Title: Of A Past Forgotten
Warnings: yaoi, possible lemon, lime, we'll see as we go, oh and yeah, I know I said that it was slight AU because I screwed with duo's past, but that's changed, and I really haven't screwed with duo's past, well, I know I did in the first chapter, but I've changed somethings, and well, it'll make more sense in this chapter, you'll see, so that's it, and remember: guy on guy action and fluffiness (hopefully- I try my best) if you don't like it, pleeze don't read!
Disclaimer: I don't own them at all at all at all, so pleeze don't sue, I'm saving up all my babysitting money for a trip to Prague next year, so I need all the money I can get!
A/N: oh my god peeps you have no idea how sorry I am for taking so long, pleeze accept my most humble apologies, but I've just had to get back into the swing of things at school, I'm in my last year and that means leaving cert *shudder* but I swear, I will try to update as quick as possible I just don't have a lot of time. Again, I'm reeeeaaaaalllllyyyyy sorry, I hope you'll still read and review, so on with the chapter, BUT FIRST! My thank-yous to all my reviewers, I swear if it wasn't for you guys this fic wouldn't have come as far as it did.
Paine: oh, I'm so sorry to hear that one of your fics was taken off, that is really mean! But oh, thank you soooo much for your review, and yeah, fanta is goooood, I love the stuff, it's so nice and yes, x-men 2, kinda freaky, but it's actually my own opinion, as a slash fanatic, I think scott and logan make the cutest couple, well, not as cute as duo and heero! Hope you like this chapter, keep up the great reviewing!
TenshiNoKoori: thank you sooo much, sorry for the delay, and yes, here is more, hope you like it!
DeadAngel: oh, thank you soooo much for the review, and I so don't mind that you haven't been reviewing, I'm glad you did now, and yeah, can you ever forgive me for taking so long now? So happy you loved the chapter, hope this one is just as good too!
Summercloud: oh, thank you sooooo much, I loved your review, and yeah, heero is ooc, but I think he's much nicer that way, and goody, you like the voices too, huzza! Hope you like this chapter too!
moremoremore: wow, that is a helluva lot of mores, I just can't ignore that, so here's more, hope you like it, thankie a bunch for your review!
Mrs. Passionate: oh thank you I'm so happy you like my fic, and yes, I will finish it, I promise, just one step at a time! Hope you like this chapter!
violet_eyes: hey, you like fanta too? I love fanta! And oh my god, you were in Ireland? Cool! Wait though, are you saying that you can't get fanta where you live? That's terrible! Oh, I don't mind at all that you couldn't review, it's cool cause you got to review now! Oh wow, you like my writing? Thank you, and yeah, I know about my spelling *sigh* some honours English student I am! Ah well, keep up the cool reviewing, hope you like this chapter!
RiverWhiteDragon: yes yes, the eyes are green, do not fear, I don't think they could change colour, your stuck with them, though I think they'd be better blue… *cheeky grin* anyhoo, yeah, I think I will put marco in in later chapters, he is cute… what do you think of him and wuman, I think they'd make a pretty cute couple! Yes, heero is mad cute all jealous-like! What, me, interrupting them on purpose? *innocent look of shock* I can't believe you'd say that! *evil grin* well, maybe I'm a little evil…. And yes, see, I've put up more, so no more pouting!
Annie Maxwell: oh my god, I can't believe you actually read my fic, and you liked it, wow, thanks soooo much! ^_^ and yes, shirtless bishies, very nice, and veeerrryyy droolworthy! Thank you so much for your review, and oh my god, I am sooooo sorry for not reviewing you fic myself, I've read all the chapters, and they're absolutely brilliant, I swear, I'll review soon, sorry!
Evil Chibi Kitten: yes, I know, very close, but well… I'm evil, and I have plans for the kiss… you'll see… hope you like this chapter, thank you sooo much for the revie!
Chain: oh my god, thank you sooooooo much for your review, it was sooo sweet and nice, I loved it! *feels special too* yeah, marco's mad cute, I've had a request to put him back in, what do you think of him and wu-fei as a couple, I think they'd be cute! And yes, dream sequence, but I have to warn you, it's not exactly the dream sequence you were looking for… *ducks to avoid flying objects* I'm reeeeaaaallllyyyy sorry! BUT! To make up for it, there is some real-life heero and duo fluffyness, and then the actual dream dream will be the next chapter, and it'll be up much faster than this one, kay? Hope you like this chapter, and keep up the gorgeous reviews! ^_^
Romennar: yes, damn the voices, well… they'll be delt with… soon enough.. *evil laugh* eh, anyhoo, glad you like my fic, hope you like this chapter, thanks for your review!
Ink2: yeah, you loved it, huzza! Oh my god, hellya scott and logan make such an adorable couple! Well, not as adorable as hee-chan and duo, but still, mighty cute! And yes, fanta is gorgeous, you totally have to try it someday, it's lovely! Yes, I have continued, sorry about the wait, but they next chapter will be up faster, promise!
Kenren19: oh thank you, I'm so happy you like my fic, and yeah, poor duo, but things'll get better for him promise! Hope you like this chapter!
Forever Tormented: *ducks behind pillow* oh my god, I'm SORRY! Really, I can't help it, I'm the evil queen of interruptions and suspence. Listen, I swear, I will make them kiss soon, see, I actually have a plan, but the kiss will be really soon, and here, at the end of this chapter, there is some heero and duo cuteness, hope that helps, even a little? Pleeze keep up the deadly reviewing, I love them, and you will get your wish soon. Hope you like this chapter, and thank you soooooo much for your review!
Shuichi-san: oh, thank you, you think my story's cool, I'm so happy now! Happy you think it's cute, and here is more, hope you like it!
So there we go, again, thank you all, I love all of your reviews they mean a lot to me. Oh yeah, and it was only until after I'd posted the last chapter up that I realised that I'd forgotten to put in the notes at the bottom, so I'll just put them in here:
(1): That conversation about scott and logan hugging was based on a real conversation between me and my friend when we went to see x-men 2- I was the one going on about how cute they were hugging, while my friend was the one shouting 'die jean die!' it was very funny, I couldn't help putting it in!
Anyhoo, enough of that, so on with the chapter!
** = dream.
Chapter Six: Dream a Little Dream.
**SMACK!
The priest fell back on the ground as he was hit in the face by the butt of the rifle the rebel soldier held in his hands.
"Father Maxwell!" a nun screamed, running up to him and kneeling beside him, along with a group of children, while the soldier shouted, "Don't you ever mention Heero Yuy again, he's nothing, you hear me?!"
"Please, stop this," the nun begged, looking up with tearful eyes, "This church is a place of sanctuary, for the sick and these children, it's their home, please, leave it alone."
"Sorry lady, no can do," another soldier said gruffly, "There's a war going on here, and we have no mobile doll, so something's got to be done."
"You leave Sister Helen alone!" a young boy screamed jumping up, his amethyst eyes flashing with anger, "You were sick and we took care of you, all of you! Just go away and leave us alone!"
"No way Duo," the leader sneered, "we're not listening to a spy like you."
"A spy?" the young boy, Duo, asked in puzzlement.
"Yeah, we know you're a spy, after all, you do go to the Federation School on the base, don't you? Top student in the class and all."
"No, I'm not a spy, I swear. I-I'll get you an MS."
"You'll get us an MS?" another resistance fighter snorted in contempt.
"Yes, I'll steal one from the Federation Base, but only if you leave the church; it's our home and a place of sanctuary."
"I don't believe you," the leader scoffed, "You'll probably go there and tell them that we're here."
"No, I won't," Duo replied seriously, looking the man straight in the eye as he said, "I may run, and I may hide, but I don't lie."
The leader stared at him long and hard for what seemed like an eternity to Duo until he shrugged and slowly nodded, saying, "Fine then, go get us and MS, an we'll leave the church."
Duo gave a short nod before turning and sprinting off towards the Federation Base. He ducked and turned down different streets and winding alleyways, jumping over rubble and bodies lying of the street before he finally made it to the base, where he found himself facing a battle between soldiers and resistance fighters, with guns and bombs blazing. Duo gathered up all his courage and sprinted, running as fast as he could through the gunfire, luckily making it through in one piece. Immediately, he set off looking around and quickly found a truck that had a Leo in it. He hopped in, glad the keys were in the truck and once he had it started, revved off, driving as fast as he could back to the church, glad it would be safe as he sighed in relief. However, the sigh of relief quickly turned into a gasp of shock as he made his way up to Maxwell Church, and he slammed on the brakes, his jaw dropping and his eyes bulging.
"No…" he whispered, scrambling to get out of the truck, "No, no, no, no, NO!!"
He half fell, half tumbled to the ground, picking himself up and running towards the smouldering pile of rubble where Maxwell Church had once stood. For a few moments he stood, frozen to the spot as he stared, numb with shock at the pile of bricks and wood, which covered all the bodies, except for…
"Sister Helen!" Duo cried out, half running, half stumbling over the charred bricks towards the body of the nun, which was partially covered by the rubble. He knelt down beside her, taking her hand as she looked up at him, smiling softly.
"Duo, I'm glad you're safe. The Father was worried about you until the end…"
Inside, Duo felt like he was cracking up, and he felt tears welling up in his eyes, but pushed them away, thinking, 'Big boys don't cry,' as he smiled for Sister Helen instead.
"Don't worry about me Sister Helen, I'm fine. Hold on now, I'm going to go and get you a doctor, you'll be alright…"
Duo made to get up, but Sister Helens hand tightened its grip on his, and she kept on talking.
"The Federation forces attacked us, but we couldn't leave this place," she said, he breathing growing laboured.
"Oh, it's all my fault. I stole the Mobile Suit," Duo replied guiltily.
Sister Helen gasped for breath, she was having a hard time focusing on Duo as she said, "The Father urged peace until the end," in a whispery tone.
Slowly, she let go of Duo's hand, reaching up shakily and touching his cheek very gently, said, "May God protect you…"
She exhaled her last breath and her eyes rolled shut as her hand fell away.
"No… Sister Helen, NO!" Duo screamed, hugging her dead body to his chest as he screamed and cried like a lost soul.
'I'll never hear her sing again… I'll never feel her warmth…' Duo thought, tears streaming down his face, while he screamed, his whole body shaking with sobs…**
(A/N: no no, don't worry, I'm not stopping the chapter yet, there's lots more to come. I just want to say that that is, as best and as accurate as I can get it, the Maxwell Church Tragedy, which is Duo's actual past, and if you're wondering how then does the first dream of Duo's past fit in, you'll just have to read on. I would like to thank Super Poodle, for giving me the website address about Duo's history, and also, I'm sorry if there are any mistakes, I did try my best. Anyhoo, enough of my mindless waffle, on with the chapter, with some heero/duo cuteness, huzza!)
Duo gasped and let out a little cry as he woke up, sitting straight up in his bed. His legs were tangled in his sheets and he was hugging a pillow to his chest. (1) Duo took in deep breaths, trying to calm himself down, his eyes darting here and there, and he suddenly realised that there were tears on his cheeks and in his eyes. He quickly wiped his eyes and face as the door to his room was thrown open and a half-naked Heero leapt into the room, gun held in front of him as he scanned the area around him, sighing in relief when he saw no immediate danger.
"What's up Hee-chan?" Duo asked, feining a sleepy tone as he threw the pillow to the side of the bed.
"I heard a scream and thought there was an intruder or something," Heero answered in an emotionless tone, tucking his gun into the waistband of his tracksuit bottoms.
He took a good long look at Duo, taking in his puffy eyes and tear-streaked cheeks, before his expression turned to one of concern as he asked softly, "Are you alright, what's wrong?"
"yeah, I-I'm fine," Duo answered in a kind of nervous tone, "It was nothing, just-"
"A nightmare?" Heero asked quietly and worriedly.
Taken by surprised by Heero's concern, Duo nodded mutely, staring at Heero, who had sat down beside him, saying, "I-I do too."
"You do?" Duo asked, in a quiet tone.
"Yeah," Heero nodded, avoiding looking at Duo, "About the war, and t-the killing, and the b-bl-blood…"
"Oh Heero," Duo sighed, reaching out and hugging the other boy.
Heero tensed at first, but relaxed into the embrace, wrapping his arms around Duo's waist, leaning his head against Duo's chest. The two boys sat in each others arms, each revelling in the quiet comfort of the others embrace; feeling totally relaxed and at peace. After a couple of minutes, Heero heard a deep rumbling vibration spread from Duo's chest, which had started to shake slightly, and as he pulled away, he saw that Duo was laughing and chuckling to himself.
"What's wrong?" Heero asked cautiously, a frown on his face.
"Oh, it's nothing really," Duo giggled, "I was just thinking about what those bloody scientists would say if they saw us now- acting more like small children than soldiers, and all because of simple nightmares."
"You can't escape your own mind," Heero replied stoically, looking both calm and sad at the same time, while Duo nodded, smiling sadly as he said, "True, I guess it's the one thing we can't really control."
He yawned suddenly, glancing at his bedside clock and said, "Hey, it's really late, we should be getting to bed. Are you alright?" he asked softly, lightly brushing away some of Heeros hair away from his face.
Heero shivered slightly and bit back a moan at the sensations from even that light contact and he nodded, not fully trusting his voice, as he stood.
"That's good," Duo smiled, standing beside him too, "Night Hee-chan, I'll cya in the morning."
"Goodnight Duo," Heero whispered, exiting the room quickly.
'Alright, what the hell was that all about?' Duo demanded angrily, as he fixed up his bed.
'Whatever do you mean?" Optim asked innocently, yet Duo was taking none of it.
'You know exactly what I mean. That dream, what was it?'
'It was a memory of your past,' his inner child answered, in a 'well duh,' tone.
'But… what about that other dream, the one with Solo and the bomb shelter, I thought that was a memory of my past.'
'It is,' Cool replied in a bright tone.
'But how can they both be memories, they tell totally different things.'
'Oh that's easy, it's the alternate universes,' his inner child added nonchalantly.
Duo made a very intelligent-sounding, 'Huh?' sound, and all his voices sighed, Pessim muttering, 'This boy is hopeless…'
'Oh shush,' Optim scolded, 'Here Duo, I'll explain it. You know the way there are different universes, or dimentions of this world?'
'There are?'
'Yup, you betcha,' Shinigami chuckled, while Optim continued, 'Yes, there are. Now, in a lot of them, most things are the same, like you. In lots of the other worlds, you are still a gundam pilot, what has changed in your past. All the people and places stay more or less the same, it's just that they're mixed up a bit, like events happen differently with different people and stuff. It seems that you are dreaming all about the different pasts from the various dimentions.'
'So, which one's the real one?' Duo asked nervously, licking his lips, as he tugged the sheet back into place.
'That's the thing,' his inner child replied carefully, 'We don't actually know. For some reason which we don't know about, your memory of your past has been blocked off, not even we can get at it. Sorry Duo.'
'It's alright, I guess,' Duo yawned, climbing into bed, 'If I'm supposed to remember, then I guess I will. I'm going to get some sleep now while I can, goodnight.'
'Goodnight Duo,' his inner child replied softly, before he nodded off, drifting, not for the first time that night, into the lull of dreams.
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(1) wouldn't you just love to be that pillow? *drool*
so, there you go, I know it's short, but the next chapter will be up really soon, cause I'm almost finished it, and it'll be the dream with the voices and everything, I hope you like it! so, this was just a little thing to make you even more confused, and a little bit of cuteness with heero and duo, oh, and if anyone's confused, just e-mail me or say it in the review, and I'll try to make it a little less confusing, kay? So pleeeeezzzzeeee review now, pleeze I love all of them! Farethee well! ^_^