As usual
I own nothing. Nothing I tell you!
Song is "Taking Over Me" by Evanescence
The sun
shines into my room uninvited. It's the
exact opposite of how I feel. How did I
ever thin I could do this? It's only
been one night but it seems like forever since I last saw him. I still feel the pain of losing him, it hurts
so much. It's not like I expected to be
over it today, but I thought maybe I'd feel slightly better. Why do I have to feel this way? I'm sure he's forgotten me already and I
should do the same. But it's so
hard. I can't stop thinking of him.
You
don't remember me but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
Walking
over to the mirror I see the dark circles around my eyes from crying all
night. I look absolutely horrid. Sighing I slowly walk to the bathroom. Maybe a nice bath will help my look and clear
my thoughts a little bit. The hot water
feels southing but only to my body, not my mind. As much as I had hoped, I knew it wouldn't
work. I found myself dreaming again,
dreaming of a certain dog-eared hanyou.
But who can decide
What
they dream?
And dream I do...
Thank
goodness I don't have school today. I
don't' think I could deal with it. All
my thoughts are centered on one thing alone.
I wish I could go back, just to talk.
But its not going to happen. Without the shards I can't travel between the
times anymore. On the other hand, maybe, just maybe he'll come back for
me. I shake my head allowing my wet hair
to fall in my eyes and erase that thought from my mind as I step out of the
bath and get dressed. The thought is not
erased for long. As much as I try it
somehow creeps back into my mind.
I
believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I reach
into a drawer and pull out my hair brush.
In a zombie-like state I brush my hair but can't brush my thoughts
away. Why did I come back? I know deep in my heart I can't live without
him, so why did I leave. I need him to
be happy. I need him to live my life.
I have
to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
I walk
back into my room and sit down on my bed.
I still can't get him out of my mind.
He couldn't have forgotten me already, could he? If he were going to come he would have done
it already. The great Inuyasha waits for
no one. Pounding my fist into a pillow I
give a shout of complaint. "Damn
Inuyasha! After all we've been through
how could you forget me so easily?!"
Just the thought of that brings up old tears I've been trying to hold
back all morning.
Have you
forgotten all I know
And all we had?
And then
it happened. There he was in my
window. Was it really him, or a figment
of my imagination? It's been known to do
that in extreme situations. The figment
calls my name and slowly steps into my room.
It must not be a figment at all.
He came back for me. He really
came back for me. Instead of my tears
disappearing, the sight of him brings up more.
I can't believe that he is really here.
But I realize its not a dream when he walks
across my room and sits down next to me and takes my hand.
You
saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
"Kagome?"
he says in a soft whisper. "Kagome, why
did you leave?" I turn my head away and
look at the door. I don't know if I can
face him yet. I don't' know what to say.
"Because Inuyasha, I can't live without you."
Hmm that made more sense in my head.
"I can't stand to see you with Kikyo any longer. Why pledge your love so someone who is cold,
unforgiving, and lifeless?" There. That sounded better.
"Kagome, I will always love Kikyo. You
must know that by now." I feel my blood
boiling. All this worrying about him and
what he thinks of me and he tells me he still loves Kikyo. He came all this way just to rub it in. I make a move to get up but he holds me down.
"But…I'm not in love with her anymore.
Maybe I never was. Anyway you are
the one I care about now, the one that's living and breathing, the one that
cares for me back." I heave a big sigh
of relief and let my tears flow. But not
tears of sadness. These are tears of
happiness. I bravely turn my head
towards him and he wipes the tears away.
I knew
you loved me then
He said
he cared for me and not her, I was in shock.
This is what I've wanted for so long but now what? I suppose we continue our journey like
before. Sighing heavily I close my eyes
and fall back on to my bed. This is just
too much for my poor brain to handle. Afraid
to break the silence I wait for him to make the next move.
"Will you come back with me?" he asks, his voice cutting in to the deep
silence. I was not ready for this
question, I was still reminiscing in the thought of him caring about me. Of course I already had an answer. I had one before he asked the question.
"I suppose so." I answer him. What else
would I do with my life? Live back in my
time with out him? No way, I'd have way
too much time to get my homework done.
Maybe I'd even have time to study for my tests. Life here would be too simple now that I've
tasted adventure. Deep in thought I only catch the end of what he was saying.
"…become a full demon."
"WHAT?" My eyes fly open and I bolt
straight up and look him in the eye. I
thought maybe I'd been able to convince him NOT to become a full demon.
He chuckles slightly and shakes his head.
"No Kagome, I was saying I've decided not to become a full demon. I reasoned with my self that if I could get
you to come back then I would relinquish my desire to become full demon. It's the least I can do for you."
I
believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me
And I
believe him. What else can I do? How can you not believe the man (or I guess
hanyou in this case) you love.
"But then we don't need to search for the shards anymore, do we?" I ask this hesitantly. I don't' want Inuyasha to become a full demon
but I don't want to stop our search either.
My anger takes hold of me and I begin to shout.
"What about Miroku, Sango,
and Shippo? We
still need to help them get revenge!!"
A big grin appears on his face that kind of freaks me out. He reaches out, gives me a hug, and sighs.
"Of course we are going to finish our journey.
They need our help and besides what else would we do?" He's always acting like a tough guy that
sometimes I forget how caring he can really be.
I look
in the mirror and see your face
If I look deep enough
So many things inside that are just like you are taking over
I take
care of a few things, gather up my bag, and walk with Inuyasha to the
well. We are going back to where he
belongs, no where we belong. And now
that I know he cares for me the days will be brighter and the nights
easier. Maybe one day he will love me as
much as I love him, but for now I'll settle with being cared for. Hey, it's better than nothing. Until then I'll keep believing in him, and
waiting for him to completely take over my life. I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life
in the feudal era with him, as long as I can visit home once in a while! "I'll wait as long as you need Inuyasha. I believe in you."
I
believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
Sitting up in his tree Inuyasha risks a glance down at the group of mismatched comrades. He had heard the words Kagome whispered before they descended down the well. He was a dog demon after all. Staring up into the sky he whispers to himself "Thanks for believing in me Kagome, and know that I'll always be there for you. As soon as I can admit my feelings to myself I'll let you know. Then we can both be truly happy."
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That's it!! The story is finished.
Thanks for reading and Please Please
review, i'm kinda new to
writing and would really like to get some feedback. Anyway hope you enjoyed it and if you didn't
then oh well. I tried. What more can I say. :)
