a/n: I'm not really sure if anyone is reading this. But I'll post the next chapter anyways. I'm not sure if this is really getting to much better. Actually, I think this really sucks. If you agree with me, let me know. And if you don't agree with me, let me know that too. Also, I own nothing, except for Josephina and Lizbeth, and the house in Ireland. (That will come in the next chapter.)
~Chapter Four~
"We have no car." Josephina said, slamming the door behind her.
"What?!"
"We have no car, Lizbeth. It caught fire. Dumbledore told me, just before I reached the staircases. He said we can stay until we figure out what… Damn!" Josephina said, and then punched the mirror next to her. "The bloody Knight Bus! Why didn't we think of it before?"
Josephina rubbed her head for a moment, then looked at the mirror she just punched. "Shit. Reparo! This is just great! We could have called the Knight Bus. But, no, we come here instead! And, why?! For what reason?! To make a big mistake!"
"Mistake for you, maybe…" Lizbeth said.
"Don't tell me you did it again."
"After you left and he asked me to stay."
"What?! You're not actually going to, are you?"
"I don't have anywhere else to go, Jo…"
"Yes, you do. Liz, I've been waiting to tell you this, but my grandfather left me a fortune when he died. He left me a house too, you can move in with me."
"You inherited a fortune, and you didn't tell me?"
"Your parents died and you won't tell me what happened! I thought I was your best friend. And, besides, I was going to tell you when we got back."
Lizbeth got up and walked over to the chair across the room. She looked down and became very interested in her hands. It took a few minutes before she spoke again.
"My parents were death eaters." She began, still staring at her hands. "They tried to get out of it when I was born. They tried to hide from Voldemort. That's why we came to Ireland. Well, Voldemort found them. You want to know why the car exploded. I bet my life that it was Voldemort."
Josephina's mouth hung open. "You're parents were murdered by Voldemort?"
"Yes. I was there, but he didn't know it. I saw everything. It was terrible."
"Oh, Liz, I'm so sorry." Josephina walked over and sat down next to her. "So, you think he wants to kill you, too?"
"I'm sure he does. My parents were his two most loyal followers. They turned their back on him when my mom found out she was pregnant."
"So, let me get this straight, you think Voldemort wants to kill you, but you want to stay here. Where he can find you. He must know you're here."
"Yeah, well, I like Remus. I'll have to explain this to him. I didn't want to say anything to him, until I've told you first. I'm sorry I haven't told you this before."
"I understand why. I really want you to come back with me, Liz. But, I will stand behind you in whatever decision you make." Josephina promised.
"You should stay too. I'm sure we can find a nice place out here. Please?"
"I can't. I made a mistake, and I don't want to suffer the consequences."
"Funny. I did the same thing, and I don't regret it."
"I don't regret it, Liz. I feel guilty. I was waiting until marriage. I didn't want to do it until then."
"Fate works in mysterious ways. Maybe it happened like this for a reason."
"I doubt that. I'm not going to marry the guy. I don't believe in fate."
"You never know. But I know, for a fact, that he didn't mean for this to be a one night stand. He likes you, Jo. There are no consequences to suffer."
"Well, I'm sorry. It's not everyday this happens."
Josephina stood up and walked over to her bed. As she sat down, she realized that she was very hungry. But, tired too, and above all, she was feeling bad for what happened between her and Sirius. She liked him, yes. But to go to bed with a person she hardly knows, was stupid. And, to do that, and get drunk under the persons nose who has been so kind to her, gave her a room to sleep in, and food to eat, was even more ludicrous. She was better than that. Her grandfather would be rolling over in his grave.
And, why was Sirius showing no regret? Duh, he's a guy. Guys don't show feelings. So what if he does like me? She thought. That doesn't mean he's in love with me. He hardly knows me. He doesn't want to go back with me. He probably just wants to get into my pants again.
But, then again, maybe he wasn't kidding. Maybe he wants to get to know me better. But, still, he's not in love with me, I know that much. How can you fall in love with someone you've only known for a day? It just doesn't work that way. Sure, I like him, but I don't love him. I'm not going to make a commitment like that. He shouldn't go back with me, and I'm not going to stay here. It's asinine. Really, why should I make that kind of commitment when I hardly know the guy? If Lizbeth wants to, that's her problem. But, I can't do it. Damn it all to Hell! This would be so much easier if I hadn't slept with him. How could I be so stupid!
"Well, it's about lunch time, want to go get something to eat?" Lizbeth asked, breaking into her thoughts.
"Yeah, sure."
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The next morning, Josephina woke up with a plan in mind. She had to leave. She couldn't stand another day here. The guilt was getting to her. It was the hardest decision she ever had to make, but so be it. She figured if she was away from here, she couldn't think about Sirius, and she wouldn't feel guilty anymore.
She went to look for Sirius so she could say goodbye. She didn't know how she would get out of there. She thought she'd just go back through the forest and call the Knight Bus when she got out. If they got through it the first time, she could get through it this time.
Josephina decided to look in the Gryffindor common room first. If she didn't find him there, she hoped she would find someone who knew where she could find him. Fortunately, he was there, staring into the fire.
"Is this seat taken?" She asked.
"It will be if you sit down." He answered, still looking into the fire.
"Remus told me the password, I hope that's okay."
"It is."
"I'm sorry, did I disturb you?"
"No, you upset me. There's a difference. You see a man who has just had his heart ripped out, not one who has just been bothered."
"I'm sorry; I didn't mean to hurt you."
Sirius turned away from the fire and looked at her. "Then don't go, stay here. I'll make it better, I promise."
"Sirius, time can't erase what we did. We can't pretend it didn't happen, because it did. And we can't deny it."
"Did you like it?"
"I can't say I didn't."
"Then, stay. Please. I don't want to let you go."
"I can't stay. That's what I came to tell you. I'm leaving, today. I've already wrote a letter to the Headmaster thanking him for his hospitality."
"Why can't you stay? Damn it, Jo! I like you, I want to be with you!"
"You don't love me. And you shouldn't. Not yet."
"I never said I didn't."
"You never said you did."
"I've loved you since the second I saw you. I wouldn't have taken you to bed if I didn't. I'm not that kind of person."
"And I'm not the kind of person to go to bed with a man I hardly know."
Sirius put his head down and closed his eyes. Realizing defeat, he said, "I guess this is goodbye, then…"
Josephina left, thinking she could now get on with her life and not have to think about this again. And, most of all, not feel guilty about it. She could forget about Sirius. If only she knew how wrong she was.
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I told you it wasn't any better. Let me know what you think, though. Should I continue?
~Chapter Four~
"We have no car." Josephina said, slamming the door behind her.
"What?!"
"We have no car, Lizbeth. It caught fire. Dumbledore told me, just before I reached the staircases. He said we can stay until we figure out what… Damn!" Josephina said, and then punched the mirror next to her. "The bloody Knight Bus! Why didn't we think of it before?"
Josephina rubbed her head for a moment, then looked at the mirror she just punched. "Shit. Reparo! This is just great! We could have called the Knight Bus. But, no, we come here instead! And, why?! For what reason?! To make a big mistake!"
"Mistake for you, maybe…" Lizbeth said.
"Don't tell me you did it again."
"After you left and he asked me to stay."
"What?! You're not actually going to, are you?"
"I don't have anywhere else to go, Jo…"
"Yes, you do. Liz, I've been waiting to tell you this, but my grandfather left me a fortune when he died. He left me a house too, you can move in with me."
"You inherited a fortune, and you didn't tell me?"
"Your parents died and you won't tell me what happened! I thought I was your best friend. And, besides, I was going to tell you when we got back."
Lizbeth got up and walked over to the chair across the room. She looked down and became very interested in her hands. It took a few minutes before she spoke again.
"My parents were death eaters." She began, still staring at her hands. "They tried to get out of it when I was born. They tried to hide from Voldemort. That's why we came to Ireland. Well, Voldemort found them. You want to know why the car exploded. I bet my life that it was Voldemort."
Josephina's mouth hung open. "You're parents were murdered by Voldemort?"
"Yes. I was there, but he didn't know it. I saw everything. It was terrible."
"Oh, Liz, I'm so sorry." Josephina walked over and sat down next to her. "So, you think he wants to kill you, too?"
"I'm sure he does. My parents were his two most loyal followers. They turned their back on him when my mom found out she was pregnant."
"So, let me get this straight, you think Voldemort wants to kill you, but you want to stay here. Where he can find you. He must know you're here."
"Yeah, well, I like Remus. I'll have to explain this to him. I didn't want to say anything to him, until I've told you first. I'm sorry I haven't told you this before."
"I understand why. I really want you to come back with me, Liz. But, I will stand behind you in whatever decision you make." Josephina promised.
"You should stay too. I'm sure we can find a nice place out here. Please?"
"I can't. I made a mistake, and I don't want to suffer the consequences."
"Funny. I did the same thing, and I don't regret it."
"I don't regret it, Liz. I feel guilty. I was waiting until marriage. I didn't want to do it until then."
"Fate works in mysterious ways. Maybe it happened like this for a reason."
"I doubt that. I'm not going to marry the guy. I don't believe in fate."
"You never know. But I know, for a fact, that he didn't mean for this to be a one night stand. He likes you, Jo. There are no consequences to suffer."
"Well, I'm sorry. It's not everyday this happens."
Josephina stood up and walked over to her bed. As she sat down, she realized that she was very hungry. But, tired too, and above all, she was feeling bad for what happened between her and Sirius. She liked him, yes. But to go to bed with a person she hardly knows, was stupid. And, to do that, and get drunk under the persons nose who has been so kind to her, gave her a room to sleep in, and food to eat, was even more ludicrous. She was better than that. Her grandfather would be rolling over in his grave.
And, why was Sirius showing no regret? Duh, he's a guy. Guys don't show feelings. So what if he does like me? She thought. That doesn't mean he's in love with me. He hardly knows me. He doesn't want to go back with me. He probably just wants to get into my pants again.
But, then again, maybe he wasn't kidding. Maybe he wants to get to know me better. But, still, he's not in love with me, I know that much. How can you fall in love with someone you've only known for a day? It just doesn't work that way. Sure, I like him, but I don't love him. I'm not going to make a commitment like that. He shouldn't go back with me, and I'm not going to stay here. It's asinine. Really, why should I make that kind of commitment when I hardly know the guy? If Lizbeth wants to, that's her problem. But, I can't do it. Damn it all to Hell! This would be so much easier if I hadn't slept with him. How could I be so stupid!
"Well, it's about lunch time, want to go get something to eat?" Lizbeth asked, breaking into her thoughts.
"Yeah, sure."
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The next morning, Josephina woke up with a plan in mind. She had to leave. She couldn't stand another day here. The guilt was getting to her. It was the hardest decision she ever had to make, but so be it. She figured if she was away from here, she couldn't think about Sirius, and she wouldn't feel guilty anymore.
She went to look for Sirius so she could say goodbye. She didn't know how she would get out of there. She thought she'd just go back through the forest and call the Knight Bus when she got out. If they got through it the first time, she could get through it this time.
Josephina decided to look in the Gryffindor common room first. If she didn't find him there, she hoped she would find someone who knew where she could find him. Fortunately, he was there, staring into the fire.
"Is this seat taken?" She asked.
"It will be if you sit down." He answered, still looking into the fire.
"Remus told me the password, I hope that's okay."
"It is."
"I'm sorry, did I disturb you?"
"No, you upset me. There's a difference. You see a man who has just had his heart ripped out, not one who has just been bothered."
"I'm sorry; I didn't mean to hurt you."
Sirius turned away from the fire and looked at her. "Then don't go, stay here. I'll make it better, I promise."
"Sirius, time can't erase what we did. We can't pretend it didn't happen, because it did. And we can't deny it."
"Did you like it?"
"I can't say I didn't."
"Then, stay. Please. I don't want to let you go."
"I can't stay. That's what I came to tell you. I'm leaving, today. I've already wrote a letter to the Headmaster thanking him for his hospitality."
"Why can't you stay? Damn it, Jo! I like you, I want to be with you!"
"You don't love me. And you shouldn't. Not yet."
"I never said I didn't."
"You never said you did."
"I've loved you since the second I saw you. I wouldn't have taken you to bed if I didn't. I'm not that kind of person."
"And I'm not the kind of person to go to bed with a man I hardly know."
Sirius put his head down and closed his eyes. Realizing defeat, he said, "I guess this is goodbye, then…"
Josephina left, thinking she could now get on with her life and not have to think about this again. And, most of all, not feel guilty about it. She could forget about Sirius. If only she knew how wrong she was.
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I told you it wasn't any better. Let me know what you think, though. Should I continue?