Yami looked at Yugi expectantly, the smaller man was sitting next to him on
the bed that had once belonged to Yugi before he had left, and Yami now
used it. Yugi's head was bowed, his blond bangs falling in his eyes.
"Yugi . . ." He encouraged. "What happened? Please tell me." Yugi couldn't help but think about how much his yami had mellowed out over the years. He could remember the first time he'd solved the sennen puzzle, Yami hadn't been at all as kind as he was now. But that was in the past and he had much more important things to tend to.
A sniffle was heard as Yugi's voice spoke up. "Kado." Yami looked at his light with confusion written on his face.
"What?"
"Kado." It was said more fiercely this time, Yugi's voice louder and easier to understand.
Yami's eyebrows furrowed as he looked over at his aibou. "What is this, 'Kado'?" Yugi chuckled darkly.
"This Kado is the one who did this to me." Yugi bowed his head even further down. "And I deserve it." This was spoken so silently that Yami barely registered the other man speaking at all.
"Pardon?"
Yugi sighed, lifting his head to look into the crimson orbs of his yami. Yami gasped, he'd thought that Yugi had cried all he could, but that was obviously not true as he watched silent tears stream down the pale cheeks, leaving twin silver trails in their wake. But the thing that Yami was most surprised about was the fact that Yugi was smiling, not the grin he'd used four years ago that rarely left his face, and not the almost icy smile that he'd used once or twice in the last few weeks. It was almost demonic. It would have taken him hours to describe.
Yugi laughed. "It's funny really. How every one makes such a big deal out of something that I truly did, and still do, deserve."
Yami's eye widened and his hand snapped out, gripping onto Yugi's, giving him a small shake. "What are you talking about?!" Yami shook him again. "How can you say that? How could you say that you deserve to be hurt?! No one! And I mean _no one_ deserves to be hurt the way you have!"
Yugi growled. "But I do!" Two more tears fell. "I deserve every last wound I receive! You have no clue, do you?" He chuckled again. "What I've done." He put his head in his hands, shoulder shaking.
Yami turned, wrapping his arms around his other half. "Yugi, you regret what you've done, right?"
Yugi looked up for a second before setting his head back down again. "Ya. But . . . I really don't know what that's gonna do! It's not like I can turn back time!"
Yami sighed. "Yes, I know that. But if you could, would you go back and change what happened?"
"YES! God yes." Yugi broke out into sobs again. "I would do _anything_!" Yugi sniffed and wiped his eyes, looking into Yami's. "I mean, not too long ago I really didn't care about what I did, sure, sometimes I felt a little guilty about killing innocents. But, now . . . I just don't know." He sighed. "It's so hard to live this way. At first I loved my job. Killing and stuff like that, it was a stress reliever." Yugi looked at the ground, stopping his small speech.
"Why?" Yugi looked confused.
"Why what?"
"Why did you stop liking to kill? From what I've heard in the last few minutes you loved it at once, what happened?"
Yugi looked away. "I'd rather not talk about it."
Yami sighed, squeezing the smaller look-alike close to his chest, surprised that he even let him get this close. "Don't you think you should tell someone? I mean, keeping stuff bottled up inside can't be all that good for you."
Yugi shook his head, protesting. "No, I don't want to lay the burden of you getting involved in this to." He wrapped his small arms around Yami's waist. "Your too important to me." Yami's eyes widened. What was going on? Why was Yugi acting like this? Why was he showing so much emotion? Just last week the only one he truly let touch him was Boss, why the sudden change?
"W-what?"
Yugi blinked away a few tears. "I love you Yami."
Yami gasped, backing away from Yugi. Had he? He had. Yami's thoughts were going one thousand miles per hour, all focused on the man still positioned in his arms.
Mean while Yugi's thoughts were all of ill manner.
~Yugi POV~
He probably hates me. I shouldn't have said that. I have no clue as to why I did either. But, it's true what I said. I love him. He probably never wants to see me again. I can feel more tear slip down my face. I can't believe I just blurted that out.
I guess I had to tell him some time. Since I never had the courage before I left I guess I just couldn't help but do it now.
Yami seems to be frozen in place. I should go while he's still thinking. He probably needs to think of way to reject me. I'm a disgrace. Heh! I can't believe I just thought that! Not too long ago I thought I was pretty good. But that was all a lie made up in my mind. Something to keep me from the cold hard truth. I'm nothing. Nothing but a weakling, just like Kado said. Killing innocents for my own sick pleasure (Blah: You'll understand a lot of this lather.) And money.
I don't even deserve to live. But, I tried to kill myself already. That one proved to be useless, and gave me one hell of a sore wrist. I look down at the still healing wound. It's not that bad but its still sensitive.
Hey! I got an idea! Since I can't take care of myself, why not get some one who's willing to do it? Who would though?
I'm sure a select few back in Canada and the States would love to, but . . . I haven't really been in Japan for the past few years so I don't know many people. Maybe I could walk out in the middle of an intersection and just hope a semi was passing. Or maybe I could fly out to some select hunting spots in the mountains and dress up like a deer! Maybe a hunter would shoot me!
Ok . . . I think I'm going insane. That must have been one of the stupidest ways to commit suicide, or to get others too kill you that is. Suddenly a thought occurs to me. And I just sounded like Sherlock Homes or something like that. Well, as I was thinking:
Kado.
All I have to do is go to him! Why didn't I think of it before? I look over at Yami's still shook ridden face. I guess I don't have to worry about him for a while. I'm kind of sorry that I won't be able to stay around to see what he says. But I doubt that it will be anything good.
I should leave before he wakes up from this trance thing he seems to be in.
~End POV~
Yugi carefully removed Yami's arms from around himself, sliding off the bed a bit painfully and to the window. Taking one last glance around the room and at the man he'd just told he loved he opened the windowpane and was out in a matter of seconds.
~Yami's POV~ (Blah: Hey! I don't do this often!!)
I can't believe it. He loves me! Oh god, I feel like a schoolgirl. And I just realized how much these times have affected me. When I was Pharaoh I would never had thought such things. I think. I still can't really remember everything about my past. After all, would anyone who had been trapped in a dark space for thousands of years really remember there every thought? I hope not.
Now, back to important stuff. He loves me!!!! I can't believe it! I already thought that didn't I? I did.
I still can't believe he loves me! I've waited so long for him to say that, thought, I wouldn't have minded telling him either. I've loved him for years. I don't know why I didn't tell him when I first discovered them.
I guess I just haven't had to courage. Oh well. Now that I know for sure that he loves me back I have no problems, right? I hope not.
I wonder what he's thinking right now? I would have no clue, our mind link has been closed for so long that it'll probably take a while to replenish. I hope not too long though. It was nice being connected to Yugi. Really nice. Ah! Bad thoughts!
I wonder if Yugi's a good kisser? With all the practice he's gotten . . . but I still wish I had been the one to show him how too. But I guess part of him leaving was my fault. I shouldn't have ignored him at all. He is my aibou, and it's my duty to watch over him.
I can feel I slight movement from Yugi, who is still wrapped in my arms. He's wrapped in my arms; I like the thought of that.
~End POV~
And so Yami stays, sitting on the bed, staring straight ahead thinking about his aibou.
~*~
Ok, it's official. This stinks! And so does that word. I have the biggest case of writers block I've personally ever had. Hopefully it will be gone soon so I can update more often. But until that I will only update when I get the chance, I'll try for tomorrow or Saturday again.
See ya!
Oh ya, and I know Yugi didn't really tell Yami much about anything that is happening. That will happen next chapter . . . I hope.
"Yugi . . ." He encouraged. "What happened? Please tell me." Yugi couldn't help but think about how much his yami had mellowed out over the years. He could remember the first time he'd solved the sennen puzzle, Yami hadn't been at all as kind as he was now. But that was in the past and he had much more important things to tend to.
A sniffle was heard as Yugi's voice spoke up. "Kado." Yami looked at his light with confusion written on his face.
"What?"
"Kado." It was said more fiercely this time, Yugi's voice louder and easier to understand.
Yami's eyebrows furrowed as he looked over at his aibou. "What is this, 'Kado'?" Yugi chuckled darkly.
"This Kado is the one who did this to me." Yugi bowed his head even further down. "And I deserve it." This was spoken so silently that Yami barely registered the other man speaking at all.
"Pardon?"
Yugi sighed, lifting his head to look into the crimson orbs of his yami. Yami gasped, he'd thought that Yugi had cried all he could, but that was obviously not true as he watched silent tears stream down the pale cheeks, leaving twin silver trails in their wake. But the thing that Yami was most surprised about was the fact that Yugi was smiling, not the grin he'd used four years ago that rarely left his face, and not the almost icy smile that he'd used once or twice in the last few weeks. It was almost demonic. It would have taken him hours to describe.
Yugi laughed. "It's funny really. How every one makes such a big deal out of something that I truly did, and still do, deserve."
Yami's eye widened and his hand snapped out, gripping onto Yugi's, giving him a small shake. "What are you talking about?!" Yami shook him again. "How can you say that? How could you say that you deserve to be hurt?! No one! And I mean _no one_ deserves to be hurt the way you have!"
Yugi growled. "But I do!" Two more tears fell. "I deserve every last wound I receive! You have no clue, do you?" He chuckled again. "What I've done." He put his head in his hands, shoulder shaking.
Yami turned, wrapping his arms around his other half. "Yugi, you regret what you've done, right?"
Yugi looked up for a second before setting his head back down again. "Ya. But . . . I really don't know what that's gonna do! It's not like I can turn back time!"
Yami sighed. "Yes, I know that. But if you could, would you go back and change what happened?"
"YES! God yes." Yugi broke out into sobs again. "I would do _anything_!" Yugi sniffed and wiped his eyes, looking into Yami's. "I mean, not too long ago I really didn't care about what I did, sure, sometimes I felt a little guilty about killing innocents. But, now . . . I just don't know." He sighed. "It's so hard to live this way. At first I loved my job. Killing and stuff like that, it was a stress reliever." Yugi looked at the ground, stopping his small speech.
"Why?" Yugi looked confused.
"Why what?"
"Why did you stop liking to kill? From what I've heard in the last few minutes you loved it at once, what happened?"
Yugi looked away. "I'd rather not talk about it."
Yami sighed, squeezing the smaller look-alike close to his chest, surprised that he even let him get this close. "Don't you think you should tell someone? I mean, keeping stuff bottled up inside can't be all that good for you."
Yugi shook his head, protesting. "No, I don't want to lay the burden of you getting involved in this to." He wrapped his small arms around Yami's waist. "Your too important to me." Yami's eyes widened. What was going on? Why was Yugi acting like this? Why was he showing so much emotion? Just last week the only one he truly let touch him was Boss, why the sudden change?
"W-what?"
Yugi blinked away a few tears. "I love you Yami."
Yami gasped, backing away from Yugi. Had he? He had. Yami's thoughts were going one thousand miles per hour, all focused on the man still positioned in his arms.
Mean while Yugi's thoughts were all of ill manner.
~Yugi POV~
He probably hates me. I shouldn't have said that. I have no clue as to why I did either. But, it's true what I said. I love him. He probably never wants to see me again. I can feel more tear slip down my face. I can't believe I just blurted that out.
I guess I had to tell him some time. Since I never had the courage before I left I guess I just couldn't help but do it now.
Yami seems to be frozen in place. I should go while he's still thinking. He probably needs to think of way to reject me. I'm a disgrace. Heh! I can't believe I just thought that! Not too long ago I thought I was pretty good. But that was all a lie made up in my mind. Something to keep me from the cold hard truth. I'm nothing. Nothing but a weakling, just like Kado said. Killing innocents for my own sick pleasure (Blah: You'll understand a lot of this lather.) And money.
I don't even deserve to live. But, I tried to kill myself already. That one proved to be useless, and gave me one hell of a sore wrist. I look down at the still healing wound. It's not that bad but its still sensitive.
Hey! I got an idea! Since I can't take care of myself, why not get some one who's willing to do it? Who would though?
I'm sure a select few back in Canada and the States would love to, but . . . I haven't really been in Japan for the past few years so I don't know many people. Maybe I could walk out in the middle of an intersection and just hope a semi was passing. Or maybe I could fly out to some select hunting spots in the mountains and dress up like a deer! Maybe a hunter would shoot me!
Ok . . . I think I'm going insane. That must have been one of the stupidest ways to commit suicide, or to get others too kill you that is. Suddenly a thought occurs to me. And I just sounded like Sherlock Homes or something like that. Well, as I was thinking:
Kado.
All I have to do is go to him! Why didn't I think of it before? I look over at Yami's still shook ridden face. I guess I don't have to worry about him for a while. I'm kind of sorry that I won't be able to stay around to see what he says. But I doubt that it will be anything good.
I should leave before he wakes up from this trance thing he seems to be in.
~End POV~
Yugi carefully removed Yami's arms from around himself, sliding off the bed a bit painfully and to the window. Taking one last glance around the room and at the man he'd just told he loved he opened the windowpane and was out in a matter of seconds.
~Yami's POV~ (Blah: Hey! I don't do this often!!)
I can't believe it. He loves me! Oh god, I feel like a schoolgirl. And I just realized how much these times have affected me. When I was Pharaoh I would never had thought such things. I think. I still can't really remember everything about my past. After all, would anyone who had been trapped in a dark space for thousands of years really remember there every thought? I hope not.
Now, back to important stuff. He loves me!!!! I can't believe it! I already thought that didn't I? I did.
I still can't believe he loves me! I've waited so long for him to say that, thought, I wouldn't have minded telling him either. I've loved him for years. I don't know why I didn't tell him when I first discovered them.
I guess I just haven't had to courage. Oh well. Now that I know for sure that he loves me back I have no problems, right? I hope not.
I wonder what he's thinking right now? I would have no clue, our mind link has been closed for so long that it'll probably take a while to replenish. I hope not too long though. It was nice being connected to Yugi. Really nice. Ah! Bad thoughts!
I wonder if Yugi's a good kisser? With all the practice he's gotten . . . but I still wish I had been the one to show him how too. But I guess part of him leaving was my fault. I shouldn't have ignored him at all. He is my aibou, and it's my duty to watch over him.
I can feel I slight movement from Yugi, who is still wrapped in my arms. He's wrapped in my arms; I like the thought of that.
~End POV~
And so Yami stays, sitting on the bed, staring straight ahead thinking about his aibou.
~*~
Ok, it's official. This stinks! And so does that word. I have the biggest case of writers block I've personally ever had. Hopefully it will be gone soon so I can update more often. But until that I will only update when I get the chance, I'll try for tomorrow or Saturday again.
See ya!
Oh ya, and I know Yugi didn't really tell Yami much about anything that is happening. That will happen next chapter . . . I hope.