I am so sorry you guys!!!! I meant to have this up on Friday but there was
a fire on campus and we lost the electricity and the internet and ARG! For
more info check out my live journal (shameless plug time!!). Webpage in my
profile. *sighs* it was a mess anyway. I'm posting this un-beta-ed so you
guys can read it. I'm really sorry!! I think you mean 'doodads' Icy. o.o
the toothpicks are massing for war? I'll be sure to keep matches handy to
beat them back. ^.^ Glad you like it so far Misura, I too would love to
have seen Honda's face... bet he would done an anime fall. Hehe Impulsive,
you say DSF? Oh you don't even know. ^__^ Read on to find out *just* how
impulsive Mr. Jounouchi can be. Thanks for reviewing Kinsako! I love
Seto/Jou now too. Don't worry Girl of Grace, no truth or dare, or spin the
bottle. I don't like games like that in stories either. Dude Livi! I so
shoulda answered 42 at school... but I was never called on unless I knew
the answer... oh well. Woulda been fun! I'm glad you like zello!! *points*
That's who requested it! And she likes it! YEAH! *huggles all her '42'
friends* I felt like such a dork for putting that in there!!! I didn't
think anyone would get it! Anyway, on to the next section!
Disclaimer: see the end... don't wanna give *any* hints to what happens. But... I don't own YGO.... *sniff*
Love is.... Realization
"Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without, and we know we cannot live within." - James Baldwin
"Jou.... Jou.... JOU!" Shizuka yelled, pounding on my door.
"Mfph," I grumbled into my pillow.
"Jou!" she yelled again, continuing with that annoying knocking. Hello? I'm trying to sleep here.
"Mrrg!" I yelled back at her from deep under my covers.
"NO! You have to get up *now.* Ryou's birthday party is today, remember? It's almost 11:30 already!" I could just see her: hands on her hips, glaring at the door with a chastising look on her face.
As I lay there thinking of a good argument, or way out, suffocation became an option... no Jou, you can't kill your sister.
I lifted my head up and glared at the door. "Fine!" Stupid party's too early. How can people get up before 1 on Saturdays? I got out of the bed and looked at my floor. Now where was that clean clothes pile?
"If you're not up in 10 minutes you can forget about breakfast!" Shizuka called through the door as I began looking for any clean clothes.
I rolled my eyes as I opened the door. "Yes mother," I said looking at her. Yep, just the pose I knew she would have.
She just rolled her eyes and walked to the kitchen. Was it something I said?
I quickly changed clothes and headed for the kitchen. I had to get out of my room; my bed was calling to me (I'd run too, if furniture was talking to me).
"Done in less than 10 minutes! What's for breakfast?" I asked upon entering the kitchen.
Shizuka looked up at me and then pointed to the plate of toast on the table. "There will be food at the party, so you don't need to eat too much."
The party. Ugh. I sat down and buttered my toast, dreading the party. Did it have to be at Kaiba's house? Stupid Kaiba. I glared at the table, absent mindedly eating.
At Shizuka's giggling, I looked up. "What?" I asked confused.
"I don't think you know what you're eating. I should have put pepper on it, I bet you wouldn't have noticed," she said, grinning at me.
I quickly checked my toast. It was okay. "I don't see what's so funny about that," I retorted.
She just smiled to herself as she pushed Ryou's card to me. "It's nothing. You need to sign the card too."
I quickly finished off the rest of my toast, and signed my name, handing it back to her.
"Okay!" she said, grabbing the gift bag and placing the card inside of it. "Let's go! We don't wanna be late."
I looked at the clock. "Sis, it's not even 11:50 yet."
She just grabbed my hand and started pulling me out the door. I willingly let her because I knew there was no fighting it. "I need to be there to decorate!" she explained as we made our way down the stairs of our apartment building.
"So who all is coming, again?" I asked, trying to remember what she had told me.
She sighed. "I've told you twice already, now."
I just grinned sheepishly and rubbed the back of my neck. "So how's about a third time? Third time *is* the charm, ya know."
"Fine, but this is the last time," she warned. Taking a deep breath, she listed everyone off. "Yuugi, Yami, Seto, Mokuba, Malik, Marik, Otogi, Honda, Mai, Bakura, us, and Ryou, of course."
"Wow, and all in one breath," I teased. At least there were going to be a good number of people around. Hopefully it would keep me from doing anything stupid. But, knowing me...
My mind continued to wander as I walked along after Shizuka. I really didn't want to go to the party, but in a way I did. Maybe I'm just masochistic like that.
I ran into Shizuka as she stopped, and my thinking did the same. "Oh! Sorry," I apologized hurriedly.
She just shook her head at me. "Who ever she is, I hope she's worth all this thinking you're doing."
My jaw dropped as I stared at her. "What?" I blurted out. What was she talking about?
"Come on, big brother. You're acting like a school boy with a new crush. So whoever she is-"
"I don't have a crush!" I interrupted her. That's insane. A crush on the person I was thinking of? Ha! Good joke.
"We're here, by the way," she informed me.
Oh right. Party, decorating. Focus Jou.
We walked up the gates outside of Kaiba's mansion, house, thing, and I looked at the video security unit. I stared at it a moment before pushing the doorbell that was on there.
A face popped up on the screen, and a guy asked me who I was and why I was there.
"Jounouchi Katsuya. Kaiba's expecting me for a party," I explained. Man this thing was so weird. Why couldn't Kaiba have a normal doorbell like everyone else?
The screen went blank and the gates began to open. I just walked through as they opened, not caring to wait. Shizuka followed behind me, looking around that the huge front area. This time, she was the one who bumped into me when I stopped at the font doors.
I reached up to knock on the door, grinning at my sister, who was blushing, when the doors opened.
"Welcome," the butler said, stepping back to let us through.
Shizuka and I exchanged a look as we stepped through the doorway, and into the massive hall.
I could hear Anzu talking to someone about where to put the streamers as we walked down the hall. Great. 30 minutes of being bossed around by Anzu. I woke up early for this, why?
The butler stopped outside of a large living room, directed us in, and left to answer the door again.
"Jou! Good," Anzu said the instant my foot hit the floor of the room. Is it too late to back out and not be forced to do manual labor? "I need you to help Honda set up the stereo," she directed, pointing to the front of the room where Honda was looking at papers, confused. Damn, shoulda backed out sooner.
Shizuka hurried off to put our gift in the growing pile, and help set up everything at the food table. Why couldn't I help there?
After a few minutes of confusion, Honda and I finally got the stereo hooked up. I turned it on to the local dance and techno station as I set off to help Yami hang up the 'Happy Birthday' banner.
"What is this?" Anzu asked, walking back into the room with Otogi, with more balloons.
"It's Paul Oakenfold," I defended, knowing she didn't like that kind of music.
"You say that like it means something," she muttered as she put in a mix CD. Oh well. At least I knew Anzu didn't listen to rap or country.
Kaiba walked in and placed some chips on the food table before turning around to everyone. "Okay, Ryou should be here in 10 minutes or so. You guys will all stay in here and stay quiet, and when I come back with Ryou, everyone yell 'surprise'" he explained like we were all five.
"Really Kaiba? I didn't know that's what you did at a surprise party," I said sarcastically.
He smirked at me. "That's why I said it, Jou. Couldn't have you confused."
I can never win with this guy. Stupid Kaiba and his stupid quick wit. Gr.
"I'm going to go wait in the foyer, so just finish up and get ready,"" he said as he left.
Everyone was just adding the finishing touches as I turned off the stereo. Finally, an excuse to not listen to Justin Timberlake(shudder).
Nothing else to do, we just stood there, waiting, until we heard Kaiba talking, heading in our direction.
"We will be in the living room, because it has the most room," he was saying.
"Okay," Ryou said as they walked on, just about to reach the door.
"Surprise!" everyone yelled and Ryou paled as he jumped back slightly.
"Happy Birthday!" came the scattered yells, and Ryou's cheeks reddened.
"You guys... you didn't have to throw me a party," he said embarrassed.
"Sure we did!" Yuugi proclaimed, pulling Ryou into the room. "It's your birthday!" He pushed Ryou over to the food table and Ryou's eyes brightened.
"Crème Puffs!" he exclaimed looking at the food. "This is why you wouldn't let me eat much, isn't it Bakura?" he asked looking at his yami.
Bakura shifted slightly as everyone looked at him. "I could have cared less," he replied gruffly, but he couldn't help but smile as Ryou hugged him.
"Let's eat!" he said smiling at everyone.
A full stomach and a good amount of gifts later, everyone just sat around talking. I made my way over to where Kaiba was sitting, still feeling guilty about the tackle.
"Hey," I said sitting next to him "You okay?"
He looked up at me. "What?"
"Well, I mean..." I waved my hand at his side, unsure of what to say.
He seemed to understand, though, because he answered, "Oh, I just bruised a little."
Glad I hadn't caused any permanent damage, I leaned back in the chair and looked around. The girls were standing around the stereo and seemed to be discussing something. That can't be good...
Anzu put in a CD, pushed play, and my worst fears were confirmed. A slow song began, some Alanis Morissette song from few years ago, and Anzu marched over to us guys, only to drag Yuugi off into the middle of the room, and start slow dancing with him. Mai followed suit, pulling a very flustered Yami from his seat.
Then Honda and Otogi started to argue over who would dance with Shizuka. She had other plans, as she pulled Ryou away from his conversation with Mokuba. Honda and Otogi didn't even notice.
I looked over at Kaiba, and before I could stop myself, which I probably should have done, I blurted out, "Dance with me."
He stared at me in shock, mouth hanging open, and in the silence my mind registered the words of the song.
"Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm.
Must be somewhat hard telling
To watch them burn me shepherd
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight."
After a nice pause, I began to feel stupid. Not wanting to back out, and actually look stupid I asked, "What's wrong Kaiba? Don't know how to dance? Afraid to look stupid?"
His mouth shut as he glared at me. "Yeah right, I'm better than you'd ever be," he retorted.
"So?" I asked daringly. "I'll even allow you to lead."
He stood up, dragging me out into the floor. He grabbed my hand and started dancing ball room style. "Like I would let it be any other way?"
There was at least 6 inches between us, and his rigid stance made me snicker.
"What's so funny?" he demanded.
"Sorry Kaiba, but you dance like you have a pole shoved up your ass," I answered grinning.
His eyes narrowed and, before I could react, he closed the space between us to where we were practically flush, and wrapped his other arm around my waist. He smirked at me, our face mere inches apart, "This relaxed enough for you?"
I paled, realizing how close we were, and just turned my head away. A new song started playing and I just followed Kaiba's lead, letting myself get lost in the song. It was better than thinking of how I actually liked this...being held by him...
"God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight.
I'd be the last to help you understand.
Are you strong enough to be my man?"
The soft music washed over me as I thought about the person in my arms. There was absolutely no denying it now. I *was* gay, and I *did* like Kaiba, but would I ever be able to admit it? Would I ever be strong enough?
"Nothing's true, and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
'Cause you can't change the way I am.
Are you strong enough to be my man?
Lie to me
I promise I'll believe.
Lie to me
But please don't leave."
This was just so perfect. Who cares if no one else would agree, or understand? I didn't even understand. But I felt it, and nothing could change that.
But could he accept me? After everything between us: the fights, the name calling.
I lost myself in the song, feeling the lyrics. Let Kaiba lie to me. I just didn't want to lose it before I had it. Not before I even had a chance...
"I have a face I cannot show,
I make the rules us as I go.
It's try and love me if you can,
Are you strong enough to be my man?"
I can't show this to you Kaiba, just like I know you can't really show the side of you that cares about people. I'll try, if you let me. I'll try my hardest, but would I be strong enough?
Instinctively, I pulled myself closer as I started thinking more, leaning my head on his shoulder as my mind raced, looking for comfort. I didn't see the room, or feel the ground. I didn't even notice when he pressed his cheek to the top of my head. All I heard was the song.
"When I've shown you that I just don't care,
When I'm throwing punches in the air,
When I'm broken down and I can't stand,
Would you be man enough to be my man?"
Would I, Kaiba? "Yes," I whispered in response to my question. I would be strong enough for you.
He pulled back from me suddenly, and I stumbled as he stopped dancing.
"What did you say?" he asked and I stared back in shock as I realized he heard what I had said.
"I said 'yes,'" I answered, uncertain of how I was going to get myself out of this one.
"Why?" he demanded, his expression flickering between nothing, and then something unreadable.
"I was thinking of the song..." I trailed off. I couldn't tell him now. Not with everyone in the room. But if I didn't would I really be strong enough?
"I was thinking of you..." I whispered, but most of what I said was covered up by Mai as she walked up beside us.
"Jounouchi, if you're going to dance with Kaiba, you're definitely going to dance with me," she stated, and promptly dragged me nearer to the stereo.
I took the lead this time, and as we made our first rotation I watched Kaiba when I could. He just stood in that same spot, staring at where I had been standing. Right before he moved out of my vision, he looked at me, but I couldn't see the expression on his face.
I quickly looked to the other side of the room, waiting for him to come into my view again. Had he heard what I whispered? Did he even care what I said? But as my gaze came back to the spot I was looking for, he was gone.
Well Kaiba, I pretty much told you how I felt. Did you feel the same? And yes or no, would you be strong enough to tell me?
"Love does not begin or end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is war; love is growing up." - James Baldwin
Disclaimer Part II: Don't own those two wonderful songs either. Sadly enough.
Oh my goodness!! This was a super long section. 12 pages handwritten, 8 pages typed up a word count of over 2,600. *passes out* Don't expect every section to be this long now.... Anyway, what do you guys think? Totally want reviews on this. Sorry again!
Disclaimer: see the end... don't wanna give *any* hints to what happens. But... I don't own YGO.... *sniff*
Love is.... Realization
"Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without, and we know we cannot live within." - James Baldwin
"Jou.... Jou.... JOU!" Shizuka yelled, pounding on my door.
"Mfph," I grumbled into my pillow.
"Jou!" she yelled again, continuing with that annoying knocking. Hello? I'm trying to sleep here.
"Mrrg!" I yelled back at her from deep under my covers.
"NO! You have to get up *now.* Ryou's birthday party is today, remember? It's almost 11:30 already!" I could just see her: hands on her hips, glaring at the door with a chastising look on her face.
As I lay there thinking of a good argument, or way out, suffocation became an option... no Jou, you can't kill your sister.
I lifted my head up and glared at the door. "Fine!" Stupid party's too early. How can people get up before 1 on Saturdays? I got out of the bed and looked at my floor. Now where was that clean clothes pile?
"If you're not up in 10 minutes you can forget about breakfast!" Shizuka called through the door as I began looking for any clean clothes.
I rolled my eyes as I opened the door. "Yes mother," I said looking at her. Yep, just the pose I knew she would have.
She just rolled her eyes and walked to the kitchen. Was it something I said?
I quickly changed clothes and headed for the kitchen. I had to get out of my room; my bed was calling to me (I'd run too, if furniture was talking to me).
"Done in less than 10 minutes! What's for breakfast?" I asked upon entering the kitchen.
Shizuka looked up at me and then pointed to the plate of toast on the table. "There will be food at the party, so you don't need to eat too much."
The party. Ugh. I sat down and buttered my toast, dreading the party. Did it have to be at Kaiba's house? Stupid Kaiba. I glared at the table, absent mindedly eating.
At Shizuka's giggling, I looked up. "What?" I asked confused.
"I don't think you know what you're eating. I should have put pepper on it, I bet you wouldn't have noticed," she said, grinning at me.
I quickly checked my toast. It was okay. "I don't see what's so funny about that," I retorted.
She just smiled to herself as she pushed Ryou's card to me. "It's nothing. You need to sign the card too."
I quickly finished off the rest of my toast, and signed my name, handing it back to her.
"Okay!" she said, grabbing the gift bag and placing the card inside of it. "Let's go! We don't wanna be late."
I looked at the clock. "Sis, it's not even 11:50 yet."
She just grabbed my hand and started pulling me out the door. I willingly let her because I knew there was no fighting it. "I need to be there to decorate!" she explained as we made our way down the stairs of our apartment building.
"So who all is coming, again?" I asked, trying to remember what she had told me.
She sighed. "I've told you twice already, now."
I just grinned sheepishly and rubbed the back of my neck. "So how's about a third time? Third time *is* the charm, ya know."
"Fine, but this is the last time," she warned. Taking a deep breath, she listed everyone off. "Yuugi, Yami, Seto, Mokuba, Malik, Marik, Otogi, Honda, Mai, Bakura, us, and Ryou, of course."
"Wow, and all in one breath," I teased. At least there were going to be a good number of people around. Hopefully it would keep me from doing anything stupid. But, knowing me...
My mind continued to wander as I walked along after Shizuka. I really didn't want to go to the party, but in a way I did. Maybe I'm just masochistic like that.
I ran into Shizuka as she stopped, and my thinking did the same. "Oh! Sorry," I apologized hurriedly.
She just shook her head at me. "Who ever she is, I hope she's worth all this thinking you're doing."
My jaw dropped as I stared at her. "What?" I blurted out. What was she talking about?
"Come on, big brother. You're acting like a school boy with a new crush. So whoever she is-"
"I don't have a crush!" I interrupted her. That's insane. A crush on the person I was thinking of? Ha! Good joke.
"We're here, by the way," she informed me.
Oh right. Party, decorating. Focus Jou.
We walked up the gates outside of Kaiba's mansion, house, thing, and I looked at the video security unit. I stared at it a moment before pushing the doorbell that was on there.
A face popped up on the screen, and a guy asked me who I was and why I was there.
"Jounouchi Katsuya. Kaiba's expecting me for a party," I explained. Man this thing was so weird. Why couldn't Kaiba have a normal doorbell like everyone else?
The screen went blank and the gates began to open. I just walked through as they opened, not caring to wait. Shizuka followed behind me, looking around that the huge front area. This time, she was the one who bumped into me when I stopped at the font doors.
I reached up to knock on the door, grinning at my sister, who was blushing, when the doors opened.
"Welcome," the butler said, stepping back to let us through.
Shizuka and I exchanged a look as we stepped through the doorway, and into the massive hall.
I could hear Anzu talking to someone about where to put the streamers as we walked down the hall. Great. 30 minutes of being bossed around by Anzu. I woke up early for this, why?
The butler stopped outside of a large living room, directed us in, and left to answer the door again.
"Jou! Good," Anzu said the instant my foot hit the floor of the room. Is it too late to back out and not be forced to do manual labor? "I need you to help Honda set up the stereo," she directed, pointing to the front of the room where Honda was looking at papers, confused. Damn, shoulda backed out sooner.
Shizuka hurried off to put our gift in the growing pile, and help set up everything at the food table. Why couldn't I help there?
After a few minutes of confusion, Honda and I finally got the stereo hooked up. I turned it on to the local dance and techno station as I set off to help Yami hang up the 'Happy Birthday' banner.
"What is this?" Anzu asked, walking back into the room with Otogi, with more balloons.
"It's Paul Oakenfold," I defended, knowing she didn't like that kind of music.
"You say that like it means something," she muttered as she put in a mix CD. Oh well. At least I knew Anzu didn't listen to rap or country.
Kaiba walked in and placed some chips on the food table before turning around to everyone. "Okay, Ryou should be here in 10 minutes or so. You guys will all stay in here and stay quiet, and when I come back with Ryou, everyone yell 'surprise'" he explained like we were all five.
"Really Kaiba? I didn't know that's what you did at a surprise party," I said sarcastically.
He smirked at me. "That's why I said it, Jou. Couldn't have you confused."
I can never win with this guy. Stupid Kaiba and his stupid quick wit. Gr.
"I'm going to go wait in the foyer, so just finish up and get ready,"" he said as he left.
Everyone was just adding the finishing touches as I turned off the stereo. Finally, an excuse to not listen to Justin Timberlake(shudder).
Nothing else to do, we just stood there, waiting, until we heard Kaiba talking, heading in our direction.
"We will be in the living room, because it has the most room," he was saying.
"Okay," Ryou said as they walked on, just about to reach the door.
"Surprise!" everyone yelled and Ryou paled as he jumped back slightly.
"Happy Birthday!" came the scattered yells, and Ryou's cheeks reddened.
"You guys... you didn't have to throw me a party," he said embarrassed.
"Sure we did!" Yuugi proclaimed, pulling Ryou into the room. "It's your birthday!" He pushed Ryou over to the food table and Ryou's eyes brightened.
"Crème Puffs!" he exclaimed looking at the food. "This is why you wouldn't let me eat much, isn't it Bakura?" he asked looking at his yami.
Bakura shifted slightly as everyone looked at him. "I could have cared less," he replied gruffly, but he couldn't help but smile as Ryou hugged him.
"Let's eat!" he said smiling at everyone.
A full stomach and a good amount of gifts later, everyone just sat around talking. I made my way over to where Kaiba was sitting, still feeling guilty about the tackle.
"Hey," I said sitting next to him "You okay?"
He looked up at me. "What?"
"Well, I mean..." I waved my hand at his side, unsure of what to say.
He seemed to understand, though, because he answered, "Oh, I just bruised a little."
Glad I hadn't caused any permanent damage, I leaned back in the chair and looked around. The girls were standing around the stereo and seemed to be discussing something. That can't be good...
Anzu put in a CD, pushed play, and my worst fears were confirmed. A slow song began, some Alanis Morissette song from few years ago, and Anzu marched over to us guys, only to drag Yuugi off into the middle of the room, and start slow dancing with him. Mai followed suit, pulling a very flustered Yami from his seat.
Then Honda and Otogi started to argue over who would dance with Shizuka. She had other plans, as she pulled Ryou away from his conversation with Mokuba. Honda and Otogi didn't even notice.
I looked over at Kaiba, and before I could stop myself, which I probably should have done, I blurted out, "Dance with me."
He stared at me in shock, mouth hanging open, and in the silence my mind registered the words of the song.
"Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm.
Must be somewhat hard telling
To watch them burn me shepherd
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight."
After a nice pause, I began to feel stupid. Not wanting to back out, and actually look stupid I asked, "What's wrong Kaiba? Don't know how to dance? Afraid to look stupid?"
His mouth shut as he glared at me. "Yeah right, I'm better than you'd ever be," he retorted.
"So?" I asked daringly. "I'll even allow you to lead."
He stood up, dragging me out into the floor. He grabbed my hand and started dancing ball room style. "Like I would let it be any other way?"
There was at least 6 inches between us, and his rigid stance made me snicker.
"What's so funny?" he demanded.
"Sorry Kaiba, but you dance like you have a pole shoved up your ass," I answered grinning.
His eyes narrowed and, before I could react, he closed the space between us to where we were practically flush, and wrapped his other arm around my waist. He smirked at me, our face mere inches apart, "This relaxed enough for you?"
I paled, realizing how close we were, and just turned my head away. A new song started playing and I just followed Kaiba's lead, letting myself get lost in the song. It was better than thinking of how I actually liked this...being held by him...
"God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight.
I'd be the last to help you understand.
Are you strong enough to be my man?"
The soft music washed over me as I thought about the person in my arms. There was absolutely no denying it now. I *was* gay, and I *did* like Kaiba, but would I ever be able to admit it? Would I ever be strong enough?
"Nothing's true, and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
'Cause you can't change the way I am.
Are you strong enough to be my man?
Lie to me
I promise I'll believe.
Lie to me
But please don't leave."
This was just so perfect. Who cares if no one else would agree, or understand? I didn't even understand. But I felt it, and nothing could change that.
But could he accept me? After everything between us: the fights, the name calling.
I lost myself in the song, feeling the lyrics. Let Kaiba lie to me. I just didn't want to lose it before I had it. Not before I even had a chance...
"I have a face I cannot show,
I make the rules us as I go.
It's try and love me if you can,
Are you strong enough to be my man?"
I can't show this to you Kaiba, just like I know you can't really show the side of you that cares about people. I'll try, if you let me. I'll try my hardest, but would I be strong enough?
Instinctively, I pulled myself closer as I started thinking more, leaning my head on his shoulder as my mind raced, looking for comfort. I didn't see the room, or feel the ground. I didn't even notice when he pressed his cheek to the top of my head. All I heard was the song.
"When I've shown you that I just don't care,
When I'm throwing punches in the air,
When I'm broken down and I can't stand,
Would you be man enough to be my man?"
Would I, Kaiba? "Yes," I whispered in response to my question. I would be strong enough for you.
He pulled back from me suddenly, and I stumbled as he stopped dancing.
"What did you say?" he asked and I stared back in shock as I realized he heard what I had said.
"I said 'yes,'" I answered, uncertain of how I was going to get myself out of this one.
"Why?" he demanded, his expression flickering between nothing, and then something unreadable.
"I was thinking of the song..." I trailed off. I couldn't tell him now. Not with everyone in the room. But if I didn't would I really be strong enough?
"I was thinking of you..." I whispered, but most of what I said was covered up by Mai as she walked up beside us.
"Jounouchi, if you're going to dance with Kaiba, you're definitely going to dance with me," she stated, and promptly dragged me nearer to the stereo.
I took the lead this time, and as we made our first rotation I watched Kaiba when I could. He just stood in that same spot, staring at where I had been standing. Right before he moved out of my vision, he looked at me, but I couldn't see the expression on his face.
I quickly looked to the other side of the room, waiting for him to come into my view again. Had he heard what I whispered? Did he even care what I said? But as my gaze came back to the spot I was looking for, he was gone.
Well Kaiba, I pretty much told you how I felt. Did you feel the same? And yes or no, would you be strong enough to tell me?
"Love does not begin or end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is war; love is growing up." - James Baldwin
Disclaimer Part II: Don't own those two wonderful songs either. Sadly enough.
Oh my goodness!! This was a super long section. 12 pages handwritten, 8 pages typed up a word count of over 2,600. *passes out* Don't expect every section to be this long now.... Anyway, what do you guys think? Totally want reviews on this. Sorry again!