Chapter 18
Kayla groaned as she sprawled out on her bed a few weeks later. It was six a.m., and her legs hurt, her arms hurt, and her eyes were heavier than a giant! Kayla made a fetal attempt to lever herself onto her arms, but failed miserably. Lily had planned a strenuous training program for them all, and that program just so happened to include an hour and a half of running. From four-thirty to six a.m.!
"My body is aching," Kayla moaned as Lily walked out from the shower, not even wincing from the demanding workout her body had gone through not even a half an hour earlier. "How do you do it?" Kayla asked as she watched Lily pull her woolen gray sweater over her head.
"I don't really know," Lily admitted with a shrug as she picked up the hairbrush on her nightstand and began to comb her silky red hair into a high ponytail. "But it helps me get my mind off other things," she declared in a voice that told Kayla who running got her mind off of. James.
Kayla sighed and slowly – and painfully – got off of her nice warm, comfortably soft bed and shuffled her way towards the bathroom, only stopping to bend down – albeit slowly, and done with a lot of wincing, to pick up her pile of clothes that she was going to wear today.
'She has got to find another way to stop thinking about him!' Kayla's mind screamed as she stripped and stepped into the shower. She might be on the Ravenclaw Quidditch team, but those practices were nothing compared to what Lily was putting the six of them through right now. And that was saying something, seeing as the whole team was put on a strict exercise program to keep their arms in good shape.
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Kayla snuck out of the girls' dorm room silently, and with a heavy heart. Lily was in her bed crying herself to sleep again, and Kayla could swear that she could feel the pain. And there was nothing that Lily would let them do for her. And Kayla didn't honestly know if there was anything thing that they could do for her.
James had been her everything, and he had walked away on her. But, she could also see why he did it. Sometimes it honestly seemed like Lily tried to push everyone way, it was as if she was scared to lose them. Which, Kayla knew was true. Lily had admitted to her some time ago that her greatest fear was losing everyone that she cared for.
'And I still haven't told her what my greatest fear is,' Kayla thought as she made her way through the common room. 'But what would she think of me if she knew that my greatest fear was treating my own children like my parents treated me?'
"Hey, beautiful," Sirius whispered into the night air as Kayla stepped into the hallway. And she did look beautiful tonight, and she was only wearing a pair of dark blue jeans and a tight black scoop neck sweater. Simplicity fitted her better than glamour.
"Hi," Kayla smiled as she took in his gray turtleneck sweater along with the Hogwarts uniform pants he was wearing. 'Why in the world is he still in uniform?' Kayla wondered as he took her hand in his own and led her down the hall aimlessly. Or, at least that's what she thought.
Sirius was terrified about what was going to go on in the next few minutes. He was finally going to do it. No one stopped them this time. But now that one of his plans actually worked, he was buzzing with nervous cells. 'What if we end up like Lily and James?' he kept asking himself. He didn't think that he could handle that. He knew that he couldn't live his life without Kayla in it. He needed her.
Kayla soon realized that they were headed down a deserted corridor and looked at Sirius questioningly. 'What is this guy up to now?' Kayla wondered fleetingly. She remembered exploring this corridor once. Nothing was down here except for an empty room full of cobwebs and dust.
When Sirius stopped in front of a bare wall, Kayla rolled her eyes. 'I knew it,' Kayla thought, turning around to walk back in the direction they came from. 'He has gotten himself lost!'
All of a sudden though, Kayla felt herself being propelled forward, into the wall that Sirius had been staring at. 'Okay,' she grudgingly admitted to herself. 'Maybe he didn't lose his way.'
The wall closed behind her, and Kayla watched as the stones slid back into place. It was much like the entranceway to Diagon Ally. From what she could see of the room – which at the moment was a very lovely view of the door, it looked as if someone had cleaned the place up a little bit.
Sirius found that it was hard to breathe as he took Kayla by the shoulders and faced her in the direction in the rest of the room, causing her to gasp in surprise.
"Do you like it?" he asked timidly. What was he going to do if she didn't like it? Was his plan going to work? What would he do if she said 'no'? All these questions and more suddenly seemed to fly around inside his head.
Kayla looked around the room in surprise. This was definitely not the room that she remembered. While the one she remembered was dusty and smelly, this room was glimmering. And there was furniture in it too!
There was a long white couch, along with a four-poster bed with white beddings, and a mountain of pillows in varying sizes and shapes, that happened to reside on the other side of the room.
Long-steamed roses were placed around the room artistically, and on the table, in front of the couch; lay a small dinner for two.
The fire was roaring cheerfully in the fireplace, which was lined up with the table, and Kayla could swear on everything that she was that she could hear the muggle composer Chopin in the background.
Kayla looked from the room to Sirius, only to see his nervous face. 'He did this?' she wondered in shock. Kayla nodded her head, and Sirius gave an audible sigh of relief.
"What is this all about Sirius?" Kayla questioned.
Sirius didn't say anything though, he simply lead her to the couch and sat down on the coffee table as she settled down on the soft cushions.
Kayla was confused, and worried. Really worried. 'What is he going to tell me?' she wondered frantically. 'Please don't have him break up with me God. Please. I need him so much,' she begged as she steeled herself for the worse.
"Kayla," Sirius begun in a shaky voice. "I love you. I don't know when it started, and I don't know why I ended up falling in love with the one person who inflicted more pain on me than a bludger could, but I love you. It's as if I found my center when I'm around you. Like everything is right in life when you're by my side. As if nothing can ever go wrong when you're in the same room as me." He managed, and hoped fervently that he wasn't screwing this up. Sirius took the chance and looked up into Kayla's eyes.
What he saw there shocked him though. It was pain that resided in her eyes. Pain, and sorrow. 'What is she sad about?' he wondered, his mind coming up with the worst possible situation, which would be her refusing him, and breaking up with him.
"Kayla, love?" he asked her as he genteelly cupped her cheek in his hand so that she couldn't look away from his eyes when he asked her his next question. "What's wrong?" he asked.
"What's wrong?" Kayla yelled as she threw off his hand and jumped off the couch so fast that he couldn't even register what she was doing until she was four feet away from him. "Do you think that I don't know what this is about Sirius Black?" You think that I don't know hwy you brought me here? Well, I do!" she screamed at the top of her lungs, and Sirius found himself eternally grateful that he had put a silencing spell on the room, else the whole castle would know what was going on at this precise moment.
Sirius panicked as her words began to sink in. 'She doesn't want me,' he thought sorrowfully, trying to keep the tears from forming in his eyes. 'We're going through the same thing that James and Lily are.'
"Kayla –" Sirius started, but stopped dead as he heard the next words that fell from her mouth.
"I'm sorry if I'm not good enough for you Sirius. I'm sorry that you find me wanting, because I love you," Kayla nearly sobbed. This was hurting more than she could ever imagine. "More than anyone in this world could love you. And if you don't want me, just please, save me the trouble and hurt, and tell me now," she begged in a small voice. She didn't know how much more of this she could take before she broke down and cried. It felt as if someone had just tore her heart out of her chest layer by layer. Piece by piece.
Sirius was shocked to the core. "Not want you? Hell, I was asking you to marry me, and you say that I don't want you?" Sirius demanded, thinking that he was talking to himself. But Kayla heard the words.
"Y-you were asking me to marry you?" she asked, astonished.
Sirius got up and walked the four feet between their bodies. He stopped in front of her, and looked her in her eyes before he silently went down on one knee in front of her, all the while keeping his eye contact with her.
Kayla's hand started to tremble as he took a box out of his pant pocket and opened the lid.
'God she's beautiful,' he thought as he gazed into her gray eyes lovingly. Here was everything that he needed in his life. She was what made his life worth living.
Sirius took a deep breath and exhaled. "Kayla Cameron, I love you, and I want you forever more in my life. There will never be another woman for me. So, I'm begging you in every way that I know how, will you marry me?"
Sirius waited with baited breath, watching Kayla as she gazed down at him, then watched as the smile slowly spread over her features. First, her eyes warmed up, and misted over, then her lips began to curve.
Kayla was nearly bursting with happiness as she crouched in front of the man she loved. "Yes!" she cried, tears of happiness flowing down her cheeks in a steady rhythm, but she didn't mind. As long as she had her man near her, she didn't care about crying.
"Really?" Sirius asked, scared that he had heard her wrong.
"Really." Kayla echoed, as her smile grew wider.
Sirius took the diamond and ruby ring that he had bought earlier that summer out of its' box, and slipped it slowly onto her ring finger. It was a prefect fit.
Kayla held up her hand in front of her face, and examined the ring. It was made of four stones, two diamonds, and two rubies, and the band was done in a white gold. And, as Kayla was examining the ring, she felt something warm flowing through her veins, from the band around the ring, all the way to her toes, and figured that it was happiness. "It's beautiful," Kayla managed to say through her tears, and hugged Sirius tightly.
"I'm glad that you like it, baby," he whispered into her hair as he nuzzled her neck. Sirius brought his head back, and tipped Kayla's up to brush a soft kiss across her lips.
Kayla smiled against his lips, and opened her mouth as she felt his tongue flick across the folds of her lips.
Sirius slipped his tongue past her lips, and brushed against her own tongue, and a white, hot lance of lust and love shot through him, and he pulled back from the kiss, smiling at Kayla's groan of displeasure.
"Kay, honey," Sirius whispered hoarsely. "I need you baby, please. Don't send me away. Will you let me have you tonight?"
Kayla shocked the hell out of Sirius by nodding her head. He had been trying to make love to her for God knows how long, and it was a bit of shock to know that suddenly, he could. Sirius smiled as he felt Kayla's arms wrap around his neck. He was going to make this night good for her.
Sirius didn't waste any time in asking her if she was sure. If Kayla said yes, she was sure. He scooped her up from her crouching position, walked over to the bed, and laid her carefully on the white sheets.
"I'm going to make this seem as if it was your first night. I promise you," Sirius vowed to her in a harsh whisper.
Kayla smiled and continued to gaze into the brown depths of Sirius's eyes as he lowered his head and set his lips on hers again. She wanted him in everyway to night. Mind, body, and soul. And she trusted him, and knew that he would never hurt her.
Kayla groaned in frustration as Sirius pulled his tongue back into his mouth. He had a way of kissing her so softly that the need to breathe didn't even register in Kayla's mind. And the rest of the world just seemed to disappear.
"Patience," Sirius murmured as he trailed soft butterfly kisses down her neck. Her skin there tasted like peaches, and it was softer than silk to touch. And when he laved her pulse point, Kayla shivered, causing Sirius to grin inwardly. He wanted her a withering mass of pleasured woman under him, and he was going to make her so.
Kayla had to touch him. With that thought, both of her hands fell from his neck, and slid under the hem of his sweater. And when she felt the hard muscle of his back, she could swear that she felt every drop of water vaporize inside her mouth. It was all hard rock back there. And the front of him? It was bad enough seeing the front without fainting. His body had been made to be worshiped by women. Golden skin was drawn tight across rippling abs and pecs.
Sirius's hands molded her sides, then started to pull the sweater away from the flesh that he so wanted to see. He pulled back as the sweater cleared her head, and threw it over his shoulder, and looked down at Kayla's body, and sucked in a deep breath. She was captivating. Spellbinding. Her skin was lightly dusted tan, and her stomach had a soft six-pack, her bellybutton ring was glinting in the firelight, and the only thing that marked her silky skin was her tattoos.
Sirius traced the tattoo around her bellybutton in wonder. He couldn't believe that he was actually doing this. Touching Kayla. Something that he had wanted to do for what seems like years.
Kayla watched Sirius silently as his gaze roamed her body. 'What is he thinking?' she wondered as she felt his fingertips lightly trace the dragon around her bellybutton.
Just then, he looked up and caught her eyes. With a smile, his hands traveled a little lower until they rested upon the first button of her jeans. Watching her eyes to see if she was in any discomfort, Sirius flicked the buttons open, one by one before reaching down her legs and pulling her shoes and socks off. His hands traveled up her body with unhurried movements, and his thumbs hooked in the waist band as soon as his hands got back up to her hips.
Kayla nodded her head slightly; making it clear to Sirius that she wanted this. Sirius gave a small smile, and drew her pants down her long, lean, tan legs slowly, his fingertips brushing against the skin, causing Kayla to shiver.
"God but you're beautiful," Sirius whispered as he sat back on his haunches and simply gazed at her body.
Kayla smiled and sat up. she wanted to see all of him now.
Sirius gaped at Kayla as she started to pull his sweater over his head. He hadn't expected her to take apart of their lovemaking like this. When Sirius felt Kayla's fingernails lightly trace the cross on his right arm, he gave a small shiver, and backed away from Kayla, getting off the bed totally. Not noticing Kayla's hurt look, Sirius kicked off his shoes and socks quickly, and unbuttoned his pants and let them fall from his body.
Kayla sucked in a deep breath. There he was, standing in front of her only in a pair of gray boxers, that looked a little tight on him. she had a prefect view of his abs, his chest – which, she thought was absolutely mesmerizing, seeing as she had a hard time looking away from it. And then, there was his arms; Sure, she had seen his arms a million times before, but she couldn't help it. She had a thing for his arms! They're just so . . . big, and hard, and they felt so good around her body, holding her to him.
Sirius walked up to the bed until his knees touched the side, then laid a finger on Kayla's chest, and traced the lines of her bra. As his fingers swept across the swell of her breasts, he closed his eyes. He didn't know how long he'd be able to hold himself in check. He'd waited for this for too long, and his body couldn't handle it anymore.
"Kay," Sirius told her gruffly as he opened his eyes and gazed into her gray ones. "I'm not sure how long I can hold myself at bay."
Kayla nodded, knowing what he meant, and reached behind her, and deftly flicked her bra open, and lowered it down her arms, bearing herself to him.
Sirius groaned and fell to his knees, making his head level with her wonderful, luscious breasts. They were so prefect. They weren't big, nor were they small, and the nipples were standing on end, begging for his mouth. Sirius swallowed hard and watched as Kayla's chest started to rise and fall in a faster rhythm.
Kayla watched with passion filled eyes as Sirius bent his head and brushed his lips across a hard, stiff nipple, and gasped. Good lord! Her mind screamed.
Sirius took her in his mouth, and bit on her nipple lightly, causing Kayla's hands to come up to his head and hold him to her. One of his hands then worked its' way up her body, trailing slowly upon the skin, to cup on of her breasts, while the other one dropped to the waistline of her panties.
Kayla groaned as his hands paused, unsure if he should continue or not, and nearly begged him to hurry. She had never felt like this, and something was tightening in her stomach, and she didn't know what it was, all she knew was that with everything he did, Sirius was making it grow tighter.
Sirius hooked his fingers around the elastic band, and pushed her panties down her legs, leaving her to kick them the rest of the way off, and stood up. he didn't want to touch her there right now. He was scared that that would scare her, seeing as he didn't think that she had ever even had an orgasm before.
Sirius stripped his boxers away, and joined Kayla on the bed, moving her to the center of it.
"Are you sure?" he asked, looking into her smoky gray eyes.
"Yes!" she smiled.
Sirius smiled back at her, and settled himself over her entrance. "Tell me if I hurt you," he instructed, and pushed his shaft inside of her body as slowly as he could manage without losing his sanity. She was so hot and wet, and tight around him, and that alone was nearly driving him insane.
Kayla groaned at the feel of Sirius inside of her, buried in her to the hilt. She had thought that she would have tensed up and would have had bad memories flash through her head if she ever had sex again, but it didn't happen. All she could think about was the feeling. The feeling of having a man inside her body.
Sirius nearly died in rapture as Kayla shifted her hips to get him to move. He had thought that she would take some time to get use to the feeling, but it looked like he was wrong, seeing as she was shifting her hips eagerly, trying to get some friction.
Sirius didn't need to be told twice, and thrusted into Kayla's body before withdrawing, causing Kayla to clench around him and gasp. Sirius groaned and dropped his forehead onto hers before setting a rhythm.
It wasn't long until Kayla began to feel the tightening in her belly grow to be too much to handle. Instinctively, she gave into it, and saw stars shatter inside her head. She screamed Sirius's name as the pleasure flew through her veins.
Sirius stopped and simply gazed at her. She looked so . . . wanton with her head thrown back, her neck arched as if it was an offering, her mouth parted, and her hair in disarray around her. Then, with a barely contained groan, Sirius plunged into her one last time before reaching his own climax.
What seemed like hours later – which it probably was, Sirius rolled off of Kayla and drew her to his side as he pulled the blankets over their now cooled bodies.
"Goodnight, baby," he whispered into her hair.
"Mmmumph," Kayla mumbled as she curled into Sirius's body, one hand thrown across his abs, the other one fisted between their bodies, and her head resting on his heart.
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Authors Note:
So, what do you think? I gave you a little bit of a different insight on this night than I did in Entranced. I hope that you all like!
Well, I do have some news for you guys that you probably are not going to like.
I'm only going to go to the end of seventh year on this fic. But, I will post an couple of epilogues. One will be the wedding, so don't worry, the major things from Forever Yours will be in here, and you will be able to read about them in a deeper depth.
Well, review!
Mistress del Mare