The perfection of imperfection

By: mourningview

Summery: Relates to so much but is from the mind of me and the writers of one tree hill. I have no clue what on earth Payton was thinking but this is how I would be thinking if I was her. ( Even though if I was her would of so f*cked out CMM or Lucas' brains without another thought. )

Disclaimer: Do not know who owns them and am too lazy to care.

I was waiting for him to start touching me, the way all the men I have ever been with have touched me. The cold hands grazing over the top of my pale white breast. His eyes looking at me hungrily and longingly. Followed by stale orbs looking into mine, but not truly seeing me.

Not seeing the dedication that I craved, the yearn for true and uncensored, unadulterated passion but with the want and need to truly see into my soul. His hands would then leave my breast for a brief second, his eyes would leave mine for the rest of the night. As this would happen, I would remember the line from Pretty woman. The line that is so often quoted that it is almost useless to even think it because it is so ingrained into my media obsessed mind.

But for some reason, for a brief second, I would not think of that line, but another that is based off of it. A line from the most sappy and ignorant teen movie ever created. She's all that, with Rachel Leigh Cook uttering the words that I so often wanted to speak my self to obliterate the line from Pretty woman. But it would never truly happen.

Like the movie, the boy would be prefect and I would be as I am, a work in process.

The fantasy would dissolved and be mixed in with reality. Before I would know it that night would be over and all that would be left would be me and my pitiful self, left with a fantasy. A fantasy left to be satisfied and never to be completed. For, I found the guy to complete it and pushed him away, left him poignant, and alone. I do not know if I want my fantasy to be draw to a close, in place of it might just be a night filled with heart break, disseat and a shit load of problems. I'll think it over, but for now I will be left with the perfection of my imperfection and all that it entails.

Let me know what you think so if you like it I will maybe do Lucas' thoughts (with more detail and not written within a 15 minute lapse of time.)

No flames are needed, so please keep your inner dragon at bay. ;)