Haunted by Memories
Chp.12
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{Watching me, wanting me}
Bloody hell! There's that soddin' line again. I've already been over this one.
I watched her and wanted her for far longer than either one of us actually knew. Dru knew before me, the loon she was, she knew I wanted her. I kept tellin' myself that it was because I wanted her dead. Dru proved me wrong in the end though, didn't she?
I was watching her that night at the Bronze. The night we first met, seen her dancin' with the git and the Witch. Wanted to shag her senseless and then kill her. She was one hot little bint, with that short little skirt. I see her dancin' and wish I could see her in the flesh instead of in my mind. Remember threatenin' her that night, too. ' What happens on Saturday? She asked me, she was glorious as she turned around to face me, as I clapped my hands. Had just staked one of my minions, and I didn't even give a damn as she turned to me with those green eyes shinin' after the thrill of the slay. My reply was ' I kill you' what I really wanted to say was that ' I shag you and then kill you', but you know, figured that she'd attack me if I threatened to shag her right and proper. I had a hard time killin' her after that. Every time I tried I couldn't do it.
I had right where I wanted her on that Halloween and I didn't finish her off, had to take her to that warehouse, when I coulda just offed her where I found her. I didn't of course. Didn't know at the time that I'd fall in love with her, didn't even know why I didn't get rid of her when I should've.
Then when she jumped from the God of Bad Home Perms, tower, I felt like it was me that killed her in the end. Dreamed of savin' her every night after it happened. I just wanted to have her back. Took a hundred and forty-seven days, but she finally came back to me. Thought she was the 'bot ' at first, then I heard her heart beating, and I didn't have words. What words could I have? I thought for a second that it was a dream. I smelled her blood, and knew it was reality. I wanted to fall to my knees and praise god in that moment. I didn't of course, me being a vamp and all.
The day after she came back, she told me that she was in heaven. I just wanted to make her pain go away. I let her use and abuse me, let her do what she wanted to me, 'cause I wanted that pain to get out of her eyes. She was so haunted by the memories of heaven, I could see it in her eyes, and I could feel the pain of not being there, as if it were my own.
Wanting her, yeah, I always wanted her in some form or fashion. I may be a monster, but I'm not blind, especially to something that was so beautiful. Always wanted her, now I just need to see her.
Chp.12
Disclaimer in first chapter
Song is in {} * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
{Watching me, wanting me}
Bloody hell! There's that soddin' line again. I've already been over this one.
I watched her and wanted her for far longer than either one of us actually knew. Dru knew before me, the loon she was, she knew I wanted her. I kept tellin' myself that it was because I wanted her dead. Dru proved me wrong in the end though, didn't she?
I was watching her that night at the Bronze. The night we first met, seen her dancin' with the git and the Witch. Wanted to shag her senseless and then kill her. She was one hot little bint, with that short little skirt. I see her dancin' and wish I could see her in the flesh instead of in my mind. Remember threatenin' her that night, too. ' What happens on Saturday? She asked me, she was glorious as she turned around to face me, as I clapped my hands. Had just staked one of my minions, and I didn't even give a damn as she turned to me with those green eyes shinin' after the thrill of the slay. My reply was ' I kill you' what I really wanted to say was that ' I shag you and then kill you', but you know, figured that she'd attack me if I threatened to shag her right and proper. I had a hard time killin' her after that. Every time I tried I couldn't do it.
I had right where I wanted her on that Halloween and I didn't finish her off, had to take her to that warehouse, when I coulda just offed her where I found her. I didn't of course. Didn't know at the time that I'd fall in love with her, didn't even know why I didn't get rid of her when I should've.
Then when she jumped from the God of Bad Home Perms, tower, I felt like it was me that killed her in the end. Dreamed of savin' her every night after it happened. I just wanted to have her back. Took a hundred and forty-seven days, but she finally came back to me. Thought she was the 'bot ' at first, then I heard her heart beating, and I didn't have words. What words could I have? I thought for a second that it was a dream. I smelled her blood, and knew it was reality. I wanted to fall to my knees and praise god in that moment. I didn't of course, me being a vamp and all.
The day after she came back, she told me that she was in heaven. I just wanted to make her pain go away. I let her use and abuse me, let her do what she wanted to me, 'cause I wanted that pain to get out of her eyes. She was so haunted by the memories of heaven, I could see it in her eyes, and I could feel the pain of not being there, as if it were my own.
Wanting her, yeah, I always wanted her in some form or fashion. I may be a monster, but I'm not blind, especially to something that was so beautiful. Always wanted her, now I just need to see her.