The Feeling - Chapter Three: Dark Day
Tino woke up that Sunday morning in a daze not sure of the time or even really what had happened the day before. Slowly though, it all came back to him which really wasn't a pleasant thing. He got out of bed and went down to breakfast, hungry since he had skipped dinner in favor of sleep. The walk from his room to the kitchen seemed like an eternity as he dragged his feet and remembered Saturday's harrowing event. Eventually, he made his way to the table looking and feeling like he just came out of a war zone.
As he took his seat his mom looked up at him and said, "Good morning, Mr. Sunshine."
Tino met his mom's gaze not at all amused by her sarcasm and so he replied, "Is it good?"
He put his head in his arms on the table not wanting to talk or do anything for that matter except eat.
His mom took a sip of her coffee and asked, "Something wrong, sweetie?"
Tino just waved his hand motioning that everything was fine.
Tino's mom sighed knowing her son too well "Does this have anything to do with your newly admitted feelings for Lor?"
Tino lifted his head up with a mixture of shock and embarrassment stuttering, "H-H-How do you know?! I mean w-what are you talking about?!"
His mom just rolled her eyes "Why are you surprised? You know I know everything. Remember I'm your mother?"
Tino admitted defeat knowing full well that he couldn't hide anything from her. "Right, that mind reading thing of yours, I really have to remember that from now on," Tino commented.
"Yeah, that and the fact that when you say things like 'I love Lor' aloud it can be heard, " his mom responded.
Tino slumped back into his chair reminding himself to watch where, when, and what he said.
"Honey, if that is how you really feel about her then you need to talk with her about it. She is your friend you should be comfortable about talking with her. If you don't this will just eat away at you, and you'll be miserable all the time."
Tino looked down at the table and spoke, "Yeah I know that, but she likes this other guy. It would just be awkward for me, confessing my feelings when I know that she is in love with someone else. I mean, what if it weirds her out, and then we become so uncomfortable around each other that we can't be friends anymore. Then what?"
The mere thought of not being friends with Lor anymore made Tino cringe inside.
"Well, Tino, if you don't talk with her about your feelings then your friendship will get ruined anyway since you can't be comfortable around her now. If you talk about it with her than things can work out for the better. Sure, Lor may not feel the exact same way as you but she is your friend, she will understand," Tino's mom said to him.
He thought about what his mom said and knew she was right. He had to talk to Lor when she got back from her date with Thomson he would make sure to call her and talk things out.
"Mmmmmm this pizza smells great! Let's dig in!" Carver exclaimed as the delicious looking pie was placed in front of them.
They all took their slices and immediately Carver began stuffing his face.
Tish was removing the pieces of pepperoni when she noticed that Tino was barely eating his slice, "Hey Tino, why the long face?"
Looking sullen, Tino said, "Huh? Nothin', nothin'......... I'm just a little disappointed that Lor isn't here with us. It doesn't feel right to me not havin' her here."
"Why? There have been plenty of times when one of us isn't around to get pizza. What would make this time so different?" Carver asked.
"I don't know, but I think it's because she isn't here since she is out with Thomson," Tino responded.
"How does that make a difference?" Tish asked.
"Well, every time one of us hasn't been here for pizza it's been because of something family or school related, but this time it's because Lor is hanging out with someone else. What if she likes hanging out with him so much she leaves our group in favor of Thomson? This could be the end of our quintessential quad!"
"Quintessential quad?" Carver questioned.
"Tino, I think you are overreacting. Lor has been our friend for years she wouldn't just ditch us like that. I know she has an ubercrush on Thomson, but I don't think that she would really choose him over us," Tish said.
"Yeah I know but......ubercrush?"
"Look, just have a little faith in Lor. Carver and I do. Right, Carver?"
"Mmrghh hurmgah."
"Swallow your god damned food, Carver," Tish chastised.
"Sorry. Yeah Tino things will be fine. You are just lettin' your worrisome nature get the best of you kind of like you do in every situation," Carver responded.
" I do NOT let my worrisome nature get the best of me in every situation. And this time I have a legitimate reason for worrying. What if Lor and Thomson become a couple then what?" Tino snapped back.
"Then I am happy for Lor since she is my friend and its what she wanted. If it does work out then you should be supportive as well," Tish said.
"What!? I will not be supportive because it will be disastrous. I don't want to see Lor and Thomson together. It could take her away from the group. I'm telling you if their relationship works out it won't be a good thing for any of us," Tino said in reply.
"No, I think it would only be a problem for you since you seem to have the hang up over this. I think you should get some rest and calm down a bit," Tish told him.
"Grrr, maybe I do need to relax a little. I'm going to go home, but first I want one last slice of pizza. Hey, what the-? What happened to all the pizza?"
"Oh I'm sorry I ate it," Carver said.
"Damn it, Carv," Tino replied.
"You snooze, you lose."
"Oh well, it's not the first time. Alright guys, later days," Tino said as he left.
"Yeah, later days," both Tish and Carver said.
After Tino was gone for a few minutes Carver turned to Tish and asked, "What do you think he had stuck up his ass?"
"I don't know. He was very worried and over reactive even for him. It's strange he has never acted this extreme before over Lor or any of us for that matter," Tish answered.
"Hey, maybe Tino has fallen for Lor and he is jealous of Thomson?" Carver offered.
The two were silent for a second and stared at each other.
"Bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!" both laughed loudly.
"Whew. That was a good one, Carver."
"Thanks. I knew we needed a good laugh after Tino bein' so serious and all."
Tino walked home in a hurry just wanting to throw himself onto his bed and escape all his emotions that he felt were taunting him. Yes, he knew he loved Lor and he knew he had to talk to her, but he couldn't just ignore the fact that at that very moment she was out on a date with her crush. It's not like Thomson just appeared out of the blue, he had been the object of Lor's desire for years now. How was he supposed to compete with years of longing for someone?
"I must talk with her. This is eating me alive, but what do I say? 'Hi Lor. Guess what? I love you.' Yeah that would fly like a rock plane. Her date came at the worst possible time. Why couldn't Thomson have just waited a few more days to ask her so I could have talked to her with minimal complications? I can't believe how much this is bothering me I'm shaking at the very thought of Lor with him."
From here Tino ran home in fear of breaking down on the street. He ran in the front door, right up to his room, and locked the door. Tino lay down on his bed and looked up at the ceiling.
"Shouldn't I be happy for Lor? If I do love her then I should want what's best for her and be supportive of what she wants. Since she has been longing for Thomson then I should be happy that she has finally reached her goal. If she can only be my friend since she is Thomson's girlfriend then I should be satisfied with that. Sure, it doesn't completely fill my sentiments towards her, but it's better than not being with her at all. If the sacrificing of my love for her helps to keep from complicating matters for her than so be it. I will carry my cross in her name. Maybe this sorrow and anguish will strengthen my resolve if I should ever meet another that I love. Maybe then my will to make that girl notice me will be strong enough to do so. On the other hand what if she does begin to hang out with Thomson in favor of us? Then I won't have her as my girlfriend or my friend, she will become nothing more than a memory. What if the only way she would stay is knowing how I felt because then she would see how much it means for her to stay with us, with me? No, that is too idealistic. Stick to reality. Forget those dreams. Aaargh...... there is no right choice. I thought talking to her was the answer but now that I think about it I can't do it......... She is my friend, she will understand,........ but how can she understand when I am almost asking her to give up her years of love for Thomson in favor of me? Plus, she didn't ask him out, he asked her so clearly he also likes her! There is no way it could work out for me since I am the only one with this feeling while in that relationship they both feel love. Reality, reality, I must stick to reality. My talking to her and confessing my feelings for her will only make her awkward with me and alienate her from me. I can't do it. I must resign to the fact that she will be with Thomson...... Arrghh! Damn it! Damn it! I can't accept this! It's like being torn in two! Shit! Why did this have to happen to me? I don't want to lose her to Thomson, but I can't bring myself to talk her......... I have to accept reality, right now she is out with Thomson the guy she loves and I am here sulking with no answers. It's obvious I've already lost her to Thomson. The decision has been made and I had no say in it. I must accept the facts. Lor is with Thomson and that is that. The only thing I can do is support her decision since I.........love her."
Tino continued to stare at his ceiling, but after that point he didn't think anything. His mind became blank as he lay there. For him there was nothing left to think, nothing he wanted to think about. There was only darkness in his mind because there was nothing else. Soon night came and even into the late night he laid there staring at his ceiling with nothing in his mind, and nothing in his heart. Sleep came and for the first time in his life he dreamt nothing.
End of Chapter Three
Yes, this chapter is noticeably darker than the others, which was done on purpose. On a side note the "quintessential quad" that one is for you, Edge. And one more thing: To Gandalf the Beige, sorry but this won't be a LotR crossover. Stay tuned, and keep readin and reviewin.
Tino woke up that Sunday morning in a daze not sure of the time or even really what had happened the day before. Slowly though, it all came back to him which really wasn't a pleasant thing. He got out of bed and went down to breakfast, hungry since he had skipped dinner in favor of sleep. The walk from his room to the kitchen seemed like an eternity as he dragged his feet and remembered Saturday's harrowing event. Eventually, he made his way to the table looking and feeling like he just came out of a war zone.
As he took his seat his mom looked up at him and said, "Good morning, Mr. Sunshine."
Tino met his mom's gaze not at all amused by her sarcasm and so he replied, "Is it good?"
He put his head in his arms on the table not wanting to talk or do anything for that matter except eat.
His mom took a sip of her coffee and asked, "Something wrong, sweetie?"
Tino just waved his hand motioning that everything was fine.
Tino's mom sighed knowing her son too well "Does this have anything to do with your newly admitted feelings for Lor?"
Tino lifted his head up with a mixture of shock and embarrassment stuttering, "H-H-How do you know?! I mean w-what are you talking about?!"
His mom just rolled her eyes "Why are you surprised? You know I know everything. Remember I'm your mother?"
Tino admitted defeat knowing full well that he couldn't hide anything from her. "Right, that mind reading thing of yours, I really have to remember that from now on," Tino commented.
"Yeah, that and the fact that when you say things like 'I love Lor' aloud it can be heard, " his mom responded.
Tino slumped back into his chair reminding himself to watch where, when, and what he said.
"Honey, if that is how you really feel about her then you need to talk with her about it. She is your friend you should be comfortable about talking with her. If you don't this will just eat away at you, and you'll be miserable all the time."
Tino looked down at the table and spoke, "Yeah I know that, but she likes this other guy. It would just be awkward for me, confessing my feelings when I know that she is in love with someone else. I mean, what if it weirds her out, and then we become so uncomfortable around each other that we can't be friends anymore. Then what?"
The mere thought of not being friends with Lor anymore made Tino cringe inside.
"Well, Tino, if you don't talk with her about your feelings then your friendship will get ruined anyway since you can't be comfortable around her now. If you talk about it with her than things can work out for the better. Sure, Lor may not feel the exact same way as you but she is your friend, she will understand," Tino's mom said to him.
He thought about what his mom said and knew she was right. He had to talk to Lor when she got back from her date with Thomson he would make sure to call her and talk things out.
"Mmmmmm this pizza smells great! Let's dig in!" Carver exclaimed as the delicious looking pie was placed in front of them.
They all took their slices and immediately Carver began stuffing his face.
Tish was removing the pieces of pepperoni when she noticed that Tino was barely eating his slice, "Hey Tino, why the long face?"
Looking sullen, Tino said, "Huh? Nothin', nothin'......... I'm just a little disappointed that Lor isn't here with us. It doesn't feel right to me not havin' her here."
"Why? There have been plenty of times when one of us isn't around to get pizza. What would make this time so different?" Carver asked.
"I don't know, but I think it's because she isn't here since she is out with Thomson," Tino responded.
"How does that make a difference?" Tish asked.
"Well, every time one of us hasn't been here for pizza it's been because of something family or school related, but this time it's because Lor is hanging out with someone else. What if she likes hanging out with him so much she leaves our group in favor of Thomson? This could be the end of our quintessential quad!"
"Quintessential quad?" Carver questioned.
"Tino, I think you are overreacting. Lor has been our friend for years she wouldn't just ditch us like that. I know she has an ubercrush on Thomson, but I don't think that she would really choose him over us," Tish said.
"Yeah I know but......ubercrush?"
"Look, just have a little faith in Lor. Carver and I do. Right, Carver?"
"Mmrghh hurmgah."
"Swallow your god damned food, Carver," Tish chastised.
"Sorry. Yeah Tino things will be fine. You are just lettin' your worrisome nature get the best of you kind of like you do in every situation," Carver responded.
" I do NOT let my worrisome nature get the best of me in every situation. And this time I have a legitimate reason for worrying. What if Lor and Thomson become a couple then what?" Tino snapped back.
"Then I am happy for Lor since she is my friend and its what she wanted. If it does work out then you should be supportive as well," Tish said.
"What!? I will not be supportive because it will be disastrous. I don't want to see Lor and Thomson together. It could take her away from the group. I'm telling you if their relationship works out it won't be a good thing for any of us," Tino said in reply.
"No, I think it would only be a problem for you since you seem to have the hang up over this. I think you should get some rest and calm down a bit," Tish told him.
"Grrr, maybe I do need to relax a little. I'm going to go home, but first I want one last slice of pizza. Hey, what the-? What happened to all the pizza?"
"Oh I'm sorry I ate it," Carver said.
"Damn it, Carv," Tino replied.
"You snooze, you lose."
"Oh well, it's not the first time. Alright guys, later days," Tino said as he left.
"Yeah, later days," both Tish and Carver said.
After Tino was gone for a few minutes Carver turned to Tish and asked, "What do you think he had stuck up his ass?"
"I don't know. He was very worried and over reactive even for him. It's strange he has never acted this extreme before over Lor or any of us for that matter," Tish answered.
"Hey, maybe Tino has fallen for Lor and he is jealous of Thomson?" Carver offered.
The two were silent for a second and stared at each other.
"Bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!" both laughed loudly.
"Whew. That was a good one, Carver."
"Thanks. I knew we needed a good laugh after Tino bein' so serious and all."
Tino walked home in a hurry just wanting to throw himself onto his bed and escape all his emotions that he felt were taunting him. Yes, he knew he loved Lor and he knew he had to talk to her, but he couldn't just ignore the fact that at that very moment she was out on a date with her crush. It's not like Thomson just appeared out of the blue, he had been the object of Lor's desire for years now. How was he supposed to compete with years of longing for someone?
"I must talk with her. This is eating me alive, but what do I say? 'Hi Lor. Guess what? I love you.' Yeah that would fly like a rock plane. Her date came at the worst possible time. Why couldn't Thomson have just waited a few more days to ask her so I could have talked to her with minimal complications? I can't believe how much this is bothering me I'm shaking at the very thought of Lor with him."
From here Tino ran home in fear of breaking down on the street. He ran in the front door, right up to his room, and locked the door. Tino lay down on his bed and looked up at the ceiling.
"Shouldn't I be happy for Lor? If I do love her then I should want what's best for her and be supportive of what she wants. Since she has been longing for Thomson then I should be happy that she has finally reached her goal. If she can only be my friend since she is Thomson's girlfriend then I should be satisfied with that. Sure, it doesn't completely fill my sentiments towards her, but it's better than not being with her at all. If the sacrificing of my love for her helps to keep from complicating matters for her than so be it. I will carry my cross in her name. Maybe this sorrow and anguish will strengthen my resolve if I should ever meet another that I love. Maybe then my will to make that girl notice me will be strong enough to do so. On the other hand what if she does begin to hang out with Thomson in favor of us? Then I won't have her as my girlfriend or my friend, she will become nothing more than a memory. What if the only way she would stay is knowing how I felt because then she would see how much it means for her to stay with us, with me? No, that is too idealistic. Stick to reality. Forget those dreams. Aaargh...... there is no right choice. I thought talking to her was the answer but now that I think about it I can't do it......... She is my friend, she will understand,........ but how can she understand when I am almost asking her to give up her years of love for Thomson in favor of me? Plus, she didn't ask him out, he asked her so clearly he also likes her! There is no way it could work out for me since I am the only one with this feeling while in that relationship they both feel love. Reality, reality, I must stick to reality. My talking to her and confessing my feelings for her will only make her awkward with me and alienate her from me. I can't do it. I must resign to the fact that she will be with Thomson...... Arrghh! Damn it! Damn it! I can't accept this! It's like being torn in two! Shit! Why did this have to happen to me? I don't want to lose her to Thomson, but I can't bring myself to talk her......... I have to accept reality, right now she is out with Thomson the guy she loves and I am here sulking with no answers. It's obvious I've already lost her to Thomson. The decision has been made and I had no say in it. I must accept the facts. Lor is with Thomson and that is that. The only thing I can do is support her decision since I.........love her."
Tino continued to stare at his ceiling, but after that point he didn't think anything. His mind became blank as he lay there. For him there was nothing left to think, nothing he wanted to think about. There was only darkness in his mind because there was nothing else. Soon night came and even into the late night he laid there staring at his ceiling with nothing in his mind, and nothing in his heart. Sleep came and for the first time in his life he dreamt nothing.
End of Chapter Three
Yes, this chapter is noticeably darker than the others, which was done on purpose. On a side note the "quintessential quad" that one is for you, Edge. And one more thing: To Gandalf the Beige, sorry but this won't be a LotR crossover. Stay tuned, and keep readin and reviewin.