Disclaimers: Don't own GW.
Warnings: Yaoi
Duo?
Chapter 7: Sacrifices: Whatever Makes You Happy
Heero awoke that morning feeling refreshed. He got out of bed and got dressed. He then decided to look for Duo, he wanted very much to see him for some reason. He walked to the top of the stairs and glanced down into the living room where he spotted the top of Duo's head behind the couch. He smiled and descended the stairs.
He went to the couch to find Duo curled up with his nose in the book "Haunted Heartland". Heero snapped his fingers in front of Duo's face, making him close the book in surprise. Duo glared at him. "You made me lose my spot!"
Heero flapped a hand at him. "You'll be able to find it again." He wasn't about to let Duo's anger upset his good mood. He smiled at Duo's scowl as he searched for his lost place and walked outside. As he closed the door, he heard footsteps coming up behind him at a fast pace. He turned around and saw Quatre jogging towards him, Trowa once again trailing behind.
"Hi, Heero," he said as Heero stepped off the porch.
"Hi, Q, hi Trowa," he replied. He dropped his voice. "I have to talk to you..."
Quatre tilted his head. "Why? Is something wrong?"
"Mmm... Kinda." He started walking down towards the park and motioned for them to follow. "You see, I had this dream, where Duo was trying to kill me." Quatre's eyebrows rose. "Well... first he kissed me, but later he explained that he was poisoning me. He had found out about my falling for him and he said he couldn't let that go on..." He looked up hopefully at Quatre, who was watching Trowa with a concerned face. Trowa nodded to Heero so he continued, "But it was the way that it started that's weird... Duo was leaning over me as I woke up and then he was positioned the same way when he woke me up for real."
Quatre bit his lip. "Well, I'm getting an inkling that you don't want to tell Duo you love him just yet because of this dream," he said knowingly.
Heero stared at him for a moment before realizing how obvious that must be. "Well, yeah, but another thing is that when I really woke up and saw Duo, I panicked and... er, ran away..." he said, bowing his head to hide his slight blush.
Quatre blinked and said, "You ran away? What do you mean?"
"Er... well... When I realized that this was how the dream started, I..." he trailed off.
"What did you do?" Quatre asked, sympathy showing in his voice.
"I... I pushed him away... Then I ran away from the house," he finished guiltily.
Trowa's one visible eyebrow arched. "You pushed him?" Quatre whispered fiercely.
Heero nodded. "Yes, I shoved him away. And when I came back he had been crying... What does that mean? Did I just hurt his feelings, or what?"
"You probably did, he didn't know what you were thinking. But since we know he might like you too, it's more than likely that he's a bit afraid of you now," Quatre replied thoughtfully.
"He said that I looked like I was having a nightmare and therefore thought it best to wake me," Heero added.
Quatre nodded. "Yes, there, you see - he didn't know what you had dreamt, he didn't know what he'd done wrong. You know, he probably thinks that you woke up, saw him, and got the wrong idea, and he's definitely not going to tell you about his feelings anytime soon."
"But we don't know for sure yet!" Heero protested, although hoping that his friends were right. He just didn't want to tell Duo he loved him if Duo didn't love him back; he would be so humiliated. The mere fact that he was falling in love with a ghost was already embarrassing, actually telling him when he didn't feel the same way was just adding to that embarrassment.
"You should tell him anyway," Trowa said quietly, completely ignoring Heero's last comment. Quatre nodded.
"He's right, you should. If Duo doesn't love you back he wouldn't try to kill you, he'd probably apologize and just get over it."
Heero gave him a disbelieving look. "How can you forget that the person you sleep with loves you?"
Quatre shrugged. "Maybe he'll decide to sleep elsewhere." He immediately noticed the 'He wouldn't do that, would he!' look on Heero's face before he bowed his head again. Quatre smiled and looked up at Trowa, who gently smiled back.
Heero groaned and shoved his fists into his pockets. "What am I going to do now?"
Quatre smiled sympathetically and suggested, "Maybe you don't have to tell him directly?"
Heero's head snapped up. He looked at Quatre thoughtfully. "I had something that I was going to write down and leave for him to find that would eventually tell him."
"Really? What is it?" Quatre asked, his interest peaked.
"It goes like this," Heero started. "831 - 8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning. I was planning on leaving three pieces of paper around where he would find them, each one with a different part of the riddle."
Quatre nodded. "Interesting, I like it!" Heero gave him a lop-sided smile.
"So you think I should do it?"
"Of course!" Quatre exclaimed. Trowa nodded.
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Duo sighed and stopped. He'd ruin the floor if he kept pacing like that. He sighed again and sat down on the couch. 'What did it mean? Why would Heero be afraid of me... The dream didn't sound that bad. Hm... Maybe he only told me the sidelines, maybe there was more to the dream that made him push me away.' He smiled sadly as he remembered what had happened...
:Flashback:
Duo awoke when he felt cold. He looked down blearily at his uncovered body and blinked. There had been a nice warm comforter there when he'd fallen asleep... His attention was caught by Heero's squirming. When he glanced at him, he realized where the blankets had gone. Heero had entangled himself in the comforter and was twisting around in them like he was in pain.
Duo's tired brain took a moment to start working again and just barely managed to send messages to his muscles so he could wake Heero. Bad dreams were the only explanation for Heero's perspiration and twitching muscles. Duo crawled over to Heero and leaned over his shaking body, resting his hand on the other side of his secret love.
He smiled and gently rubbed Heero's shoulder to wake him. Heero's eyes fluttered but then remained closed. Duo's eyes widened when Heero's middle jerked to one side, he started calling to Heero softly. When Heero's whole body shook in a strange convulsion.
Heero just wouldn't wake up. Duo tried again, calling to him more urgently and shaking his shoulder slightly. He gasped as the convulsions became more and more frequent. He felt a chill crawl up his back and shuddered; this wasn't an ordinary dream, Heero usually woke up more easily than this.
Duo was close to tears. He couldn't wake up his love, and he was in pain. He called again and again, wishing for Heero to hear him and wake up. He smiled with relief as Heero's convulsions calmed suddenly and his eyes fluttered again before they snapped open.
Those sapphire eyes fixed on Duo's amethyst ones instantly and were suddenly wide with surprise. No, not surprise, it was fear. Heero was showing fear. He suddenly yelled "NO!" and shoved Duo as hard as he could off of him and ran out of the room.
Duo lay at the very edge of the bed, his eyes wide with surprise quickly filling with shimmering tears. He rose from the bed as the waterworks spilled, the seemingly incessant tears fell like rain onto his clothes. He sat down in the chair and curled up in it, hugging his knees to his chest. He cried into his knees and regretted making the decision to try to wake Heero that way.
'But why was he afraid?' he asked himself. 'He probably panicked when he saw me so close to him...' He sighed. 'Now I'm sure he hates me...' He sobbed harder at that.
After a while, he controlled himself enough to get up and leave the room.
Then Heero came back...
:End of Flashback:
He frowned when he heard the front door opening. Heero was home but it hadn't seemed like that long since he left. He glanced at the clock and realized that it had been almost 2 hours since Heero had left.
Heero looked into the living room to see if Duo was still there, and smiled when he saw Duo peering over the couch to see him. Duo was a bit confused, Heero didn't usually smile at him like that. Heero walked in and leaned on the back of the couch. He reached down and grabbed "Haunted Heartland". "Do you like the stories?" he asked as he flipped through the pages. Duo nodded.
Heero tossed the book back onto the couch and sighed. "Summer is so boring. There's nothing to do." He shook his head.
Duo blinked. "What do you usually do on summer break?" he asked curiously.
Heero thought for a moment and shrugged. "I don't know, I guess I'm usually out with my friends."
"You have been doing that a lot lately," he said.
Heero gave him a confused look. "Does that bother you?"
Duo's eyes widened. 'Yes, it does bother me,' he thought. 'But I'm not going to tell you that.' "No, it's ok with me," he answered.
Heero raised an eyebrow at Duo's hesitation, then shrugged and walked into the kitchen to grab something to eat. Duo frowned and bit his lip. 'I would much prefer you stay here with me... But do whatever makes you happy, Hee-chan.'