Haunted by Memories
Chp. 5
Disclaimer is in the first chappy
(A/N: Thanks Niki-boo and everyone else that's reviewed, to answer your question Niki. Spike is a vamp with a soul. Like he was in season seven. I'm trying to stick with the actual happenings on the shows.)
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{I know you're still there}
Sometimes I swear he's still here, after everything. I could swear that he's right at my side. Even though I know it's impossible. I feel him here or I did for about three weeks, then the feeling was gone. It was. . . I don't know exactly, but I knew he was around, and sometimes I can almost feel his presence. That little tingly feeling I always had. The one that I knew was him and not any other vamp. He just had this vibe about him. That's how it feels. I know I sound like insano girl, but it's true. He just had something about him that no other vampire had. I know where ever he ended up that he somehow found a way to be near me even in death.
Well he always was persistent and stubborn. I guess when he told me he'd always be around, he meant it, and I believe him now that it's too late. It's like he's right here, because he'll always be in my heart. Right there in that place that only one other has ever been. Riley had a place, but not the same place that only two people could ever be. Those two people are the one's I truly ever loved and still love, but for totally different reasons.
Yes, I truly did and still do love Spike. Not in the way I loved Angel, but in the end I truly do love him. I think I could have eventually loved him the way that I needed someone to love me. Only one person ever showed me that kind of love. Spike loved me with everything he had. He loved with his whole being and soul. My love wasn't like that, but in time it could've been like that. It was something deeper than I had with Angel. It was so deep that I didn't even recognize it for what it was until it was too late to do anything about it.
In the end I figured it out, and at least the last words he ever heard from me was the total truth. I wouldn't have said it if it weren't.
I look up from the glass; I was staring into blindly, looking up to the ceiling. I know he has to be up there. Where else would a Champion go?
As I look up I send a silent prayer up to him and tell him I love him. I know you're still with me, protecting me, and most of all I hope that you are still loving me.
Chp. 5
Disclaimer is in the first chappy
(A/N: Thanks Niki-boo and everyone else that's reviewed, to answer your question Niki. Spike is a vamp with a soul. Like he was in season seven. I'm trying to stick with the actual happenings on the shows.)
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
{I know you're still there}
Sometimes I swear he's still here, after everything. I could swear that he's right at my side. Even though I know it's impossible. I feel him here or I did for about three weeks, then the feeling was gone. It was. . . I don't know exactly, but I knew he was around, and sometimes I can almost feel his presence. That little tingly feeling I always had. The one that I knew was him and not any other vamp. He just had this vibe about him. That's how it feels. I know I sound like insano girl, but it's true. He just had something about him that no other vampire had. I know where ever he ended up that he somehow found a way to be near me even in death.
Well he always was persistent and stubborn. I guess when he told me he'd always be around, he meant it, and I believe him now that it's too late. It's like he's right here, because he'll always be in my heart. Right there in that place that only one other has ever been. Riley had a place, but not the same place that only two people could ever be. Those two people are the one's I truly ever loved and still love, but for totally different reasons.
Yes, I truly did and still do love Spike. Not in the way I loved Angel, but in the end I truly do love him. I think I could have eventually loved him the way that I needed someone to love me. Only one person ever showed me that kind of love. Spike loved me with everything he had. He loved with his whole being and soul. My love wasn't like that, but in time it could've been like that. It was something deeper than I had with Angel. It was so deep that I didn't even recognize it for what it was until it was too late to do anything about it.
In the end I figured it out, and at least the last words he ever heard from me was the total truth. I wouldn't have said it if it weren't.
I look up from the glass; I was staring into blindly, looking up to the ceiling. I know he has to be up there. Where else would a Champion go?
As I look up I send a silent prayer up to him and tell him I love him. I know you're still with me, protecting me, and most of all I hope that you are still loving me.