A fic for all Taito fans. Not many people are writing these any more! Ohh it's so sad, hopefully the more people who read this fic means the more stories you'll get!
Disclaimer: I don't own digimon!
Does It Really Matter That Much?
Have you ever thought about living a perfect life? Or dreamed about one? At some stage I bet you've always wished your life was better, or something really good would happen to you. Unfournutaly for me, that day still hasn't arrived.
I wouldn't say my life wasn't worth living, but I would say that at times I've felt it's meant nothing to me. I've always needed a purpose, or a goal if you like. Something that I know will keep me going for a short while, just enough time until I find something else to 'fufil'.
When I was little, keeping my parents happy was a huge goal. But I'm now seventeen, I don't really need to worry about that so much anymore. Then, back in the digital-world, it was TK but he's older now. He can look after himself. Then when I was fourteen and for almost a year onwards, my purpose was to stay loyal, and protect my girlfriend Sora. I loved her, I really did, but she's gone now. So I have no-one.
Well, I have someone. My best friend Tai. He's always been there for me. Scince we were eleven. If we didn't fight I don't think we'd be as good friends as we are, if that makes any sense, oh Whatever I don't understand it myself. When Sora passed away he was there for me. He would just listen if I needed to talk. Well I think he was listening. I haven't always been as open about my feelings as Tai. I'm opioninated, sensitive and intelligent. Sora said I was 'the perfect guy!' But I feel worthless right now.
Now I have no-one to protect or impress, I feel empty. Sure I have my band if I wanna kill some time. And I have Tai if I want to talk, or just hang out. But I miss that relationship stuff I had with Sora. But the weird thing is, I want it with Tai. When I figured this out myself, I was so confused. I didn't understand it, it just felt strange. The whole thing about rejection of who you are.
I couldn't tell the other guys but I couldn't tell Tai. TK would listen and sympathize but I needed to talkt to somone outside family, you know what I mean? Well even if you do/don't. I turned to another close friend. She knew alot about this sorta stuff, and I knew she would be the only girl in the whole school who didn't judge me. Kaori Lee. She was a smart girl. But she wasn't a snob, and she wasn't a fan girl of mine. She hated sports and anything to do with it, well almost anything. She had a thing for Martial Arts. She was a friend of Sora's I got to know when we went out. Naturally she knew about us digi-destined. She found out for herself. Hey, like I said, she's a smart girl. Kaori wasn't perfect, she wasn't popular and she wasn't increddible beautiful. But a good thing was, she didn't care. She was opinionated like me, but she was open and laid-back too, not like me. Kaori liked my music and attended my gigs, but if I was bad she'd say. Kaori was honest, so that's why I told her.
I expected her to take it badly and start being predjudice, but she didn't. Kaori listened to what I had to say and then gave me a lecture, and boy do I remember it:
"Matt, I'm not gonna judge you. It's sweet that you have feelings for your best friend. Tai's a great guy, and you belong with each other. Your like soul mates. You understand each other. And I know you don't want to tell him, I know it'll be difficult, and I'll help you if you ask, but you have to tell him. He does have a right to know. Even if they are your feelings, they still involve him. If Tai is your true best friend he'll say one of two things a) the same thing, that he loves you or b) that he doesn't feel the same way but still wants to be friends. Either way, your friendship will still be there. If it's love then it'll hurt if he says no, but it will pass if he does. Thats all my advice..."
"This was why she was so great. If it was a fan girl she would be all "Oh my god, Yamato I can't believe what you've done to me" and start crying hysterically. But not Kaori after her little talk she watched a horror film. Not really that normal for a girl to sit in front of a screen and just say 'gross' every now and then. To be honest, she did freak me out sometimes, but I was glad we were friends.
A/N: If you would like a chapter 2, then please review! Tell me what you think, I normally read my reviewers stories if they are on a couple I like. ANyways I would really like to do a joined fic with someone, or some people so if you have any idea's let me know thanks. Remember to review!
Disclaimer: I don't own digimon!
Does It Really Matter That Much?
Have you ever thought about living a perfect life? Or dreamed about one? At some stage I bet you've always wished your life was better, or something really good would happen to you. Unfournutaly for me, that day still hasn't arrived.
I wouldn't say my life wasn't worth living, but I would say that at times I've felt it's meant nothing to me. I've always needed a purpose, or a goal if you like. Something that I know will keep me going for a short while, just enough time until I find something else to 'fufil'.
When I was little, keeping my parents happy was a huge goal. But I'm now seventeen, I don't really need to worry about that so much anymore. Then, back in the digital-world, it was TK but he's older now. He can look after himself. Then when I was fourteen and for almost a year onwards, my purpose was to stay loyal, and protect my girlfriend Sora. I loved her, I really did, but she's gone now. So I have no-one.
Well, I have someone. My best friend Tai. He's always been there for me. Scince we were eleven. If we didn't fight I don't think we'd be as good friends as we are, if that makes any sense, oh Whatever I don't understand it myself. When Sora passed away he was there for me. He would just listen if I needed to talk. Well I think he was listening. I haven't always been as open about my feelings as Tai. I'm opioninated, sensitive and intelligent. Sora said I was 'the perfect guy!' But I feel worthless right now.
Now I have no-one to protect or impress, I feel empty. Sure I have my band if I wanna kill some time. And I have Tai if I want to talk, or just hang out. But I miss that relationship stuff I had with Sora. But the weird thing is, I want it with Tai. When I figured this out myself, I was so confused. I didn't understand it, it just felt strange. The whole thing about rejection of who you are.
I couldn't tell the other guys but I couldn't tell Tai. TK would listen and sympathize but I needed to talkt to somone outside family, you know what I mean? Well even if you do/don't. I turned to another close friend. She knew alot about this sorta stuff, and I knew she would be the only girl in the whole school who didn't judge me. Kaori Lee. She was a smart girl. But she wasn't a snob, and she wasn't a fan girl of mine. She hated sports and anything to do with it, well almost anything. She had a thing for Martial Arts. She was a friend of Sora's I got to know when we went out. Naturally she knew about us digi-destined. She found out for herself. Hey, like I said, she's a smart girl. Kaori wasn't perfect, she wasn't popular and she wasn't increddible beautiful. But a good thing was, she didn't care. She was opinionated like me, but she was open and laid-back too, not like me. Kaori liked my music and attended my gigs, but if I was bad she'd say. Kaori was honest, so that's why I told her.
I expected her to take it badly and start being predjudice, but she didn't. Kaori listened to what I had to say and then gave me a lecture, and boy do I remember it:
"Matt, I'm not gonna judge you. It's sweet that you have feelings for your best friend. Tai's a great guy, and you belong with each other. Your like soul mates. You understand each other. And I know you don't want to tell him, I know it'll be difficult, and I'll help you if you ask, but you have to tell him. He does have a right to know. Even if they are your feelings, they still involve him. If Tai is your true best friend he'll say one of two things a) the same thing, that he loves you or b) that he doesn't feel the same way but still wants to be friends. Either way, your friendship will still be there. If it's love then it'll hurt if he says no, but it will pass if he does. Thats all my advice..."
"This was why she was so great. If it was a fan girl she would be all "Oh my god, Yamato I can't believe what you've done to me" and start crying hysterically. But not Kaori after her little talk she watched a horror film. Not really that normal for a girl to sit in front of a screen and just say 'gross' every now and then. To be honest, she did freak me out sometimes, but I was glad we were friends.
A/N: If you would like a chapter 2, then please review! Tell me what you think, I normally read my reviewers stories if they are on a couple I like. ANyways I would really like to do a joined fic with someone, or some people so if you have any idea's let me know thanks. Remember to review!