To those who reviewed my author note, you can find that I have updated it and it contains new "information" now. ^.^;
Since some people wanted Haru in I put him in this chapter. It was rather odd, ^_~; but he didn't fit in any other scene.
This chapter is kind of weird (I'm so sorry Val Kyrie if it was too rushed!), but I only have time writing stories before I go to bed. O.o This day I was particularly tired... I had no idea what to do with this chapter. ;_;
I have never felt so much doubt about a chapter, but I'll post it anyway. _ This chapter has been the one I've had most problems with. ~_-;
The next chapter will be the final chapter.
Chapter XII: Realization in The Rain
Yuki
I opened the door but as soon as I saw who it was I regretted my action.
"Yuki..." Haru said softly.
"Hello," I replied and showed my younger cousin in. "What are you doing here?"
"Hmm... I was going shopping," I looked at his empty hands, "but I got a little lost... I did however find my way here. Thought I might say hello to you Yuki," he said and looked into my eyes.
"Eh, hello."
"No! What the hell are you doing here?!" Kyo said who had just walked downstairs.
I turned my head lazily to his direction, not another one...
"Hello Kyo," he said ignoring his comment. "How's Tohru-san?"
"Feh, she's upstairs, ask her yourself." Kyo crossed his arms and shot Haru a dirty look.
"I'm asking you," he said and touched my shoulders. "Right Yuki?"
Before I could reply someone interrupted me.
"Get out! You're annoying everyone!" Kyo shouted.
"Yuki how is Tohru-san?"
I sighed. "She-"
"Jeez, don't you get it? Not even the mouse wants you near. Leave!"
Not clever kitty, not clever at all.
"So, you want to fight?" Black Haru said. "Fine, I'll just go up myself and see how Tohru-san is, perhaps we can have a little fun," he said and grinned.
"What?!" Kyo looked fiercely at Haru. "You are not getting away with that!"
"Bring it on!"
Such nuisance...
Kisa
I never got to talk to her...
"Kisa..." Hiro said softly.
"I'm sorry... I didn't mean to cry," I said and looked at his feet.
He wiped the tears of with his gentle hands. "If Kisa wants... We can go to Shigure's house today..." he mumbled.
He was rewarded with a huge smile. "OK!"
Hanajima
I walked with calm steps on the road, the rain showering my hair. It had started raining fifteen minutes after I left, I did not take notice of this though.
I had other things on my mind, such as one of my best friends, Tohru.
I touched the photos in my bag just to make sure they were still there.
Tohru, so many burdens laid on her.
I had called her many times but she always hung up. Arisa had done the same...
Well I wouldn't stand by watching this time.
Tohru
I watched as the rain fell on the ground.
Rain, it was very beautiful. Small drops of water falling from the sky... Rain, what a pretty name.
I sighed.
I was going crazy just lying in bed...
I squeezed the book I was holding in my hands. The diary of Honda Tohru...
I knew I could remember everything now, I could become my former self in an instant, but I blocked it all out.
I had always been aware of this but I didn't notice it till now.
I, no we had all blamed it all on the amnesia, but what should be blamed was my weak mind.
How unusual, I was actually feeling rather calm about this even though I had no idea what to do with myself.
How had I realized this? With time, was the only answer I found. No, it was not just time, it was the help of everyone... They had given me space, they had let me be well, me. I had wanted them near me, I had wanted them to make me forget.
I touched the window and breathed heavily.
The memories were so close now...
I opened it and stretched my hand out. Cold.
They could escape any second I thought with sudden fear.
I pressed my hand to my eyes, feeling the water touching my lids.
My behavior, the way I had acted towards everyone I did not feel guilt or shame, just confusion, would I regret it later?
I closed the window.
The rain hit the window roughly.
I'm just human, I thought a bit silly.
A knock on the door interrupted my thoughts.
Frowning I said, "yes?"
There was no reply, the person decided just to enter. "Hello..." she said.
Before I had found myself disgusted with her, now when I saw her it was something else I felt... Emptiness. "Hanajima Saki right?"
I was an empty shell. Everything had been an illusion.
"Tohru-kun, how are you?" she asked.
What is this feeling?
"I'm fine..."
Hanajima started to dig in her purse and took out something. "Look at this," she said.
I looked doubtfully at the picture she was holding but finally took it.
I looked at Hanajima and she looked at me silently.
I then looked at the picture.
It was a picture of Mother, Uotani, Hanajima and myself. We were standing in a park I think, surrounded with beautiful flowers. I was in the middle with a huge grin placed on my lips, my Mother was behind my hugging me smiling as well. On my right was Uotani showing her fists into the air and on my left was Hanajima standing looking solemnly.
"Wow," Mother said. "That was one great picture! Thank you mister for taking it!"
He smiled. "No problem, anything for such pretty ladies."
She laughed.
I touched my head.
"What's wrong?" Hanajima asked.
"Nothing..."
"That picture was taken when we were fifteen in a park," she said. "It was your Mother's birthday..."
"I'll be back soon!" Mother shouted from the door.
"Have a safe trip!" I called after her.
I dropped the picture and hugged myself.
It could not be avoided anymore...
I could not hide anymore.
I had to be strong.
"Tohru-kun!" Hana-chan ran to my side and hugged me. "What's wrong?"
"I'm sorry, but you know that you shouldn't provoke me, it makes me Black," Haru said to Kyo when he walked into my room.
"Oh, shut u- Tohru?! What's wrong?"
The two boys ran to my side as well.
"Mother... I'm sorry..." Tears ran down from my eyes.