the next morning...
pan woke up early again to greet hiei and wish him luck. she quickly got
ready and took the elevator downstairs,
only to see that hiei wasn't there.
"hey guys? wheres hiei?" she asked
"he decided to go early today..." kurama covered up.
"oh...well when you get there...tell him i said good luck..." pan scratched
her head in confusion.
[ strange...]
[ i always wake him up to say good luck..]
[ i wonder why he left so early...]
[ oh well...i guess i'll have to wait for him later.] pan thought to
herself.
[ i know the truth...]
[ but she can't know about this prophecy...]
[ it'll hurt her too much. ] kurama thought.
the boys picked up and left for the stadium.
...later when the boys returned..
pan was upstairs on her computer, nara, keiko and yukina were at the cyber
cafe again, while botan and shizuru went to the hotel gym.
the boys returned to the lobby. hiei was silent the whole day. instead of
joining his teammates where they were in the lobby,
hiei instead went to the park. he sat down, alone on a bench.
about 5 minutes later, kurama came and joined him.
"hiei...you know what you have to do, right?" kurama asked him
"no. i dont know."
kurama sighed
"you have to break up with her...this is how it has to be...we'll be
stationed to tokyo, anyway. so you wont be seeing her. this is how it has
to be..."
hiei just looked straight ahead
kurama got up and left him to give him some time alone.
[ i dont know what im going to do without you...]
[ youko is right..this is how it has to be...]
hiei got up, but as soon as he was about to leave, pan rushed over to him
and embraced him, smiling.
"hey hiei! your an idiot, you know that? you just left this morning without
waiting..." she talked on and on as he just
had a solemn expression on his face.
pan looked up at him.
"hiei? are yiou alright?" she asked him.
he just looked straight at her.
"pan...you have to do something for me." he said, without any expression on
his face.
"what is it?"
"...pan...break up with me."
there. he said it. it was out now. theres no turning back.
everything just hit pan at that moment. the impact just stabbed her in the
heart.
"h-hiei...but why?" her voice trembled, about to burst into tears. he was
about to say something, but she interrupted.
"why? are you in love with someone else?" she asked, bubbls forming in her
eyes
"its not that..." he was again, interrupted
"do you hate me?" she asked again
"its not that...! im not in love with you anymore!" he raised his voice.
his voice lowered again. "i...i cant see you anymore than a friend now."
she grasped his shoulders
"no! hiei no! you cant do this! i just can't let you go like that! please!
think it over again, hiei. please? if theres anything you want me to
change..i'll do it! just tell me!
hiei...hiei please..."
he put his hands on her shoulders as he tried to knock some sense into her.
"PAN...there is NOTHING wrong with you...its just me...i dont love you as
much as i used to.." he lied.
it was silent for a while.
"i'm sorry. i cant be with you anymore." he said. he turned around as he
closed his eyes in pain and ran off.
"no! hiei please dont go!"
but he was gone. she fell on her knees and wept.
secretly, he watched her from above in a tree.
he watched her as she cried there.
"hiei...i..dont know if you can hear me...hiei..but even so..why the sudden
change? hiei...i didnt think that...that love..
would hurt this much...are you just going to leave...leave me like this?
hiei...i need you..right now..i need you
here...with me..." she whispered under her breath, but hiei heard every
word that spoke from her mouth.
he closed his eyes in hurt, and ran off.
pan got up and walked back to the hotel by herself to bura's room.
she wept with her, and stayed in her room the rest of the night.
* * *
"well...sorry i was such a pain last night, bura." she apologized
"its alright. what are friends for, right?"
"even so. its 7:00 in the morning..you didn't have to wake up just because
i did.."
"dont worry about it." bura put her hand on pan's shoulder
pan just smiled lightly
"are you sure your okay?" bura asked
"well...after crying all night..i guess i'm okay.." pan sighed.
bura just frowned. she knew she was lying about being okay.
"pan...are you going to come downstairs? to say goodbye to the boys? todays
the day...their leaving."
"i...dont know if i will or not...i dont think hiei wants to see me..."
"if it makes you uncomfortable...you dont have to come down..but you may
never see them again.."
pan just looked down. "i know. but that might be for the best."
"well...alright then." bura waved and watched pan walk back to her room.
on her way, pan past hiei's room.
she hesitantly walked up to his door as she put her hand on his door.
she felt tears bulge out of her eyes again
[ hiei..]
[ am i delirious? ]
[ are we...over? ]
[ are we really done for?]
she let go and went back to her room.
* * *
down at the lobby...
bura held kurama's hand.
"be careful, okay? and call me everyday..i'm going to miss you, you know
that, right?"
"you too. i'll call you everyday." he hugged her.
"so are you going to stay here? or come with us?" yusuke asked keiko
"well...the girls decided..we're gonna stay here for a while...but we're
going to go to kyoto, so i'll see you back at home." keiko kissed him
goodbye.
everyone said their goodbyes, and walked out of the hotel.
pan peered outside her window and saw hiei and the gang with their luggage
and all.
she looked down at hiei.
[ goodbye ]
[ hiei ]
hiei looked up at her window hesitantly and slowly. he took a last glance
at her face before they left.
pan stared back down at him, and pan gave a bright smile to hide her
depression. he gave a small half smile back as he waved.
then, the group was gone.
pan took the elevator downstairs and met up with bura. for some reason, she
put on an incredibly huge smile, and acted very happy.
"you know what? i'm gonna get over myself. this is it! no more hiei. say
hello to the NEW me!" pan said.
the group was fooled...but pan's own heart wasn't.
* * *
pan woke up early again to greet hiei and wish him luck. she quickly got
ready and took the elevator downstairs,
only to see that hiei wasn't there.
"hey guys? wheres hiei?" she asked
"he decided to go early today..." kurama covered up.
"oh...well when you get there...tell him i said good luck..." pan scratched
her head in confusion.
[ strange...]
[ i always wake him up to say good luck..]
[ i wonder why he left so early...]
[ oh well...i guess i'll have to wait for him later.] pan thought to
herself.
[ i know the truth...]
[ but she can't know about this prophecy...]
[ it'll hurt her too much. ] kurama thought.
the boys picked up and left for the stadium.
...later when the boys returned..
pan was upstairs on her computer, nara, keiko and yukina were at the cyber
cafe again, while botan and shizuru went to the hotel gym.
the boys returned to the lobby. hiei was silent the whole day. instead of
joining his teammates where they were in the lobby,
hiei instead went to the park. he sat down, alone on a bench.
about 5 minutes later, kurama came and joined him.
"hiei...you know what you have to do, right?" kurama asked him
"no. i dont know."
kurama sighed
"you have to break up with her...this is how it has to be...we'll be
stationed to tokyo, anyway. so you wont be seeing her. this is how it has
to be..."
hiei just looked straight ahead
kurama got up and left him to give him some time alone.
[ i dont know what im going to do without you...]
[ youko is right..this is how it has to be...]
hiei got up, but as soon as he was about to leave, pan rushed over to him
and embraced him, smiling.
"hey hiei! your an idiot, you know that? you just left this morning without
waiting..." she talked on and on as he just
had a solemn expression on his face.
pan looked up at him.
"hiei? are yiou alright?" she asked him.
he just looked straight at her.
"pan...you have to do something for me." he said, without any expression on
his face.
"what is it?"
"...pan...break up with me."
there. he said it. it was out now. theres no turning back.
everything just hit pan at that moment. the impact just stabbed her in the
heart.
"h-hiei...but why?" her voice trembled, about to burst into tears. he was
about to say something, but she interrupted.
"why? are you in love with someone else?" she asked, bubbls forming in her
eyes
"its not that..." he was again, interrupted
"do you hate me?" she asked again
"its not that...! im not in love with you anymore!" he raised his voice.
his voice lowered again. "i...i cant see you anymore than a friend now."
she grasped his shoulders
"no! hiei no! you cant do this! i just can't let you go like that! please!
think it over again, hiei. please? if theres anything you want me to
change..i'll do it! just tell me!
hiei...hiei please..."
he put his hands on her shoulders as he tried to knock some sense into her.
"PAN...there is NOTHING wrong with you...its just me...i dont love you as
much as i used to.." he lied.
it was silent for a while.
"i'm sorry. i cant be with you anymore." he said. he turned around as he
closed his eyes in pain and ran off.
"no! hiei please dont go!"
but he was gone. she fell on her knees and wept.
secretly, he watched her from above in a tree.
he watched her as she cried there.
"hiei...i..dont know if you can hear me...hiei..but even so..why the sudden
change? hiei...i didnt think that...that love..
would hurt this much...are you just going to leave...leave me like this?
hiei...i need you..right now..i need you
here...with me..." she whispered under her breath, but hiei heard every
word that spoke from her mouth.
he closed his eyes in hurt, and ran off.
pan got up and walked back to the hotel by herself to bura's room.
she wept with her, and stayed in her room the rest of the night.
* * *
"well...sorry i was such a pain last night, bura." she apologized
"its alright. what are friends for, right?"
"even so. its 7:00 in the morning..you didn't have to wake up just because
i did.."
"dont worry about it." bura put her hand on pan's shoulder
pan just smiled lightly
"are you sure your okay?" bura asked
"well...after crying all night..i guess i'm okay.." pan sighed.
bura just frowned. she knew she was lying about being okay.
"pan...are you going to come downstairs? to say goodbye to the boys? todays
the day...their leaving."
"i...dont know if i will or not...i dont think hiei wants to see me..."
"if it makes you uncomfortable...you dont have to come down..but you may
never see them again.."
pan just looked down. "i know. but that might be for the best."
"well...alright then." bura waved and watched pan walk back to her room.
on her way, pan past hiei's room.
she hesitantly walked up to his door as she put her hand on his door.
she felt tears bulge out of her eyes again
[ hiei..]
[ am i delirious? ]
[ are we...over? ]
[ are we really done for?]
she let go and went back to her room.
* * *
down at the lobby...
bura held kurama's hand.
"be careful, okay? and call me everyday..i'm going to miss you, you know
that, right?"
"you too. i'll call you everyday." he hugged her.
"so are you going to stay here? or come with us?" yusuke asked keiko
"well...the girls decided..we're gonna stay here for a while...but we're
going to go to kyoto, so i'll see you back at home." keiko kissed him
goodbye.
everyone said their goodbyes, and walked out of the hotel.
pan peered outside her window and saw hiei and the gang with their luggage
and all.
she looked down at hiei.
[ goodbye ]
[ hiei ]
hiei looked up at her window hesitantly and slowly. he took a last glance
at her face before they left.
pan stared back down at him, and pan gave a bright smile to hide her
depression. he gave a small half smile back as he waved.
then, the group was gone.
pan took the elevator downstairs and met up with bura. for some reason, she
put on an incredibly huge smile, and acted very happy.
"you know what? i'm gonna get over myself. this is it! no more hiei. say
hello to the NEW me!" pan said.
the group was fooled...but pan's own heart wasn't.
* * *