waists, the pale white skin, the slightly damped black hair ..the list went on till he took a closer look at the neck in which he saw marks, kiss marks and wounds. Seishirou couldn't help but clenched his fists tightly. But the onmyouji still had a peaceful look as if nothing had happened. It relaxed Seishirou to watch Subaru at ease, away from the pain which regretfully he (Seishirou) had caused him. It was then that his heart and mind went into conflict. It was either his heart that wanted more or his mind that wanted more, more of this person in front of him. Not knowing these feelings, Seishirou was the type of man who gets what he wants, does what he wants and right now he doesn't really know what he wanted. Allowing his feelings to engulf him, Seishirou leaned forward and placed his left hand next to Subarus head, on the bed. He brought his head down till he was a few inches from Subaru's. He had his eyes focused on the slightly pink moist lips of the onmyouji as he halfheartedly advanced. He felt his arms and body shivering. Just before he tasted the lips that were in front of him, his senses stopped him.
'What am I doing? Isn't this something like what Sejiko did.?' Seishirou closed his eyes and felt slightly disgusted of his self and his desire that is taking control over him. 'Sorry Subaru-kun.but this time as you said it; we will bring it all to an end' with these words he left the room.
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'mama mama! Where are we going today?' called a small little girl probably around the age of 5 in a white coloured lacy dress with bright glittering shoes to the woman next to her. Both their faces not visible but they were obviously smiling and laughing happily. The lady which was the girls' mother has laughing gently under her brown coloured fancy hat and was dressed with a plain yellow coloured dress. She held on to her hat with her right hand when the winds came in and with the other hand, was holding her daughters tiny hands. Together with bonded hands they both headed towards the Ueno Park with their laughter's echoing throughout their way.
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This time Subaru woke up to a more calm state. The first thing that went into his mind was his dream. What was it? A girl and her mother walking to the Ueno Park? They were happy and laughing. It was a pleasant dream but how he got it? He didn't know. Perhaps.it might have been his twin sister in the past with their mother.Their laughter's were still clear in his head and he couldn't help but let a smile pass through his lips. 'Hokuto-chan.' he whispered to himself. Looking around he knew that he was in the same room as before and that little time had passed through since that.. At this point there was a dead silence in the room. Subaru paused all movement and sound from his body. 'I love you too.' these words have now replaced the echoing laughter's. Subaru was lost, devastated. What was he to do now? Did it mean that Seishirou knew how he felt all the way through? If this was the case.is Seishirou going to vanish like he did years ago? Subaru couldn't let this happen. He just couldn't. They've been through so far and for Subaru he is not going to lose it all again. Still in need to rest and healing, his body condition didn't help much at all. Staggering, he hastily kicked of the bed and fell helplessly on the carpeted floor with a soft 'thump'. 'Uh' was the only sound Subaru made. The rest of his energy was used to hold on to his wounds that had split open again. Subaru, with his hands stopping the bleeding from the open wound of his chest swore under his breath. He felt the strong urge to just lie there and not move but he couldn't. Removing his blood stained hands from the wound, Subaru got upright and started walking, breathing painfully as he did. Taking step my step, he went to look for the Sakurazukamori unaware that his scars on his hands were blinking slowly and guiding him to Seishirou.
The images displayed in Subarus eyes were not clear nor where they too blur to make out. He found the exit of the room and twisted the door knob leaving hints of blood stains on it. On in font of him was a small narrow corridor which led to another room close by. He could from his position hear soft talking and noise probably made by a television or a radio for it was definitely not Seishirou's voice. He made his way closer and closer to the room pushing himself against the white wall drawing lines of red behind him. Breathing heavily and heavily, Subaru reached the entrance of the door and peered in from the corer. There he saw that man.
Seishirou was facing his back on Subaru and was shirtless. He just had a white coloured bandage around his chest which sipped blood. By the looks of it, Seishirou was dressing his wounds and had not realized or sensed that Subaru was just behind him. When Subaru saw the bandage across Seishirous chest, he remembered again the last time Seishirou got hurt because of him. Eyes unable to stop the accumulating tears slowly shut and open again dropping two big crystal droplets down to the ground. Subaru stretched out and with his trembling fingers touched the bandage across Seishirou who shuddered at the first then didn't move. Seishirou didn't turn around to face Subaru. Both sides were completely uncomfortable not knowing how to react or what to say. All Subaru did was move closer to Seishirous back and with his fingers sliding down the bandage, smearing his blood on it he said 'Im sorry for all the problems I have caused you' .Seishirous' skin shook as it felt a tear breaking on it. 'I just don't know what I want anymore. Im just afraid or losing i.I just know that I don't want you to go away anymore like you did last time. So please..'
Before Subaru had the time to finish talking, he found himself in a deep kiss that halted time seemed to have cut him off reality of pain. Seishirou had one of his hands holding up Subaru's chin and the other holding Subaru's wrist down. Subaru didn't resist or fight back he allowed Seishirou to do as he pleased, kissing him and tasting him. It was after a few seconds that Subaru attempted to kiss back. This went on for the next few seconds when Seishirou broke off and looked into Subaru's eyes which were now closed and wet with tears. Seishirou, with his fingers wiped away those tears and waited for Subaru to open his eyes and face him. Slowly Subaru's eye lids lifted, revealing the sorrowful green orbs that burned deep into Seishirou's amber eyes. Subaru still had his lips slightly parted breathing silently through them. 'Im sorry I couldn't prevent what happened to you but I promise you this., nothing like this would happen to you again. So don't cry anymore. Don't cry anymore.' Seishirou said these words as he locked himself in Subarus' emerald eyes. 'So the dream was true.' Subaru choked up shivering. 'It was true.' All Seishirou did then was look at fault at Subaru who was now averting eyes away from him.
Seishirou for the first time in his life felt guilt and in a way angry at himself as he watched the younger man trying his best to shun his tears. Seishirou moved closer to Subaru and said 'this is the least I can do for you now' after saying these words he slowly kissed the marks on Subaru's neck with passion that Subaru had never in his life felt before. It did seem to relieve him of his agonizing heart as he was eaten by the strong emotions of the man. Subaru just closed his eyes and looked up with one of his hands still being seized by Seishirou. Both the scars on his hands were blazing.
Later that night, Together, they fell asleep on the same white bed sheeted bed that was now carpeted with cold sakura petals from the open window. For Seishirou, this is the first time in his life he has felt emotions and for Subaru, the key to the locked door of happiness.
The next morning.....
'Thank you Seishirou-san I will never forget this. So.good bye now and forever.' Subaru said this as he turned around and walked out of the illusion.
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its not da end yet :p
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'the mother bear will nurse' dzzhh 'we will be expecting some rain tomorrow if' dzzhh 'hello! We have a special guest for you today! Please welcome GACKT!! Hello its such a pleasure to see you here again. How many years has it been? And how is the moon-child production proceeding?.....................'
Seishirou who was sitting on his couch placed in front of the television stopped changing channels for he knew from the very start that he was not interested in watching the television now. Letting out a sigh, he lowered his hand which held the mobile remote controller and rested it on the arm rest of this one sitter sofa. He had his legs crossed and was now leaned back, trying to get comfortable obviously without success. He looked around the room hoping that it would magically tell him all the answers to his problems and questions or at least give him a hint to it. His eyes moved slowly at all the recognizable objects in the room ranging from the old dusty blue lava lamp light which was given to him by a women which he killed several days later, to the dried up leaves that has been silently scraping his floors for some time since the window was left open for air earlier today. All these object and movements didn't help him at all. They didn't give him the answers which he so desperately seeks. 'What was he feeling? Why does he feel uncomfortable? These emotions and feelings were accumulating faster and faster. He had to admit that this was once of the major reasons for leaving the small kid after killing his twin sister. He was afraid that he wouldn't be able to control and understand the emotions and he was right. He was losing control. To make matters worst, there were also the words which he gave Subaru before he passed out. Before even realizing, the talking of the television blurred to the background. There, holding his mug of strong black coffee, taking numerous sips from time to time, Seishirou looked at his moving reflection in the liquid in the mug. 'You are such a coward' came the words from his mouth to the man in the reflection. All he did after that was smile pathetically at the person in the mug. Leaning forward with the mug held close to his lips, Seishirou though about what had just happened and what will or might happen next. Seishirou said those words seconds before Subaru passed out was because he would then not need to face Subaru's immediate reaction. It gave him time to think, time to vanish, run away from it all.
Still thinking, Seshirou placed his mug down on the side desk and pushed his body to a standing position, stretched comfortably then made his way to the opposite room where Subaru slept. Walking to the room, he was surrounded by the noiseless atmosphere which seemed to amplify the sounds of his footsteps. In reaching the bed side, Seishirou looked down at the sleeping man which resembled to him what an angel might have looked like. Unconsciously, his eyes scanned the sleeping man in front of him acknowledging the slender neck and collar bones, the slim waists, the pale white skin, the slightly damped black hair ..the list went on till he took a closer look at the neck in which he saw marks, kiss marks and wounds. Seishirou couldn't help but clenched his fists tightly. But the onmyouji still had a peaceful look as if nothing had happened. It relaxed Seishirou to watch Subaru at ease, away from the pain which regretfully he (Seishirou) had caused him. It was then that his heart and mind went into conflict. It was either his heart that wanted more or his mind that wanted more, more of this person in front of him. Not knowing these feelings, Seishirou was the type of man who gets what he wants, does what he wants and right now he doesn't really know what he wanted. Allowing his feelings to engulf him, Seishirou leaned forward and placed his left hand next to Subarus head, on the bed. He brought his head down till he was a few inches from Subaru's. He had his eyes focused on the slightly pink moist lips of the onmyouji as he halfheartedly advanced. He felt his arms and body shivering. Just before he tasted the lips that were in front of him, his senses stopped him.
'What am I doing? Isn't this something like what Sejiko did.?' Seishirou closed his eyes and felt slightly disgusted of his self and his desire that is taking control over him. 'Sorry Subaru-kun.but this time as you said it; we will bring it all to an end' with these words he left the room.
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'mama mama! Where are we going today?' called a small little girl probably around the age of 5 in a white coloured lacy dress with bright glittering shoes to the woman next to her. Both their faces not visible but they were obviously smiling and laughing happily. The lady which was the girls' mother has laughing gently under her brown coloured fancy hat and was dressed with a plain yellow coloured dress. She held on to her hat with her right hand when the winds came in and with the other hand, was holding her daughters tiny hands. Together with bonded hands they both headed towards the Ueno Park with their laughter's echoing throughout their way.
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This time Subaru woke up to a more calm state. The first thing that went into his mind was his dream. What was it? A girl and her mother walking to the Ueno Park? They were happy and laughing. It was a pleasant dream but how he got it? He didn't know. Perhaps.it might have been his twin sister in the past with their mother.Their laughter's were still clear in his head and he couldn't help but let a smile pass through his lips. 'Hokuto-chan.' he whispered to himself. Looking around he knew that he was in the same room as before and that little time had passed through since that.. At this point there was a dead silence in the room. Subaru paused all movement and sound from his body. 'I love you too.' these words have now replaced the echoing laughter's. Subaru was lost, devastated. What was he to do now? Did it mean that Seishirou knew how he felt all the way through? If this was the case.is Seishirou going to vanish like he did years ago? Subaru couldn't let this happen. He just couldn't. They've been through so far and for Subaru he is not going to lose it all again. Still in need to rest and healing, his body condition didn't help much at all. Staggering, he hastily kicked of the bed and fell helplessly on the carpeted floor with a soft 'thump'. 'Uh' was the only sound Subaru made. The rest of his energy was used to hold on to his wounds that had split open again. Subaru, with his hands stopping the bleeding from the open wound of his chest swore under his breath. He felt the strong urge to just lie there and not move but he couldn't. Removing his blood stained hands from the wound, Subaru got upright and started walking, breathing painfully as he did. Taking step my step, he went to look for the Sakurazukamori unaware that his scars on his hands were blinking slowly and guiding him to Seishirou.
The images displayed in Subarus eyes were not clear nor where they too blur to make out. He found the exit of the room and twisted the door knob leaving hints of blood stains on it. On in font of him was a small narrow corridor which led to another room close by. He could from his position hear soft talking and noise probably made by a television or a radio for it was definitely not Seishirou's voice. He made his way closer and closer to the room pushing himself against the white wall drawing lines of red behind him. Breathing heavily and heavily, Subaru reached the entrance of the door and peered in from the corer. There he saw that man.
Seishirou was facing his back on Subaru and was shirtless. He just had a white coloured bandage around his chest which sipped blood. By the looks of it, Seishirou was dressing his wounds and had not realized or sensed that Subaru was just behind him. When Subaru saw the bandage across Seishirous chest, he remembered again the last time Seishirou got hurt because of him. Eyes unable to stop the accumulating tears slowly shut and open again dropping two big crystal droplets down to the ground. Subaru stretched out and with his trembling fingers touched the bandage across Seishirou who shuddered at the first then didn't move. Seishirou didn't turn around to face Subaru. Both sides were completely uncomfortable not knowing how to react or what to say. All Subaru did was move closer to Seishirous back and with his fingers sliding down the bandage, smearing his blood on it he said 'Im sorry for all the problems I have caused you' .Seishirous' skin shook as it felt a tear breaking on it. 'I just don't know what I want anymore. Im just afraid or losing i.I just know that I don't want you to go away anymore like you did last time. So please..'
Before Subaru had the time to finish talking, he found himself in a deep kiss that halted time seemed to have cut him off reality of pain. Seishirou had one of his hands holding up Subaru's chin and the other holding Subaru's wrist down. Subaru didn't resist or fight back he allowed Seishirou to do as he pleased, kissing him and tasting him. It was after a few seconds that Subaru attempted to kiss back. This went on for the next few seconds when Seishirou broke off and looked into Subaru's eyes which were now closed and wet with tears. Seishirou, with his fingers wiped away those tears and waited for Subaru to open his eyes and face him. Slowly Subaru's eye lids lifted, revealing the sorrowful green orbs that burned deep into Seishirou's amber eyes. Subaru still had his lips slightly parted breathing silently through them. 'Im sorry I couldn't prevent what happened to you but I promise you this., nothing like this would happen to you again. So don't cry anymore. Don't cry anymore.' Seishirou said these words as he locked himself in Subarus' emerald eyes. 'So the dream was true.' Subaru choked up shivering. 'It was true.' All Seishirou did then was look at fault at Subaru who was now averting eyes away from him.
Seishirou for the first time in his life felt guilt and in a way angry at himself as he watched the younger man trying his best to shun his tears. Seishirou moved closer to Subaru and said 'this is the least I can do for you now' after saying these words he slowly kissed the marks on Subaru's neck with passion that Subaru had never in his life felt before. It did seem to relieve him of his agonizing heart as he was eaten by the strong emotions of the man. Subaru just closed his eyes and looked up with one of his hands still being seized by Seishirou. Both the scars on his hands were blazing.
Later that night, Together, they fell asleep on the same white bed sheeted bed that was now carpeted with cold sakura petals from the open window. For Seishirou, this is the first time in his life he has felt emotions and for Subaru, the key to the locked door of happiness.
The next morning.....
'Thank you Seishirou-san I will never forget this. So.good bye now and forever.' Subaru said this as he turned around and walked out of the illusion.
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its not da end yet :p
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