"I love you."
Kayla pulled back from Sirius in shock. 'Did he just say that he loved me?' she wondered as she stared at him. "Sirius?"
"I love you, Kayla." He repeated.
"No, you can't!" she cried as she wrenched herself from his grasp.
"Why can't I?" he demanded with a furious look on his face.
"Sirius, please, don't rush this. Please?" Kayla whispered with a cracking voice.
"How do you think that I'm rushing this? I've loved you since we were able to talk! This isn't rushing things Kayla, this is going slow!" Sirius erupted impatiently as he searched Kayla's face. "Why do you push me away," he asked in a softer voice.
"I don't know," Kayla lied.
"Yes, you do." He observed with narrowed eyes. "Tell me why? Please?" he asked as he stepped closer to Kayla and caressed her silken cheek that looked pale in the moonlight that shone through the battered windows.
"I-I have a past with bad sexual acts. And – and I've learned to be . . . wary of men." She admitted, not telling him the whole truth as she pulled her cheek away from his soft touches. The soft, achingly sweet touch was too much for her to handle at the moment.
"What do you mean?" he asked, his voice starting to shake. He had a feeling that something bad happened to her in the past concerning guys, and he was scared to find out what exactly it was.
"I'm weak. I let them have me without a fight," she whispered softly as tears formed in her eyes as she imagined that cold, dark night in the alley, and the harsh, lifeless look in the guys eyes as he took her innocence.
"Are-are you saying that you were . . . raped?" he stuttered hoarsely.
Kayla nodded her agreement, and Sirius stared at her with wide uncomprehending eyes.
Sirius quietly walked up to her and pulled her into a sweet embrace. "I'm so sorry." He whispered, for once acting like he was serious.
"Don't you dare blame this on yourself Sirius Alexandros Black! You didn't even know!" Kayla demanded, a fire coming to her eyes that could have melted the Antarctic.
"But-but you're so tough!" he ended for the use of a better word.
Kayla chuckled hollowly and said, "Everybody has a weakness."
Sirius chuckled in response, and just held her closer. Sometimes it amazed him how much she could read his mind. It got a little creepy at times, but the rest of the time, it came in handy. "I love you," he whispered in her ear for the third time that night.
Sirius realized that he said something wrong as Kayla's body turned ridged and pulled away from him.
"I-I-I have to go," she said quickly, and before Sirius could even scream out 'wait', she was gone.
Sirius knew that there was no use going after her, because she melded into the shadows perfectly, he knew that he wouldn't be able to find her. Not unless she wanted to be found.
He sighed and sat down in one of the chairs in the room, and laid his head on the desktop, naming all the different ways that he was an idiot.
Yes, for once, Sirius Black was admitting to himself that he was an idiot.
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Kayla ran out of the room, and down the hallway. It seemed like it took her forever to get to the Ravenclaw common room. But that might have been because she was too busy thinking.
'Sirius Black loves me?' her mind screamed in astonishment. 'How could he like me? I'm plain and boring. He has so many other girls out there for him, girls that would be happy to give him the world, bow at his every command. Who would be able to come to him pure, and without a scarred past like me. So, why me?'
Kayla laid down on her bed, and thought about all that had happened that night. She had just told a guy that she had been raped. And not just any guy, but the only guy that she has ever loved. She told Sirius Black that she was raped. How could she do that?! Now he would tell James, and then she'd be flocked by the two, and would never get any peace!
"What have I done?" Kayla groaned into her pillow.
Kayla stayed up most of the night, trying to think of ways to escape Sirius Black, but nothing came to mind, and right before she fell asleep, she realized that she didn't want to escape from Sirius, she wanted to be near him for the rest of her life.
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Authors Note:
I'm sorry that it took me so long to get this chapter out. But I'm going to try to write up another chapter for this story, and Forever Yours today so that I don't have to worry about getting chapters out while I have so much homework.
Well, I hope that you enjoyed reading this chapter! Oh, and someone pointed out to me the other day that I was missing chapter seven. Well, I replaced it. Which is why chapter 10 was the same. If you want, read chapter 7 . . . it makes the story seem a little less confusing. Sorry about that! I didn't even notice that until she pointed it out to me! LoL . . . well, hope to hear from you all in a review! Hint hint. Hehe. Byes
Mistress del Mare
(Oh! and Princess Ice Pixie (I think that I have that right . . . if not, sorry! I don't have your Pen name handy at the moment.) But my Pen name is Italian for Mistress of the Sea. So next time you want to yell at me for delaying chapters, you know what it means.)