Haunted by Memories
Chp.10
Disclaimer is in the first chapter
Song is in {}
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{Hunting you I can smell you - alive}
If I ever heard a soddin' line that was any truer. That's the one that would be it. Bloody song! Every line in it is so soddin' true. It's like it was written for my Slayer and me.
I hunted her by smell many times, mind you. There's one time in particular that sticks out in my mind, though.
The most terrifying night of my life or unlife I should say. The first night I just got to hold her, the night where I laid it all out there, sink or swim and all that rot. I poured my heart out to her. Told her she was one hell of a woman, and that she was the one. She always will be the one, no matter how many women I've loved or will love; she will always be the one that I want.
Well, right then. She didn't quiet take my little speech as I expected. I don't know exactly what I did expect, but I wasn't expectin' the reaction that I got. Yeah, I do know what I expected. I figured she'd jump up an' run like she always did. Either that or punch me. I pissed and I wanted her to get pissed right back. Then I went and got all poncy, my plans never go the way I want, so why do I even try.
Anyway, I was gonna leave after that, but she called me back, asked me not to leave her there in that house alone. I always was her bleedin' slave, of course I stayed, didn't really want to go back to the house of traitors, anyway. I was even gonna sleep on that ole' torture device the comfy chair. Then she had to go and surprise me. She asked me to hold her. Never one to refuse a lady, I did her bidding. The git I am, well not a git, I was in love. Still am, to my dying, uh, dusty end. I will always love her.
"Cheer up Spike, my boy. You look like your puppy died." I hear, coming from behind me. Shaking my head, I look up.
Angelus, oh bloody hell, is every poofter in the place coming into the bar tonight? Doesn't anyone have anything else to do?
I just give him a 'sod off' look, and he had to go an' talk. "Oh, I see. Brooding about Buffy again, huh?"
Brooding? "I don't brood, Angel. You do enough of that for everyone. I was just thinking really hard is all."
Then it registers that yet another person has asked me about Buffy, and well I get pissed. Jumpin' up from my stool, I get right in his face. "Yes, Angelus, bleedin', bloody, fucking hell yes. Do I ever think about anything else?" I shout and make my point by pokin' him in the chest as I ask him the question.
He backs up a few steps, so he can look me in the eyes. "You know you'll see her again, don't you? Even if it kills you both, you'll see each other again. I know you and you're a fighter and you fight for what you want. I also know Buffy, you may think that I don't, but I do. I know when the both of you love; it's not half way. She told me she didn't love you while I was in Sunnydale, but afterwards when I talked to her, she told me everything that happened. She couldn't even bring herself to say your name, Spike. Don't give up. You may see her sooner than you think." He says as he turns around and heads off towards Wes and Lorne.
That's curious, he actually gave me a crumb about Buffy, wonder if he even realizes it. When I showed up here, he just told me she was all right and that she was somewhere in Europe. I just wonder if he knows exactly where she is and isn't tellin' me.
Chp.10
Disclaimer is in the first chapter
Song is in {}
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{Hunting you I can smell you - alive}
If I ever heard a soddin' line that was any truer. That's the one that would be it. Bloody song! Every line in it is so soddin' true. It's like it was written for my Slayer and me.
I hunted her by smell many times, mind you. There's one time in particular that sticks out in my mind, though.
The most terrifying night of my life or unlife I should say. The first night I just got to hold her, the night where I laid it all out there, sink or swim and all that rot. I poured my heart out to her. Told her she was one hell of a woman, and that she was the one. She always will be the one, no matter how many women I've loved or will love; she will always be the one that I want.
Well, right then. She didn't quiet take my little speech as I expected. I don't know exactly what I did expect, but I wasn't expectin' the reaction that I got. Yeah, I do know what I expected. I figured she'd jump up an' run like she always did. Either that or punch me. I pissed and I wanted her to get pissed right back. Then I went and got all poncy, my plans never go the way I want, so why do I even try.
Anyway, I was gonna leave after that, but she called me back, asked me not to leave her there in that house alone. I always was her bleedin' slave, of course I stayed, didn't really want to go back to the house of traitors, anyway. I was even gonna sleep on that ole' torture device the comfy chair. Then she had to go and surprise me. She asked me to hold her. Never one to refuse a lady, I did her bidding. The git I am, well not a git, I was in love. Still am, to my dying, uh, dusty end. I will always love her.
"Cheer up Spike, my boy. You look like your puppy died." I hear, coming from behind me. Shaking my head, I look up.
Angelus, oh bloody hell, is every poofter in the place coming into the bar tonight? Doesn't anyone have anything else to do?
I just give him a 'sod off' look, and he had to go an' talk. "Oh, I see. Brooding about Buffy again, huh?"
Brooding? "I don't brood, Angel. You do enough of that for everyone. I was just thinking really hard is all."
Then it registers that yet another person has asked me about Buffy, and well I get pissed. Jumpin' up from my stool, I get right in his face. "Yes, Angelus, bleedin', bloody, fucking hell yes. Do I ever think about anything else?" I shout and make my point by pokin' him in the chest as I ask him the question.
He backs up a few steps, so he can look me in the eyes. "You know you'll see her again, don't you? Even if it kills you both, you'll see each other again. I know you and you're a fighter and you fight for what you want. I also know Buffy, you may think that I don't, but I do. I know when the both of you love; it's not half way. She told me she didn't love you while I was in Sunnydale, but afterwards when I talked to her, she told me everything that happened. She couldn't even bring herself to say your name, Spike. Don't give up. You may see her sooner than you think." He says as he turns around and heads off towards Wes and Lorne.
That's curious, he actually gave me a crumb about Buffy, wonder if he even realizes it. When I showed up here, he just told me she was all right and that she was somewhere in Europe. I just wonder if he knows exactly where she is and isn't tellin' me.